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Thursday, June 11, 2009



Greetings To All My Wonderful Friends!

Today, at last, I was able to log on Spark. I sent an email to all my friends and then I came to my page.

What did I find?



Oh, so much love and support, encouragement and friendship, even though I've been MIA for so very long.

I cannot find the words to express how thankful I am for each of you who remembered not to forget me. You are all angels, and I love you and thank you for all the kindness you've gone out of your way to give me.

I am very tired now and must rest, but I am blessed by your kind regard. I will be back soon now that I can get online, I promise you that! Meanwhile for my friends who also like my poetry, here is one just for you...

"I Will Remember You"
By Pami Jane Tennant



When life has taken me as far as I may go
And my mind and steps in tandem slow...
For all the things you've said to get me through
I will not forget, I will remember you!

When I am standing in God's presence
Quivering from His glory, His Essence!
Even then, with my friendship true...
I will not forget, I will remember you!

The words you've said, so much love shown
Poetry blazed in bright meaning, heart grown
That transported me to the sky and I flew
My friend, I will not forget, I will remember you!

So many times you cannot even know
How your vision helped me see, helped me grow
And when I let life go, in my ending debut
I will never forget, I will remember you!

When Jesus reaches out to embrace me
I will shout in joy and keep your memory
He will inquire no doubt, why and who?
And I will say,"Lord, each one helped bring me to You!"

My friend I will remember you!


  
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TRACYZABELLE 6/16/2009 5:48AM

    You get what you give right?? Good to see you back!

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46A39P 6/12/2009 7:26AM

    Dear PamiJane,

I'm so thrilled you are back, and grateful for whenever you can manage. Your very presence has been sorely missed.

I loved your poem ~ so eloquent and beautiful, sentiments from an Angel!

Love,

Jean


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SKINNYNANNY 6/12/2009 7:01AM

    Pamijane
love your poem as always. of course you were missed, and we are so glad to have you back on whatever terms you can manage. know that you are not, and never have been alone or forgotten. we are here for you. prayers and love surround you.
remember one day at a time, it is all we are assured of. let us know what we can do for you!
blessings
skinnynanny

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SKINNYNANNY 6/12/2009 7:01AM

    Pamijane
love your poem as always. of course you were missed, and we are so glad to have you back on whatever terms you can manage. know that you are not, and never have been alone or forgotten. we are here for you. prayers and love surround you.
remember one day at a time, it is all we are assured of. let us know what we can do for you!
blessings
skinnynanny

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SHELLPRO 6/12/2009 1:38AM

    Glad U could get on Sparks & good to hear from U too. Many of us are facing struggles with Health & Finances & I pray that you both stay the course. God didn't say there wouldn't be hard times, he promised to see us throught them. emoticon

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JIBBIE49 6/11/2009 10:59PM

    Well, Hello Darling, as Conway Twitty use to say, Nice to see you, It's been a long time.
(You probably don't even remember that song!) BUT, I'm sure glad to see you are doing fine. I'm hanging in there. Finally got my Christmas fat off and am back down to where I had been as a Sparker and I'm trying to get some more off. Just have to keep going.

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SMILEY3826 6/11/2009 9:57PM

    wonderful to hear from you! i'll be glad when you are back here to stay.

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COLEMANSR 6/11/2009 6:35PM

    Thaank you for your letter and this beautiful writing.
I'm so glad you're back with us, If just for a little while. emoticon

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CWAITES 6/11/2009 6:23PM

    So glad to hear from you! I will be very glad when you are back to stay!

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Sweet Serenity, Come Live In Me

Wednesday, January 14, 2009


Sweet Serenity, come live within me
I implore with gentle invitation.
Sweep away all concerns and enmity
Infuse me with deep appreciation!
Fill me with Heaven's own dear confidence
In the choices I choose to make this day!
Lord grace me with Your embrace and presence
Make my heart strong and true as is Your way.
Lend me the wisdom to know what to do.
Give me the will to see it through I pray,
With energy needed to continue
In my quest for a wealth of health today!

Rejoicing in this new day of Supreme grace
Wrapped in His embrace I've found my own place.

Each new day is balanced with both pro's and con's, light and dark, high's and low's. I've come to understand that if there are no challenges, no struggles to sharpen my serenity sword on, then I fall into either apathy or complacence and neither of those states are good for me. I've been fighting a strange sleep disorder in which I find it hard to stay awake for long periods of time. Whether that is a condition of my constant low level depression from being bipolar and over my physical and financial deficit, I don't know, or if it's just a part. I felt myself starting to spiral down into a deep depression and so I immediately said the Serenity prayer and then asked God to help me fill up with His joy. He answered immediately and I am pleased to pieces that I took the reins of control and instead of giving in to the darkness, I made way for the light.

So far today I've won a major battle.
Today I've eaten a banana with water.
Today I've eaten some healthy lentil vegetable soup.
Today I've done some stretching exercises.
Today I'm going to the fitness center to do my pool walking.
Today is a GOOD day because I chose to make it so.

With God and SparkPeople.com, I can't go wrong as long as I choose not to!

Love and all blessings, Pami emoticon

  
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46A39P 2/28/2009 6:02AM

    I love your writing and the Serenity Prayer. Hugs, Jean

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TRACYZABELLE 1/15/2009 2:48PM

    Pami,
I hope each new day is better than the one before!
TracyZ

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ANGELBELIEVER 1/15/2009 1:04AM

    Thank you for a wonderful blog . I need to keep remembering the Serenity Prayer because it does work. I am glad to see that it helped you. I hope you can get your sleepiness under control. That happened to me when I was on medication for pain as it was a muscle relaxant. I had to leave a job because of it or I would have been fired.

I love reading your blogs and have subscribed to them. We are friends, I know that! emoticon

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JIBBIE49 1/15/2009 12:03AM

    I spent about two hours going through my SparkFriends and I'm so disappointed to see how many of them have disappeared over the past year. emoticon They need this! I'm sure glad I have you!!! emoticon

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COLEMANSR 1/14/2009 8:24PM

    Today is a GOOD day because I chose to make it so. Thank you. I needed this blog today.


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CWAITES 1/14/2009 8:08PM

    Sounds like you are doing very well with your program! Keep up the good work!
Cheri

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SWEETSPCL 1/14/2009 4:58PM

    Thank you for sharing your prayers today. I truly was b lessed by reading your page.

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Choosing To Make the RIGHT Choice :)

Monday, January 12, 2009



A Simile Of Me and Life in Metaphor
©By Pamela Jane Tennant

(An Iambic Pentameter Shakespearean Sonnet)


I'm like the zephyr on a new spring day
flowing through life in gentle joy and peace,
whilst being blessed by those who come my way
stilling for a while in the storms' caprice.
Tornadic winds funnel through, to destroy
But my Maker hides me in His Refuge!
So I am snuggled safely, from it's ploy
Unharmed by the debris of its deluge.
Behind darkened clouds, shines golden the sun
Ever there to dry, warm, and give it's light--
Reminder of a greater type of "Son",
In Whom all can shelter from each storm's fright.

I am like the zephyr on a new Spring day
Breezing through this life's intricate ballet.

(May all be blessed by the music of the
winds of life and the joy of it's dance...)

Hello :) My name is Pami and I'm a food addict and emotional eater.

I wrote this poem during a time of great stress and struggle. At my lowest ebb the Lord put these thoughts in my heat and they filtered down to my heart, then absorbed by and forever written into my spirit. We can choose to be a victim or we can choose to be an overcomer. The secret to life is the power to choose and to know that you are in control of your own life and decisions. No, it doesn't come easy, but the fight makes you strong, which is good, because the battles never get any easier. I choose every day to be an overcomer. I don't worry about tomorrow. I just do everything I can to make TODAY count, and to do everything just the way I'm supposed to and just the way I've pledged to myself to. I don't say "Oh well, if I slip up, I can make it up tomorrow." Because there may not be a tomorrow. I don't want to give myself a cushion to fall back on, because in my case, the cushion is very comfortable and I may end up staying on it.

Today I choose to get up with a prayer and smile in my heart.
Today I choose to eat a healthy breakfast.
Today I choose to stretch all my muscles.
Today I choose to walk at least 30 minutes.
Today I choose to exercise each portion of my body.
Today I choose to have a healthy lunch.
Today I choose to not eat junk or fast, fried or fatty food.
Today I choose to have five helpings of fruit and five helpings of veggies.
Today I choose to drink 104 ounces of water.
Today I choose to be true to my commitments and pledges.
Today I choose right living!



Soar
©By Pamela Jane Tennant


You can soar to new heights
Make your dreams reality
Focus not on the dark past
But the now, and future to be.

Kick all dogs to the curb
Yapping, biting mongrels all
Toss away all heavy baggage
Listen to Hope's yearning call.

Feast not on wretched remains,
Or sour dregs from bitter wine--
Only the fresh fruit of God's grace
Abundant on Heaven's sweet Vine.

Let not pain or disappointment
Bog you down in stagnant waters
For even in this world's chaos
We are yet His son's and daughters!

So spread your arms and soar
Freely 'neath His covering wings--
With God all things are possible
In the deliverance His love brings.


Addictions and Benedictions

By Pamela Jane Tennant

09/04/08



I want to smoke

to inhale the seductive poisons.

Though it makes me choke

wheeze and gasp for air--

I want to smoke.



But. I want to live more

to breathe in clean air

when I walk out my door--

So I don't, I want to breathe.

Yes, I want to live more.



Everything's hard

it used to all be so easy.

I can't walk a yard--

without crippling pain -- yes

everything's hard.



So It takes all day

to do just one or two things

and fatigue has its way--

I do what I can, even if...

it takes me all day.



Now, nothing worthwhile

ever comes to us effortlessly--

That's not God's style.

Enduring makes us strong,

all trials worthwhile.



It is a fight --

A choice to be made,

wrong or right;

everyday to be master or slave

It is a God fight!



Because of Him...



I won't give in to addiction

and I won't give into the pain.

I will not give in to dereliction

of flesh's affliction over my will

I won't give in to addiction--



Because of Jesus...



I am master of my body

God is Master of heart and soul

I won't allow my choices to steal His glory

His love is the only key

Unlocking the chains of slavery.



I seek out God in all my choices

His wisdom is paramount, and

I'll not join in all the sad voices...

I will choose serenity not anxiety

My heart and soul rejoices--



Another thing I have found,

emotions and 'feelings'

betray, muddle and confound.

Profound thought to be used instead

Or so I have found.



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Each addiction is victory awaiting

Every pain, a blessing in disguise

Trials of tears and fears abating

as the veils are lifted from my eyes.

Every trial is a victory awaiting!


~Author's Note~

What the mind believes, the body receives! We

do not have to let our bodies and its desires

rule our lives and make us miserable. I've been

fighting to understand this in both heart and mind

all my life, and I have finally figured it out. I just

hope it's not to late for me to enjoy! Viva La Logic!

  
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46A39P 1/14/2009 11:57AM

    Your wonderful at your craft!

Where do you get all your butterfly's? They, like your writing, is so beautiful.

Congratulations on being a motivator!

Hugs,

Jean

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OKOBOJI4 1/13/2009 3:55PM

    I'm so glad you're back. You were sorely missed! I just love your poetry! So much talent. I enjoyed your blog so much.

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JIBBIE49 1/13/2009 4:30AM

    So pretty. emoticon

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ANGELBELIEVER 1/13/2009 12:22AM

    I love reading what you write. You are so talented. Thank you for sharing a part of you once again.

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COLEMANSR 1/12/2009 6:50PM

    Great blog, PAMIJANE. Thanks.

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Oh The Challenges Of A New Year!

Thursday, January 08, 2009

Greetings & Salutations My Friends!

Oh my goodness but what a year 2008 was! So many blessings and also some tragedies. I lost a very dear friend and peer to cancer and my heart still grieves, but I know I will see her again.

My own health has fluctuated and declined rapidly and when I had to stop my membership to the gym I lost all energy, but as of next week I'll be going every day if only to walk. I am determined to beat my ailments and lassitude.

I have my first meeting with OA today. I really wanted Weight Watchers, but their isn't a chapter close to me and I couldn't afford the fees, so this will at least put me in touch with people who are struggling like I am with weight and health issues. Not that my Sparky friends don't help...you DO! So much, but I need social contact as well, I've been isolated to my computer for too many years and I'm quickly reaching burnout. If I didn't have a computer, I'd have practically no life at all and that's just too sad for words.

The financial struggles of 2008 have segued into 2009 with not one, but two episodes of myriad viruses and Internet attacks so badly crashed my computer that I had to do a complete system restore back to the original operating system. YIPES! The second one I did by myself so that at least didn't cost me another arm.

The cost of healthy living is going to cause me to have another medical issue...lol an ULCER! But I've pretty much gotten a specific list that will do me for a week that is fairly inexpensive. Palatable and nutritious if not exciting lol.
Imagine my surprise (NOT) when in my email there was a blurb where President Elect Obama said we may have dire times ahead...uh Duh! I think most of us could predict that. Now I wonder what the government (and "We The People) will do about it.

Some good news, I joined Faulkner County Freecycle which is a free membership to post offers for things people no longer need, or if they've gotten new, so it doesn't go to a landfill. Some of you may be interested in googling a freecycle in your own city. Anyway, through that we became proud new parents of a precious little silver-white Persian I named Princess Sabella, a.k.a Little Bit and Precious. She is tiny even though between 3 and 5 years old she's the size of a half grown kitten. She came to us very neglected. Starved to the point of death (the first thing she did when she got here was to attack the food bowls! Poor baby, I was so shocked. She also has a bad cold and her fur had been whacked off I'm guessing due to matting because she wasn't cared for at all. It's been six days now and she has another appointment with the vet to see about the "cold" which I fear is more than that now, and her tiny little pushed in nose can't catch the air to breathe properly. I really come close to losing my Christianity over such abuse. I am confidant however that she will get well and become the beautiful and happy cat that she is meant to be.

I thought long and hard on my resolutions because there are so many things that I need to change, but we can't have too many as to make it unreasonable to expect success so below are the 4 that I've chosen. I ask that you support me with prayer and accountability because my friends....I'M BAAAACCCCK!!!!!!!!

RESOLUTIONS:

1. STOP SMOKING JANUARY 9TH. HUBBY TOO.

2. GET BACK INTO MY EXERCISE ROUTINE!

3. SURROUND MYSELF WITH POSITIVES, NO NEGATIVES AND EAT, SLEEP, BREATHE ALL THINGS HEALTHY 24/7

4. LAST BUT NOT AT ALL LEAST...ONLY SPEND A COUPLE OF HOURS ON THE COMPUTER DAILY, AND TO FULLY LIVE LIFE ACTIVELY, NOT READ IT!

I hope that your 2009 will be full of many blessings and successes and that you will achieve all your goals. As always, thank you for reading me, and always, always, for your kind and generous support. I'll see you soon.

Love and God Bless you and yours, Pami xoxox


  
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LISEBEAR753 1/10/2009 9:33PM

    Hi Pami, I don't know if you remember me, I was on here last year. I had a pretty bad year emotionally and finally recommited myself to being healthy in October. I'm wishing you a blessed year.

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46A39P 1/9/2009 9:44AM

    So Great hearing from You Pami! Missed you! You can do it! I'm with you there on the quit. Today is my quit day too!

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TRACYZABELLE 1/8/2009 11:59PM

    Congrats on your new furkid! How exciting! Also congrats on your committment to OA. I was diagnosed with typeII diabetes so I am trying to make changes now.. Prayers with you for financial freedom! I also love freecycle!

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JIBBIE49 1/8/2009 11:08PM

    Your Diet -----
For those of you who watch what you eat...
Hereís the final word on nutrition and health. Itís a relief to know the truth after all those conflicting medical studies.
1. The Japanese eat very little fat and suffer fewer heart attacks than the Americans.
2. The Mexicans eat a lot of fat and suffer fewer heart attacks than the Americans.
3. The Japanese drink very little red wine andsuffer fewer heart attacks than the Americans
4. The Italians drink excessive amounts of red wineand suffer fewer heart attacks than the Americans.
5. The Germans drink a lot of beer and eat lots of sausages and fats and suffer fewer heart attacks than the Americans.
CONCLUSION: Eat and drink what you like. Speaking English is apparently what kills you.

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JEEPERSMOM 1/8/2009 10:13PM

    Welcome Back Pami, I know what you mean about abuse when I rescued my Jeepers he was in such bad shape he was passing blood thru his stool it was ALL blood no stool but I took him to the vet got him meds bathed him fed him and lots of LOVE and now look at him my baby is doing so good Good luck to you and your husband on quitting smoking ... emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CWAITES 1/8/2009 6:19PM

    So glad you're back! Computer viruses can be really nasty. DH had to reformat his a few months ago after spending weeks trying to get rid of the little bugs that had invaded his machine. It's a pain but we do love our computers, don't we? I hope 2009 is a good year for you. You deserve one. Take care of Kitty.
Cheri


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COLEMANSR 1/8/2009 5:27PM

    Hi. Glad you're back.

Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:30-31, New International Version

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ANGELBELIEVER 1/8/2009 5:17PM

    Pami...I will keep your ned addition in my prayers. I know what you mean about animal of child abuse...I get so upset. I wish you well on your non-smoking journey for you and hubby. With God along side of both of you, you will do fine. We are here to support you on your healthy new life.

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LENGELKE 1/8/2009 4:06PM

    wooooo hooooo Pami! You can do it! Welcome back! You've been missed

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WISHING YOU ALL A SPARK SPARKY MERRY CHRISTMAS...

Sunday, December 14, 2008

SPARK SPARKY MERRY CHRISTMAS
~AND~
A HAPPY NEW YEAR!




Merry Christmas to all my Sparky Friends
Merry Christmas to you, loving hearts all...
Sending you warm wishes as the year ends
As in my heart you all stand ten feet tall!

I'll be back next year, never need you fear
To join you all in our journey to better health
And be again a leader in positivity and cheer
Sowing and reaping from our abundant wealth.

I have kept you alive in my hearts daily prayers
Our friendship's connecting bond always strong
That stems from the heart of Him that always cares
Strengthening the determination of our life song.

So a perfectly Spark Sparky Merry Christmas to you
With all the love and joy of our Father's Gift to us
The Gift of eternal salvation in a love so pure and true
In this annual birthday party of our dear Lord Jesus!

In faithful devotion
Pami Jane xoxo

NEXT BLOG...

NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS!

LOVE, PEACE, JOY, GOODWILL TO ALL

With love, Pami xoxox

  
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ISAWAPUTTYTAT 1/1/2009 1:55AM

    Hi pami and happy new years to you to. I am so happy you will be back in the new year i hope your feeling better to. I miss and love you very much. Keep up gettting well ok?

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NOMI_822 12/16/2008 11:41PM

    Thanks for stopping by my page. So glad to hear from you. Love the blog and can't wait for your New Years Resolution Blog. Wishing you and yours the Happiest of Holidays. emoticon

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CANNOTFATHOM 12/16/2008 6:09PM

    Happy holidays to you! Love the pic!


Penny

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IASADE 12/15/2008 10:48AM

    Love YOU GIRL!!!! Always keep you in my prayers!!! emoticon

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VHASKEW36 12/15/2008 8:27AM

    I really like your back ground, it's so pretty.

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VHASKEW36 12/15/2008 8:26AM

    Thank you for such a beautiful wish. Wishing you a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year right back. God bless, Ginny (Fit for Christ)

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DEBULACLARK 12/14/2008 9:01PM

    So glad to hear from you Pami! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you too! I love the poem!

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ANGELBELIEVER 12/14/2008 8:13PM

    Oh How Beautiful. Thank you so much. I wish you the best Christmas ever as we celebrate Christ's birth.

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OKOBOJI4 12/14/2008 8:09PM

    I'm so happy to hear from you! I think of you often and say prayers for you. I can't wait to hear from you next year! Have a very Merry Christmas and a Wonderful New Year!

Kami

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AMYISSUCCEEDING 12/14/2008 4:33PM

    I am wishing you a Merry Christmas and a wonderful New year also. I really like your spark page too.
Amy



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JIBBIE49 12/14/2008 3:49PM

    Ohhhhhhh, so happy to hear from you, Hon. Merry Christmas to you, too and I hope this will just be the best NEW YEAR ever!! Bless your heart. emoticon

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46A39P 12/14/2008 2:57PM

    I've been missing you. What a beautiful letter. Wishing you much joy, a very blessed Merry Christmas and a Happy, Healthy, terrific New Year. I look forward to hearing from you again. Love, Jean emoticon

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TRACYZABELLE 12/14/2008 2:28PM

    Happy Jesus' Birthday to you too! You are missed and thought of often.. I do not get on as much as I would like to either!
Much love
TracyZ

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JEEPERSMOM 12/14/2008 2:05PM

    MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU PAMI emoticon

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COLEMANSR 12/14/2008 1:13PM

    Merry Christmas to you, too.

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