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Isn't it GREAT to be HONEST?!

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

I just finished my workout while I watched The Biggest Loser. On the show there was a commercial asking if "you want to be the next biggest loser go to......" and I thought, "I don't have to. I'm doing it now!" Wow......what a cool thought! Then I was thinking about my weight and how all of you know what it is, yet my husband nor friends know. That's because I hide it from them out of shame, yet here....among fellow sufferers/survivors/champions I am completely honest. When I have a victory, I want to come and share it and when I have a difficult day, I want to share that with you. You have no face, no name, but you have the heart to understand. Thank you.

  
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MAGGIEROSEBOWL 3/3/2011 3:03PM

    For some reason it's easier to bare our souls (and our weight) to strangers than to the people we know and love. Crazy, but true. Like you, I tell everyone here how much I weighed, how much I have lost, and my inner most feelings about all of it. I never share this stuff with anyone I know in real life. I guess we are anonymous here, and no one is judging us. Thank goodness for Spark!!

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AMYBELLES 2/3/2011 7:45PM

    I feel the same way as you do. We can be completely honest with friends here, because it is a safe environment and everyone understands our feelings and is caring and supportive. We are more embarassed about our (in our eyes) inadequacies with those who know us more intimately, because we don't want them to be critical of us. SparkPeople is the BEST!!!
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TEDYBEAR2838 2/2/2011 9:08PM

    WOW, so well spoken. We all have a heart for each other here. We all been there, done that.

ROCKING 2011 TOGETHER ~!

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COTTRELL11 2/2/2011 1:19AM

    I adore your attitude. If it was possible for me to like SparkPeople more, you made it so. Thank you! emoticon

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SSGTE6 2/2/2011 12:28AM

    WE ALL UNDERSTAND. WE ARE IN THE SAME BOAT AS YOU. WE ALL HELP ONE ANOTHER!! emoticon

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REDSHOES2011 2/2/2011 12:13AM

    Your also better than those people on this show, they have every element to make them loss weight around them.. The director is the puppet show manager, they want huge results- slow weight loss and no weight loss doesn't sell television..
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Temptation means FIGHT BACK

Monday, January 31, 2011

This was my weigh in day. I lost 10 lbs in 14 days. That's great, but today was the worst day I have had for wanting to just EAT! I just measured out 8 pretzels and feel like I had such a treat. I'm going to fight back by trying something new on my treadmill. I am going to walk at a speed 3-3.5 until I burn at least 200 calories. It's all a matter of math. More has to be burned than is fed...PERIOD (unless you are starving yourself of course). I'm sticking to 1000 calories a day. If I'm tempted, like today, it means I need to work out more and burn a bit more to balance the intake. Watching the Biggest Loser is such an inspiration to me. Those people workout for up to 8 hours a day. It puts my time to shame. How are you doing???

  
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EBEAMS 2/1/2011 8:50PM

    Congrats on the weight loss! That is incredible! You rock!

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SLIMMERJESSE 1/31/2011 11:39PM

    WOW! That's an amazing loss. Congrats!

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PAMELAINIDAHO 1/31/2011 10:28PM

  Thanks Ladies. YOU are doing great too! You are HERE and that means you are trying!

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IMNENA23 1/31/2011 9:43PM

    OH, THE WORK INVOLVED in loosing weight! You can do it! YOU ARE DOING IT! Keep it up--we're proud of you!

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MILLISMA 1/31/2011 8:52PM

    I'm impressed! What a great attitude! You are doing a great job in creating a new lifestyle. emoticon

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Hoarder vs Over Eater

Friday, January 21, 2011

I was watching a show on hoarders the other day. My heart went out to this woman who valued her "things" more than her relationship with her husband (which was ready to leave her if she didn't get rid of the stuff) Then something hit me......aren't I that way with food? Doesn't this extra weight keep my relationship with my husband at a distance? Do I really want him to touch me the way I should be touched? NO WAY! I'm embarrassed when he feels my rolls and bulges. So, food.....food.....food becomes more important than relationships. It's so sad. I'm glad I saw it for what it is, though. I don't want food to come between me and my husband, my health, my vitality for life, my self esteem or the energy I need to play with my grandchildren. Enough is enough. I want to learn to eat to live not live to eat.

  
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PAMELAINIDAHO 1/31/2011 3:54PM

  I LOVE the comments! I thought people would just think I was nuts! LOL Good for you ladies who have lost weight, chosen a healthier lifestyle and are making CHANGE! WhoooHooooo!!!

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EBEAMS 1/31/2011 3:21PM

    Isn't it odd how food can't love you back but we can use it as a substitute for love? Good for you! Congratulations on your "AH-HA" moment! You can do it! PS ~ love that you're from Idaho too ...

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HEALTHYASHLEY 1/31/2011 2:53PM

    That was why I stopped overeating. I decided to pick me and my relationships over lying and eating. It is hard but it is possible. You can do it!

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MAGGIEROSEBOWL 1/31/2011 2:48PM

    Good thoughts and so true! I have chosen food over people in my life for a long time without even realizing I was doing that. I'm glad I have chosen to get healthy instead, and as a result, I am enjoying my loved ones so much more. Visited my 17-month old and almost 5-year old grandkids this weekend. I had a ball with them, I got down on the floor and actually played with them. I haven't been able to do that for a very long time (like 30 years--long before they were born!), and it was wonderful! I'm glad I made the choice to lose the weight, part of my motivation was so that I would be around awhile longer to enjoy those grandkids, and ENJOY them I did!!!

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PAMELAINIDAHO 1/21/2011 7:35PM

  Thank you for your comments everyone. I'm glad I didn't sound like a complete lunatic! :-) I'm getting excited about the possibility of being "ok" with my husband seeing me with no clothes on. Right now it is just plain humiliating. I can't wait!!!! I sure wish there was a magic way, but there is only discipline and hard work ahead so onward hoe......

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PANSYLADY2 1/21/2011 3:17PM

    Interesting connection. I watch the "Hoarders" show, and it's like watching a train wreck. And you're absolutely right;some of us use food as a "protection" against intimacy. I know I used to do that. Now, there is no intimacy. Not feeling sorry for myself, just being real; hubby passed away, and I do miss his hugs. Maybe someday . . .

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MOLLYBROWN55 1/21/2011 12:44AM

    Great observation!

huggs!!

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SLIMMERJESSE 1/21/2011 12:24AM

    Welcome to SP! Best wishes for success.

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KISSIMMEE 1/21/2011 12:16AM

    That is a very interesting way of showing what is happening with our relationship with food! Thanks! emoticon

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