Wednesday, March 07, 2012
So I just posted my new plan...
And as of Friday, here is the new me...
After 33 years of curls that were crazy, I went and got rid of them. They are gone...and I'm loving it!!! Total confidence boost!!!
Wednesday, March 07, 2012
What if I told you it wasn't about the weight loss? what would you say or think?
What if I told you that I'm really struggling and I can't figure out what it is?
Or that it's not as easy as what I remember it to be?
Or that it's really easy to stop by and grab something to go?
Not cook for the week?
Get a soda out of the vending machine?
What would you think? How would you answer me? What advice would you give me?
Now what if I told you that I'm dealing with other things at the same time, and don't know how to put those into words? Or that I've decided it IS NOT about the weight loss. Now what would you think?
Well here is what I'm dealing with. .....
We all want to strive to be different in some form or fashion. We try and excel at work, in school, as a wife, as a mother, or just as a human in general. But for someone who has been dealing with weight, it's usually always about that. But now, it's not about that anymore...I don't know if it ever will be again. I don't care if I weight 150lbs, 175lbs, or 250lbs, but what I do care about is, that I'm going to be healthy. You can be skinny and not be healthy. It's a proven fact. So for now, I'm going to concentrate on being healthy.
As of today, I've taken my weight. Put it in my book. And until April 7th. I will not step on the scale. I will not track my food on here. What I will do:
I will log in everyday
I will record my fitness minutes
I will write in my notebook, exactly what I ate, the good the bad and the ugly
And I will have a game plan established every Sunday before I go to bed.
I will start lifting weights. (Simple exercises with dumbbells and kettle bells)
I will commit to a running game plan (already printed out the plans, now to merge them to my calendar)
I will be healthy. I will be happy. I will not be content until my goals are reached.
Wednesday, February 01, 2012
1 month in, and progess is evident!!! :) Loving my life again...
Wednesday, January 04, 2012
This blog is not going to be all happy and uplifting, but it will not be a downer either. It is a mix of what real life can be like. I am a real person, I have flaws, but I now have determination again as well.....So here it is....
What happens in 2 years....
Year 1...is amazing!!! Here's the highlights...
*run my first 5K
*run my 2, 3, 4+ 5k's
*run a 5 miler
*run my 1/2 half marathon
*run a 10miler
*go from a size 26w to a size 14
*return to cycling
*realize that I am AMAZING
You get the picture....it was an amazing year...
Year 2 Begins, and this is hard to write, but it's real, and it's something that I hope none of you will face, but if you do...know that it can be a part of your journey. It doesn't HAVE to be, but if it is, know that you can recover, with a renewed spirit...so here it is...
*still going strong on my 1yr anniversary, year 2 is going to rock
*1-31-11 start nursing school
*OMG my schedule is crazy, mom in the morning, employee during the day, nursing student at night
*Okay still holding my own...not much time for Spark, but I'm still eating okay, exercise is diminishing some....SO EXHAUSTED
*weigh in at end of Feb and still doing okay at 204.6
*exercise is still inconsistent
*register for a 1/2 marathon for motivation in April
*work on a quick training plan
*weigh in at end of March up to 215 (ugh...this isn't good )
*get sick with a URI (upper respiratory infection) training slows way down
*run my race, I'm happy with it, actually VERY happy with it. I just did a 1/2 marathon after poor training, gaining weight, not eating the greatest, and being a nursing student...
*time to really slack now
*clothes are starting to fit a little tighter, weigh in on 5-17, I'm up to 225
*i know what I need to do, but yeah it's just not working for me
*birthday in June, and I'm miserable
*weigh in on 7/7/11 and I'm at 238...yeah that's a grand number...NOT
*between July and August I try and get things together. Realizing that I can't do it all..that I will have to make sacrifices on my exercise time. blah blah blah
*9/5/11 weigh in 233.4
*somewhere in there I removed my weight tracker from my page...I WAS TOTALLY MORTIFIED and EMBARRASSED
*life just keeps steam rolling over me
*10/17/11 I knew things were getting worse, and the scale agrees, 245.6
*try and get something together, start walking more, register for the Rock and Roll 1/2 marathon, knowing that I will not be running it, but I can definitely walk it.
*11/11/11 weigh in at 240.2
*finish the R-n-R...what a miserable time I had. It was horrible, but I finished it, so that's a plus right there.
*And that's my official weigh in of 2011. I stepped on the scale here and there, but did not want to Spark it...
*Continued the fast food, the Starbucks everyday (sometimes 2 times a day), soda here, candybar there, fried food, cream sauces, no exercise.
*And all of the above, lead me to where I was when I stepped on the scale on 1/2/2012
So that's what my 2nd year looks like....Over my break from school in December, I took the time to reflect on what I was doing with my life. How I was going back to all the things that I had hated about myself. Not cool. I came up with a plan. And even though I do not like the "I'll do it tomorrow" phrase. I set the new date at Jan 2, 2012 for recommittment.
The weird part...I knew what I was about to do, my hubby did too. He was prepared too. But I didn't know that I had inspired a classmate along the way. I had told her about Spark. I swore by it. She dabbled with it, but it didn't take hold. Until the end of December. I got a message from her, and it solidified even more the need for me to Recommit to myself, to my husband, my daughter, my family, and friends. But even more to my Spark friend who had been there the entire 1st year, and that I had pushed aside the 2nd year. It made me internally promise to Crystal_Wabbit, that I would be there for her. (everyone go check out her page!!! She's beautiful!!! on the outside and on the inside!!! Love ya hunny!!!)
So what is this 3rd year going to bring me.
*me time, to accomplish my goals
*assurance that I will live a healthy life
*rekindle my love for my kitchen
*dedication to my friends, near and far
*being able to run again!!!
*looking in the mirror and feeling proud of what my body can do
*loving myself, every stretch mark, wrinkle of extra skin, and muscle pain
*proving to everyone who doubts it is possible to fall flat on your face and recover...IT IS, AND I'M GOING TO SHOW YOU!!!
To my old Spark Friends, I love you for accepting me who I was, what I became, and who I will become. Thank you for every comment of encourage, every pat on the back...everything...
To my new Spark Friends....this is all possible. It doesn't have to be a dream. It is my reality and I'm living it. Day by day, hour by hour. Every slip up, every stumble. I am getting back up, and succeeding.
Happy Anniversary to me!!!!
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