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Thursday, February 14, 2013

So, here I am.

I fell off the wagon again. I guess in a manner of speaking you could say that my health played a large part in it. I managed to get some sort of flu or something that kept me down, and then I have been having women's problems, which I am unaccustomed to. My physical therapy office canceled three appointments in a row because of the therapists getting ill, and that was another good motivator that went away. Being sick made my blood sugar rise, and when my blood sugar rises, I find myself eating more, which is really counter-productive.

Lots of things were happening which led me to get stressed, which led me to some very bad eating.

There are good things though - I am not beating myself up for this. I am taking an objective look at things. I hit backspace and re-write every time I want to say that I was "bad" or say something else that is detrimental to me. If I keep beating myself up for the times when I get derailed, then I am going to be less likely to bounce back, I think.

My brain isn't working very well to create good sentences because my blood sugar has been really high. So, this will probably not be the most compelling blog entry, nor will it be the easiest to read. But I felt like it was important that I come back here and post what has been going on and at the same time not beat myself up for it. For every bad choice that I have made in the last week or two, I am trying to make a good choice to make up for it.

I want to get back to healthy eating, regardless of what my hormones tell me to do. Sometimes that is one of the hardest things in the world, when you are having "girl-troubles" and your hormones and moods tell you to eat EVERYTHING. I don't have periods very often, and so when they do happen I don't have a good strategy in place to help me overcome those cravings that come with the period.

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-BENI- 2/14/2013 5:13PM

    Once you get away from your good habits it's hard to get back. I know, I'm going through it right now too.
Plus you have other things going on. But your outlook is good. You'll do it!
Stay with it!

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Thankfulness :)

Saturday, February 02, 2013

Discovered some comments on my blog today, and I am quite thankful for them. :) It is good to know that others are out there and that is one of the things that makes SparkPeople so awesome!

I have been staying within my calorie range this week, which is good, but I have been eating a lot of junk which is not so good. I am not gonna beat myself up for it, I am just going to say it is what it is. I don't get my food stamps till the 8th so I am just sort of subsisting on whatever is laying around the house or whatever is on sale at Grocery Outlet. (Speaking of which, if any of you are on the west coast and need access to affordable groceries, I cannot recommend Grocery Outlet enough. You never know what is going to be there, and it is true that there are a lot of temptations there, but I am increasingly finding organic and natural products there, not to mention incredible deals on Lean Cuisine meals.)

In closing, I am thankful for SparkPeople, thankful for nice blog comments, thankful that I can get by and find things to eat before my food stamps come in, and thankful that I am on track to hit my fitness goal for the week. Getting out and walking excites me, I really like it. And speaking of fitness goals, if I want to *stay* on track, I had better get my walking shoes on and get out there!


Ups and downs

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Lost a pound since I started here, yay!
That is the good news.
In the not so great news, I caved in and had cake and ice cream yesterday. I mean, it wasn't a great choice but I don't feel too bad about it. I was starting to obsess. Everything sounded good, I was craving sugar till it was driving me to distraction, it was all I thought about! So I gave in. I bought a slice of cake at Safeway and some ice cream to go with it. I guess on the bright side I never really realized, till now, just how ridiculous the portion sizes are on those slices of cake. The best part? I couldn't finish the whole slice. :) I ended up tossing about 1/4 of it. I consider that a win. Just like the other day when I bought a chocolate bar, ate half and realized that it was just making me feel bad, and I tossed away the other half.

I am getting there. I am not making healthy choices 100% of the time, but who does? I figure that if I give in once in a while I will obsess about this kind of stuff less and as long as I am making good choices 95% of the time I'm doing well.

So breakfast this morning was an awesome smoothie with whey protein - lots of nice fruit, plenty of protein and fiber. And now I am going to go get my shoes on and walk my dog.

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SPARKCHANTAL 1/31/2013 12:51PM

    stay cool babe, don't overdo it, and careful for diet rage! if you spend all your time thinking about 'dieting', you'll start bingeing.
just learn to make healthy choices every step of the way, and remember we are hardwired for survival, so losing substantially means outwitting our brains. no easy road!


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MAMISHELI53 1/31/2013 12:16PM

    That's right - it takes time to establish a healthy lifestyle, which is why we call it a journey! I found that themore vegies I eat, the less I crave other stuff. I do allow myself some DARK chocolate now and then, and that usually takes care of that sweet tooth. And whenever possible I choose whole grain over processed! Blessings on your journey.

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Here I go again

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

I've been a member of SparkPeople since 2007 but I hardly did anything with the site. Well, here I am many years later and so much has changed in my life, it is SO much better. I am motivated to get this weight off and do it for me!

I am amazed at how much energy I get when I work out - YES it hurts, it hurts a lot but it is worth it. Also, it is hard to balance things like IBS with being a diabetic and being low-income. I struggle with my food budget and my food intake a lot.

Right now my biggest goal is to see my cholesterol and A1C numbers go down. I am tired of seeing them yo-yo back and forth. I'm also struggling with a bad knee (might be bursitis).

Overall, this was a good intro post. I am always looking for people to compare notes with, to see what works and what does not.

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    Welcome Back! I, too am getting started again. WE CAN do it this time around! Wishing you the best on your healthy lifestyle journey!

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