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I had an AH-HA moment with a peanut butter cup

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

It seems so simple, so basic - you are responsible for you. But to really understand what that means, it took me FOREVER.

However, I am happy to say - I get it.

I understand that yes, I can have those miniature peanut butter cups! But if I chose to have them, I can't blame my weight on outside influences. Nobody forced me to eat them. It is my responsibility what I put into my body. However I absolutely love them - straight from the freezer. So I choose to eat one or two occasionally.

And that's ok.

It's ok because I know that one or two won't make or break my diet. That the majority of my choices are healthy food that gives me energy. I know that my body is getting stronger so I can jog, or bike, or dance.

I know that, today I might have a miniature peanut butter cup and thoroughly enjoy it. And then I won't have another for several days or several weeks.

I am not a slave to my food - I can enjoy it, I can treat myself and I am responsible for my strength and good health. I know that the majority of times for a snack I reach for an apple, or yogurt, or nuts.

So, it has taken me a long time to get to this point - where I really understand that my weight is nobodys fault but my own. And while I'm working on getting my body where I want it to be - there's still space in my life for a frozen miniature peanut butter cup.


  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MDMNINA 9/19/2012 3:12PM

    Good thoughts! Thanks for sharing.

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GARDENCHRIS 8/14/2012 8:39AM

    good post! I also love those peanut butter cups! emoticon

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My first milestone reached!!!

Thursday, August 09, 2012

I bought that really cute purse but promised myself I wouldn't use it until I dropped below 180. It is a wonderful, tapestry bag that has rich colors and wonderful lining. Large enough to hold everything I carry, small enough to not get cluttered with my son's legos or pokemon cards.

Each day I would eagerly step on the scale. 185. 183. 185. 183. 184. 183.....

So that purse stayed in the bag in my closet. Occasionally I would pull it out, look at it and sigh. And, of course wonder why the weight wasn't falling off me so I could use the purse.

Of course, I wasn't exercising as hard as I could, nor was I eating as well as I could.

So this past week I have been very focused on everything I have eaten. And I religiously did Week 1 of the Spring into Shape Bootcamp Challenge. And, what do you know. The scale numbers started dropping and I feel better. Better than I have in a long time.

I didn't deny myself - but rather than have a candy bar - I have purchased amazing dark chocolate that is individually wrapped into small servings. Rather than "eyeball" my servings, I have the measureing cups out.

And it hasn't been as arduous as I thought it would be.

So this morning I stepped on the scale and it said 179.6. Tonight I'll be moving things to my new purse!