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Attitude of Gratitude

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

I am trying to remain grateful. I am sad and frustrated but there is still room for gratitude too. My soon to be ex-husband with the help of his brother rented a trailer and took off with most of my crystal, most of my cookware, our washer (that really does not belong to us), the freezer with a lot of food, and the printer (however he did not get the software). I am sure there is much more that I have not even realized yet.

Still I choose to be grateful for everything else. I can now live in peace with my kids and make my life into something beautiful.

Here is the list of things I am grateful for tonight:

A freshly made bed with wonderful clean sheets and pillowcases.
A hot shower.
Shampoo, conditioner, and body soap. (I am really glad he did not take that stuff)
My coffee pot, coffee, cream and sugar for towmorrow morning.
A landlord who is going to change my locks and find me a washer to use.
A place to go wash my clothes in the mean time.
Friends and sisters to cry to and be comforted by.
Neighbors who are lending me cookware and a printer.
Toilet paper and Qtips.
A TV and Dish Network.
Klove radio.
A working phone, working utilities.
My laptop and wireless Internet.
SparkPeople.

I am looking forward to a wonderful nights sleep. Good night all.

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LOVESLILACS1 8/26/2010 9:49AM

    So sorry to hear he has behaved so childishly. So much for being a good father... But I am so impressed that you are taking the high road and looking at what you do have to be grateful for, including seemingly small things. I pray God balances things out in this situation. Hang in there...

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JRDIAMOND4 8/26/2010 8:35AM

    I love your attitude. Remember when you lose something of value to you, it will come back 10X better. It seems you have a wonderful support system. I would love to tell you it is an easy road but it isn't. The reward it worth it. Been there.

I have a wonderful husband, who adores me. I am so blessed. I am so thankful that I did not stay in my first marriage for "the kids sake" like everyone told me. I would have never known the love that surrounds me every day. I felt my kids deserved a happy home.

I pray you enough_________.

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Jan

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CBARRETT10 8/25/2010 11:08PM

  Be Happy. Be Blessed. Wonderful things to look forward to!

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Attitude of Gratitude

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

I am trying to remain grateful. I am sad and frustrated but there is still room for gratitude too. My soon to be ex-husband with the help of his brother rented a trailer and took off with most of my crystal, most of my cookware, our washer (that really does not belong to us), the freezer with a lot of food, and the printer (however he did not get the software). I am sure there is much more that I have not even realized yet.

Still I choose to be grateful for everything else. I can now live in peace with my kids and make my life into something beautiful.

Here is the list of things I am grateful for tonight:

A freshly made bed with wonderful clean sheets and pillowcases.
A hot shower.
Shampoo, conditioner, and body soap. (I am really glad he did not take that stuff)
My coffee pot, coffee, cream and sugar for towmorrow morning.
A landlord who is going to change my locks and find me a washer to use.
A place to go wash my clothes in the mean time.
Friends and sisters to cry to and be comforted by.
Neighbors who are lending me cookware and a printer.
Toilet paper and Qtips.
A TV and Dish Network.
Klove radio.
A working phone, working utilities.
My laptop and wireless Internet.
SparkPeople.

I am looking forward to a wonderful nights sleep. Good night all.

Anna. emoticon

  


He signed the divorce papers.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Well things came to a head last night and the end result is that my soon to be ex-husband signed the divorce papers at the court house today and his brother is coming down from Washington to get him.

My kids are all farmed out for the evening and I am staying the night at a friends house from work.

I ask that all who are of the praying persuasion would pray that he will peacefully take what is his and leave what is mine intact. If not, I know they are only possessions and that God is in control anyway.

I am in my 5th week of training at work and even though I missed the first half day today, my trainer is not going to issue me a corrective and I ended up with a 96% on my final test. Next week I start on the phones - be extra nice if you need to call AT&T customer service. emoticon

I am very tired. I need to wind down and get back into a routine. My kids start school next week and I will also have a lot to do around the house.

I really cannot wait for everything to settle. I have basically taken the last two months off from tracking my food and consistant exercising.

Well I thought I would post tonight. Everyone have a good evening.

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MOMFAN 8/25/2010 4:15PM

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TEXASMIMI1 8/25/2010 3:23PM

    Bless your heart. I can only imagine what you have been going through. One thing at a time, one day at a time. You are a courageous lady and will get through this.

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RUTHIEBEAR 8/25/2010 1:15PM

    I am sorry I have not been up to date with what is going on for you. I have had my own situations to deal with. But know I am praying for you and your family. You know what you need to do and are doing it. I applaud you for taking the stand you need to take. Take care of yourself too. Know you are loved here on SP. emoticon

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MAMADWARF 8/25/2010 8:53AM

    Im sorry you are going through this. When I left my ex, I took my bed and my car. Period. That was it. I left it all and I never looked back and I never regret it. Like Mezzo said, Its just stuff. You have your kids and your life. You are gonna be great. I wish you peace beyond all understanding.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 8/25/2010 8:42AM

    I was lucky, when I got divorced we were able to split it all so amicably. Basically whatever we came into the relationship with we took and then kind too turns picking the rest. I wish the same for you. I have AT&T so I will be nice lol.

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SPARKPIXIE 8/25/2010 7:53AM

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 8/25/2010 7:42AM

    For someone who has been through it, repeat after me...

"It's just stuff. Stuff can be replaced."

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CJKOMODO 8/25/2010 7:34AM

    Hang in there! You are in my prayers. Remember God is in control!! emoticon

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JRDIAMOND4 8/25/2010 6:18AM

    I admire your strength. Take care of yourself and those beautiful girls. I will definitely keep you in my prayers.

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Jan

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SHELYNDA 8/25/2010 5:55AM

    You are an amazing lady to be hanging onto your new lifestyle in the midst of all the turmoil you are dealing with in a divorce. I'm glad that you know God is there to sustain you and keep you and your children in HIs loving arms through this difficult time.

Don't worry about not tracking. You will get back to it. The good thing is you are still participating in some of the SP opportunities, like blogging. I have found that to be very helpful due to friends responding with encouraging words.

Be strong in the Lord.

Sherri

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LOSETHEWTIN08 8/25/2010 12:14AM

    No worries about tracking. You have stood strong in a incredible storm. Like you said GOD will stand with you always and so will your spark friends.
I will be praying all is well for you and your family. emoticon emoticon
Take care my friend.

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MOOKBALL 8/24/2010 11:54PM

    You are going through a difficult time right now. Who can think about tracking when your world is falling apart. But you will find the strength within yourself, not from anyone or anything. You are given that strength, it is yours to discover and use. Blessings.

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LIGHTHOUSEGIRL1 8/24/2010 11:48PM

    Hang in there..I know you want the best for your children and yourself. I pray that all will be well and that he will leave peacefully and only take what is his. Be strong emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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FATFIRL 8/24/2010 11:45PM

  It sounds like you are still standing tall. In the words of Maya Angelou, "Still I rise". Keep going, there is light before you get to the end of the tunnel.

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SHERLYN-WILL 8/24/2010 11:44PM

    AMEN... I am glad you are at the beginning of your new better life. Keep you chin up (or down in prayer) eyes on God and move forward with God at your side!

I will pray he is at least thoughtful of you as he takes his things.... like you said they are just things... but some things are expensive to replace... God will provide your needs.

Love and prayers my friend!
Sherlyn

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Time to blog... I feel like I am in limbo.

Saturday, August 07, 2010

Hello everyone! As it was pointed out today it has been a couple of weeks since I have blogged. I have made sure to at least spin for my SparkPoints everyday, but I have been lax in tracking my food and my exercise (doing and tracking).

I am in training. I will be doing customer service for AT&T. The training is 5 weeks long in the class room from 6am to 2:30pm and I am struggling to get my full 7 - 8 hours of sleep a night. It is good to be back to work, but I am concerned about my kids being home alone which will be happening soon. They go back to school on Aug 30 at which point I will have three weeks of transition training where I will be at work until 11:30pm. After that three weeks my permanent schedule will have me working until 6:30pm. That should not be too bad.

We (the family) have been going to the Stepfamily classes. It is really great information, but it is not counselling and I still want the divorce. Last weekend I told my husband that I still want that and he agreed and we talked about what we were each going to have from our belongings and he made arrangements with his brother to come and get him the first of Sept. Then on Wednesday he tells me that he thinks we can work out all of our issues, except religion and that my sister owes him a written apology (long story, but it is HE that owes her an apology). So, he called his brother and told him that we are going to work everything out. Yesterday I finally had the energy to tell him that I need a break and that he needs to go to Washington for at least a couple of months. We are now making arrangements again for him to get up there at which point I will have him served. He is really not a very good listener.

I have not given a lot of details about why I want this divorce in my blogs, so in case there is anyone out there praying for my marriage to be restored, please don't. I have considered listing all the reasons, but that really should not be necessary- just know that he is abusive, doesn't work, and is a bad influence on my children.

I on the other hand am trying to move forward in every aspect of my life. I am working now, I am trying to get my house in order both physically and spiritually, I am looking forward to being able to do the things I want to do and raising my kids the way they should be raised. I want to have relationships that build me up and are healthy. I can not wait to be out of limbo!

You may not hear much from me during the week, but I am here.

Thanks all,

Anna

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CHOESCH 8/12/2010 10:47AM

    Hey Cutie;
It sounds like you have been through the wringer the last couple of weeks. I am so sorry that life has to be so hard! I am impressed with your resolve to take care of you and your family - you are a good mom. I will pray for you to have peace, for your children to be safe and happy, and for you to have the strength to be the kind of mother you want to be for your children. Getting your health in check will really help you find the energy you need to move forward. I am so glad that you are finding some time to workout and hopefully eating healthy foods. I wish I could give you a big hug! Hang in there - you are amazing!!!
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MOMFAN 8/8/2010 7:05PM

    Hugs and prayers!

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CYCLINGSANDY 8/8/2010 3:12AM

    Anna: I too say, "Thank you," for sharing about your specific prayers needs. I will have a hard time saying Anna instead of OwenzZoo, since that it how I think of you. Praise God for your new job. Your kids will be OK with you working, someone has to have a salary. It is sad that your husband did not fulfill his role as a husband. God does not expect you to stay where you w or the children will be harmed. It sounds like you have given him lots of chances. I pray for your husband to become compliant and get out of where he does need to be.

God, please bless Anna and her kids. Help them all to draw strength and assurance from you. Keep her husband in Washington for as long as needed. Work out this situation in your own way, Lord. We will give you all the praise and glory! AMEN emoticon

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JRDIAMOND4 8/7/2010 9:33PM

    I pray you enough..... which means whatever IT is at the time you need IT. You sound very confident and headed in a good direction for you and your children. Not everyone needs details. You know what is best. Life is too short.

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SHERLYN-WILL 8/7/2010 9:28PM

    OH so glad you blogged and updated me! (well us.. not just me LOL)

You husband DOES need to go to Washington.. I would rather the kids be home ALONE then home with him!

Your new training sounds so long and tiring!

Hang in there these are steps to getting on with your life! I bet your kids are so relieved you are separating/divorcing...

I like how you state in your blog, PLEASE DON"T pray for us to work it out. I so agree with you and I am a believer in prayer, but enough is enough. You deserve peace and security and love.
I am still praying for you...
Love,
Sherlyn



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An update!

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

I have been silent for awhile, but it is time to speak.

I went to a job interview and I got the job! emoticon I start training on Monday. It is a call center job and does not pay a lot, but it will be a welcome addition to the passive income that I have. I have been out of the work force for the better part of five years. After the deaths of my mother, 1st husband, and step-dad all within 1 year 9 months (2004-2005) I needed time with my kids.

The house is coming together and I am going to have a Celebrating Home party on Wed night. I am really looking forward to that. I really do not know a lot of people really well so I hope this will be a great way to get to know my neighbors. If nothing else I hope they come just to see the renovations to the house. Anyone who is in Northern Utah, SparkMail me if you want to come and I will give you the address! emoticon I love to entertain and there are some great fall and Christmas items in the new catalog!

When I was up in Washington I told my husband that I want a divorce. Without going into a lot of detail he is verbally abusive to my children. I got talked into seeking counseling but I really am not sure about that. If he was not willing to see that changes needed to be made before I presented him with divorce papers then I don't think anything will be lasting. We did however go to a Stepfamily class sponsored by Utah State University on Tuesday and it is 6 weeks long. Regardless I think that my children and I will benefit from this. Today he (DH) told me that he will TOLERATE my 16 year old until he turns 18 but not after that. I have already told him that I plan to have a relationship with my son long after he turns 18. I think I just need to go and have the Sheriff's office serve him the papers and ask his brother to come down from WA and get him. He has no job and no ties here. Please pray for me!

I really am so blessed to have found SparkPeople and all the support here! emoticon

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CHRYS13 8/7/2010 4:47PM

    It's been a little over two weeks since you wrote this, and I'm praying that everything is coming together for you! You're right....you'll want a lifetime relationship with your children.
Congratulations on the job!
You're in my thoughts and prayers,
Chrys

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SHERLYN-WILL 7/23/2010 8:25PM

    Been thinking about you allot. WAY to go on the new job. That will make you feel so much better just making some money.

I am aware of the details about your NDH (non-darling hubby) and I think you very much should move on!
Your kids need good role models for happy lives now and IN the future as do you.

Please stay safe!

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CHOESCH 7/22/2010 11:19AM

    It sounds like you have had some really difficult struggles over the past few years. I am so sorry for your losses and for the heartache that you have had to bare. It also sounds like you are finding your strength and your voice. I am proud of you for putting your children first - that is not always easy. I am also excited that you got the job! Look at you...you have strength and character you never even knew you possessed! My prayers are with you and your children. I know you will make the right decision.
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LOVESLILACS1 7/22/2010 9:04AM

    Congratulations on the job. I pray that your husband will get something out of the parenting classes. I wouldn't make any rash decisions, but I wouldn't tolerate anyone putting deadlines on my kids, especially in this economy!

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CJKOMODO 7/22/2010 7:56AM

    Congratulations on the new job! I hope you really like it. I will keep you in my prayers. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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