Tuesday, April 19, 2011
For those of you that have been following my blogs for the short three weeks I've been posting them you've already heard about it. (April 6th blog)
In that blog I mentioned running into my college roommate unexpectedly 15hrs from home. I was embarrassed with my size but was THRILLED to see her. She had her husband take a picture of us. You know how much obese people LOVE to get their picture taken!)
Well, a year from now I'll be heading back down to her neck of the woods and I've decided I'll use this year, that unexpected visit and the picture that was taken as motivation. I want to be able to call her up and let her know I'm coming into her state instead of sneaking in and away (like I thought I'd do this year but was caught.)
So here's the picture:
It's really not that bad of a picture...It could have been much worse. I guess when I'm aware a picture is being taken I try to pose to my advantage.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Today was my official weigh-in day. My goal for each week is 3lbs, that didn't happen today. I went from 316 to 314.4, a loss of 1.6lbs. Good, yes, but I know it could have been better.
As a mom I'm always talking to my kids about choices and consequences, there is ALWAYS a consequence, it might be good or it might be bad.
I had some bad choices this week. I had the binge on Thursday night. On Saturday we went to relatives' for a family dinner. I set a game plan ahead of time but that went right out the window when I saw the homemade rolls and YUMMY potatoe casserole. Then on Sunday I ate on plan for breakfast but that was it. Yes, I know there will be times I eat, I know that I will not be able to resist temptation 100% of the time.
But I DO KNOW that because of the food choices I made I didn't lose as much as I could have. Another choice I've made is to exercise 6 days a week. When I first started I was planning on only 3 days as long as I got the results I wanted. Well, I know what I really want, I've read MANY spark pages of people who have reached their goals after losing 100+lbs. I want the same. To want it is one thing to be willing to put the work into it is something completely different!!!
I woke up 30 minutes early this morning (6am) and got in 22min on the treadmill. Then I walked my kids to school. I still need to fit in some Strength Training, I'm planning on doing it when the kids go down for naps.
The best thing of ALL.....I've lost 10.6 in three weeks! (That does keep me in my 3lbs a week goal). My goal for 2011...100 lbs GONE. I'm 1/9 of the way there!
Monday, April 18, 2011
Day 7 assignment - 30min
Goal - to get in 1.5 miles in that 30 min
Action - Did Two minutes at 2.7, then increased my incline to 2 and a 3.0 for Two minutes. Left the incline at a 2 for the rest of my workout but upped the speed to 3.3mph. I did that for 28 min, sometimes upping it to 3.5!!! I'm getting STRONGER!
I did a mile in 18:52 YAY, my goal was to do it in 20min.
Total Workout - 32 min (last two were a cool down) Miles - 1.7
Short Term Goal:
My baby brother is graduating from ASU in May with his Law Degree AND Masters in Business. Our Dad died 9 years ago from ALS and my mom is in S. Africa serving a mission for a church. My brother's wife's family is attending the graduation but it's really important to me that my brother has people from his own family there. Also his first baby was born in February and I haven't been able to see him yet.
I REALLY want to go AND I REALLY DON'T WANT TO GO!!!!! Why? Because I'm fat, not just fat...MORBIDLY OBESE!!! My brother and his wife are GORGEOUS, I'm talking model Gorgeous! Then I have another brother who is coming with his wife and once again...they are good looking with VERY fit bodies. I know my brothers and their wives will be thrilled to see me, that they don't love me any less but I love myself less and there lies the problem.
Yes, I have let many aspects of life pass me by because I've been afraid of being judged, of being embarrassed, of not being able to fit and so much more.
The last time I went on an airplane I had to ask for a seatbelt extension. I'm dreading that!!! I set the goal to be 299 before I leave in 24 days but that goal was set before I had this awful eating days (Yes, I didn't openly admit to more than just that one day. Yesterday was NOT on plan).
My goal is a loss of 3lbs a week. I'm going to up that bit before my trip so I can try to make my 299 goal. Weigh-in is tomorrow. I'm a little nervous to see the number. I'm really hoping it will show a number lower than last week! I've decided I need to UP my workouts to get the results I want for my 24-day goal!
P.S. Besides my 32 min workout I also walked my kids to school. That was a 15 min walk walked at a rate of 3.5mph.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Okay, I didn't literally slip but I MAJORLY SLIPPED on my weight loss program!!!! I was just going to keep it a secret and not share anything about it here on SP but I have to keep it REAL!
I'm hoping to be one of the many people I admire here who can post that they've lost 100+ lbs. When I find people like that I peruse their blogs to get ideas, inspiration and just a little pick-me-up. I want to keep a blog not for my own personal journey but for a resource, in a year or so, for others who are where I am now. So to do that I have to write everything, the good, the bad and the UGLY!
Last night was UGLY! So my husband is out of town which puts me as a single parent right now. The kids have no school today so yesterday felt like a Friday night. My 12-year-old has been eating healthy and has the goal to lose 1lb a week. I didn't feel like cooking last night so I let her choose where we were going to purchase our dinner. She chose McDonald's. Together we sat down and looked at all the nutritional facts before setting out to get it. I knew what my nutritional facts were here on SP and how much wiggle room I had to stay within the guidelines. Unfortunately I had A LOT of wiggle room. My daughter and I each got a salad and a small fry. (still didn't put me over on any of my numbers). We checked out the nutritional facts for the meal my 16 yo son ordered....1500 calories! Good thing he's an athlete and probably burns that in one workout!
Even though I ordered a salad I'm feeling bloated, the spiciness of it along with the salt on the fries was too much!! I'm learning that about myself. Even before I started eating healthy I rarely added salt to things.
Anyway, after that meal I was going to be done for the night. WRONG! I don't know if it was all the carbs in the fries or just the fact that I went off plan but I wanted MORE!!! And the craving, DESIRE hit me strong! Unfortunately my 12 yo daughter, my healthy eating buddy, left to hang out with a friend or I would NEVER have done what I did. I didn't want to be a bad example to her.
My older kids were taking the car for the night so I told them I had to go get gas in the car. Well the closest gas station is connected to a Safeway. We needed milk and eggs so I used it as an excuse to go in and buy my dear old friend that I haven't seen in two weeks....PEANUT M&M's!!!!!! Unfortunately I also bought their YUMMY cookies and a box of Mike and Ikes. As I climbed into my car I could feel my hands shaking, I couldn't get to the cookies fast enough. I chowed down an oatmeal, raisin, cranberry cookie faster than I could blink. I felt bad, but not bad enough to stop.
When I got home it ended up just being me and the three youngest home. We put in the movie Tangled, I had never seen it. In the process of setting things up I ate ANOTHER cookie, then a THIRD!!!!! Half-way through the movie I opened up the Mike and Ikes and we divided them up four ways. After putting my kids to bed I was going to snuggle in mine with a good book and my M&M's. That was my daily routine just two weeks ago. But after the movie I was feeling SOOO bad both physically and emotionally. I knew I couldn't take back what I had already eatten but I wasn't going to make it worse.
Here I am, the morning after, feeling AWFUL! My stomach hurts and the scale was scary (thank goodness it isn't my day to log in my weight).
That wonderful yellow bag of delicious goodness (or fatness) is or was sitting in my pantry this morning. Today is garbage day and in front of my kids I took out the bag and put it into the black can that is waiting at the curb. A few of my kids were freaking out because it was a waste of money to throw it away. A few of them wanted them if I didn't but I told them we already enjoyed cookies last night and a little bit of movie treats and NONE of us needed anymore of that junk in our body.
So, there it is, the ugly, the bad and the GOOD!
And a HUGE yell out to TUBLADY! I read a comment she wrote on yesterday's blog post. I hadn't "met" her yet so I traveled to her Spark Page. I'm so glad I did! Her amazing story and results were one of the things that helped me walk away from doing further damage! THANK YOU!
Update***********I wasn't planning on working out today but DID!
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