Thursday, April 07, 2011
Energy output = D- I should have given myself an F in that category but HEY, I do get out of bed and take care of 9 kids (seven of my own and two daycare).
It's easy to think about losing weight especially here on Spark People. There is SO much to read, learn and gain motivation from. Blogs, articles, challenges, recipes, Spark teams...ETC. Before joining Spark People, and when I drifted away for a bit, I'd have given my thought output on weight loss a C. I occassionaly thought about it but not much.
Now, having seen the light and realizing I NEED to do something about this unhealthy body I'm living in, I came back to SP which spiked my THINKING up by quite a bit, hence the A+. I've been having a hard time putting all that thought into action.
I signed up for the Your Way 5K last week and completed day one, last week. I should be on day 5! Realizing that I'm way off track I decided I needed to get myself in gear. I've been motivated by SO MANY OF YOU and all you have accomplished. Reading about your successes and wishing they were mine will NOT get me healthy.
I set out my shoes last night and set my alarm for 5:45. About 3am I changed the alarm to 6:30! At that time life gets crazy and stays crazy!!! As I continued to use my A+ thinking abilities purusing this wonderful site I realized I need to do something and quit PUTTING IT OFF.
I tucked my 3-year-old and the two daycare kids (2-year-old and 10-month-old) down for a nap, grabbed my tennis shoes and hit the treadmill for day 2 of my Your Way 5K and did the One mile assignment!
Accomplishing that assignment today can move my physical output grade up to a D. I need to stay consistent for a bit longer to be able to reach the same high level of my Thoughts.
Spark People, thanks for the wonderful site and terrific friends who all have such wonderful blogs, advice and success stories to read about. Thanks for the inspiration and motivation now It's my turn to take action to inturn inspire and motivate others.
Stay tuned and watch the success story be written.
Wednesday, April 06, 2011
So I'm back from my wonderful trip! It was a great time. I took my 12-year-old daughter to a church conference, a trip each of my kids get to do when they turn 12. My sister and niece also went along with a good friend and her daughter.
We had an amazing fun time along with spiritual moments that helped me put everything in my chaotic life back in perspective.
I didn't do 100% on my goals for the trip. I did come home with a .5 lb loss. Not much but heading in the right direction. I had planned on utilizing the hotel's gym but never did. We did get TONS of walking in each day.
There have been many times I thought I'd hit my all time low, the time when something happened that I thought "this is IT, this is the time I'm going to lose my weight and get healthy!" The time my son cried because he didn't think I'd be able to fit in the rides at Disneyland, the time I had to ask the flight attendant for a seatbelt extender or the time my doctor said he'd give me three months to start losing weight or he would push for weight loss surgery! YIKES! Each of those times got me started but my lazy-let-life-get-in-the-way personality always won out.
Well, through blogs and Facebook I've been back intouch with a couple of my roommates from freshman year at college. Both live an hour away from where the conference was held. They always tell me "When you come this way we have to get together"(I live 15 hours away). Out of embarrassment for my weight I didn't call them or let them know I'd be only an hour away from them.
On our first day sight seeing we stopped on a bench enjoying the beautiful 77 degree day. Part of our group ran back to the hotel to grab the camera and I sat visiting with my sister. As I was watching all the people walking around the huge courtyard outside a prominent sight-seeing building I saw one of my roommates walking in the courtyard with her husband. I was flabbergasted! I was torn insided! I love her dearly, like a sister, but the embarrassment of my appearance wanted me to hide away and not let her notice me. (she probably wouldn't have anyway since I'm over 100lbs heavier than I was during college). My love for her won out and I straightened my shoulders and took a deep breath and Yelled out her name. It was wonderful to see her again! To give her a hug and chat. I know she doesn't care how I look but I do.
What a blessing it was to have seen her. I'm going to use the feelings of embarrassment I had as another motivator to help me lose weight. I have another daughter who will be 12 for the conference in April 2012. I've made the goal to call my dear friends before I come to their state next year. I will use this year to get in the best shape I can and when a year rolls around I will be proud of who I am, I will be able to hold my head higher AND my dear friend will DEFINITELY recognize her old college roommate then.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I began my Spark journey in November of '09. Not to be modest but...I was on FIRE! I sat down and set my goals, decided how I was going to achieve them and TOOK OFF!
Well, life happened and I fell off track, headed down the wrong road and took TOO MANY wrong turns along the way. I knew I was on the wrong road, thought about the right path, but decided it was too much work to get back there. In the past 13 months of traveling in the wrong direction I have had glimpses of the right path. The mental desire was there to make the journey back, ( actually I was FORCED to think about it out of fright! There are too many death traps on the path I've been traveling on) But my willpower, strength and feelings of unworthiness kept me on the harder, darker path...ALONE!
With feeling that death was right around the next corner I sat down and pulled out my maps and tools that I began this journey with. They are still the same truths but since I got SOOO far off track it will take me awhile to find my way back to the right road. I am heading in the right direction and could REALLY use some fellow travelers on this journey.
Afte re-grouping and reading my original travel guide I saw that as of last week I would have met my ultimate destination...IF I had stayed on track. But instead I've added on 5 more lbs to my original travel gear.
I'm hoping to find the same enthusiasm I started with that will allow me to speed up my journey but the most important thing is the completion! A year will pass, even five or ten, there's nothing I can do about it. But one thing is certain I do NOT want to be traveling the same road of misery and life threatening situations longer than I need to. How soon I reach my destination or if I EVER get there will be up to ME!
Do I want to LIVE LIFE or let it pass me by? I hope I can find the strength and will power to answer that correctly!
Monday, December 13, 2010
It's been almost a year since my last blog. Wow, I've sat here and read through a few of my last posts. Who was that person? Someone I wish did not go away, someone I wish had stuck it out and gotten stronger. Instead she disappeared, allowed A LOT of serious life issues to throw her off track and prove that she wasn't really as strong as she thought she was.
Even if she wasn't strong enough to keep her head up when life hit her she was stronger than I am now and I need her!!!! I know she's there somewhere and I've been trying for months to be able to reach down far enough to grab a hold of her, with no success.
Early Friday morning I was struck hard with the stomach flu. My husband was out of town, my kiddos were all asleep and I found myself for hours in my bathroom vomiting, shaking and crying (I never throw up only when I delivered my first baby and had my appendix taken out).
Believe it or not being weakened by the stomach flu is helping me find that old stronger me. Of course losing 11lbs in two days helps but being in such a weakened state gave me a lot of time for internal inspection and I didn't like what I found and where I'm heading...again. I tossed out my reading stash of peanut M&Ms (a very bad, old habit!) And now that I'm able to keep food down I'm counting calories, making right food choices to regain my energy and of course...Coming back to Spark People to put all aspects of my health back in place, reconnect with my SP friends and support group, AND reconnect with that stronger me and work on making her even stronger so that the next time life knocks me down I'll get RIGHT BACK UP!
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