Wednesday, December 09, 2009
I couldn't WAIT for last night's finale of The Biggest Loser. It's one of my favorite shows! I love watching them work hard and seeing what they are able to accomplish. I love their Ah- Ha moments, it helps me to push forward!
I hurried to tuck in my little ones before the show started and then began to sit down to enjoy the 2-hour finale. As I sat I realized I didn't have enough steps in for the day, only 7900, not the 10,000. I got up and started walking in place checking every once in awhile. It actually took me 30 minutes to get to 10,275 but I did it.
Then that led me to remember 2004 and how I had lost 70lbs in 3.5 months. I watched what I ate and I walked 10,000 steps six days a week. I realized that my results back then were VERY similar to the weight loss of the Biggest Loser Contestants. Unfortunately I got complacent around the holidays and then had a miscarriage before I knew it I had celebrated and stress eaten my way back up to my original 310 weight plus gained 10 more.
But the fact is I do have another chance, and another and another (if I need it) to get healthy. I will keep fighting until I get myself healthy because if I don't I've already lost.
Today, it's now 3:30, I don't have my 10,000 steps in but I'm planning ahead. One of my daughters has an eye therapy appointment every week that is 40 minutes from home. Instead of just sitting there reading a book I'm going to walk in the dark cold night (high is 25 today) and see how high I can get my pedometer. (I've packed a hat, two coats and gloves!)
As far as The Biggest Loser finale goes, it was AMAZING! The amount that all the contestants lost in a 7 month period was phenomenal! Although it's inspiring I want to lose mine at a more normal pace. No starve tactics here just eating right and trying to exercise 30-60 minutes a day six days a week. Danny and Rudy were so handsome, Rebecca win was exiting for the at-home but I didn't care for her hair, dress, or hyper personality. I was thrilled with Shay's loss. She weighed in only 1.5 more than I weigh now. I look forward to seeing her again in May.
Hey, that gives me an idea...I'm going to race with Shay. I'll compare my weight loss to hers come the May finale. That will be motivating although I won't be receiving $1,000/per pound like she'll be. Anyone want to sponsor me? I'll have to come up with some kind of award for myself if I lose more than her. Any ideas?
Monday, December 07, 2009
...As I started this week because it's now almost half empty!!!
It all started last night. I went upstairs to have a discussion with one of my teenage sons about his weekend ( and some poor choices). What I thought would be a small 5 minute discussion ended up being two hours with lots of tears from both parts. I finally hugged my huge 6'6" "little" boy, told him I loved him and wished him good night. I went downstairs and did some more crying! It's so hard to be a teenager and harder still to be the teenagers mom. My heart aches and I'm emotionally drained!
I finally fell asleep at 1:00 a.m. so I didn't get up at 5 to go to Curves. My morning did start at 6 though to get started on my transcription work and get my kiddos up and moving for school.
Then this morning as I was driving my two middles schoolers and three neighbors to school my car overheated and broke down! ARGHHHH! Thankfully I was in the school parking lot and had already dropped off the kids. So I gathered up my little ones, went inside and called my hubby. He came to the rescue but we had to leave the car there.
I'm thankful for the strength I'm feeling. My old self, just one month ago, would have caved under less pressure and would have gone to the store for Peanut M&M's, Hershey Nuggets and WHOLE milk! I would have shut the world out (or as much as I could with 8 kids to watch over, including my daycare child) grabbed a good book and eaten it ALL!
This WILL be a good day, I'm making it my mantra. It IS a good day, It IS a good day!!! I will make it so! Now I just have to figure out when to get my workout in. But for now I've clipped on my pedometer and will NOT go to bed until I reach 10,000 steps.
Monday, December 07, 2009
I'm ready for tomorrow. I'm ready to weigh in on Tuesday (and Wednesday for my BL challenge). I'm ready to feel the difference in my body, the happiness in my soul and the looseness of my clothes.
This weekend has been perfect! Yesterday I got a lot of workouts in. I'm following a routine which on Saturday means a workout at Curves at 8:30 in the morning and then a 3 mile walk in the afternoon. After my Curves workout was done I went outside to get into my car only to find it was blocked by a huge truck hanging a sign on the business next door. They told me they'd be a few more minutes. Instead of wasting my time I went back into Curves and just jogged in place on their jogging boards. (I'm wearing a pedometer so that DEFINITELY helped me get closer to my 10,000 steps).
At 1 o'clock I met my sister, along with two of my daughters, for our weekly Saturday walk at a nature park. This time we decided to take a different trail for variety. I'm definitely the slowest of the group so I told them to work at their own pace, don't wait for me, we're all in this to get ourselves healthy. My 11-year-old jogged the whole thing with my sister. My 17-year-old would run/jog ahead and then jog back to find me and walk for a little bit. Then she'd be off again running, etc, etc....
To be honest I LOVED the time I was walking by myself. It gave me so much time to think. I thought of my goals, visualized myself skinnier, healthier. A young mom with a stroller ran past me and I imagined myself doing that a year from now pushing my youngest while the others are at school.
The new trail we chose was harder, longer and had hills to climb up and stagger down. It was a WORKOUT! There were times I wanted to quit. At one point when my daughter was walking with me I said, "It's better walking here than at the track. At the track if I was tired I'd cut across the middle and go to the car. But here even though I'm tired I CAN"T give up. I have to keep walking if I want to go home. During the times it felt too much I thought of inspirational people. The Biggest Loser show, my own kids and Zircadia from Spark People. She ran her first marathon yesterday while I was struggling with my 3.5 miles. What a wonderful example she is! I ended my day with over 15,000 steps, my legs ached and were shaky but it felt SOOO good!
Today was a growth building day in a different way, it was my day of rest. On Sundays I don't exercise I give my body a break to focus on the spiritual. I was definitely spiritually fed!
In my church, I'm LDS, we have a fast Sunday. First Sunday of each month we do not eat or drink for up to 24 hours. The money that we would have spent on those meals we donate to the church which is then given to those in need. It's also a time to focus on our spirit and not our physcial body and draw closer to our Heavenly Father and Savior through prayer. After church I was able to view hundreds of nativities. They were gorgeous, all donated for the week's display at our church and from all over the world. Then I was able to listen to wonderful music and inspirational Christmas messages.
I'm so thankful to be able to start a new week. Make changes where I need to. Put my body to the test. Continue to make my weak areas stronger. Spend time with my kids and their CRAZY schedules. And help bring the true meaning of Christmas into our home trying to ignore the commercialism of it all as much as we can.
Thursday, December 03, 2009
Tuesday was my official weekly weigh-in day but I do have to admit I usually weigh myself daily. On Tuesday my scale showed an official loss of 4.8lbs!!! I was excited to get that kind of result with the past week being Thanksgiving and TOM arriving the day before. Then yesterday I got on the scale and I was down another .2. Today I got on the scale and I was another pound down...303.8!!!! I can't believe it!
I am almost out of the 300's. It is SO close I can't stand it! I think this is going to push me to work out a little harder each day and really log every bite I eat. (I've actually been doing great with that. My 9 year old got a s mall candy cane blizzard yesterday, didn't eat it all so I ate the last6 bites. I logged it and I still came out okay on my tracker.)
I see a lot of people excited to enter the ONEderlands and it is exciting for them (Hey, when I get to that point I'll be sobbing with Elation!) But for me, right now, leaving the 300's is thrilling. I haven't seen the 200's since the beginning of my pregnancy with Hannah almost three years ago.
Speaking of Hannah, a little update. It's been almost two weeks since her finger accident. Since then we've been to the specialist twice for bandage changes. I have to admit it was hard for me to see her finger. The last time, two days ago, her finger was looking worse to me. Red, puffy with green pussy scabbing. I asked the doctor about it and he said, "It actually looks really good". Okay, if you say so. He said we can start taking her bandage off at home only for showers. I visited with the older kids and let them know not to make an comments like "Oh, GROSS" "YUCK" etc... Some are a little apprehensive and said they'll leave the room when we take the bandage off for the shower. The doctor thinks it will mend nicely on it's own, if it doesn't then they'll shave off the tip of the bone and do a skin graft.
I'm so thankful for the success I'm having and that it has finally "clicked" mentally to stick with this.
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