Tuesday, January 01, 2013
For the past 3 years we've had a tradition (my sister, daughters and I) to do our own 5K on January 1st. For the other three times it had been pouring! Today it was Beautiful but Cold! Due to some illness and scheduling problems it was just my sister and I doing it today. Having had a yo-yo-ing year my endurance wasn't where it should have been or could have been. But I was pleased with my time, 54 minutes!
As I was walking it was time to spend on reflections. I'm discouraged where I am at the end of the year. I had so many goals set for 2012, I had posters made, signs on my bathroom mirror, a vision board made and ALL the numbers figured out for where I needed to be to get out of Morbidly Obese, Obese 2, Obese, Overweight and normal.
It didn't do me any good! I did great the first quarter of the year then spent the remaining time trying to get my head on straight again and find the motivation.
In 2011 I weighed my heaviest, 325. Set tons of goals and ended up losing 8lbs.
In 2012 once again the goals were made and instead of the 112 lbs set it was 14.8.
Good news? I can at least say that over the year I still came up with a loss. Bad news? Still in the 300's, still morbidly obese....BUT...the mind set is back and I'm ready to do this!
What will be different? I feel I've fixated on all the numbers associated with weight loss too much! My goals have always been to lose XX amount of weight by a certain, date or occassion. There have been times when the special occassions have come and my goal number was met but then immediately after the number on the scale starts increasing again.
This time I'm not focusing on the numbers. I know what the ideal range for my height is. I don't need to spend every day recalculating all the different ways to get there. The true desire is to be healthy, to commit to a healthy life not just until I see a ceratin number on the scale. My goals for this year will focus on that. By focusing on the actions/habits I need to change the weight will come off and eventually I'll be out of the obese category and someday (hopefully sooner rather than later) I'll be in the normal range.
I have three simple goals for my healthy lifestyle change:
1. Follow my half-marathon training (will change that after May 11th)
2. Do at least 60 min of ST a week
3. Eat within calorie range at least 5 days a week.
Here's to a HEALTHY 2013!
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Yep, I have signed up for a half marathon. The date is May 11th, 19 weeks from today!
The Half, or quarter, marathon is for women only. Last year over 20 women and daughters from church signed up to do the 2012 one. As it got closer I was hearing more and more chatter and excitement about it. To be honest I allowed my feelings to be hurt that I hadn't been informed or invited to participate. But then who would have thought that an over 300lb woman would even be interested in doing it.
I decided THEN that I would be doing it for 2013. My weight is not much different now, but mentally I made this commitment at the begining of the year and I WILL DO IT! Registration was Nov 1st and I stayed up until midnight to sign in right away before I could second guess myself.
I am not planning on running or jogging the 13.1 miles. I need to get weight off my joints before I even contemplate doing that. Having been inspired by SLIMKATIE's huge success I'm trying the half marathon training program she recommends, Hal Higdon. He has several levels, even one for walking.
So today I finished week two of the training. Assignment today, 3 miles. Very doable. I've walked several 5K distances. It'll start getting interesting at week 4 when the Saturday's assignment will be to walk 5 miles. Thankfully most of the time he says to do it easy. The program is 12 weeks but I have 19 more weeks so after finishing the 12 weeks I'll start back begining with week 4. Who knows, after 12 weeks of walking maybe I'll feel strong enough, with some weight gone, to try some walk/jog. We'll see.
For now I'm thrilled to be moving again, with a physical goal to keep me going.
Monday, August 13, 2012
This is MY LIFE!
I keep starting and stopping. When I stop I completely fall off the healthy lifestyle. Yes, this last pause I was able to pull off a Sprint Triathalon but truly, as long as you feel comfortable in the water, I think Anyone could do a Sprint Tri. I'm proud that I did it, glad to know I could do it but knowing how little I trained for it (from April on) it's really doable for all.
Sometimes I go through times that I JUST DON'T CARE about my health. Surprisingly I've cared more about my Peanut M&M's, my Mexican restaurants, my carb cravings being fulfilled with salty chips and white breat and my sugar (anything SWEET!)
When will I finally put ME first?! Not just mysefl first so I can have a few minutes to read. Not just me first so I can take a nap. Not just me first so I can take a stroll in the neighborhood and get some fresh air. When will I finally put ME first so I do NOT die?!!!
I have to stop this back and forth. I have to stop making the commitment to myself for only a two month period only to run quickly back to my friend (?) the Two Pound bag of Peanut M&M's.
The Sprint Triathalon was a good wake up call for me. Not only did I realize I was NO WHERE near where I had planned to be when I first contemplated the Tri back in January. (goal was 250. Instead of weighing that I had put back on most of my weight and did the Tri at 299.2). But seeing all these amazing fit women motivated me. One lady lapped me 4 times! Crazy! Several ladies did the swim in 8 min and did the 5k in 27 minutes (remember to throw in the bike portion in between the two)
These past few months I've been seeing a counselor. Someone to help me through life. Help me have a better marriage, steer my children better and how to be a better stronger me. My user name, Overhauling-Me, represents how I've felt for so long. It's just not a weight loss I'm looking for I'm aching for an all over wellness. I want to be physically healthy, spiritually healthy, mentally healthy and be a better organized, time manager mom/wife/ME.
I watched Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition last night. This episode hit home. She is the same age as me (45) and was fit at 23 (at 23 I was 170. Since I'm 6'0" that was a perfect weight for me). Her heaviest was 335, mine 325. One difference is as a youth she never struggled with her weight. I did from the time I was 11 or 12. She said on the show, something like, I've been killing myself with a fork. That's me, not really a fork but definitely with food!
Today I'm getting serious again. My life is NO joking matter but that's how I've been treating it. It's 5:15pm and so far I've stayed on track and have walked 2 miles. Yay me! But it's not the one day that counts. It's the hundreds of "one days" that will make up a year, a decade, the rest of my life.
Sunday, July 29, 2012
Yesterday was my first ever Sprint Triathalon and....I DID IT!
Flashback to a few weeks ago. I'd been doing my training. Not as extensive as I would have liked but was getting in several weekly swims and walks (mostly 5ks). Biking hadn't gone so well. About three weeks before the event I went with my 19yo daughter, Alex, and several other ladies to do the whole trail. It went well and then got off the bike and walked 1.5 miles. Everything A-OK. The next morning my tailbone THROBBED! I've dealt with a cyst on my tailbone since I was 18. It comes and goes and thankfully has been hidden for several years. I think the ride aggravated it. I did not get back on a bike for several weeks, was not even sure if I was going to do the biking portion because I could barely sit on my nice soft sofa. Knowing that there were two miles of offroad trails, Ouch, just the thought hurt!
Last week was absolutely crazy! Family came in from out of town (definitely threw me off training), my, now 14yo, daughter had her birthday with friend party and sleepover and my husband and 16yo and 17 yo sons left for Anaheim for a basketball tournament.
My daughter and I went to the mandatory meeting the night before the big event. Nerves were already going but we caught the fever as we mingled with the 260+ women who would be participating and finally received our packets and swim times. My daughter and I were thrilled to find out we'd been assigned the same pool and time and even the exact same lane!
Sleep did not happen as much as I wanted. Woke up at 5 but climbed out of bed at 5:45 (15 minutes before alarm went off). Once we showed up at the pool and watched the first heat swim and visited with the other swimmers for our heat I started to relax. The swimming portion was a tad frustrating for me. There were four swimmers in our lane, it slowed me down.
Next was cycling. Worried about my tailbone but decided to do it! Found out they had formed a second trail, one that was two miles shorter without the offroad. I chose that route since I really wanted to finish all three events. I'm so glad I did! The first loop around KILLED me. My legs hurt, my cardio was effected and my behind hurt SO BAD it brought tears to my eyes. There is NO CRYING in TRIs I told myself. I would NOT let the tears drop out! I told myself I could stop in a certain spot on the second loop. Bad mistake. Trying to get off my seat was a bad decision, my body was paralyzed with pain. After climbing back on the bike I told myself to peddle faster. Faster meant I'd finish sooner and that I'd be able to give my behind relief! Besides the tailbone issue I really enjoyed the biking. Something I haven't done since I was little.
As I jumped off my bike a volunteer came and took my bike and I went off on the 5k. I had no vision of jogging any of it and I didn't. But I was extremely proud of myself. I passed many walkers but no walkers passed me! Although I was passed several times my joggers!
It was so exciting to come to the finish line and to know I had done it!
I enjoyed watching some of the extremely fit women do their events, very motivating! It reminded me of what the human body CAN look like and what we CAN do. I have obviously not fulfilled all I can with the body God has given me. It's up to me to change it.
My weight loss and fitness was severly thrown offtrack in April and I haven't quite found my way back. I've gained weight back and actually did the Tri weighing 299.2. Many of the women (and volunteers) were shocked to find out I was doing all 3 events. Some only did one, others two. I needed to do all 3 to prove something to myself. So glad I did!
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