Friday, March 30, 2012
Yesterday I was still in my funk, although I was working on coming out of it. Eating healthy was NOT on the agenda. Since that was the case I had dh pick up hot cocoa and donuts at the store when he went to get fried chicken, jojo's, rolls and potato salad for dinner.
I have to admit, the yummy greasiness of the crispy chicken skin was DELICIOUS! Bad, I know, but oh so good!
My two youngest had been tucked in bed and the next four were all out busy with friends and activities. When my dh went to pick up one of the kiddos I decided to sit down with a mug of hot cocoa and a donut and watch something on TV. As I flipped through the guide the words...Fat and Fatter caught my eye.
I didn't turn it on from the beginning so I'm not completely sure what the set up was but this is what I gathered:
There were two 20-something girls from the UK who came to Mississippi to live with some morbidly obese sisters whom, I think, all had diabetes.. During their week stay they watched their lives. Saw the $6 all-you-can-eat buffet they regularly visited and the plates and plates of food they ate. These sisters had diabetes. All the women on the show looked similar so I'm not sure if everyone they visited were one of the sisters or not but...
One of the UK girls massaged a lady's feet. Since she has diabetes her feet go numb and she needs to get circulation going.
They visited another lady at a clinic where she goes 3 days a week for four hours a time to have her blood cleansed.
The sisters took them to a cemetery where several of their loved ones were buried all dying from complications of diabetes. One of which had nasty gangrene in her leg. The sisters admitted that seeing their aunt in the coffin made them want to change their lives but after a little time passed they forgot all about and continued with their unhealthy lifestyle.
Struggling with their own weight (they both probably had around 100lbs to lose) this adventure had an impact on the two UK girls. The last minute of the show caught up with them about two months after returning home. One girl, they said, did not test positive for diabetes and had not lost any weight. Although the girl, herself, thought she'd lost a tiny bit. When they mentioned she hadn't tested positive for diabetes it made me wonder if she thought, "Oh, all I saw does not pertain to me since I'm not diabetic"
The second girl picked up running as soon as she got home. They said she'd lost 16lbs in those first two months home.
As I watched this show it impacted me! Me, who was in a funk and eating JUNK. As I watched it I was NOT able to finish my donut, it physically made me ill. I only consumed 1/3 of it. This is a HUGE change for me. In years past the old me would sit and watch The Biggest Loser every Tuesday with junk food!
What's scary is that my dh has diabetes. He's not doing anything to change it. His doctor has lectured him, I have pleaded, several of our kids have cried and begged him to eat healthier. I'm not sure why he hasn't wanted to get healthier. On Monday, as we drove to Taco Bell, I was opening up the mail. I mistakenly opened what I thought was a bill but it was results from my husband's latest doctor's appt. All his diabetes numbers were out of whack along with his fats and cholesterol. What will be his turning point? How low does he have to go before he decides to make the change? Hopefully not as far as I saw on the show Fat and Fatter.
As for me, that show helped snap me out of my funk. A reminder of why THIS time is going to be the time I DO get healthy. I even called to schedule an appointment with my doctor. Haven't been in almost 3 years.
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Don't really know what to call this post. But I know I need to post something. I want my blogs to be an accurate accounting of my journey. Right now I'm completely off track!
Did so well on my drive to Boise! Ate healthy the whole drive. Got in around 8pm and still stayed focused. Got up early and walked the neighborhood. For some reason I felt like I was going to faint. Almost called my sister-in-law to let her know which direction I went in case I didn't come home. Made it back to their house without fainting and had a yummy oatmeal with peaches.
We hurried off to the first of 3 bball games that day. I was still feeling shaky and light headed. Still not sure why. I ate almonds, then had a greek yogurt, and drank lots of water! Still feeling shaky I found some left over movie candy in my purse. Ate it. After the second game we headed back to my brother's for some YUMMY pulled pork. He worked on it for over 16 hours. I had pulled pork and veggies! Then left of the third game of the day.
When we got home everyone bought pizza and Krispy Kreme donuts. I caved. I had 1 donut and three slices of pizza.
The next day my girls and I loaded up and headed home (there were still two more games but I can't drive for hours if I get started in the evening and have to drive in the dark. My intentions were to eat healthy on the drive but this time around I didn't. I felt anxious, bored and know that my eating was due to those emotions.
Monday morning I had all my kids home for Spring break and daycare kids here. I didn't wake up early since I was exhausted from the drive home. I never did get any workouts in yesterday and ATE all the wrong stuff. Today, I've done the same. I feel like I really could care less but that's not accurate. I do care. I don't want to slip completely off like I have so many other times. But for some reason I stuffing food in until I feel almost sick. Candy, chicken nuggets, snickerdoodle cookies, lots of Milk, pancake and eggs....and some strawberries and grapes.
I'm feeling emotionally and mentally drained! I need to snap out of it! Maybe my trip, right before spring break, was TOO MUCH of a whirlwind trip, throwing me TOO off balance. It's only day two of spring break and I want to pull my hair out, climb into a hole and come out when it's all over!
It's 6:20. Haven't made dinner yet but I have several kids asking "What's for dinner?" ARGH, I don't know!!!!!!!
Tomorrow I promised the kids I'd take them to a fun indoor pool place. Taking a 13, 12, 8, 4, 3 and 1 year old is going to take work. I want to let my 13 and 12 yo be in charge of the little kids so I don't have to put a bathing suit on. SIGH, I know that won't really work or be fair.
Okay, some how I need to snap out of this. I missed a weigh-in for two of my groups (Sunday and Monday) and my BL challenge weigh-in is tomorrow. I know there will be a HUGE gain. I've got to brush it off and start everything fresh tomorrow. I know with the crazy spring break schedule I won't be able to wake up at my normal early workout time. I'll have to find little 15 minute segments.
P.S. My son's team WON the bball tournament. One player on the team fell hard onto the court, when he picked his head up he was covered in blood. Split his forhead open and got a concussion. Didn't play the third game but, surprisingly, he did play the last two games the next day. His dream college is Boise State University. The coach happened to be at the tournament and this kid played phenomenal even injured and dazed! How fun for him!
Saturday, March 24, 2012
I know this is going to say it's Saturday but truly it's Friday night, 11:00.
It's been a CRAZY day. Stood in line for the movie. Thank goodness we were the first showing and we got to get into the theater at 9:00 out of the cold! But the weight was SO LONG! Movie was great! Did a good job following the book. With any great book made into a movie they did have to delete some things and tweak it a bit so they could get the main gist of the book across in the 2hour + time frame. A couple of those "tweaks" bothered me but not enough to take away from the greatness! I recommend it but not for younger kids!
We got home and into bed at 3:00 am Back up at 8:30, finished packing and loaded the cars (we have to take two) and headed on the road for our 8hr drive to Boise! Thank goodness the weather was great and AMAZINGLY I did fine with the drive. Normally a 2hr drive with me driving is my limit. I was a bit worried but extremely thankful I made it!
I made GREAT food choices on the drive. Our family's routine on a trip is LOTS of junk! I did pack a few for the cars but also packed yogurt, string cheese, carrots, broccoli, apples, little cuties, strawberries and almonds (protein shakes for me). No exercise in today. I wanted to go for a walk when I got to my brother's home but we did't arrive until 8:30pm and didn't feel I could ignore him and his family. Tomorrow I'll be waking up early and heading outdoors. I plan on getting two or three smaller workouts in between the 3 games that we have.
Goal for the trip...Have FUN and maintain!
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