Thursday, February 02, 2012
Yesterday was the day I "officially" weigh in and input it on SP. I actually weigh myself everyday, not allowing the up and down fluctuation to play with my mind. I use it as motivation for my day.
When I got on the scale this morning I saw..............299.6!!! YES, That's Right that's a TWO in the front!!! I wasn't expecting that for another week. I was shocked, it caused me to pause a bit. I stepped off and got back on. Yes, stayed the same. YAY!!!
I wanted to shout it on the roof tops! The only person awake was my husband, and sadly enough I didn't want to share it with him.
He's been wonderful, supportive and caring through this whole journey. I KNOW he would have been thrilled for me. So what's the problem? ME! I'm sure my husband already knew I was in the 300s. I've been here forever with very, VERY short visits into the 290s. My husband used to be 330. Now? 275. Wow, that's great, AWESOME! Yeah, except he hasn't done anything to lose it. He has diabetes and he's ignored it. His untreated, dangerous health condition is making him lose weight. He sits on the couch and eats ice cream each night. He probably has at least 84oz of soda a day. And inbetween that he eats poorly! Last night for dinner he had 5 items from Taco Bell (I oredered the Fresco chicken soft taco, brought it home and made up a huge bowl of steamed veggies).
I just didn't want to share with him that I had been in the 300st. I've always been lighter than him, except for the last year.
Right after weighing myself I got on the treadmill for an hour. My husband poked his head in the garage to tell me bye before he left for work. I had the urge to tell him my exciting news. I blurted it out and immediately started crying! Of course he was thrilled for me but my confusing emotions were right at the surface. I'm thrilled to be out of the 300s but at the same time I'm completely embarrassed that I had even let myself get that obese.
I'm fine now. Very proud of myself and my hardwork. I texted my mom, two sisters and my college-age daughter to let them all know. They are my long distance cheerleaders!
I'm thankful for my family's support, especially my husband's. I know he might be lighter than me but in reality he is sicker. He told me, as I cried, how proud of me he was and wished that he had the determination that I've been showing the past month. I so hope he'll have the desire to take care of his health!
Wednesday, February 01, 2012
January found me making a comeback to SparkPeople. I'm so thankful I did. Wasn't able to start on January 1st due to the stomach flu but I began my healthy eating and exercising on Jan. 3rd.
Still worked on sticking with the calorie range 1200-1550. Most days I stayed within that range. Some days I was full, even stuffed, and was surprised to find my calories were low. And there were a few, less than a handful, days when my calories went a bit over. I always tracked so the overage was not a surprise, or ignored.
My workouts I started small. Began on my treadmill at a pathetic 2.7 speed. Now, just four weeks later, I'm doing it mostly at 3.2 speed, an incline of 3.0. Sometimes I've been able to do 3.6 for a minute or so. My stamina is so much stronger! I usually do my treadmill for 45min and once this month did a 5K in 56:59 min!
Two weeks ago I started going to the gym. Just 10min on the elliptical was a KILLER! It's amazing how each cardio activity uses such different muscles. I'm trying to mix it up more. At the gym I do ST 3 days a week, warm-up with the elliptical, then finish with the recumbant bike.
I failed to take measurements at the beginning but I did take them today! I feel so much stronger, energetic, energized and all in only 4 weeks! And a perk from this dedication?.....
GOAL for February:
1. Lose 10lbs
2. Figure out a more comprehensive ST program
3. Increase monthly exercise minutes to 1920 (Jan was 1880)
4. Drink 72 oz of water each day.
5. Schedul appointment with trainer for body fat
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Have you ever been camping where they have signs posted advising you to keep food out of smell, reach and sight of the bears? Whenever we go my younger kids are always very vigilant out of FEAR. Before we leave for a hike or turn in for the night they make sure that everything is locked tight in coolers and even into the car. That no scrap of food is to been seen or smelled so the bears STAY AWAY!
Well, I am a BEAR, and you better keep that food AWAY FROM ME!
I'm finding I can't have food left out where I can see, it smell it, or get to it. I can make meals for my family and daycare kids but if I leave the food out after it's served my cravings kick in and I become a Starving Bear. My glands start salivating, I can taste the food just through smell and I MUST have it. If I allow myself even just one bite when I'm in Bear mode it will not stop there.
Have you ever tried taking food away from a raging bear after just one bite? Not a pretty sight!
Of course, I'm a pretty civilized bear, once the food is portioned for someone or is in front of them I will leave it alone. I won't frighten the poor child away so I can access it.
I know where I have to hunt for my food. I have spots in my cupboard that are for me. My family is welcome to it as well but that's the area I can go to. I also have a section in the fridge as well as the fridge out in the garage.
But there are times, when food is left in my sight and smell, when I just can't stay away. Thank goodness there are some BIG hunters at my house. Last night I was reaching for the scrumpteous yellow cake with chocolate frosting, when my 6'8" son came and scared me off. I wasn't about to come back for it with him standing guard.
So, Please Don't feed the bears! They know where to find their food and it is MUCH healthier for them (me)!
Saturday, January 28, 2012
This afternoon I had to head up to the school to pick up my 17yo son from basketball practice. He's still in a walking boot but works on his shot while the team practices. I thought I'd share our conversation on the ride home.
Before he could sit shotgun he had to move the monthly schedule of classes from my gym. As he buckled his seatbelt I told him, "While you were working out I went to the gym and did 15minutes on the elliptical and 25 minutes on the recumbant. PLUS, while you were sleeping I woke up at 6:30 (YES, on a Saturday morning) and did a 5k in 57min and actually JOGGED for the last minute"
He kind of looked at me and nodded then asked "How much have you lost?" "12.5lbs!" I proudly announced.
"Seems like it should be more than that" was his reply. (I think his generation has grown up seeing the BIGGEST LOSER, which I love, and assume weight loss should be just as fast in real life as it is on the reality show.) I took no offense and replied, "It might not sound very much but if I was to lose 10lbs a month that would be 120lbs in one year."
His next question..."How much total weight do you want to lose?" "Well, I said, I've already lost some so from this point on I still need/want to lose 145lbs more. But my goal is to lose 102lbs this year to get out of the obese category."
He paused for a moment then turned and said, "Wouldn't it have been easier to have just done all this all along?"
Without thinking I said, "Yes, yes, it would have but I allowed insecurities, life's struggles and my family to come first on my priority list before my own health. I'm already a better mom because I'm putting my needs first and as I get healthier and stronger I'll have even MORE to offer others."
I started crying, (my kids know that's a given for me and usually just roll their eyes) I told him I need all the help he can give me, that this won't be easy and that I had started and stopped WAY TOO many times...This time it's going to happen!
This son has been a motivating factor for me both from his positive example and his own personal struggles and weaknesses. I can't WAIT to show him what this old mom of his CAN DO!
Friday, January 27, 2012
My alarm went off at 4;40 am and....I GOT OUT OF BED!!!
At first I didn't want to. I said, outloud, "UGH, I don't want to get up" Then I heard my husband say, "You'll feel so proud of yourself if you do" At first I wanted to say, "Well, I don't see YOU getting up and working out" But I didn't. This is my goal, my journey and I'm not going to wait for anyone else to join me (although I hope eventually he decides to). He has been wonderfully supportive in this.
Took me longer to get to the gym than planned because my workout clothes were still slightly damp. Once there I followed my plan:
warm-up with 10min on the elliptical (still at a level 1) This is a HARD machine for me. Oh My STARS I feel muscles I don't usually use. It HURTS, but a great hurt!
Next ST for 40 minutes. I want to change this up. The trainer started the program for me but I think she gives the same workout to everyone just adjusting their weights. I want to create a true ST plan for me. Going to have to do some studying and research. Any advice on this is welcomed.
Then I finished up with 20min on the bike.
I felt so great when I was done! When I headed back to my car at 6:20 my windows were frozen (I had to scrape them off at 5 when I left my house)...BRRR cold morning! I walked in the door at the perfect time to wake up my high school boys. (My middle school girls wake up on their own 1.5 before they have to leave for school. My boys stumble out of bed 20min before they have to leave, although I try to get them going 10 minutes earlier) I don't think they liked my chipper cheery attitude.
Next workout plan for today is 30min of cardio. Originally thought of doing the treadmill but I think I'll try to do 2miles on the Walk@Home DVD.
This is going to be a GREAT day!
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