Wednesday, January 11, 2012
As most of you know I have 7 kids. Two of them are currently in high school and basketball players. One is 15 and a sophmore, 6'9" and plays for the school's JV team. The other one is 17, a Junior, 6'8" and is on the Varsity team.
Our school, like I'm sure most, have a tradition where the mom escorts their player onto the court/field on their last home game of their senior year. Well a week ago my Sophmore son came to me and said, "Mom, you've got to lose your weight, you have one year until you have to escort T for his last home game"
I know my weight is an embarrassment to them. They both are so athletic. Not only do I know my son would be proud of me and feel more comfortable with me on his arm in front of all his friends I know I will feel so much better walking in front of everyone at a healthier weight!
So I have approximately 13.5 months until that moment. Where would I like to see myself by then? In ONEderland! I'm not planning on being at goal but even 199 would be the lowest I've weighed in 21 years.
I'm keeping that goal as inspiration but kind of in the background. This time around I'm focusing on smaller, immediate goals. Being successful with those will get me to where I want to be.
Here is a picture with me and my two sons after last nights games. The one in the argyle sweater is the Junior the other the Sophmore.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Last year, between April and June, I was on FIRE! I was motivated, enthusiastic and DOING IT! With my crazy life in order to get my workouts in I was waking up at 4:45 and going to the gym or working out on my treadmill. Then summer hit! With the summer I had 7 kids at home with not as much structure. They were coming and going all hours of the day. The older kids didn't have curfews until 11:00 so I had to stay awake to welcome them home or bring them home. Well going to bed at 11:30 does NOT mix well with waking up at 4:45 so I quit. Quit going to the gym, Quit exercising at home, Quit eating healthy, Quit on ME!
I'm now finding the desire, enthusiasm and dedication to make this happen, to get ME healthy! Having 7 kids is crazy whether its summer or school time. I haven't made it back to the gym yet but my goal was to go today. Of course that would mean waking up at 4:45. As I was getting ready to start heading to bed (8:30, I know it's early but I was going to read for a few and hope to actually be counting sheep by 9:30) my sophmore son said, "Oh, I have a paper due tomorrow in English. Rough draft, revision and final copy. If I don't have it done I can't play in the bball game tomorrow." Really?!?!!!!! ARGH!
His solution to the problem was for me to write it for him. Uh, yeah, like that was going to happen. This is my ADHD son and school and he mix about as well as water and oil. He's thankfully been able to maintain As and Bs this year except for in English. This is a HUGE accomplishment for him. Every morning he wakes up saying he hates school and it's the first thing he says when he walks in the door 8 hours later. He has two older cousins also with ADHD and neither of them graduated from high school. I am fighting to keep him in school.
I probably should have said, "Well, get going you have a lot of work to do tonight and if you don't get it done this will be a good lesson to have to sit out of the game" I didn't do that. But I did NOT write the paper for him. I was able to help him not be stressed out, set him in a quiet room and had him brainstorm his paper. I was completely surprised when he brought a fairly thought out three page paper. I proof read it, made the corrections and because I can type 90WPM I typed the final copy for him. (also because he had to wake up at 5:30 for a basketball commitment at 6am! Who makes teenage boys wake up even earlier on an important game day!).
Okay, I know I got sidetracked. So Since I didn't get to bed until 11:30 needless to say my alarm was not set for 4:45. I did get up at 5:30 to get my son out the door and then was able to get 45 minutes of the treadmill in before my daycare kiddos showed up.
I know I have to stay focused on my goal and know my reality is a CRAZY, CHAOTIC life. I need to realize that my schedule will not go as I plan, there are too many others around me to throw it awry. I need to be flexible and if my family needs my help and I can't wake up early I need to have creative options to get enough exercise done throughout the day.
Monday, January 09, 2012
12/29 Is when I logged a weight....317. Was I doing anything to make that number to go down? No, but I was thinking a lot about it and starting back here, on Spark People. I was still eating my bags of sweets, not eating regular meals, except dinner, and NEVER drinking an ounce of water. And forget about exercising. Everything ached, my breathing was labored after walking up the stairs and any kind of movement made me feel like a beached wale.
1/1/12 Actively participating on several Spark teams. Still no exercising. Came down with the stomach flu so wasn't doing much about my eating but DEFINITELY wasn't making a chose to choose only healthy things.
1/2/12 Still sick with the stomach flu
1/3/12 Officially going with my goals, water, movement and calorie counting including logging all that stuff on SP and staying active with my groups.
Today I have lost a total of 6.2lbs!
* I actually got out of bed at 5:30 so I could get 30min of exercise in before my kids woke up.
* I took my kids to the park for 90 min on Saturday and actively walked around with them not sitting down once (the old me would have sat the whole time)
* I didn't have the ice cream and brownies my family did but instead had sugar-free pudding with fat free coolwhip.
* I don't ask my kids to do my errands upstairs, I want to go do them to add more steps to my pedometer.
* I don't sit and read all day, which was my way of "getting away from it all"
* I am getting my house clean, my kids played with, my family cared for PLUS have time for SP and shorter periods of reading.
* I feel stronger
* I like myself better
* I grasping all the possibilities that are out there waiting for me instead of thinking.."this is just how I am and how my life will be"
I could write so much more but WOW, have things changed in EVERY aspect of my life...It Feels GREAT! And that's only after 6lbs!
Friday, January 06, 2012
One of my old habits (as in one-week-old) was to sit up in my room, curled up in bed, reading a good book and eating CHOCOLATE! There were lots of different types of chocolate, Hershey Nuggest with almonds, boxes of chocolate, Snickers bar, Milk Duds, Hot Cocoa, and....PEANUT M&M's! Those were my usual stand by, my reading buddy. I'd pour a pile from a LARGE sized bag. I'd take one at a time and bit it in half trying to keep the peanut intact and, if I was successfull, I'd pull the peanut out of the yummy chocolate shell, eat that, then eat the chocolate deliciousness.
I wouldn't eat the entire LARGE bag in one sitting but it would definitely be gone in 1.5 to 2 days. I used to buy those about 2-3 times a week.
Today I went into my room to get something. The item was located near my bedside table. I was I walked towards it I got an OVERWHELMING smell of peanut M&Ms. Oh, my STARS! My mouth started watering and I actually paused for a moment. It's a good thing I have no chocolate in my house because I probably would have eaten some right then.
I know I will eat some of those chocolate goodies again but I CANNOT do it under the same circumstances! I've got to break that terrible habit and lose the connection of junk food and reading!
I've been doing great! After having the stomach flu on Sunday and Monday I was truly able to kick off my new healthy plan (exercising 6 days a week and eating within calorie range set by SP, 1200-1550) Of course it's only be 4 days but I've been 100% on goal.
The exercising has been a struggle! I'm no where in the same shape I was when I left SP back in June. I don't even feel like I'm in the same shape I was when I started in April. It just shows me that if I don't stay on track I lose not only what I gained but even what I already had, especially since I'm getting older. This time HAS TO BE the time that it clicks, no more yo-yo dieting, each time my body (and psychy) pays for it
Thursday, January 05, 2012
Here it is, the 5th day of a new year and I'm still sparking! My eating is going great, staying in my calorie range and eating healthy! It's amazing how I'm really getting more flavor and variety now that I'm making better food choices.
Exercise is happening. I've actually been able to get 50min in a day, not all at once however. It's nothing strenuous yet but, HEY, I'm moving. I need to start incorporating strength training. I have SO much flab! I'm a little worried once I start getting the weight off how much more flab I'll have. I feel, in the 6 months I was gone from SP, my body has changed for the worse as I've gained weight. I am flabbier now at 315 than I was at 325.
I'm having scale frustations! After stepping on it three times I got THREE different numbers! I think it's time for a new scale. Doing so will change my weight but I'd rather do it now, at the beginning, than have to do it further along the weight loss journey.
Still haven't written down my goals for 2012. I do know I have the goal to lose 100lbs for the year! I don't want to focus on that large span of time or impossible sounding number. So I'm going to break that down and focus on losing 10lbs a month. That sounds more doable...It IS doable!
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