Monday, January 09, 2012
12/29 Is when I logged a weight....317. Was I doing anything to make that number to go down? No, but I was thinking a lot about it and starting back here, on Spark People. I was still eating my bags of sweets, not eating regular meals, except dinner, and NEVER drinking an ounce of water. And forget about exercising. Everything ached, my breathing was labored after walking up the stairs and any kind of movement made me feel like a beached wale.
1/1/12 Actively participating on several Spark teams. Still no exercising. Came down with the stomach flu so wasn't doing much about my eating but DEFINITELY wasn't making a chose to choose only healthy things.
1/2/12 Still sick with the stomach flu
1/3/12 Officially going with my goals, water, movement and calorie counting including logging all that stuff on SP and staying active with my groups.
Today I have lost a total of 6.2lbs!
* I actually got out of bed at 5:30 so I could get 30min of exercise in before my kids woke up.
* I took my kids to the park for 90 min on Saturday and actively walked around with them not sitting down once (the old me would have sat the whole time)
* I didn't have the ice cream and brownies my family did but instead had sugar-free pudding with fat free coolwhip.
* I don't ask my kids to do my errands upstairs, I want to go do them to add more steps to my pedometer.
* I don't sit and read all day, which was my way of "getting away from it all"
* I am getting my house clean, my kids played with, my family cared for PLUS have time for SP and shorter periods of reading.
* I feel stronger
* I like myself better
* I grasping all the possibilities that are out there waiting for me instead of thinking.."this is just how I am and how my life will be"
I could write so much more but WOW, have things changed in EVERY aspect of my life...It Feels GREAT! And that's only after 6lbs!
Friday, January 06, 2012
One of my old habits (as in one-week-old) was to sit up in my room, curled up in bed, reading a good book and eating CHOCOLATE! There were lots of different types of chocolate, Hershey Nuggest with almonds, boxes of chocolate, Snickers bar, Milk Duds, Hot Cocoa, and....PEANUT M&M's! Those were my usual stand by, my reading buddy. I'd pour a pile from a LARGE sized bag. I'd take one at a time and bit it in half trying to keep the peanut intact and, if I was successfull, I'd pull the peanut out of the yummy chocolate shell, eat that, then eat the chocolate deliciousness.
I wouldn't eat the entire LARGE bag in one sitting but it would definitely be gone in 1.5 to 2 days. I used to buy those about 2-3 times a week.
Today I went into my room to get something. The item was located near my bedside table. I was I walked towards it I got an OVERWHELMING smell of peanut M&Ms. Oh, my STARS! My mouth started watering and I actually paused for a moment. It's a good thing I have no chocolate in my house because I probably would have eaten some right then.
I know I will eat some of those chocolate goodies again but I CANNOT do it under the same circumstances! I've got to break that terrible habit and lose the connection of junk food and reading!
I've been doing great! After having the stomach flu on Sunday and Monday I was truly able to kick off my new healthy plan (exercising 6 days a week and eating within calorie range set by SP, 1200-1550) Of course it's only be 4 days but I've been 100% on goal.
The exercising has been a struggle! I'm no where in the same shape I was when I left SP back in June. I don't even feel like I'm in the same shape I was when I started in April. It just shows me that if I don't stay on track I lose not only what I gained but even what I already had, especially since I'm getting older. This time HAS TO BE the time that it clicks, no more yo-yo dieting, each time my body (and psychy) pays for it
Thursday, January 05, 2012
Here it is, the 5th day of a new year and I'm still sparking! My eating is going great, staying in my calorie range and eating healthy! It's amazing how I'm really getting more flavor and variety now that I'm making better food choices.
Exercise is happening. I've actually been able to get 50min in a day, not all at once however. It's nothing strenuous yet but, HEY, I'm moving. I need to start incorporating strength training. I have SO much flab! I'm a little worried once I start getting the weight off how much more flab I'll have. I feel, in the 6 months I was gone from SP, my body has changed for the worse as I've gained weight. I am flabbier now at 315 than I was at 325.
I'm having scale frustations! After stepping on it three times I got THREE different numbers! I think it's time for a new scale. Doing so will change my weight but I'd rather do it now, at the beginning, than have to do it further along the weight loss journey.
Still haven't written down my goals for 2012. I do know I have the goal to lose 100lbs for the year! I don't want to focus on that large span of time or impossible sounding number. So I'm going to break that down and focus on losing 10lbs a month. That sounds more doable...It IS doable!
Sunday, January 01, 2012
With this being the first day of a new year I feel an obligation to write down my new year resolutions/goals. But I'm not.
In the past I've totally been a goal writer, a list maker. I think setting goals are very important and for years have encouraged my kids to set goals, put them down in writing, then post them where they can see it.
I feel like the past three years, 2011 in particular, have brought so much stress that my brain and thinking process are buried under it all. I am more than who I'm allowing myself to be. I've allowed the stress to press down on me and keep me from functioning to my fullest potential. The intellect, strength and energy I do have has been expended on my family. I know if I turn that around and use what little I've been using on them on myself instead then that intellect, strength and energy will be multiplied allowing there to be enough for my family and ME.
I'm hoping as I get moving and put some healthier foods in my body that I'll be able to really focus on what I want, on who I am and how to actually make that person reappear.
Written goals are a MUST! They'll make an appearance eventually.
Happy New Year!
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