Thursday, July 03, 2008
What are you doing "right" in your life? Parents are often urged to "catch" their kids "being good" and reinforce the behavior by praising them for it. Can we learn to show the same kindness to ourselves? I have been drinking my 8 glasses of water every day now for 2 months. This is a major lifestyle change for me, because I HATE water unless I'm just dying of thirst! I'd rather go without fluid at all than drink water. But ya know, I'm beginning to get used to the routine of imbibing the stuff, and I have to confess that I've seen some positive changes I can attribute to it...sleeping through the night without getting up several times to go to the bathroom...who would have thought THAT would be a result?? lessened dairy craving...that's a biggie that could have all kinds of ramifications. I LOVE anything that used to be "Cow"...ice cream, cheese, yogurt, milk, sour cream, steak, hamburger, leather...some branch or other of my family has raised cattle for generations, and while I have a healthy affection and respect for the critters, I am not at all inclined to become a vegan or even seriously vegetarian. I like fruits and vegetables...just not exclusively.
I'm so grateful to those of you who "tune in" to my musings here. It is a great encouragement and motivator for me. Thanks. Be good to yourselves today!
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
What gets you out of bed in the morning when nothing is going the way you want in life??? No weight loss, no health and fitness, no loving supportive relationships, no financial success??? I'm just asking. It's so easy to get so swept along by the things we "do", that we often don't stop to ask ourselves "why" we bother doing them in the first place and how much it will matter in the larger scheme of things. I have had the idea of "motivation" on the brain lately because I just completed a piece I was asked to do for a city fundraiser...decorating a large tin star...about a dozen artists were asked to contribute work to be auctioned off at a big "whoop-de-doo" in August. Everyone had to choose some "theme" for their piece that was somehow related to the idea of a star. I decided to do a "Star Motivator" with every motivational phrase containing the word "star" that I could come up with, and original "mini" illustrations of each phrase collaged all around the star, embellished with yarn, beads, paint, etc. A friend did Van Gogh's "Starry Night" w/ words from the old Don McLean song in sort of an art journal format. Still another did the idea of "Rock Star" gluing on pebbles all over the star! (She'll probably take the "originality" award!!) I can't wait to see what some of the other contributors did! I'm so grateful to be able to work "creatively", even when it doesn't bring in a very "liveable" income.
The eye seems stable at the moment...vision is more blurred than I am happy with, but hey, I'm happy to have any at all! I can still see well enough to drive, to write, and to paint, so I don't have any complaints. In an odd twist of something or other, my sister has also had the scleral buckle on a retina repair "fail", and she is having some kind of quirky vision loss from it...her doctor caught hers before the band actually disintegrated, however, and removed it surgically...what may have to happen ultimately with mine, as well, but I want to avoid surgery if at all possible.
I've lost 2 lbs. over the past 10 days...water weight, I'm pretty sure, but hey...I'll take it anyway I can get it! That puts me at 173...still 13 lbs. more than I had gotten down to before this past Christmas. Grafflesnarf!! Hang in there, everybody!
Monday, June 23, 2008
Saw my eye doc this a.m. The good news is that the sclera is intact. The scleral band (buckle) that he had put in place 4 years ago to reattach the retina had "eroded" through the conjunctival wall, snapping some small blood vessels along the way. There are a couple of options. One is to go in and surgically remove the band entirely through a process called "scraping" the retina. My sister had to have this done a little over a year ago. One of the dangers here is redetachment of the retina, among other things, but then I live with that danger already under the present circumstances without surgery! The other option, which I am choosing, is to wait, watch how the eye does, and see what happens over the next 4 months or so. I have some blurring of vision over and above what I already had which is likely due to the post traumatic inflammation following the incident last week. I already know that I have to have surgeries (probably sometime next year) to "uncloud" the intraocular lens implants I received following cataract surgery in each eye 6 years ago, so one less surgical invasion of my eyes won't hurt my feelings one little bit! Besides...I am without pain in this eye for the first time in 4 years, now that the pressure of the band has been relieved. I'll take that and be grateful!
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Kind of scary experience...last night as I was working on a painting, the sight in my left eye gradually became almost non-existent...put my hand up to my eye, and it came away covered in blood. Hm..."self," says I, "do not panic. Panic will not help." Off I went to the E.R. where the doc informed me that I had a cut cornea. Now I have had a couple of those in my time, and I knew this was not the case, since I had not experienced any injury, and had not even the slightest degree of pain. So, cold compresses, antibiotic drops, and a night of mopping up thimbles full of blood every hour or so, and I saw my retina specialist this a.m. Sub-dural hemorhage and possible scleral rupture is the tentative diagnosis. He said that in 40 years of practicing medicine, he had never seen this before. That is not reassuring somehow. The bleeding is down to an ooze by this time (about 5:00p.m.CST). Barring no further awefulness, I'm to see him again Monday a.m. and he says "possible scleral patch." I have already had a detached retina and cataract surgery in both eyes...I'm not excited about this.
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