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Thursday, July 03, 2008

What are you doing "right" in your life? Parents are often urged to "catch" their kids "being good" and reinforce the behavior by praising them for it. Can we learn to show the same kindness to ourselves? I have been drinking my 8 glasses of water every day now for 2 months. This is a major lifestyle change for me, because I HATE water unless I'm just dying of thirst! I'd rather go without fluid at all than drink water. But ya know, I'm beginning to get used to the routine of imbibing the stuff, and I have to confess that I've seen some positive changes I can attribute to it...sleeping through the night without getting up several times to go to the bathroom...who would have thought THAT would be a result?? lessened dairy craving...that's a biggie that could have all kinds of ramifications. I LOVE anything that used to be "Cow"...ice cream, cheese, yogurt, milk, sour cream, steak, hamburger, leather...some branch or other of my family has raised cattle for generations, and while I have a healthy affection and respect for the critters, I am not at all inclined to become a vegan or even seriously vegetarian. I like fruits and vegetables...just not exclusively.

I'm so grateful to those of you who "tune in" to my musings here. It is a great encouragement and motivator for me. Thanks. Be good to yourselves today!

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STARTSPARKING 7/13/2008 5:48AM

    After increasing my water intake to at least 10 cups a day, over time I've noticed that my complexion has gotten better. I no longer get pimples before TOM.

Congratulations on the positive steps you are taking to good health! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TINKAWAY 7/13/2008 4:50AM

    A very refreshing blog. You deserve a pat on the back. You are doing very good and teaching yourself good habits. I enjoyed your blog and keep up the good work.

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DOTSLADY 7/4/2008 11:55AM

    That is a major feat if you don't even like the stuff! Congrats on your positive change!

I have to say that i realized the importance of water after a time not having much - I was eating veggies and fruit, but only 2 cups of coffee daily this winter during our (famous to us) ice storm. I became dehydrated and my kidney function was apparently impaired (per blood labs - I had NO idea!) -- actually - I found on the net after-the-fact that a hollow toenail bed is a sign of dehydration -- I thought it was cause I purchased new shoes or something! Anyway - it could have been serious. It helps cellular function to be hydrated and also it's good for your blood pressure.
Keep drinking! YaY you! emoticon

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ROYALETBONE 7/3/2008 6:26PM

    Good for you for catching yourself with the right stuff-....
You are right. It is so much easier to spendlots of energy belittling or nagging ourselves than to take the time to say an atta girl.
Atta girl!

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SAYRAH-M 7/3/2008 3:34PM

    I have packed my lunch every day for the last TWO weeks!!!

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Wednesday, July 02, 2008

What gets you out of bed in the morning when nothing is going the way you want in life??? No weight loss, no health and fitness, no loving supportive relationships, no financial success??? I'm just asking. It's so easy to get so swept along by the things we "do", that we often don't stop to ask ourselves "why" we bother doing them in the first place and how much it will matter in the larger scheme of things. I have had the idea of "motivation" on the brain lately because I just completed a piece I was asked to do for a city fundraiser...decorating a large tin star...about a dozen artists were asked to contribute work to be auctioned off at a big "whoop-de-doo" in August. Everyone had to choose some "theme" for their piece that was somehow related to the idea of a star. I decided to do a "Star Motivator" with every motivational phrase containing the word "star" that I could come up with, and original "mini" illustrations of each phrase collaged all around the star, embellished with yarn, beads, paint, etc. A friend did Van Gogh's "Starry Night" w/ words from the old Don McLean song in sort of an art journal format. Still another did the idea of "Rock Star" gluing on pebbles all over the star! (She'll probably take the "originality" award!!) I can't wait to see what some of the other contributors did! I'm so grateful to be able to work "creatively", even when it doesn't bring in a very "liveable" income.

The eye seems stable at the moment...vision is more blurred than I am happy with, but hey, I'm happy to have any at all! I can still see well enough to drive, to write, and to paint, so I don't have any complaints. In an odd twist of something or other, my sister has also had the scleral buckle on a retina repair "fail", and she is having some kind of quirky vision loss from it...her doctor caught hers before the band actually disintegrated, however, and removed it surgically...what may have to happen ultimately with mine, as well, but I want to avoid surgery if at all possible.

I've lost 2 lbs. over the past 10 days...water weight, I'm pretty sure, but hey...I'll take it anyway I can get it! That puts me at 173...still 13 lbs. more than I had gotten down to before this past Christmas. Grafflesnarf!! Hang in there, everybody!

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SAYRAH-M 7/3/2008 9:53AM

    I can be rather moody. Some mornings I jump out of bed excited for anything that may come my way. Other days I think, "I might as well sleep all day because no one would notice and I don't have anything I want to do." I have never given in to the Whole DAY in bed thing. Because I really can think of things I want to do!
I love the star theme. Creativity is the best part of life for me too. It may seem rather dull but I am creative with forms that I am coming out with for the medical social workers. I want them to be easy to use, easy to communicate with the medical team and pleasant to use (attractive).
It is quite a coincidence that your sister has a similar problem with her eye. Is there any genetic correlation or is it all environmental?
I was so glad to see you had another blog up and even happier that you added me as a Friend!! I am most honored!!!

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BINEMELLES 7/3/2008 4:57AM

    yes, i think a motivator star is definitely something that should be featured here on SP! sounds like a wonderful idea.

i hope your eye will require no surgery for now, blurred vision is not good, but it sounds like you are able to work and get along fine. i'm keeping my fingers crossed for you that nothing gets worse.

i think what gets you out of bed in the morning when nothing is going the way you want in life is what i lost for a while lately - most of the days my only reason for getting out of bed was that there wasn't an alternative, if life was out to beat me at least i wanted to go down swinging. i'm grateful i'm finding more and more reasons to get out of bed again now. i have no idea how much they will matter in the larger scheme of things, but at least they matter to me.

hang in there, girl. you are showing unbelievable determination and you will see this through.

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ROYALETBONE 7/2/2008 10:10PM

    Whatever works for you, beloved, I'm glad you keep on keeping on. Keep getting up, keep trying. You are such a wonderful artist...
It's a pleasure to just cheer from the sidelines.
Do we get to see your motivating star?

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Monday, June 23, 2008

Saw my eye doc this a.m. The good news is that the sclera is intact. The scleral band (buckle) that he had put in place 4 years ago to reattach the retina had "eroded" through the conjunctival wall, snapping some small blood vessels along the way. There are a couple of options. One is to go in and surgically remove the band entirely through a process called "scraping" the retina. My sister had to have this done a little over a year ago. One of the dangers here is redetachment of the retina, among other things, but then I live with that danger already under the present circumstances without surgery! The other option, which I am choosing, is to wait, watch how the eye does, and see what happens over the next 4 months or so. I have some blurring of vision over and above what I already had which is likely due to the post traumatic inflammation following the incident last week. I already know that I have to have surgeries (probably sometime next year) to "uncloud" the intraocular lens implants I received following cataract surgery in each eye 6 years ago, so one less surgical invasion of my eyes won't hurt my feelings one little bit! Besides...I am without pain in this eye for the first time in 4 years, now that the pressure of the band has been relieved. I'll take that and be grateful!

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RECREATING_SUZY 6/26/2008 12:26PM

    Sorry to hear about your eye problems, with talent like yours, it would be a great tragedy to lose your sight. Have you tried any alternative healing techniques ? Prayer, Reiki, etc ? I am thinking Reiki myself. There's a couple of places you can get free long distance Reiki...one of those would be the group Alternative and Spiritual Healing, right here on Sparks..you can find them through my page. Hopefully things will improve and all the prayers going up for you will cure the problem outright.

Suzy emoticon

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HEARTOFCHRIST 6/25/2008 7:35AM

    I'm so sorry you are going through this, it must be very scary for you! Please know that you are in our prayers.

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JIBBIE49 6/24/2008 4:59PM

    Thanks for visiting my blog. That was beautiful PENSACOLA BEACH, where my son was riding his new motorcycle.
I'm sure sorry you are having eye problems. I had "cross-eyes" as a child and my left eye has 20/200 vision, so I'm ALWAYS worried about something happening to my "good eye." So, I have an extra bit of empathy for you having to deal with such problems. Do some YOGA relaxation exercises to help with your healing. emoticon

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STARTSPARKING 6/24/2008 3:43PM

    I am so sorry about the problems you are experiencing with your eye. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I wish you a very speedy recovery.

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BINEMELLES 6/24/2008 1:29PM

    that must have been an incredible scare. being pain-free is certainly a relief after 4 years which makes me think you made a good decision.
i hope all goes well with your eye over the next couple of months. i am keeping you in my thoughts too!

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KARBEEPBEEP 6/24/2008 10:33AM

    Best of luck with your sight and keeping it! I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers! emoticon

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UP4MORE 6/24/2008 10:24AM

    I wish you the best!

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STACEY96DAVIS 6/24/2008 10:05AM

    God Has Blessed you with amazing talent .He is with you Through it all. just Believe ,And have faith .Things will Happen like they are supposed to .Smile and Be positive in every way (even though it may be hard) . You are in my prayers .

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TINKAWAY 6/24/2008 9:10AM

    You certainly are a talented and artistic woman. It has to be scary to wonder if your eyesight will get worse. You are in my thoughts. Going through you photos, it is amazing how your son looks so much like your father. Keep up all that beautiful artwork. Hang in there and we are all here for your support.

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SAYRAH-M 6/24/2008 8:53AM

    Now that I have found you I consider it good fortune for all that your eyesight is being saved. YOUR ARTWORK is fabulous. I am going to subscribe to your blog so I can learn more about you. I added you as a friend. Not only can we lose weight here but meet such diverse and interesting people!

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ROYALETBONE 6/24/2008 3:18AM

    Wow, what a relief! I am so happy to hear that there is no new damage or more scary info. I like the sound of no pain, too.
Thank you so much for sharing on this one.

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Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Kind of scary experience...last night as I was working on a painting, the sight in my left eye gradually became almost non-existent...put my hand up to my eye, and it came away covered in blood. Hm..."self," says I, "do not panic. Panic will not help." Off I went to the E.R. where the doc informed me that I had a cut cornea. Now I have had a couple of those in my time, and I knew this was not the case, since I had not experienced any injury, and had not even the slightest degree of pain. So, cold compresses, antibiotic drops, and a night of mopping up thimbles full of blood every hour or so, and I saw my retina specialist this a.m. Sub-dural hemorhage and possible scleral rupture is the tentative diagnosis. He said that in 40 years of practicing medicine, he had never seen this before. That is not reassuring somehow. The bleeding is down to an ooze by this time (about 5:00p.m.CST). Barring no further awefulness, I'm to see him again Monday a.m. and he says "possible scleral patch." I have already had a detached retina and cataract surgery in both eyes...I'm not excited about this.

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SAYRAH-M 6/24/2008 8:57AM

    OMG how scary was that!!!! I am glad to read in the last blog that things have progressed. Yeah.

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DOTSLADY 6/20/2008 1:09PM

    emoticonI posted to the team thread, but there's nothing wrong with another hug since I'm thinking of you. Keep in touch.

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KGWINDER 6/19/2008 1:42AM

    Agreed scary. Keep us up to date and try to take the first chance to have surgery or whatever else they are advising for correction (second opinions are good too).

Call you neighbors, friends and relatives...this is a great time to ask for support.

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ROYALETBONE 6/18/2008 8:00PM

    Oh, best beloved- I hold you in the softest of healing lights, and just want to pour love your way. Scary.

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Monday, June 16, 2008

I have obviously been slacking in the blogging arena...as well as a number of others. I've gained 15 lbs back since Christmas...back up to 175lbs. from 160lbs. I could be truly bummed...sigh.

I've been having to travel for my writing work. (eating out a lot, not getting to exercise) The photo is one of a series I shot at Grand Gulf Military Park outside Port Gibson, MS. a couple of weeks ago. It was so still and primeval...beautiful and eerie in its isolation...almost like you could expect Civil War era soldiers to step out of the woods at any minute.

As for the weight loss issue, it's like I can either work on my health, or I can work on earning a living...haven't found the stamina to do both. I refuse to beat myself up over this. I'm grateful for the work I've been able to do. I will get back to working on my health and fitness needs as I am able. In the meantime, I accept that I am doing all that I can do at this particular moment in time. This is a long term fight. Losing is not an option, and the finish line is stepping from the grave into the presence of a glorious God...no battles with pudge and brain sludge there! I will simply keep on keeping on in whatever measure of strength I have till then.

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SAYRAH-M 6/24/2008 8:56AM

    Oh my. This has been one of my issues. Traveling. Yes so hard to eat healthy and travel. Particularlly hard to drink all the water I want when riding in a car. I don't want to have to make others stop for five or six potty breaks.
I think we need to keep the goal in sight and figure out how to steer there. It doesn't have to be a straight arrow.

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ROYALETBONE 6/17/2008 12:24AM

    I'm so happy to hear from you.
I have the sense that you are doing the best with what you have right now-...you'll be back, I'm sure of it.
Thank you for checking in. Please feel free to share and get support on the 'whatevers'- I care about YOU, not what you weigh.

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