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Friday, December 12, 2008

I couldn't think of a title...so HA is going to have to do it.

I've been so frustrated the past week or so. And I find that I'm a little negative to myself. I know I'm working hard, I know I'm making progress...but I find myself saying some very "not so nice" things about myself to myself! It makes me kind of sad. Just today I caught myself commenting on some "gross" part of me while getting dressed post-run. Why? What's the deal lately that I can't see the good? When I first started with SP, it took months to see ANY progress. During that time, I was not comfortable with myself but I wasn't mean to myself either. This past summer, I felt SO good about myself, and I was so positive about how things were going. And now, I've turned into a pretty mean person...only to me!

I don't like it. But I keep doing it. Guess I'd better find a better way to channel some of this emotional turbulence I'm having.

  

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BLAZEGRRL 12/14/2008 8:44PM

I sympathize with your comments. Of course we are our own worst critics when we don't deserve to be. Just know that I think your journey is inspiring and you can be proud of being a strong, healthy and happy individual. And hey, both our bodies are a work in progress and we can always still make improvements. I know you're doing just that!! :) How was your weekend? I had a great but busy one. And I reached a new milestone - I ran 5.5 miles straight with no walking. Did it in about 60 minutes. I was so tremendously proud of myself! Thanks for the Sparkgoodie, too! Report Inappropriate Comment

NATASHA1 12/14/2008 8:38PM

Oh sweetie, I think we ALL do that. It's horrible the things we say to ourselves. We'd never DREAM of saying those things to our best friends. Maybe you could try to make friends with yourself and treat yourself to some nice compliments. Okay so maybe ONE part isn't very nice (goodness knows we ALL have those!) but maybe instead of commenting on that you could point something out (our loud) that you DO like. Look at how far you've come! There are a lot of people wouldn't have tried as hard as you have. Be sure that YOU are an inspiration. Even if you fumble off track once in a while, you are doing amazing! Report Inappropriate Comment

MOM2POMS2 12/12/2008 9:12PM

When we make changes in our life, we often get side tracked by the small details that are not important. The big details escape us!! The big details with you include that you have made glorious progress and that is certainly nothing to sneeze at girl!! One way to work on the negative self-talk is to work on the emotional in our lives. I totally recommend that you work on that because that is the stuff that allows us to get stuck if we do not address it. So rather than beating yourself up, find time to deal that turbulence which will allow you to go forward with your healthy journey!! Report Inappropriate Comment

Just getting tired of seeing it...

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

What is IT? Well, IT is the area of my body that falls below the girls and above the hips. If I had a super power, I think I would want the ability to zap fat. I am working my butt off and I look gross. You know, it's a whole lot better than it was last year at this time...in fact, it's better than it was in June. But I'm just disgusted with it...and every time I see it, I am reminded of the fact that I got lazy and let myself get to that point. I had a really good workout today and then I took a shower. Maybe I ought to just take all the mirrors out of the bathrooms because it made me sad to see IT again. Ugh...

Patience, patience...I just need to remember to have it...

But I'm still going to dream about being a fat-zapping super hero!

  

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MOM2POMS2 12/12/2008 9:08PM

Wow, if you had that super power, you would be the best friend of everyone!! Report Inappropriate Comment

Going to try something new

Friday, December 05, 2008

I am having a really tough time losing weight in my mid-section. I've lost almost 50 pounds and I feel like everything is thinning up EXCEPT my tummy area! I know the only real way to burn it off is through cardio, which I usually do for about 45 minutes now. I'm going to bump that up little by little until I'm at 60 minutes. I also researched it and I really think I could benefit from trying out a program like South Beach. I LOVE my carbs...especially in the form of breads. And I got to thinking, "It's NO WONDER I have no energy about and hour or two after breakfast...I eat toast or bagels and NOTHING else!" I refuse to think about it as a diet...but I'm going to try upping my protein a bit and see what happens. Something has to happen because I'm getting frustrated!

  

Enough!

Thursday, October 09, 2008

Oooo...I have been so bad lately! Not my eating habits. I am careful to track my food and I always stay in the ranges. But my exercising has been SO bad lately! My husband drives a truck over-the-road and he was home from Saturday until Wednesday...I didn't run once! Ugh. I felt so lazy today when I finally got back into the swing of things. And today was a strength training day on TOP of cardio. I feel like a slug.

Oh well...back into the groove. If anything, this hiatus made me remember that I NEED to stay focused on the long term goals I have! I had my vacation...back to work!

  

it's official!

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

I am officially a COMFORTABLE size 7. I have been wearing my old jeans that were 7's for a little while now but I couldn't really believe that they were "real" 7's...I figured they were older (several years at least!) and had stretched and blah blah blah. But these jeans are SO old that they are starting to wear out in places and I knew I needed new ones. Today was the day.

As I was getting out of my car I reminded myself that I had to keep my expectations reasonable. I decided that if I fit into the single digits (9 or less), I would be okay with it. It took me some time to find a pair that I liked and I grabbed a 9 and a 7. When I got to the dressing room, I immediately decided that I was trying on the 9's...they looked like they were going to be too small. But they weren't. In fact, they were too big! On went the 7's. There is some extra room in the 7's as well! For a brief moment I thought about going down to a 5 and decided against it. The 7's aren't TOO big...they are perfect. And you know what? Someday the 5's will be perfect too. But I'm not going to beat myself up every day until then by wearing clothes that "almost fit". I'm happy with my 7's for now!

It feels so good to actually come home from shopping and feel good about myself. I have dreaded shopping for so long and I know now that my hard work is paying off.

  

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CARBEEZY 9/26/2008 12:08PM

I recently had the same experience and I seriously wanted to cry tears of joy in the dressing room, but held it back haha! Congrats I'm sure you felt amazing. Report Inappropriate Comment

RUFHOUSE 9/24/2008 7:10PM

I am SOOO excited for you!!! I am now looking forward to when I go shopping for smaller pants!! Keep up the awesome work!! Report Inappropriate Comment

MKLOMBARD333 9/24/2008 4:04PM

Now THAT is definitely something to celebrate! Congratulations!!! Blessings , Mary Report Inappropriate Comment