Friday, December 12, 2008
I couldn't think of a title...so HA is going to have to do it.
I've been so frustrated the past week or so. And I find that I'm a little negative to myself. I know I'm working hard, I know I'm making progress...but I find myself saying some very "not so nice" things about myself to myself! It makes me kind of sad. Just today I caught myself commenting on some "gross" part of me while getting dressed post-run. Why? What's the deal lately that I can't see the good? When I first started with SP, it took months to see ANY progress. During that time, I was not comfortable with myself but I wasn't mean to myself either. This past summer, I felt SO good about myself, and I was so positive about how things were going. And now, I've turned into a pretty mean person...only to me!
I don't like it. But I keep doing it. Guess I'd better find a better way to channel some of this emotional turbulence I'm having.