Monday, March 12, 2012
Headed out on Wed to Chicago. Child and I are going to be visiting some cousins. Both of us are TREMENDOUSLY EXCITED, but for me, there is a bit more trepidation.
1) Keeping to my diet/healthy eating plan in someone else's house. My cousin is a healthy eater, but is she going to have all the stuff I like to have? Is she going to look at me weird when I ask if I can use her measuring cups? Is she going to use my visit as an excuse to treat herself to ... whatever? Plus I really want to try a Chicago Dog. Pizza Uno I've had, and its really good too.
2) Exercise? Will it be possible? Necessary? Yes, we are doing all sorts of touristy stuff, but its not the same as a good cardio burn. She did as if I wanted to come to a Barre class on Saturday, so there will be at least ONE exercise opportunity. (Not cardio but she said it works muscles I dont know I have. ) I'm packing my new sneakers anyway and I've loaded my iPod with some Yoga Podcasts. We get what we get, even if its a couple situps and stretches in the evening.
3) I've been something of a glutton lately. The past three days my calorie count has been over. Damned the tasty but greasy Chinese food! My MIL is a terrific cook and I just couldn't stop eating the ham. And she fried the cabbage in butter. It was delicious. What really sent me over the edge was the stuffed artichokes. Songs are written about them. Must buckle down! Resist! (But it tastes so good when it touches your lips..*)
4) I'm going to give blood on Tuesday. Since I'm going to be sidelined by a plane ride for most of Wed, I decided to do my exercise Tuesday AM and then have a good bleeding. By Thursday, the plasma will be back and I'll likely be shoehorning in the bare minimum of exercise anyway. I used to give blood all the time and stopped with the arrival of Child. (Cant when you are pregnant and I found it really difficult the one time I tried when breastfeeding.) Many grandparents have benefited from a transfusion when they were in their sick beds. Child needed a transfusion when he was first born. So I feel like I owe the system. And they give out cookies and juice. Win!
Apologies in advance SparkFriends. I'm going to try and track food, but that will likely be the only thing I'm going to do during the vacation. (Goodbye bonus spins!) I plan on thoroughly enjoying myself. Back Sunday.
*Name that Movie. Bonus points if you can name the actor who said it.
Thursday, March 08, 2012
Child woke up in the middle of the night last night. So my tail is dragging today. So instead of going for a run, I went for a walk at a local state park. Lovely.
(Self portrait, with timer!)
Weather will get cold again tomorrow; enjoy it while it lasts!
Updated: I broke my sneakers on the walk! No, really! Cracked the bottom across the toes and the heel. Insanity! They were Target cheepies, so now I have a good excuse to get some better ones.
Wednesday, March 07, 2012
Because my entire life does not revolve around SparkPeople...
Child and I went to NYC yesterday. Because this has NOTHING to do with fitness and exercise, I am not dual posting. But if you are interested you can go to my other blog:
Loads of pictures! None of me!
Basically, we had an outstanding time meeting up with a friend for lunch and going to the Children's Museum of Manhattan. Hope y'all had a Sparky day!
Tuesday, March 06, 2012
(Sorry, I had an idea for a blog, but it didnt come out and this did. But there's no good pithy title because its really just a bunch of rambling thoughts. Bear with me.)
I really joined SP because I needed a calorie counter. Jillian Michaels says it 800 times: "Losing weight is a math problem. Calories out need to be greater than calories in." Sometime in the doldrums between Christmas and New Years, it resonated with me. My dear offline friend Raina413 had recommended this site, so I thought I would give it a try.
Recently I have been thinking about my food. Because I *love* food. I watch FoodNetwork for fun, think about different ways to combine and/or improve recipes, and relax by going to the grocery store. I'm also a dedicated couch potato. To the point where DH and I DONT have cable, because if it was on, I would spend all my time watching it. By using various services (Hulu, Netflix) I can get my TV watching either with no commercials, or minimal. Or the incentive to turn it OFF when the program is done.
I haven't given up my love of food, but instead my relationship with food is changing. I tried several times, but when I look at what I used to eat and what I should/am eating, I think it has made the difference. For example, for lunch, I used to eat 3 cups of pasta with tomato sauce and think I was being virtuous because there was no meatball (Saturated fat! Most Americans get too much protein). Then I would wonder why at the end of the day I would crash into an exhausted pile. Now I understand. I have found it easy to give up bread, pasta and potatoes, in favor of egg whites, beans and meat. Yes, I eat a lot more meat than I used to. (Sorry vegetarians!) But I feel so much better.
I'm exercising for a real, concrete goal with a deadline and people who are expecting me to be there. YDavis and DogLady, I'm looking at you. Your voices are the ones that keep me going. Because I dont have the will-power to do it on my own. For me: exercising without a goal gave me an easy out if I didnt "feel like it" that day. Now I know, I cant do it alone. Y'all keep me on that bike, that treadmill, in that plank pose for that extra mile, extra minute.
And the people around me are seeing the results. I'm wearing size 14 pants right now. I'm going closet shopping for clothes that haven't fit since before pregnancy. Because I'm an Optimist, I kept them. Now I'm really glad because I HATE clothes shopping.
The sad truth is I'm on a journey that should have taken place a long time ago. And it's not that I didnt try, I just didnt have the right tools. The right motivation. Now, everything is in alignment.
The even sadder fact is that I will likely never have this opportunity again. I'm unemployed with a family. I get 2 hours a day to myself to go to the gym. Working Moms know, this time is such a luxury! So I'm not getting rid of my "fat clothes" I'm putting them away. I hope that when I get to my goal weight, I can maintain. I hope that when I find a job, I can find a way to balance work, family and self - because I'm not so good at that.
But for right now, I'm out here, trying. Doing that little bit every day. Doing the big bites when I can. Not killing myself when I cant. I can feel my heart beating stronger. I like to imagine the fat around my heart and in my arteries getting scrubbed off like scouring a pan to reveal shiny metal underneath.
All this newness. I'm so happy to have met all of you. Thank you for your support.
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