Monday, October 01, 2012
Sunday, September 30, 2012
I have been holding off on posting you on this. I feel guilty and ashamed. But there are so many wonderful SparkFriends that I know are curious about how this work thing is going for me.
The bad news is: poorly.
Not the work part. That's great! The kids are nice & cooperative. My colleague is cool and any bumps in the road have been ordinary, expected and overcome easily. It has been a good experience for my bruised ego.
But the food and exercise part has been a travesty. I'm a mess. My calories were cut to 1200 by the Spark 'puter. I am trying to eat healthy, but I'm so damned hungry all the freakin' time. I upped my veggies, clamped down on fats, looked for healthy choices, packed healthy snacks and its still not enough food. The numbers say I have enough protein which was the first hunger trigger I noticed when I first started Sparking. (If I got enough protein, I was able to keep myself in line the rest of the calorie way.) Just because you know what you are doing wrong, doesnt mean its any easier to fix it.
Exercise plans have gone out the window. I have exercised after work exactly ONCE, despite good intentions, bringing clothes and planning. I "one more thing" myself out of my exercise time. "Oh, let me just grade this one last orphan paper." "Let me organize my desk so that I can find that tomorrow." "Let me get ahead on my photocopying while I can." "Where the heck is that computer file saved?" The next thing you know its 3pm, my drop-dead-go-get-the-Child time. Plus my legs are so tired from standing, my back aches and I have a headache. The one time I did manage to run (Parent Night, when I was there from 7am to 8:30 pm) it was so hard I managed the 10 minutes and then quit. I think it might have been a low blood sugar thing. This was after I spent 2 hours grading tests. "Finish this, and then you can run. Promise, we'll burn off this cortisol!" I did decompress a little on the run, but it wasnt enough to get the exercise benefits.
Oh and my plan to do something in the middle of the day. Toast. I have students almost all the time making up work. Sigh.
Last time I weighted myself, I was up a pound. I didnt weigh in yesterday or today...I'm afraid for this week and will put off the bad news. My depression, anxiety and insomnia are back with a vengeance now that they dont have my endorphin warriors keeping them in line.
So yeah, there we have it. Not the most optimistic blog. I know exactly what I'm doing wrong, but its still happening.
Friday, September 28, 2012
So I checked in before heading out to eat last night. The will of the group was diner, with the consensus being "Go for the Healthy Option, Doofus!"
Before heading out, I stopped by a colleague's room. He had never heard anything good about that diner and, by the way, how is my immune system? EEEKK!!! Actually my immune system is fine - now - but really, who wants to go somewhere with that kind of endorsement??
The place I went to turned out to be one of the best BBQ restaurants within 90 miles of NYC. And it *really* was very good. I got a whole chicken, and saved half for my lunch today (Friday - but I didnt eat it all today.) For accompaniment, I got the baked beans, wicked tasty and very healthy. I skipped slaw, dessert and the fresh lemonade (sigh). So while I was a tad over my calorie allotment for the day, I still think it was the right choice.
I probably would have enjoyed the ribs, brisket and other treats, but I got to have *real* BBQ and not feel bad so I call that a win.
Yeah, I recommend it. Its only a few miles from a section of the AT, so hikers, this is a great place to end your day. NYCers, the Harlem Line train stop is also pretty close.
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Its Open House night at school. I find it easier to stay late than go home and then come back. My decision is compounded by distance. In the past, the department would all get together for dinner together as a rare social occasion. This school doesnt have that .. so I'm on my own. Restaurants here are limited and I've narrowed to two choices:
1) a diner = where I can get standard diner food and will likely be able to choose a healthy choice
2) a bbq joint - which has real smokers and smells good when I drive past in the afternoons. This wouldnt be the healthy choice, but would be a rare treat.
PS. I brought my sneakers so I'm actually going to go for a run today. Another blog is forthcoming on how the "New Normal" is actually working.
PPS. No word yet on the "Cookie Job" I'll let y'all know.
Thursday, September 20, 2012
When I was living solo, I always kept chocolate chips in the house. I never bought icecream, cookies or candy, because its easier to resist those things if you have to go out and get them. But sometimes you WANT. That's what the chips were for. If I wanted cookies, than By George, I could have cookies. I just had to bake them first. Oh, and you cant open the bag to eat the chips. That's cheating.
Never once did I make cookies. Never wanted them enough to go thru the trouble.
Now I keep cookies, icecream and candy in the house for Other People, and 90% of the time I'm good about staying away.
Still, over the last month or so I wanted cookies and so last week, I made some. A crispy oatmeal version with dried cranberries and banana chips. I brought these to a party at the beginning of the summer and they were WELL received. So I knew it was a good recipe (Yes, Its already on Spark).
So I made some. And then brought them to a job interview. Yes, I *really* did. Normally the policy is they ask you to bring your lunch and they have an extended interview over lunch. But I begged to come after work so I wouldnt have to take the day off, and they kindly agreed. So I brought the cookies as a 3pm sweet snack. And they were WELL received. "Its just a little bribery, since I really want this job." Hey, anything to get an edge in this economy!
Afterwards I went to my parents and gave half of the leftovers to them. There were enough left for 3-4 days of moderate snacking. Now they are gone. I'm sad, but happy. I had my cookies and ate them too.
Friends dont let friends eat crappy cookies. If you want them. Make them.
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