Saturday, January 29, 2011
I have not been very focused on eating healthy or exercise this week.
Husband had minor surgery on his wrist on Weds. He's cranky & the house is a mess (he usually does the dishes). Youngest Daughter turned 17 Thursday AND got her driver's license, followed by her father inexplicably telling her she can't drive the car he bought for her to drive. This car was also his excuse for shorting my child support. I could live with it if she would benefit in the end, but this is not OK. I think he's having trouble letting the baby venture out of the nest, but now I have to do battle with my ex--either hand over the keys or catch up on the money you owe me (and I'll buy her a car, he owes that much). Sigh!
There has been pervasive drama at work, on multiple fronts, and I am again encouraging a group of co-workers to consider unionizing. I would spearhead it myself but realistically my health & energy level (plus planned surgery) wouldn't allow me to finish if I started. People are being treated horribly, other people acting horribly (to the point others can't do their work), and factions are forming. Sigh!
Anyway, I somehow lost a pound this week. I'll take it with gratitude--maybe stress is calorie burning?
Hubby is getting better, birthday goodies are gone, and I'm staying away from as much of the drama as possible. I'm going in to work today to make up the time I missed for Hubby surgery and it will be nice, quiet, productive time. My favorite!
This new week I'm getting back on track. I've figured out a breakfast that works for me, take an orange every day for a mid-morning snack, and have either chef's salad or a Lean Quisine for lunch. I need quick, easy, routine to get out the door for work so dinner is where I get my variety. Hopefully next week will be a 1-2 pound loss and so it goes (away).
Tomorrow I'm finally going to try water walking again. I'm going to cut it to 10 minutes. If that wipes me out like 15 did last time, I'll tell the doc I gave it a good try but my hip is too far gone. Less than 10 minutes is just not worth the hassle to get there. If I can handle the 10, I'll stay there through February then try adding a minute at a time. I think it's a reasonable plan and I like that I've set out some guidelines for myself.
So, here's to a good week coming up!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
A while back I learned that I really don't like mass-produced bakery cakes. I've been eating them at parties for years and somehow never noticed! I've decided not to eat them any more. On the other hand, the scratch yellow cake my daughter made the other day--wonderful! She made cupcakes & baked huckleberries into each one, then dusted them with powdered sugar. THAT I would definitely have again. Yum!
Saturday I had a hypoglycemic episode in the grocery store. This happens rarely, and always has to do with me taking diabetes meds then skipping a meal. I know better, but occasionally on weekends I get busy and forget to eat... Naturally thin people never believe in a fat girl forgetting to eat but it happens. Honest!
Rather than fall over in the check out line, I asked my beloved to grab me a Pepsi. I hadn't had any pop since before joining SP in December. I enjoyed it as much as possible under the circumstances, but did drink only enough to make the world stop spinning & threw the other half away.
The trouble is, I was hungry & craving carbs for the next 3 days. I had a yummy & sensible dinner out with a friend, then came home & ate (but did not enjoy) most of a box of mac & cheese. I ended up 500 calories over on Saturday, about 400 over on Sunday and 200 over on Monday.
It seems that Pepsi is poison, at least for me. I was a carb craving maniac for 3 days and gained 2 lbs.--all over 1/2 of a Pepsi! I know this isn't rocket science. I'm just writing this down to help me remember next time a can of Pepsi calls my name.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
I had a GREAT time last night catching up with an old friend. Good conversation, great food, nice place. (I had baked halibut and asparagus rissoto.) I even got a new haircut earlier in the day that I like. So why do I feel so crappy and cranky today?
The last couple of days I have had minor binges on, of all things, Kraft Macaroni and cheese. I'll admit I enjoyed it the first time. Friday, we (I) again failed to plan for dinner, the cupboard having gotten a little bare before payday plus being tired at the end of a hard week, and we had a package of the new Kraft with breadcrumbs. It was salty but I actually enjoyed eating all 800 calories.
Saturday I had a good day diet-wise, even with going to a restaurant for the first time since starting this weight loss adventure. Even with having a hypoglycemic episode in the grocery store which led me to putting a box of Twinkies in my cart and then drinking 1/2 a Pepsi in the checkout line because it was either that or (literally) fall over. I KNOW that my diabetes meds don't allow me to skip both mid-morning snack and lunch, but I was busy!
So... I come home from seeing my friend and have about 300 calories to spare. I decide eating a Twinkie would not be the end of the world. OK, maybe 2 wouldn't be the end of the world either. Hubby and I stay up late talking and decide we require a midnight snack. He decides to prepare Mac & Cheese and I decide to help him eat it. He eats very little because of his lap band and, well, you can see where this is headed. And the fact that it didn't taste good didn't stop me one bit!
So this morning I wake up with a headache. And berating myself that I've been too afraid to go back to the pool for more water walking. (It's a week after the pool and I can just now say I've finally recovered.) And then I discover he has prepared a gigantic all-carb breakfast despite me going on every day about how I can't manage to eat enough protein. Seriously, even in a binge I would not chase hot cereal with 5 pieces of toast! He did include some cantaloupe, which was nice, but of course his feelings were hurt when I didn't appreciate his efforts by eating every bit. And then I'm both annoyed at him and annoyed at the waste of food. So then he's annoyed at me, and shit rolls downhill and he yells at my daughter. Can I go back to bed?
So what I think I'm going to do IS go back to bed for maybe 1/2 hour. Then I'm going to get up, take a shower, and see if the Y has lap swim later in the day. I don't think they do but I'll check. If not, I'll try to get home in time to hit it tomorrow after work. Then I'll touch base with clients I need to call and/or see tomorrow. THEN I'll do some meal planning so I don't get stuck in this same spot next Friday. Oh, but first I need to hug my daughter
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Hubby and I threw on our swimsuits, with clothes and coats over them because, well, it's winter, grabbed our coupon for 5 free passes, and headed for the Y. (I'm not joining because it would so not be cost effective, as you're about to see.)
We checked in, went to our respective locker rooms and hit the pool. Thank goodness they have actual steps--I'm not sure I could have done a ladder and I definitely would have had trouble on the way out.
I was in the water walking area, getting lapped by the octogenarians. Some of them smiled and I think one said something supportive, but she went by too fast to tell for sure. But I held my head up and pushed as hard as I could. That meant 15 minutes. Which was too much, by the way. We got in the hot tub (thank God) for 10 minutes then back to the locker room. If my cell phone hadn't been dead I might have called 911 to help me shower and get dressed. So what if it's not an appropriate use of the emergency response service?
It's 6 hours later and I can hardly walk. Worse than my usual can hardly walk. One of my daughters came to visit (the one who works full time while attending college in another city, and her apt. is up 3 flights of stairs so I never see her). I wanted to play Wii with her but just didn't have it in me. So she had to settle for quiet, immobile conversation. And getting pans from low shelves for me when it came time to start dinner.
We have 4 more passes that are good through the end of the month. I'll be back in a couple of days, which buys me time to find somewhere more affordable to torture myself. Man, what I won't do for a new hip!
P.S. I went to log my very first cardio fitness minutes on SparkPeople and was disappointed to find the closest activities listed were "walking" or "water jogging." I don't believe my 15 minutes of water walking is receiving the respect it deserves!
P.P.S. I was exaggerating for comedic effect, which apparently failed. Next day, I'm sore in my legs and back, but now I know what my starting point is. 10 minutes, not 15!
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