Friday, November 11, 2011
Last year I used a real X word, xenophobia, in October, to describe my feelings in my "new", "alien" body size.
It has been over a year since I wrote the xenophobia blog. I'm feeling a lot more at home in this foreign land of thin and fit than I did then. Not sure I'll ever feel like it is my native land, but I'm working on not fearing it, or fearing losing it, either way.
This year, I'm simply using X as a letter in its own right, as in "X marks the spot" on a treasure map.
In this year's analogy, X represents the goal, where all the goodies are kept. It's a place to strive to reach (preferably before someone else does and takes all the goodies away)! It's a place to return to, if you're the character that hid the treasure away to begin with. It is a place to be desired. For me, X marks the place where I'm living the life, thin and fit, following the plan.
Sometimes like the buried treasure, X moves around a bit! If you bury the treasure in shifting ground, and go away for a while, it might not match the map, exactly. Better to stay put, enjoying the goodies, and if I stray a few feet, I can get back to my sweet X-spot without too much anxiety or drama!
Here's to keeping the map up to date, and hanging around where X marks the spot!
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Rudyard Kipling was a favorite childhood read-aloud author, sponsored by my dad. This one was often quoted: dad was a journalist.
"I KEEP six honest serving-men
(They taught me all I knew);
Their names are What and Why and When
And How and Where and Who.
I send them over land and sea,
I send them east and west;
But after they have worked for me,
I give them all a rest."
Link to entire poem here:
It was running through my head yesterday morning on the drive to work, because as I started contemplating "W" words, I couldn't help it. Five of the six are indeed W's. And all of these are important to maintenance... taken in poem order, with my own little comments.
What: the goals. In my case to maintain functional fitness and improve event performance.
Why: the motivation. These ARE the golden years, and it's just more fun to live fit.
When: NOW! Duh. And hopefully for the rest of my life.
How: the program. Spark tracking and community. BodyMedia Fit. Jenny Craig. Whatever works.
Where: RIGHT HERE! At home, at work, in the gym.
Who: ME! Nobody else will do it for me.
Six W's and an H for good measure. Life is good. Spark on!
Wednesday, November 09, 2011
"Be Ever Vigilant - don't get too complacent" is the motto of one of my Spark fellow travelers... Marenamoo. She hasn't been around the Spark for a while and I miss her wisdom and contributions.
Another friend I miss is WalkingAnnie. She was among those who pointed me to the At Goal and Maintaining team, way back when. She, too, started posting less frequently, and hasn't been around in quite some time.
These people have been such an inspiration to me... and I always wonder about Sparkers that I see, then don't see. I sincerely hope they are doing well, still healthy, and just moved on from Spark.
Vigilence is such a key to maintaining. I know, because I lost that vigilence after big losses... several times over a lifetime. I got into a rebellious or discouraged mind - emotional frame, tossed in the towel and let myself eat whatever my little disease (compulsive overeater here) pushed at me! I managed to regain the 30 pounds I lost between high school and college, and they brought friends with them when they came back. I managed to regain the hard-fought pounds I dropped over the course of eating / exercising healthily for the sake of my baby while pregnant (after his birth, I was 24 pounds less than when he was conceived). I managed to regain 60 of the 80 I dropped on my first serious effort with Weight Watchers, after a rolling maintenance of nearly five years.
Since then, I managed to regain a drop of 70 pounds I did "on my own" with books and other resources. And here I sit at maintenance of a weight that I didn't even reach with that first pre-college unhealthy diet, and I did it "right", i.e. balanced diet, exercise, SLOWLY, and working on my mental / emotional issues as I went. In some ways it was the mindset of "maintaining" my way to where my body truly wanted to be.
I know I need to be ever vigilent. I know I am at risk, every day. I live one bite away from a binge. I know this. Knowing it does not always protect me from eating for comfort anyway. Being vigilent about motivation, being honest with myself, and seeking balance in my life might get me to my ultimate goal: staying healthy as long as I can and ENJOYING the life I have been blessed with.
If you are one who has repeatedly lost, regained, lost, regained... take heart. The only failure is giving up. As I said to someone I worked with on those emotional things: "I am happiest when I am *working* on nutrition and fitness." Note: working on, not succeeding, or being at a specific weight or achievement level. This should tell me something: doing these things, eating right, moving, breathing, and giving myself the pep talks... makes me HAPPY!
And what was it I always used to say when people asked what I wanted to be when I grew up? Oh, yeah, "HAPPY"!
Life's good. Be ever vigilent. Spark on!
Tuesday, November 08, 2011
I have had a hard time with U. Most U-words are just... utility players? Useful but unimpressive? Understanding this, I was tempted to put my U in the middle of a word... like fUn.
But I chose "undoing", as in a melodramatic way, one might say, "this cookie will be (or was) the undoing of my diet". Or more practically, once we have slipped and slid a bit, we have to go about "undoing" the damages, by getting back on track. In that sense undoing is a lot like my R word, recovery.
Seriously, the only thing that is truly the undoing of a healthy living initiative is giving up on it! And it is easier to undo damages if we catch it earlier, by being observant of what's going on, or mindful of our own actions, day by day.
Nothing unique about that!
Have a great tUesday! Spark on!
Monday, November 07, 2011
When I was a kid, I could only pass beginner's swimming lessons by employing a nose clip. Getting water up my nose, especially during certain strokes, so distracted me as to be unable to keep going the required distance!
Fast forward to being a parent to a young kid in swimming lessons, and I read some alarmist article about the evils of such devices, I don't remember all the whys it gave, but I was determined to give up the clip.
And I did. I started swimming slower and with my head always out of the water. In my most recent outings though, I found myself getting annoyed by the water in my ears (side stroke), and not being able to increase my turnover and kicks in the back stroke due to my old nemisis, the distraction of water up my nose. Especially when there are other swimmers churning up the water. I have over time learned to deal with those annoyances... BUT it slows me down!
Yesterday, I tried ear plugs for the first time. While I was at it, I purchased a nose clip. What I found was that I could swim harder and faster when I wasn't either trying to avoid the annoyance or being distracted by it.
It dawns on me that some race horses perform better when they put blinders on... so they can only see in one direction: forward. In a fire, they cover horses' eyes, so that they will allow themselves to be led to safety. I regard these little tools as something like that... a way to keep my focus on the goal at hand, and not be distracted.
The same can be said of many of the tools we use in weight loss and maintenance as can be said of those I am now adding to my kit for sports performance. The food tracker, the exercise tracker... ways to keep focus on the task at hand. Sometimes we might go a day or two without, but we come back to the tools that work.
Here's to whatever tools work - to keep on living, and Sparking! Because we're worth it. Spark on!
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