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withdrawal

Wednesday, May 07, 2014

talk about a rough day yesterday! All I could think about was chocolate and ice cream and chips and pop and burgers and fries and toast with nutella or cheez whiz, mostly ice cream though, I past about 3 ice cream trucks on my way home and than when I went to the park to go for a hike with Dan, there was an ice cream truck sitting in the parking lot, just waiting for me.
It was hard, it was really hard. After a while, fruits and veggies just don't cut it. Watermelon helped a little and chicken was good, but I really wanted that sugar. I was bitter and anger and all around unpleasant to be around. I am so lucky to have such a great man in my life to help me through it and tell me no. I could have easily sneaked out of bed and ate some ice cream and chocolate at 3am while he was sleeping, I mean he would never know. But I would know and I refuse to be disappointed in my self this time. It is only for a month, I can last a month
And than we went shopping, he had to buy some rice, and there was everything I craved, just a debit card swipe away. I was angry again and doubting why I am even doing this to my self. But he held my hand and helped me through.
How sad, how very sad that we can have this kind of reaction to the lack of junk food. What is our food doing to us?

  
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ROXYCARIN 5/7/2014 9:00AM

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day one was a success

Friday, May 02, 2014

no sugar, alcohol, pop, or fatty fast food was consumed yesterday! I stayed within my calorie budget and went for a walk around Mississauga, so I even reached my 10,000 steps. But as you may or may not know, the first few days are usually the easiest because you are super motivated,it is the days and weeks after that get harder and harder. But with a great support system I think I can do it. plus it is only for a month, I can totally do a month

  
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GODDREAMDIVA1 5/2/2014 9:42AM

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JOHNMARTINMILES 5/2/2014 9:33AM

    You don't even have to do a month. You only need to do one day, today. After all, today is all you have. Take care of today each day and soon you will have a month behind you.

Make Today the Greatest Day of Your Life

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TRAVELGO 5/2/2014 9:31AM

  You CAN do it!! Spark People is so GREAT!! Just keep doing it one day at a time. Good luck!

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New day, New May

Thursday, May 01, 2014

Good lord that is lame. But it is true. As I am heading to the high White north in a month, I need to jump start, kick start, or do something (anything) to get back in shape for the field season. So I am eating no crap, drinking no crap, and actually getting outside and breaking in my new hiking boots. I am ashamed that I waited this long, but with easter and valentines day and all that chocolate, I just couldn't do it until now.

  
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FARMER77 5/1/2014 10:26PM

    Good on you Okapi6699! I am hear cheering for you! One step at a time and you will get there. I am on a mission too. We can cheer each other on. emoticon

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LJOYCE55 5/1/2014 10:05AM

  No shame - think of everyone who never start.

Love your background of puppy with all those toys in her mouth. Adorable.

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New Job

Monday, March 15, 2010

I started my new job on March 1st, and I love it! It challenges me, keeps me learning, and pays well. I love going to work, even if I have to get up at 5:30. The only problem is that from now until May I am in an office, sitting on my ass all day. It doesn't do much for my weight loss. the building is connected to a HUGE undergraound mall thingy. So we usually go down for lunch, and they have so many places to choose from. When my boss and other co-worker are in the office I usualy go down with them to get my lunch, because of the whole bonding thing. But days like today, where I am alone I bring my lunch and eat WAY less then I do when they are here. plus i can get up and do jumping jacks. but the days they both aren't here are rare.
I have started taking the stairs, 12 flights with 21 steps per flight is a lot of stairs and I feel like I want to die after, but I am going to stick with it, since it fits excersize perfectly into my schedual.
But my weight loss plan for the wedding has been taken off track. It has made me frustrated and mad, and panicks me whenever I think about it. I dont want to be fat in Jamaica. And it doesn't help that Easter is near, with all that candy. I have a big problem with self control. I will buy one bag of candy, saying this will last the month, but then I sit down and watch a movie or something and they whole bag is gone. I have tried not buying the bag, but then i crave it so bad and eat other horrble things. I have taken all the candy I bought to work, it sits in my drawer, and I offer it to the guys in the office. and since it is hidden I dont think about it that often, so I am not munching on them all day. And today I havn't had one. because i know if i have one I will want more. Plus its a pain to put in the nutrition thing on sparkpeople. so today is a good day so far for my diet, and excersize, but its only half over.
It doesn't help either that the tredmill is broken. I was just getting into running everyday, and the stupid thing goes and breaks. Makes me so frustrated, and my father has no idea what to do, I will have to bring in my enginer friend and see what he can do!

  
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New month, new start

Sunday, February 28, 2010

So for the last 4 months I have been working as a shoe sales woman, thats right, and Geologist selling shoes. It was the perfect in between job for me because i love shoes, but not really what I want to do with my life. But an amazing thing happened, I got a call, the call, that took me away from shoes and brought me back to rocks. I start tomorrow and I couldn't be more excited.
My best friend is getting married in May in Jamaica, so of course I want to look my best in a bathing suit. So I had planned on loosing 10 pounds a month, high hopes I know, but in January I did it, lost 11 pounds. but then came February. I was getting depressed about my job selling shoes, I had to have a root canal, and it was Valentines day, with all that chocolate. It didn't help that there was a constant supply of valentines chocolate at work. So I didn't loose anything this month. Which makes me very sad and mad and frustrated. But not for long.
I have a new found motivation (mainly the new bathing suits I got from Victoria secret), and new job and I am ready to go.

  


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