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Feeling much better.

Sunday, January 13, 2013

I am feeling much better. Randy and I discussed my feelings and we are making steps towards change. :)

I've had a sinus migraine for a few days now. I am starting to be able to tell the difference between sinus headaches and plain migraines: I sweat profusely with the sinus problems & sometimes I get dizzy. I finally starting to feel better midafternoon today. Still a little sweaty and not 100% but much better! READY to get back to it!

As I speak, I am on the treadmill. :) Gotta get my exercise minutes in for BLC.

... I got so into my work out I had to pause the blog for a second. I started to run because it feels good to not have a SPLITTING headache. 22 min on the treadmill, 10 minute lower body strength training SP video, 4 sets of stair push ups and 3 sets of tricep dips. I'm going to KILL in my dress. ;)

Nonscale victories:
noticing my waist line is getting trim. (starting to get the hour glass figure back)
Noticing some upper body strength return.

Things i'm thankful for:
Randy who is a good listener and cares about my happiness.
Feeling better.
Returned energy.
A relationship that can stand to be tested.
Good sparkfriends.

  
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ZORAHGAIL 1/14/2013 7:45PM

    Glad you're feeling better!

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LRSILVER 1/13/2013 8:30PM

    Glad you are feeling better.


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PEPPYPATTI 1/13/2013 7:57PM

    Way to go on your fitness minutes today even when you are not feeling well! Hope you feel better soon!
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-AMANDA79- 1/13/2013 6:30PM

    Headaches are no fun! Glad you are feeling better and were able to make progress with your man.

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NETTYBREAD 1/13/2013 4:55PM

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Thank you for sharing... Great NSV and Fitness Victories.
I think of "my" Randy when I read your blog. We are lucky to have great men in our lives.

Have a great day!
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HILLRUNNER 1/13/2013 4:54PM

    Those are some great positives!

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MUSIC2HISEARS 1/13/2013 3:50PM

    I'm glad you are feeling better! And way to go on the workout! emoticon

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Yes, still sad.

Friday, January 11, 2013

I'm still feeling pretty low about randy and Cameron right now. I've been having a hard time forcing myself to keep up with spark. I'm forcing myself to blog in an effort to not be a total zombie. I also had a lot of junk food today. First time in awhile that I emotionally ate. But I logged it all and am holding myself accountable. I did exercise today-20 min cardio and 20 strength training. So I haven't reached slob level. Bear with me until I can return back to feeling normal.

  
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LAURELSPARK 1/12/2013 11:21PM

    It's great to hear that you are exercising..............it will help you feel better soon. Take care!

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HILLRUNNER 1/12/2013 11:44AM

    You showed up and that' a biggie!!!

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-AMANDA79- 1/12/2013 10:49AM

    emoticon sparkmail me if you want to talk...

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HEALTHY4ME 1/11/2013 9:05PM

    HUgs and can I just say that eating like that is giving them more power over you but I know you know that and it is super hard. I do it often but not as bad as when i was young and would say JUST YOU WAIT I WILL LOSE OR I WILL BE ... then be so mad I would go eat. lol counterproductive for sure.

HUGS

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Too tired to be sad.

Wednesday, January 09, 2013

For the first time in a long time, I took a sleep aid (excedrine PM) to go to sleep last night. I woke up with some RENEWED energy and my head felt CLEAR again. I must not have had a good night's sleep in awhile. Its not something I want to do all the time but I think I needed it.

I got home and was suprised to find out I will be having 7 kids over friday for Cameron's birthday instead of the 2-3 originally planned. Cameron often goes behind my back and has discussions with his father. In fact, the last time he was grounded was because of it. However, I can't 100% fault Cameron, because Randy continually allows it as well. Its exhausting. I know they are both probably sick of hearing me get mad about it, just as much as I am sick of telling them that they shouldn't be doing it.

I told Randy that I thought it was disrespectful of Cameron, and his way to get around what I say. I also said that it shows me that he (randy) is inconsiderate of my feelings considering how often I tell them how it hurts my feelings that they have these conversations and don't include me, when I am always the one watching the kids and feeding them.

I probably shouldn't be writing about him since he joined spark lol but he doesn't read my blogs any ways.

I cried...I am sick of always feeling blindsided and not having my feelings considered.

Then I decided to get over it and get on the treadmill and do some strength training. Had a good work out but didn't do any studying. Good things tomorrow is my (semi) day off.

Any ways, now I am too tired to care that they don't care about my feelings...(sounds sad doesn't it?) But I have also decided to leave Randy with the 7 kids (plus Cameron) friday and go out with friends. Guess he can figure out how to feed them all and deal with it.

  
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SCCUDDLERS 1/10/2013 3:49PM

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NETTYBREAD 1/9/2013 10:58PM

    emoticon Ok Push-Up Girl (wink, wink) my husband's name is Randy too. That's funny...

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And... I LOVE that you will leave him with the kids. Perfect!!!

Hope you get a good night's rest and feel refreshed and rejuvenated tomorrow.

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-AMANDA79- 1/9/2013 10:23PM

    Ugh. I'm sorry.

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HEALTHY4ME 1/9/2013 9:13PM

    LOL good idea !!! he agreed to them all, let him realize the difference. Also can I just suggest that if the feeling as if you don't count or whatever, happens enough, please deal with it before you end up holding in stuff that you shouldn't and also ........ before you get married. Harder the longer you put up with it, believe me, I felt as if I was walking on eggshells for long time, we both ended up agreeing to councelling mainly cos of his depression but still for other stuff too.
HUGS and hope i am making too big a thing of it! don't want you sad.


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PEPPYPATTI 1/9/2013 9:10PM

    So sorry you are going through it. I am going through a similar situation between my husband & my son. Husband is always bitching about the finances & that Randy needs to get a job. He has been looking be he has a felony on his record from 6 years ago & keeps getting turned down. I hate being stuck in the middle! Way to go on leaving Randy to deal with the kids! That sounds like a great plan!
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LAWANDMUSIC 1/9/2013 8:53PM

    OOOPS. That will be interesting!

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Start of the semester...Hives already!

Tuesday, January 08, 2013

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I took a few semesters off from pursuing my Master's degree but I registered for this semester. I am taking 6 credits. I haven't even read the assignments and I broke out in hives today. LOL I can't solely blame this on school. I left work and my head was reeling. I feel so overwhelmed there.

Any ways, I need to breathe and then finish this degree up. Two more semesters (4 more classes) after this semester!!! Then onto bigger and better things.

Yesterday I felt like I was socked in the stomach so I didn't exercise...I attempted but my stomach literally felt like it was going to fall out as I walked on the treadmill so I stopped. Today I did ten minutes cardio on the treadmill and then I did a toning video. Its not much, but at least its something?!

Nonscale victories:
was able to do some push-ups today.

Things I am thankful for today:
the opportunity to be in school.
Despite the SHEER AMOUNT of stress I can to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Understanding/supportive family.

  
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-AMANDA79- 1/9/2013 8:15PM

    Oh my. Calm down. You can do it. You're so close.

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SCCUDDLERS 1/9/2013 7:03AM

    I'm so proud of you for pushing yourself. You will get through these stressful times & go on to do great things!

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NETTYBREAD 1/8/2013 11:34PM

    emoticon I am in total *awe* of anyone that can do push-ups. I don't know why, but I hate them. LOL!

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CORTNEY-LEE 1/8/2013 10:25PM

    good luck in school!

I know you will rock it!

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HEALTHY4ME 1/8/2013 8:30PM

    You will do fine, just think positive and say I KNOW I CAN DO THIS. but yea I do understand easier said than done.
Hope the hives don't get worse and you have a better day tomorrow at work.
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PEPPYPATTI 1/8/2013 8:28PM

    Way to go on going back to school! That is awesome except for the hives. Hope you are not getting what I had. Feel better soon! emoticon emoticon

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This is what 25lbs gone looks like! (pictures included)

Sunday, January 06, 2013

Today:


5lbs heavier than Today:


Day 1:


That is the total of all the work I have accomplished in a little under 4 months. If I can do it, you can do it. I have not eaten perfectly or exercised consistently every day, but I have kept trying and focused on being a little bit better than yesterday.

I included the 5lb heavier picture to show that even 5lbs makes a difference. In the beginning of my journey, 5lb losses showed even greater on my body (please see my gallery if you would like to see my photo journey). I think this is important to share because sometimes people shrug off 5lbs as "only 5lbs..."

How I've gotten here:
I've celebrated every accomplishment - every pound lost is awesome!!!!
I maintained a positive attitude and kept trying.
Didn't focus on the negatives. Focused on the positives.
Didn't let the scale completely dictate how I feel (i had some screwy weigh ins)
Made great sparkfriends to carry me through the rougher times!

I love spark people. I love my friends. I love my family. AND I love myelf!

  
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JANIEG68 1/7/2013 1:17PM

    YOU ROCK! :-) emoticon

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WKWJWP 1/7/2013 12:25PM

    You are so awesome! Hollis was saying, "Onny" when I was looking at this. We are both very excited for you. And your face look so much happier in the newest picture!! emoticon

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ANJAYS-JOURNEY 1/7/2013 7:42AM

    Amazing and congrats way to go, very inspiring

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KIMBERTA99 1/7/2013 12:25AM

    WOW you are doing AWESOME!! Keep going strong!!

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    Great photos! They really help to tell the story. emoticon emoticon

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HEALTHY4ME 1/6/2013 8:05PM

    BEST OF ALL YOU LOVE YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!! and well you should. You have done awesome work and look great!!! CONGRATS!!!

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LUVSBULLDOGS 1/6/2013 7:38PM

    WooHoo!!! Good job.

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COUGAR67 1/6/2013 7:26PM

    Way to go! you are doing awesome.

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CECISMOMMY09 1/6/2013 4:22PM

    yay so motivational thanks for sharing!

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STORMYWEN 1/6/2013 4:10PM

    Awesome job! You look amazing! Seeing it in photos is so motivating, thank you!

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LAURELSPARK 1/6/2013 2:23PM

    You've done an amazing job......just think how much healthier you are! Congrats!

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    Way to go!!!! You look great!!! emoticon

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KRZYKAT3 1/6/2013 1:59PM

    wow those are awesome pctures!!! Conrats on your hard work

Makes me appreciate that I am 25 pounds lighter than 2 years ago more. Wish I had a picture at my heaviest, one that really shoed what I looked like that is

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EUEK098 1/6/2013 1:45PM

    OMG now that's fat destruction.

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    You have done an awesome job! You look great! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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-AMANDA79- 1/6/2013 1:08PM

    So happy for you!! emoticon

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ADAGIO_CON_BRIO 1/6/2013 12:57PM

    Beautiful! I am impressed! In less than 4 months---you accomplished great things! emoticon emoticon

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    emoticon You have done an emoticon job!!

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JULESJET 1/6/2013 12:42PM

    Congratulations! You are AWESOME!

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MYLOVELYCURVES 1/6/2013 12:23PM

    Wow! Amazing job!!! You can totally see a huge difference :)

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VAINILLAZ 1/6/2013 12:02PM

    OMG amazing!!! CONGRATS!! =D

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    emoticon emoticon Pictures do really help ... keep going you are doing awesome!


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    Keep up the great work!!! emoticon emoticon

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PJBONARRIGO 1/6/2013 11:11AM

    Congrats on your healthier lifestyle and losing 25 pounds! That is awesome! Thanks for sharing your journey with us- especially the pictures so we can see it! emoticon

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    Great before and after pictures, you look great! emoticon emoticon

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LRSILVER 1/6/2013 11:00AM

    Wow you are doing great!! Awesome pictures.

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