Sunday, July 24, 2011
Ahh the dreaded Hangover!!! The dreadful affects of alcohol happen for 2 days. Not just the initial consumption of the vodka tonic(my fav)but the day after also!! Why is it BK fish sandwiches sound so normal to eat when your head is throbbing??
Oh no. I dont have one of THOSE hang overs. Havent had one since...um maybe my wedding reception??? No, the hangover I am referring to is a FOOD hangover. Yes its true! It happens! To me anyway.
I always seem to start the day with gusto!!! And that was exactly how it started yesterday!!! I ran 9 miles and thought any negativity would magically disappear! Ahhh endorphins, love you! But unfortunately they creeped back!!! Hubby wanted tacos for dinner! Trust me I dont mind tacos but they really are not my favorite. He on the other hand, can eat 10!!!! What I love is the sour cream!!!! And regrettably for my waistline, I found this new stuff with jalapeños in it!!! Stop!! Never buy it!! You will end up eating it on lettuce like me!! I ate so much I couldnt even eat dessert! Well until hours later that is! Frozen yogurt...in chocolate almond????? YUM-O!
That was last night. This morning I was feeling bloated and sausagey while I was sitting with Hubby eating pie with my coffee Funny how things can just flow to the next!!! I was on a frenzy today! Needless to say there is no pie, no sourcream and no fro yo left!!! AHHHHHHHHHH! I dont even feel mentally able to calculate it all to even add to my tracker! In the midst of it all, I fit in a 4 mile run.
Then had a moment of clarity
I caught a glimpse of my side profile in the bathroom of our gym. I look smaller! No really, LOOK! I was dumbfounded! I know I ate at least 4500 -5000cals the past 2 days!!!!! And I didnt magically turn into that fat blobby thing from star wars!!! That realization shook me to the core! I will look like that blob if I dont CUT IT OUT!!!!
My chicken is roasted, veggies in water and meal plan started. A new week and this time I am starting without the hangover.
Friday, July 22, 2011
SOOOOOO yes, I am a little scale obsessed!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please dont blog about me later and be like oh these self hating sparkers blah blah blah!!! I am having a moment!!!
I dont want to be 180! But yep, that's what I am!!!!!!!!!!! F word! What a fatty!!!!!!!I stomach flued out of the 200's and never went back, 190's never a second glance! Now 180!!!!! Oh 180!!!! I WAS 177 not so long ago!! But have been stuck at 179 forEVER!!! It is so obnoxious!! Meaning I am obnoxious!!! I cannot put the sugar down!! I was psyched all week that I hadn't gained a pound!! Even while on my cycle!!!! Which a gain is usually what happens! I was totally anticipating at least 178 next monday!!!!!
My real goal was to be my pre momma weight of 165-167 before my daughters 2nd birthday! Um yeah, not happening, seeing that its in 6 DAYS I feel more womanly the closer I get to 150!!! Being this tall, the less I weigh, the less big I look!! aarrrghhhh!
I KNOW I look different and I am not that delusional not to be happy with the results I have achieved! But when you weigh this much(yeah like the average male) its disheartening! I am not bashing the weight that I am at. For some its their goal weight, but its not mine. I want to be long and lean(just like the name of my favorite jeans). Not long and lumpy!
I need to put in more work to really see the change I want! I made icing before I blogged and ate 6 heaping tablespoons. Then stopped and said "can you taste this"? ahh no. I threw the rest away! And I wonder why I am gaining
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