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Wednesday, January 06, 2010

I am not obsessed with my looks, but I want to be hot! I want to be as fat as I was when I THOUGHT I was fat!!!! I want my husband to think of me and his knees go weak. I want him to be the jealous guard dog he once was! And not just think of me as the girls mom. And yes I welcome other moms to think I am a pretentious Bleep when I go to school plays lookin fabulous! When you are healthy and fit you feel 100x better physically, and emotionally. I need to get there! I will. I am tired of daily self loathing emoticon

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MY_AGREEMENT 1/7/2010 2:19AM

    I have to agree with Shawna. Here's a little secret: how you look has very little to do with self-loathing or self-love. You are GORGEOUS. Honestly. (And I don't mean just "inside" - I've seen your pictures.) Believing that and loving your body is a different matter entirely. However outrageous it sounds, you can choose to love yourself *before you lose a single pound or inch*. In fact, I'd recommend it ... self love will take you much farther on this journey than self loathing ever will. And furthermore, believing you're sexy and hot, and acting like it, will also change how your husband sees you. Really.

As the song says, "free your mind and your a$$ will follow..." LOL.

Hugs! Marsha

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OKEESEGOBELLA 1/6/2010 10:53PM

    umm just to let you know sweetie - you are very "hot" right now he he. Just keep going. keep going.

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Speed training/2 a days

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

Well I have become a workout machine! Well actually getting back to where my Husband and I were before the Princesses arrived! I need to get my eating under control! I had to throw away my icing sugar because I was mixing it with Peanut butter and coconut! I do crazy eating things when I stress out. School starting this week and the anticipation of Hubby coming home in just over a month. I gained 5 pounds the month before we got married, Thank god I was in decent shape then and it didnt do much to my appearance. But 5 pounds now would be disaster!!!!!! emoticon


Cheerios snack mix binge while blogging

Monday, January 04, 2010

Ok I know I said I threw away all the birthday snacks....but there was one unopened bag of cheerios mix left. I am still picking out all of the golden grahams!!! I feel bad but cannot stop! ugh! How do you control it!!! I know It could be worse but I just eat for no reason!
I used to watch biggest loser with my Hubs with a snack and say wow how did these people get so big? Well now I know! I cannot silence the crazy demon in my head pushing me to eat more!
I am really self loathing today and I know that is playing a role in my eating. How do I turn of the emotional binge eating? AAARRRGGGHHHH! Oh and I ate all the golden grahams emoticon

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OJIBWEEQUAY 1/5/2010 8:14AM

    Well I did finish what I like and now I have no temptation food in the house. Really I do not! emoticon

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MY_AGREEMENT 1/4/2010 11:49PM

    Throw them away! Now!!!! :-)

It's easy to get on a binge, but yours doesn't sound too awful. You just start over again tomorrow! Don't hate yourself for slipping up (easier said than done, I know) ... everybody does it. Just the fact that you were conscious of it WHILE it was happening slowed you down a bit, and over time that consciousness will help you stop it sooner and sooner.

No worries, you're doing great! :-)

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Almost 2pounds

Monday, January 04, 2010

It is over! Every event that involves bad eating is over! My babs birthday party was yesterday and I threw away the extra icecream, chocolate sauce, snacks, everything! There is NO reason not to eat clean this week!
Wish me luck! I did manage to lose almost 2 pounds!!! Go me! Maybe this week will be better emoticon

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LAURAANN821 1/4/2010 9:20AM

    Best of luck this week. You can do it!!

(very smart to get rid of the junk food - you're chances of success skyrocketed!) emoticon

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Birthday Party temptations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, January 01, 2010

I prevailed in the cake department today! Only 2 bites! But.....the PIZZA from last night is why I stopped ! Geez! But I did kinda cut calories but still ate2500 Cal today!!! I have to run more tomorrow! Dang!! Oh well . I am getting nervous of my weigh in on Monday!
I need to remember those pictures I took everytime I want to eat! Why cant I stop!!! emoticon emoticon

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    I think i do that mindless eating too. I deal with it by eating every meal. Trying to eat enough before noon - including lunch - so I am not hungry later. Apples are really helping - very filling. Making myself have a large drink of water and or peppermint tea. Leaving a food area. getting busy with something else.
I would stand on my head if i could anything to not eat when i should not be eating...

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BLUEROSE73 1/1/2010 11:48PM

    Those temptations can be hard to resist sometimes. I find my biggest issue is mindlessly eating them. Not really knowing how many calories are actually in that treat, until after I eat it. Or even if I know, not realizing how fast and unsatisfying those calories can be as they go in.

Anyhow, tomorrow is a new day. What are you going to do tomorrow to reach your goal by weigh in on Monday?

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