Friday, January 11, 2013
I love Sparkpeople, I really do. But once I sign on, I don't get anything done!!!
I gotta post this, and track that, then check into some inspiring Sparkettes and Sparkmen ....
BUT GUYS, my house looks like it was hit by a tornado. Okay, okay, it's not Sparkpeople's fault.
It's four children who do not know what a hanger was made for.
It's sports-minded boys who set up a hockey tournament in front of the fireplace.
It's a husband who thinks his big muddy boots look fabulous in the middle of the living room.
It's a dog who drools all over the patio door and windows chasing squirrels from outpost to outpost.
And it's me, who procrastinates in front of the web.
So toodles for today! I've got some digging out to do!!!
**** P.S!! My son just came up, saw the photo of the motorcycle ride through the living room I posted and said,"Someday I'm going to do that, too!"
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Starting over. Again. (again, again, again)
But if I dwell on past failures, I will continue to "not" lose and be miserable.
I have to remember that I have had many, many successes in losing weight at various times in my life. Great successes. Skinny times.
I will focus on those successes to motivate me and stay on track.
And I'm just not waiting to pursue my dreams (or create new dreams) any longer.
There isn't any goal that I can't make as long as I break it down day to day and keep looking forward.
Life is happening now.
Friday, July 20, 2012
No one has ever said that to me ... "You're getting too skinny!" Not that I can remember.
The closest comment somewhat like that was, "Oh you'll never be heavy." But that was at several years ago. I knew I was puffing up, but kept pushing it out of my head.
I remember my denial when a clerk at an upscale store looked at me, urging me to try things on. I had long before stopped trying things on at a store because I could not (cannot) stand to look at myself in those dressing room mirrors.
Today I'm dreaming about the day that people will see me and remark with concern that I'm getting too thin. The day when I actually have to alter my clothes and tailor away fabric to keep things from falling off.
The image just seems delightful to me and compels me to work toward making it become reality!!
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Years ago as a teen, I remember one Weight Watchers meeting in particular.
This was long before points, when the tracking and goals were very much like what we do here on SparkPeople. Balance food and count calories, and (I committed to heart) the important recommendations 2 fruit a day, 3-5 fish meals a week, 1 meal to include calves or chicken liver for the vitamins.... and more.
I know a lot of you have found success with WW and I'm happy for you and urge you to continue. But for me, now it's all lost. I'm stuck to a time when I could understand the goal and there were no points. It doesn't make sense to me now. It is harder for me to place "points" into normal, forever eating.
Anyway, while the program was different, the things people confronted weren't. They were the same. How not to binge. How to balance, eat enough but not too much either (never skip a meal was a mantra). How to overcome a plateau. etc.
The meeting I remember most was about sabotage. Someone was explaining that her spouse was threatened by her weight loss, that he was constantly tempting her with fattening, sugary food. She and he worried that her being skinny would hurt their relationship. The leader talked about how this happens frequently...
I've thought about that meeting many, many times. For me, most of the sabotage came from .... me! Everyone in my family was thin and valued it to an extreme. Somehow, I thought I never measured up. I thought I could never do this. I thought, and thought and thought and screwed up and now blew and puffed up.
I am my own saboteur. And I did it to myself again the last three days. Just as I verge on the edge of a 10 pound loss, I made a batch a cookie dough. I told myself it was for the kids, but I never cooked those darn cookies. Then I told myself I'm just a sucker for cookie batter....la de da de da .... on and on. But, gross! It tastes just terrible! I feel puffy and yucky....
This routine has really just lost its luster.
I felt better last week when I was on track, posted here, and even when I was stuck on my plateau. I felt great. And the weight I couldn't see fall on the scale, I could see whittle away from my cheek bones and when buttoning the buttons on my shirt.
I'm done with the game one plays on oneself. And I feel great when I have my "Spark."
So here I am, renewing again, as I will for as long as I live. And, you know, it's a great place to be!!
Friday, July 13, 2012
About a year ago I read another Sparkette's blog about dark chocolate. Hmmm... I could have dark chocolate?!!!
So I've been stewing about it for a year. Yesterday I stood in the chocolate aisle for about 30 minutes reading labels and cocoa contents. I'm not a fan of bitter tastes, so I settled on a 70% cocoa with black currant and almond slivers. Wow! The entire bar was divided into five two-square pieces at about 50 calories a square.
I ate two. Slowly. It was very nice... not bitter at all, not too sweet either and just the bit of decadence one needs now and then, ... until...
To be polite, let's just say it "cleaned me out."
I'm not sure I can count the 1.5 pound loss as "real" this morning, but it sure did break up my weight plateau!!
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