I took on a 12 week weightloss challenge at my local ladies fitness club and WON! ...in more ways than one.
It all started so simply with 5 bucks and set your own goal which I did at losing 15 lbs in 12 weeks. Thought okay so I get my $5 back if I meet my goal so how big could the overall pot be without knowing how many girls would join??? Pay $1 for each pound gained per week and $5 if you miss a weigh in. Greatest percentage of weight lost wins. That was me today - $155!
But the biggest win was reaching my goal! I lost 16 lbs. what????
I have always been afraid to say I have a goal because what if? :( I did not get there. When I started this whole journey nearly 3 years ago I started out with the fear of failure. I did not want to commit to doing anything for fear that I would not. As I started tracking, exercising, and dropping weight I gained some confidence and realized I was actually doing it without failure. Then came the binge and the fear and the weight gain. But I fought it back and lost what I put on. I did that several times. I am still somewhat afraid of backsliding but I am over the "fear." I know I can do this. It's takes a concentrated effort maybe forever but I can do it.
This little milestone is reassurance that I can.
And with that moo lay I think I will invest in some essential oils and a massage!
As I was running errands after work today I noticed a "sweet emptiness" in my tummy. It was the feeling of just a little hunger possibly and/or maybe that little emotional hunger of the end of a stressful day at work that I chose not to immediately satisfy. It was a pleasant feeling!
I am going for my final weigh in of my 12 week challenge this week so that extra motivation to keep things in check is a motivator.
I don't like to exercise with food in my stomach so I have trained myself not to eat anything after work because that's when I exercise, so that keeps me in check.
But that "feeling" was so "sweet" that I hope I can consistently notice it often enough to want it again and again...
Just knowing I was in control of my fatigue and stress...without emotional eating is an NSV!
Now, about that cheesecake...
Last Friday I chose to indulge in a whole piece of Copeland's Speciality Cheesecake. I made wise choices all day and on my entree selection. When I got home I tracked everything and found that the cheesecake alone was approx 800-1200 calories! But that's ok. I had a great weekend of healthy eating right back on track.
The "fiasco" part is that DH bought a whole $50 cheesecake to bring home! Well after getting the calorie count I knew I could not have another piece anytime soon...
I don't usually use food as reward but I do treat myself occasionally, so I had two plans for that cheesecake staring at me from the fridge. 1) allow myself one more piece planned strategically immediately after my weekly weigh in or 2) freeze a piece for when I was really ready for it. I originally planned for Tuesday but weighed in a day early and had a great 5 days and a 1.5 loss so I enjoyed my second and last piece of cheesecake for a long while, while visiting and sharing it with my kids and grand kids!
Now moving on past the cheesecake...and into the sunset with a smile and a little discomfort in the belly that is not nearly as sweet as the cheesecake or that "sweet emptiness" I had earlier this afternoon.
The journey continues and my official weigh in tomorrow...
I am on a "new year" roll. Week 11 I have a -1.5 lb loss = 14 lbs for 2014. That's a scale victory!
But the real victory...the NSV is that looking back at diary entries shows that this is the first time in almost three years that I am at this "place," showing a losing trend in the early months of the year. I am usually battling during this season fighting off till I have more time during the late spring and summer to plan, track, exercise more. I get very stressed at the end of the school year and it seems there are always work or family "issues" that send me into an emotional eating frenzy. But that has not happened for a while. I just realized it when I verbalized it to close friends that I have not had a "binge" in 3 months! That's another big NSV!
I have now lost my 14 lb gain that accumulated over Oct-Dec. now just 3 lbs to the goal I set almost 3 years ago.
This time I want to truly maintain my loss. I can gain weight. I can even lose weight. It is time to prove to MYSELF that I can maintain my weight.
I am finally "getting it" thanks to the stories of maintainers here on Spark! It seems like just when I need "???something???" I happen onto a story or new friend that sets me in the right direction. Not always an easy direction or one I wanted to here but never the less, a true story of a real person that has done it or is doing it.
Cheers and Kudos to maintainers!!!
Here's to a new day, a new week, a new month, and a new year - 2014!
things are going very well. I just logged in a -1.5 lbs for week ten of my twelve week challenge at my fitness club. That's -12 lbs for my new year 2014. I am really excited about the consistent loss. Only had a gain one week. Like week 3 or 4. My mini goal is 3lbs away = 177 for the final weigh in that happens in two weeks.
But the journey doesn't end there...I still want to finally achieve my original goal of 175 that I set nearly 3 years ago. I have come so close probably 3 or 4 times but did not quite get there. It is puzzling as to why. I'm not quite sure. Life interruptions. Stress. Hormones. Complacency. Self-Sabotage. Out of routine. Joy. Celebrations. Physical Fatigue. Mental Fatigue. I do know it is mainly psychological. It's the way I deal or cope with these issues. But I am learning.
It's an aha or should I say an aaaaaaahhhhaaaaaa! Like Ohhhhhhhhh that's how this is done....it takes a lot of time to figure this all out. Wow this is work! Whaaaaat? You mean I'm doing it????
Just when I am almost there I get frustrated with the meal planning, tracking, trying to fit the exercise in, etc...