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I think I know what caused my gain...

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Sodium! and I retain water like a sponge.

I hate it, but it's a fact... I don't know why I didn't think about sodium yesterday... I reckon Myrtle had something to do with that! Anyhow. this morning I woke WAY too early (3:00) and then could not go back to sleep... all kinds of things mulling around in my head, when all of the sudden I thought... Sodium! I got on up and checked my amounts for the last few days... and sure enough... Friday's was over 3000 mg higher than the rest of the week's days... so I'm 99.999% positive that is why my weight was up a bit Saturday. I was fairly certain it was water weight... now I realize why.

And yesterday my sodium was even higher! So I'm skipping today's weigh in. I'm also going to watch the sodium much more closely now!

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ANGRITTER 11/16/2012 3:43AM

    My mother is a saltaholoc, so she just gave me something she uses which is called Nu Salt. It is potassium chloride instead of sodium chloride. Her doctor recommended it. Tastes just like salt, but supposedly better for you. Here is a link if you'd like to look it up and see what it is all about. I have not used it yet as I have not cooked much in the 3 weeks they have been gone. (Di and I eat salads or soup or something easy when we don't have to cook!)

/ (and they didn't spend much on the website, but don't let that deter you from trying. It's supposedly in most grocery stores by now.

It's worth a try!

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1STATEOFDENIAL 11/11/2012 10:27PM

    Avoid pre-made meals in which salt is used as a preserver. Take the salt shaker off the tape and away from food preparation areas. Drink more plain water and less of anything sweetened or flavored. Have fewer baked foods like breads, and stick to more whole foods. These are all ways to cut back on sodium.

I'm under doctors orders to eat more sodium and I struggle to get close to the 4,000 mg they want me to have. So I do the opposite of these things.

Also, make sure to always get 8 (or more) glasses of water a day to flush extra sodium out of your kidneys. More importantly, drink it throught the whole day, not all at once. Drinking water all at once will dehydrate you and allow the sodium to build up.

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SPARKNMOM 11/11/2012 9:09PM

    Sodium is not my friend, either...

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GMO_JEN 11/11/2012 5:33PM

    I am the exact same. If I eat salt, I will hold on to everything. It is such a mess :( though, I suppose more a sign I need to eat less salt ;) It will look almost back to normal next week.

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MIDNIGHTER1 11/11/2012 4:39PM

    Sodium is very hard to control. It is in everything. It is managable but you have to really research your food and amount of sodium. Mine fluxuates. High some days,lows some days. Good luck to you.

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CATHYGETSFIT 11/11/2012 4:11PM

    Ugh! Sodium is in everything! It's definitely something you have to watch. Now that you know I'm sure you'll drop those pounds in no time.

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MAGA99 11/11/2012 2:06PM

    I have the same problem
so I know how that feels - I have lost 5lbs in an hr after taking my water pill

good luck w avoiding the salt

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BIGPAWSUP 11/11/2012 1:14PM

    Sodium is a nasty little creep that sneaks in the back. You can control it.

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LOSER05 11/11/2012 11:00AM

    salt taste so good but why does it have to be so bad for you

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JUSTME29 11/11/2012 8:40AM

    Sodium is so hard to control too. Even some "healthy" things (subway, low cal frozen meals, etc.) have incredible amounts.

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MS_HEATHER121 11/11/2012 7:52AM

    Sodium is one thing I try to stay away from as well. I'm so glad you figured out what was up. Myrtle is getting at you... go kick "her" in the head. Seriously now that you know, you will drop those lbs for sure!

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MIMIDOT 11/11/2012 6:04AM

    I have the same problem. If I eat salt I can gain 2 pounds in one day. That doesn't seem fair. lol With me it's not eating too much, it's eating any at all. Good luck to you!

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Fighting Myrtle, Day 2

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Myrtle is telling me evil things too... She's telling me to give up this morning, already. Yesterday's weight: 243.5... yesterday I ate 1390 calories and drank 88 oz of water, but I did not exercise. This morning, I stepped on the scales and I'm at 245. Why? I did not eat enough to gain a pound and a half, and I weighed after going to the bathroom about a dozen times throughout the night! Myrtle is yelling in my head... SEE? SEE? I told you this was all worthless and that you were wasting your time. You will never lose weight again, you will never be thinner. Give it up, eat what you want today... Doesn't pizza sound good???? Don't you want some ice cream after that... we can watch movies and eat cookies and ice cream, because that's what you like... you can't do this. Give it up.

I'm fighting her. It's hard... but I'm doing it. I'm not giving up.
The gain... fluctuations... it's water weight again. emoticon
The food... Early this morning I had a cup of coffee with cream and a banana for breakfast. We just went and picked a lot of greens from the garden for dinner today... and a few radishes. I've eaten two of the radishes... and I ate an apple. I'm good for a while now.

This afternoon we're baking a ham and making green beans and taters and rolls and of course those greens. I'm going to stick to serving sizes (measured!) and ... gosh... even right now Myrtle is saying we can eat a HUGE plateful of that good stuff. But NO. I will not give in to Myrtle.!

I do have plans for today... have several errands to run: picking up my grandmother's dresser from my mom's former home (she just moved), getting a couple things from a couple stores and shopping for things for our Operation Christmas Child boxes... then later ...that good dinner. Tonight will probably be leftovers. (I'm going to plan what I can eat to keep it around 1200 cals) and a movie with the family. I do have a busy day ahead... and Myrtle is not invited. :)

Shut up, Myrtle! emoticon

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BIGPAWSUP 11/11/2012 1:13PM

    I'll mail you duct tape for Myrtle's mouth. You CAN do this! You are an awesome, amazing woman. Myrtle is just jealous!

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MIDNIGHTER1 11/10/2012 9:47PM

    You have to treat "Myrtle" like a chick who is trying to steal your man. She has alterior motives and intentions, now would you allow that? Of course not. You have to mentally focus on things to keep your mind too busy to even think about Myrtle.

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MS_HEATHER121 11/10/2012 1:51PM

    Tell Mrytle where she can stick it. And don't let her talk you in ro weighing daily. Your weight will fluctuate.. Choose one day to weigh... no more. No more myrtle! Perhaps you need a dose of Myrtle-be-gone? emoticon

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JUSTME29 11/10/2012 12:34PM

    Shut up Mrytle! You can definitely do this, and leave her spluttering futilely.

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GMO_JEN 11/10/2012 12:32PM

    Just ignore her-you are doing so good on this challenge. And, planning your meal is the way to go. Hubby madevsteak and green beans this week-I think I ate almost 2 cups of them to fill up and avoid temptation! You are doing everything good-the scale will move back down soon :)

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LIBRA73 11/10/2012 12:08PM

    Tell Myrtle to bite you!!

Awesome job!

Forget about the weigh in and keep working at it. Eventually the flab will come off!

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A new attitude, a new plan, a new way of looking at the fat me... introducing Myrtle

Friday, November 09, 2012

Ok... before you continue reading... I must warn you that this may sound silly to many of you, but this fun way of thinking about all this is helping me... and perhaps it just might help someone with some of the same issues I deal with... the Why Bother issue, the low self-esteem, no confidence, is it really worth it? ... those ways of thinking... well... this is how I'm going to fight it right now.... Besides, this is MY blog... emoticon So... Here I go......
Aloha! Renee' here again. The real Renee'. I'm a wonderful mom, a terrific wife, healthy, fun-loving, thin, sociable, enjoy outdoor activities. I'm active, willing to try new fun things, including really learning to surf :) ! I can climb a flight of stairs (or several) with no issues. I can wear anything I like, and I enjoy shopping for myself when I need something new to wear. I am smart, I am pretty, I am sexy! I am fun to be around. I enjoy dancing, and creating art, and writing, and going for long walks on the beach... even if they are crowded. :) I have no problems physically fitting in anywhere! I love amusement parks and pool parks! My husband can even lift me up! I love doing things with my kids and husband, I am confident, self-assured, and truely happy and the joy of the Lord is my strength.
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Then there's another "me" she's the one I see in the mirror, the inner fat demon girl who tells me "why bother." She tells me to give up, that I'm not worth it, that no one likes me because I'm fat and that even if I was skinny no one would like me. She tells me I can hide behind fat... use it as an excuse to stay away. She tells me I should be embarrassed to look like this. She tells me I'm ugly and ain't nothing I can do about it... Then she tells me to console myself with food... and lots of it. She says the only joy I can truely have is found in a donut, or in a large pizza or in any food as long as there is plenty of it. She tells me I'm not done eating until my stomach hurts. She tells all the time to just give up the dieting forever, that it does no good anyhow. She tells me to stay at home all the time, so we can be alone with the food. And if we go out to eat, she tells me to eat a lot because we must get our money's worth... She's always telling me to throw in the day since it's often already blown. She tells me I can't go on a vacation, especially to a beach, or to a high school reunion, or to most social gatherings... what would people think of how fat you are, she says. We don't need to be around people. They just see you and think of how fat your are and talk wickedly behind your back. She tells me I actually prefer to lay on the couch and eat, that it's much more fun than ANY exercise I might think about doing. She makes me feel worthless and hopeless. She tells me she is my only true friend and that she loves me, but she truely hates me.
I hate her. I'm going to call her Myrtle.... So it's time to get rid of Myrtle. I have a plan to do it... I'm going to rid myself of her one little bit at a time... like in a horror movie. I'm going to ignore everything she says and I'm going to chop her up slowly and burn all the little pieces. It's gonna take a while, and there may be days where I feel like I just can't do it anymore, but I will find the strength somehow. I have declared war on Myrtle. There will be many battles... small ones that I'm taking one at a time... and I will beat her. Good-bye Myrtle! I am aware of you and I don't like you. I know what you are... soon to be history!
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HEALTHYSLIM2 11/11/2012 1:17AM

    Bye Bye Myrtle!
We will be supporting our beautiful friend Renee' in getting rid of you, and I'm sorry to say this, but we won't miss you...
Do yourself a favor, and go out in a quiet and orderly fashion. Leaving with dignity is the least you can do at this point, after all.
The only other option would be to get with the program and become Renee's biggest cheerleader and supporter. Then, Myrtle, you might be welcome to stay. Underneath it all, you might be nice... If so, this would be the time to let Renee' know!

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ALICIAYOUNG1127 11/10/2012 11:29AM

    Thank you so much for sharing your blog..my myrtle needed to hear it!

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MELRON042900 11/10/2012 7:54AM

    Awesome blog! emoticon

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BUSYGRANNY5 11/10/2012 6:38AM

    Awesome blog!!! I thoroughly enjoyed reading it!! Good luck with all your goals!

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MIDNIGHTER1 11/9/2012 8:42PM

    Hmmm !You have to "Exercize" Myrtle. That is one sure way to rid yourself of her. It will have to be a daily battle to assume control from her. She has all the weapons,with the exception of the most important one,Your mind. Wrestle control of this back and you will win. Dictate to her what you will eat,when you will exercise. How You fell about YOU. Let her know you are strong.Don't just tell her. Word swithout actions are just words.Deeds are what gets results.
Do me one small favor if you will,read two blogs I wrote. They are old but I think you will find them really fascination. One is called," Welcome toThe midnighter hour" and the other is called"Return to the Midnighter hour" You may have to search my blog list. Read Welcome to the midnighter hour first,then the return to the midnighter hour ( like you did not know that)
Ah! The destruction of Myrtle she will not be missed. emoticon

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LANEYTHEGIRL 11/9/2012 7:43PM

    I'm so glad you wrote this blog. I feel like you peeled back my scalp, opened up my skull and plucked these thoughts right from my brain. I feel exactly like this sometimes, especially when I have really stressful days. I think, what will change if I lose weight? Will people like me more? Will I be happier? Will I feel different? What if nothing changes? Maybe it's not worth it? Maybe the problem is just I'm a terrible person. On and on and on. I'll be following closely to see if you permanently silence this witch because I want to get rid of my own Myrtle.

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SHERRYGAYL 11/9/2012 4:37PM

    Good for you! Myrtle might try to fight back but she doesn't stand a chance! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon You got this!!!!

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LIBRA73 11/9/2012 3:58PM

    I love it! Myrtle must GO!!!

Betsy, Dolores, and Myrtle should be very scared!

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SAMMIE-I-AM 11/9/2012 3:22PM

    I love that you named her, I think I may have to do the same thing. Maybe making her more real I'll be able to defeat her easier! emoticon

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JUSTME29 11/9/2012 2:49PM

    Myrtle, Dolores and Betsy can just go ..... themselves. Good for you naming her. Here's to getting rid of her one small piece at a time!

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BIGPAWSUP 11/9/2012 2:45PM

    DEATH TO MYRTLE! I love it! Yes, that is a great way to look at it. Time to kick her to the curb!

You are beautiful! You are wonderful! And you are loved and wanted!

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MS_HEATHER121 11/9/2012 2:32PM

    Girl, I'm right behind ya! Byebye Myrtle!! It sounds as though we both had epiphanies today!! Live the blog! I know you can do this!

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NEPTUNE1939 11/9/2012 2:27PM

    Great blog. LOL - here's to defeating Myrtle! (No offense to my aunt Myrtle) emoticon Excess fat really is the enemy - we just need to learn to stop being a traitor to ourselves and put an embargo on on excess calories. May God bless your efforts, Earl

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LALMEIDA 11/9/2012 2:25PM

  Good for you. Listen to the first person. emoticon

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BLISSFULCIN 11/9/2012 2:24PM

    Yay!! You got this Renee!!! Myrtle will be evicted!! I'm gonna commit and be right there with you!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Ever thought... why bother?

Monday, November 05, 2012

I'm in a funk. I've pretty much been in a funk all year. I have a few good starts here and there, but then I just fizzle out. I don't know if it's due to depression or anxiety or laziness or thinking I will never reach goal or self-pity or whatever. But I can't seem to stay focused. I just get to a point of "why bother" and then don't really try for a while. I'm at that point right now. I have a challenge I'm currently barely staying afloat in... and then another challenge that begins tomorrow and I want to really rock it... but in the back of my head are those words... "why bother?" I have plenty of motivation and I know all the reasons I want to lose weight, being healthy is right at the top followed immediately by no more embarrassment..., but how do I shake this funky mood I'm constantly in? Has anyone else felt like this? How do/did you shake it?

Yeah... this has a lot to do with it.

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MAGA99 11/9/2012 5:18PM

    ur off to the right start by reaching out
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TWEETYKC00 11/8/2012 7:54AM

    I get that way alot and it bites. You know you should do better and you want that, but that inner voice says 'screw it, it'll never happen' right? It can happen and will happen if it is up to you. Sometimes it's a matter of digging down deeper than that nasty voice and going for a few more steps or doing just one more task.

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WISHICOULDFLY 11/8/2012 6:40AM

    WOW. This is exactly where my head has been at for two weeks. I am trying to pull myself out not by getting off the binging, sugar, fat, sodium, carb train. It IS hard, but do not give up. Keep on keepin on! emoticon

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NEWLEAF16 11/7/2012 2:07PM

    I have certainly felt this same funk you describe - often!! Sorry you are going through it right now. Hang in there and just take one step at a time, like some others have said focus on some small things. And challenges tend to refresh my motivation. Hope you can find yours again! emoticon

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LIBRA73 11/7/2012 1:16PM

    How did I miss this blog?

Whew girl! I know what you mean!

I know you. You can come up with a dozen reasons to keep bothering! It's just so hard to stick to it.

I wish I had some words of wisdom!

I think the biggest thing is keeping the goals small and reasonable. Don't do things you know will upset you. For instance, when I see myself naked, I get really discouraged and think I will never transform this saggy blob of flesh!

So I avoid putting myself in front of the mirror in the nude. I avoid things I know I cannot control myself with or trust myself near - like fresh baked bread.

I have to keep myself in line. And that is a full time job! I am so not a rule follower!

Take a deep breath, and for goodness sake, we are due a phone call!

You can let me know when you can talk, or I may have to nag you or come to your place, so we can talk on the porch! I would LOVE that! Don't make me come to you girlfriend!

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MIDNIGHTER1 11/6/2012 10:05PM

    You are dealing with what I like to call an"Inner Demon' It will tell you to quit. That you can't achieve your goals. It will tell you to give up and settle for being miserable. I will tell you to have a snicker bar and call it a day. It want you to do all of these things. Don't give in to it. If you throw in the towell will you be happy with your decision? Can you live with wasted effort? That's what it will be if you give in to him or her.(inner demons are both genders)
This year I decided to not give in. Last year I did and it put me in a bad spot and frame of mind. It is extremely hard,but guess who has lost almost 70 pounds? Guess who is not a type -2 diabetic? Guess who runs and exercises when last year he sat on the couch and wasted time? Guess who has normal blood pressure and norman cholesterol? Yep,all me.
Life can sometimes knock you down, but you decide if you are going to stay down. Now get up and show yourself it is worth the bother. emoticon

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JJAQUES41 11/6/2012 12:01PM

    Maybe instead of looking at the entire, big, overwhelming picture you can just pick one little piece of it to focus on. It always seem less intimidating to know you can accomplish small things over and over and it will add up to a successful big picture.

Is there one thing you can commit to for one week? Drink 8 glasses or water/day, cut out 1/2 hr of tv time, walk the stairs instead of riding the elevator, etc. Any little thing that you can be successful at for a short time. Then repeat the process the following week with something else.

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BIGPAWSUP 11/6/2012 11:48AM

    I'm kind of there with you right now. Feel like a little kid stomping my feet going "i don't wanna". The only way I've ever gotten through it is just pushing ans will power. I know that doesn't help. Just know you're not alone.

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LOSER05 11/6/2012 9:48AM

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BUSYGRANNY5 11/6/2012 7:03AM

    I don't have any great words of wisdom, but for myself personally, when the why bother mentally seeps in... I truly have to FIGHT it... sometimes I'm successful and sometimes.. I give in... for a SHORT period of time... it's at those times that I believe my body needs a "brief recharge"... and then I CHOOSE to get back on track by looking at how far I've come, how much better I feel, and where I'm heading!!

I guess, I would say to you, "Don't give up on YOU!! You are worth the HARD work and EFFORT that you are going to have put forward... Refuse to give up...


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GMO_JEN 11/5/2012 11:35PM

    I'm right there with you-this has been an off year. I don't think I ever even lost-just gained, maintained, gained...in the last couple weeks, I found a little exercise mojo, and now I'm just faking eating better. So don't feel it, so don't want too....but I'm making myself. Why bother? Life is so freaking hard, I just want to enjoy it a little which to me means food. But...I need to be healthier, stronger if I'm going to haveva healthier future. I just wish that was a more motivating!

I'll second a few of the others-baby steps. Focus on something simple, and then get momentum...then find the why hopefully!

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JUSTME29 11/5/2012 11:05PM

    I'm right there with you. I don't have any advice since I can't seem to get myself out of my own funk. I'm barely staying afloat in my own 5% challenge, actually I think I'd be sinking if fat didn't float so high.

Seriously though - I think the answer is to just do it anyway. I'm definitely on the "why bother" boat, but the thing is we both know the answers to that. If you find the answer let me know will you? All I can offer right now is company.

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SEASONS__CHANGE 11/5/2012 9:21PM

    you can do it sweetie! It's hard, but when you want something bad enough, it will happen.


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SHERRYGAYL 11/5/2012 9:08PM

    Oh yes that sounds like a pretty serious funk emoticon Since it has lasted a full year it might be worthwhile to get a checkup. You could have some depression issues or even a hormonal imbalance. Possibly even ADHD. I was misdiagnosed and mistreated with depression for years. Adderal has changed my life emoticon

Other than that, I'd like to reiterate what the other posters said. Don't try to make too many changes at once! Start with one change and when it becomes habit add another. (A method similar to both Flylady at Flylady.com and the diet book "The Lean", by the way.)

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JANEMARIE77 11/5/2012 8:29PM

    One of my favorite quotes. Losing weight is hard ... living fat is hard... choose your hard.
One step, one food at a time. Be kind to yourself and make your choice.

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FATBASTICH 11/5/2012 7:59PM

    Hang in there, you can do it.

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MS_HEATHER121 11/5/2012 6:42PM

    I got in a funk like that a couple of years ago after I had lost 50lbs. I was doing so well. I was down to a size 18, then I decided who cares. I found a game (world of warcraft) and that became more important to me than weight loss. Instead of exercising, I was raiding... instead of eating with my family, I was sitting on my butt eating mindlessly. I really just didn't care. I went from 250 back up to 330.

Some days I still get the who gives a $#@& feeling, but them I also try to remember that I don't want this weight for the rest of my life.

I suffer from depression, anxiety, and bi polar disorder. I thought having the first 2 meant bipolar, but they say its all 3.

I think we all get those feelings. In my opinion, the best thing to do is blog, journal, and talk about how you feel. Spark is here for us to find others who are in similar situations, so we have others to talk to that understand where we're coming from.

I know you'll do well in your challenge. Keep pushing and take it one step and one day at a time.


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SAMMIE-I-AM 11/5/2012 6:37PM

    I'm just slowly getting out of my funk and here's what I did. Baby baby BABY steps, like as small as steps possible but it was still something in the right direction. First off I gave up on setting a weight goal for now, I wanna focus on one thing at a time and it isn't time for that. My first goal was to just get moving. It didn't matter how long, or what distance I just wanted to do some kind of exercise 3 times a week. That's it. Not worried about what I was eating, all of that would come later. I figured I always failed when I tried multiple goals at once so I was going to forget about everything else and just focus on the one thing.

After a month of that I got into the habit of doing something 3 times a week, and it made me feel really good. So my next (and current) baby step is to add food in. But again it's a baby step. So my goal is to eat dinner out only once or twice a week and the rest of the time cook at home. Lunch doesn't matter, what I eat at home doesn't really matter. Just that I'm sticking to something is what means the most.

So try extremely baby steps and let everything else happen as it comes, it's helped me and hopefully it'll help you! emoticon

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NOMORENOMORE 11/5/2012 6:14PM

    I can relate. I've been in a funk for ~6 months. 6 months of eating everything I wanted and as much as I wanted. I'm so disgusted with myself-especially with how I look and feel.

During my 6 month binge "why bother" was my motto. It took me awhile emoticon but I now care. I don't want to be fat. I don't want to be embarrassed when I climb a flight of stairs and gasp like a fish out of water when I get to the top. There are so many more reasons.

I've chosen to change my life. Eating healthy and staying within my caloric daily intake is just a start. I'm on my 5th day lol.

I too, think I'm depressed. Depressed about not being able to do things without getting out of breath, how I look and what I've done to myself. I'm going to join a weight loss center at the hospital my PCP works out of. They deal with diet but you also work with a psychologist.

I'm hoping this helps me figure out why I haven't been bothering.

Maybe you have too many challenges right now? Maybe just focus on one?

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MISSHATTAWAY 11/5/2012 6:12PM

    I have thought this many times in my life, recently I adopted out my newborn son and afterwards I had to start thinking about getting a job and starting my life over but I kept asking myself "why should I bother? What does any of this matter?"...I considered taking my own life and gave it great thought and power over me until one day I realized that...either I gotta do it or start taking responsibility for my life and do what needs to be done because no one will do it for me. It's still hard, I have to take every day as it comes and I practice a lot of mindfulness/meditation and journal writing which are both a lot of help. You have to take control of your life, whether you're depressed or not no one can change it except for you, you just have to start out with baby steps and go from there. Good Luck and Always look on the bright side.


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BECKYBETZ 11/5/2012 6:02PM

    Don't get discouraged. I've been doing this for three weeks and I've gained two pounds. :-( However, I'm giving it a solid three months before I give up. I have to work on staying motivated, because it's so easy to say "why bother" and skip exercise or not make the effort to eat produce. Way to easy!!

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Thus begins the 5% Challenge... today.

Saturday, October 06, 2012

So, I've done my inital weigh in for the start of this challenge... it was bad - 245.5 - but that is down from earlier this week (Monday) where I was 248.5... so I have lost 3 lbs this week. I have been doing better food wise... but wouldn't ya know it that day one of the challenge is leftover pizza and chili day. :) Ok... so I opted to make the chili cause it's a chili kind of day... highs in the lower to mid-50's, overcast, has been raining but stopped... and we have the fire ring out for later this evening. Along with marshmallows :). You just gotta have chili on the first REAL fall feeling day of the year... well we do anyhow. :)

But I'm ready for the challenge regardless. My treadmill is out and in front of a big window... my exercise bike is still in front of the big tv... and ready to be used, and I actually know where my exercise dvd's are. :) The thing is... where do I fit in the exercise? I hate exercising when I have an audience. Just a thing I have, so after work is kinda out... evenings are an option, but dang that's not a good time of day to exercise. When the family is in bed, that's where I wanna be, too. So there's the morning... getting up 1/2 to an hour earlier than everyone else. I have done this before, but don't adore it, although I am ALWAYS glad I did it and got it over with for the day. I imagine I'll be doing a combination of mornings and evenings.

Food... I'm ready. Going to keep carbs low (under 100 for now) and calories within reason. Going to shoot for 1000 to 1300. I'm striving for higher quality and less quantity. :) After today's chili indulgence... I'm gonna be strict.

This is the 3rd 5% challenge I've done. I've not lost 5% at all on the previous 2. :/ It's time I do. On December 1st, 2012, the last day of this challenge... I will weigh 233 or less.

Dear Fat Renee',

Love, Thin Renee'


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BIGPAWSUP 10/25/2012 11:13AM

    I have faith in you. You can do it. You will do it. And you will be marvelous for doing it! Now go get 'em

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SPARKNMOM 10/14/2012 2:33PM

    You can do this, my dear!!

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CYNDI1956 10/12/2012 10:41AM

    emoticon i love your page emoticon

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LJR4HEALTH 10/9/2012 6:53AM

    Renee Making time always seems to be the hardest part schedule it in on your calendar then stick to it. I don't think anyone really likes working out in front of others. I'm with the others you can have chili for dinner. When we start to see this journey to ahealthy lifestyle as a chore is when we throw the towel in and quit. YOu can eat what you like in moderation emoticon emoticon forward its all about one day at a time

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LADYPIXEL 10/8/2012 3:17PM

    I would strongly advise you to raise your caloric intake. You should always eat at least 1200 calories worth of food a day. Going too low on your calories will actually halt your weight loss efforts as your body goes into starvation mode and stores all of the food you eat... and you don't want to sit there and lose no weight at all while putting out all this effort to lose weight, do you? :)

I presently have a goal of doing ten hours of exercise a week. My calorie range is 1350-1700. And I am losing weight while eating good, healthy meals. Heck, I can even have chili (and in fact, maybe I'll make some white chicken chili for dinner again this week... hmm.) You don't have to starve yourself to lose weight, nor should you try. :)

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    I must agree with some of the other comments. You should enjoying things like chili along your journey to being healthier. Chili can actually be a healthy meal and very satisfying, it is harder when you start denying yourself things you enjoy. I also think that getting in the habit of exercising in front of others will be a good positive thing for your family to see. First off your setting a good example for your family and secondly they see that you are committed to a healthier lifestyle. YOU can do this. I LOVE the picture you put on here, I just downloaded that one for a phone background. You can do the challenge and all you set out to do!

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BLUEKITTYJAN 10/7/2012 7:34PM

    Your looking at it as if it should hurt. You can eat anything, even chili with in reason. I doubt that sparks people told you to go down to 1000 calories. It's not a healthy way to lose weight. Follow your calories on your nutrition tracker. If you feel its not low enough try doing more things to move. It doesn't have to be exercise. Try washing your car or raking leaves or do the heavier housework. Just pick up a challenging chore that needs to be done. You'll achieve calorie burn and get work done too. This is working really well for me. I am burning a lot of calories a day. I keep track with this site using the calorie burning tracker at http://www.healthstatus.com/calcula
It gives you a whole new perspective on what is exercise. For instance at your weight driving for 30 minutes equals 118 cals burned. Check it out. emoticon

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HEALTHYSLIM2 10/7/2012 1:22PM

    YES - you can do this!!
Slow and steady wins the race... just remember, if you consistently make the correct choices, it always pays off. So stay focused on the WHY you want to do this, and you will succeed!!
As far as the exercising in front of others thing - although I can relate, I want to offer another perspective. I'd give a LOT to have 2 exercise machines in my home! Not having the space makes that impossible! And in front of a TV or lovely view - - wow! So, see if you can get over it and just do that exercise when your family is there. You can still be part of the flow of things AND the kids get to see mom exercise and make that important life choice (good); stick to her actions to acheive her goals (good); and stay committed to herself (real, real good!)
OR - make the morning YOUR time. Get a great motivational tape (like maybe Joyce Meyer?) and play it while you exercise. That will start the day off so right!
Those are just my thoughts, for whatever they are worth. Hope they support you, as they're offered with the best of intentions.
Anyway, I know you are going to be successful.
5% challenge - you got this!!

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LIBRA73 10/7/2012 12:18PM

    I hate an audience, too. When the hubs is at home or the kids, I go for a walk or run. I love getting my work out done in the morning. No more dreading it, it's done for the day!

Good luck girl! I know you can do this!

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BOOGITY12 10/6/2012 10:49PM

    I know exactly what you mean about working out in front of people. My hubby does it all the time and doesn't care, but I hate it. Unfortunately, I am NOT a morning person, and I'm lazy after about 8:00 pm, so I do it anyway.

Jealous of your weather, by the way - it was 86 here today and just doesn't feel like fall yet. I should be used to that by now but I'm not. (Florida)

Looking forward to seeing how we all do with the challenge!

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NEWKATHYNOW 10/6/2012 8:06PM

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MICHELELYNN777 10/6/2012 7:50PM

    Go, Renee! You are ready to do this! emoticon

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SEASONS__CHANGE 10/6/2012 3:34PM

    Good luck Renee, you can do it.

BTW, love your page!


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JOANN1212 10/6/2012 3:27PM

    u can do it!!!!!

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