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I love Christmas!Monday, November 29, 2010
First of all, I want to thank each of you that posted something on my last blog, "Ugh" You gave me words of wisdom, proper perspective, hugs, encouragement, and even a chuckle. :) I thank each of you for opening my eyes and also making me see that I am not alone, and I can overcome this. Thank you. When I learn any new news about my daughter, I will share it. ![]()
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SERENEMOM71
12/30/2010 11:05AM
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I hope that you had a very Merry and Blessed Christmas! I loved your saying!
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MARIADALE
11/30/2010 8:52AM
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My tree is up...waiting for little hands to assist with decorating.
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HANNALA1
11/30/2010 8:20AM
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"God sends no stress that chocolate and prayer can't handle." ~ LOVE IT! You're going to reach your goals. You've continuously been an active member of Spark which means you want this. You'll find what works for you and your Spark friends will be here for you every step of the way! P.S. That's awesome you unknowingly collect nativities. :-) Report Inappropriate Comment |


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SEASONS_CHANGE
11/29/2010 9:38PM
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Hang in there Renee... You're one tough cookie! and we're here when you need us! Kelly Report Inappropriate Comment |


ASILLA
11/29/2010 8:58PM
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So happy to see the smile in your heart shinning as your writing this blog. Life will always bring us ups and downs, in some way it is a balance that helps us appreciate one against the other. Do not ever give up :) Report Inappropriate Comment |


DEREONGODDESS
11/29/2010 11:42AM
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You're right the main thing is to never give up! With your positive attitude and determination I know you'll reach your goals! Report Inappropriate Comment |


TASOGAREBAN
11/29/2010 11:16AM
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I love christmas too! It's the end of the holidays that I look forward to every year with New Years marking the end. I'm looking forward to doing some small christmas shopping in the next week or two to decorate but mostly the gift shopping. I'm going to be so broke, lol!
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KMICHA
11/29/2010 10:26AM
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A good attitude is a great beginning to the Christmas season!
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LIBRA73
11/29/2010 10:21AM
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I have the same kind of tree - no theme, just fun! You got me in the mood to do my decorations! Now, come on over and help me!! You will get there - it I have to drag your limp body - you will reach your goal! LOL!! Report Inappropriate Comment |


BIGDAD1211
11/29/2010 10:21AM
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And I love the reason for the Season! Jesus Christ! Have a merry Christmas my friend!
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THEEXERCISER
11/29/2010 9:22AM
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I love Christmas too! I cannot wait to start decorating!
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I couldn't think of a more fitting title for this blog. It really sums up my feelings. Ugh.
My lack of motivation has really got me down lately. I do well for a day or two, then it all fizzles so fast and I keep having the "start again tomorrow" thinking. Well, every day this year has basically been "tomorrow." I know I shouldn't wait for that motivational click that I have had before, but I seem to be waiting anyhow.
The last few months have been very hard mentally and physically. I have yo-yoed so much lately that I'm just losing the same 10 lbs over and over again.
In September we learned that my daughter will be having surgery for her scoliosis. This came as quite a hard blow because she has endured the wearing of a brace since the end of the 5th grade. (She is now a high school JR) This has made her strong in some ways, but withheld her in other ways... but it was all to prevent surgery, finally to no avail. This has been looming over me since we found out. In Oct she had an MRI, one of the first steps towards this surgery, and we have yet to hear how that went. We are looking at surgery in the summer, possibly, so school will not suffer... She is an honor student.
Then with the drama that went on with my son the last two weeks... that was frightening, but now basically over. He's healing well, as is his friend, whom I recently I found out was released from hospital over a week ago, and is doing very well.
A lot of other stuff is going on that has me feeling like NOTHING is in control any more and I'm overwhelmed, depressed, scared, worried, angry, and embarrassed of my appearance and would like to just crawl under the covers and hide from the world.
I have really got to pull it together, find some determination and some solid stick-to-it-ness.
I have done it before... I have been the person who's had it all together, I want to be that me again.


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SEASONS_CHANGE
11/23/2010 7:03AM
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Giving you a big reassuring hug Renee. This life does have dark days and it's hard to get out of a funk. You're a very strong woman and there is nothing that you can't do. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and make today that day to start making some changes that you CAN control. Sending positive, happy thoughts your way! Report Inappropriate Comment |


SCOLLY
11/21/2010 7:58PM
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Sorry to hear of all the stresses. I am very much an emotional eater/binger...so I can relate. It's so hard to focus on ourselves when we feel like we're trying to keep everyone else in the family together and healthy....hugs and strength being sent your way.
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SERENEMOM71
11/21/2010 2:41PM
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Life is messy and certainly can be hard and disappointing @ times. We are never truly in control - God is! I have found, for me, to be able to function in very difficult times in my life; I have to admit to God that I am powerless over my whole life and give it to Him. Then, God empowers me to live a holy, Spirit-filled life with energy to do the things that I need to do! Of course, I need to maintain my connection with Him with prayer, praise, song, reading the Bible, Christian action, and trying to do God's will for my life daily. If I am depressed, I go see my psychologist and psychiatrist and take medication if indicated. There is not shame in that! Anyway, this is what has worked for me. Take what you like and leave the rest. Just remember that you are a precious daughter of God and He loves you unconditionally! He surrounds you with his angels so that they can minister to you and give you what you need. Envision laying your head on their wonderfully soft feather wings and resting peacefully, safely, with all your cares lifted! Imagine being softly massaged by their wings so all your muscles are relaxed and your body feels like soft butter! You are so relaxed and the love and joy of the Lord fills your soul!! You hear the beautiful songs of the angels in your head. Your mind ceases to worry and just hears the songs. You are transformed so you are empowered to do what you need to do in the world! This is my prayer for you. God Bless and Take Care. Report Inappropriate Comment |


SAMI199
11/21/2010 1:20PM
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LIBRA73
11/21/2010 1:11PM
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I have been there myself! I really have. I hate it too! Not a place I like to visit! Heck, sometimes I move to "out of controlville". I really have to pray for guidance - and the knowledge to know when He is guiding me. So much is out of our control. Today, the door on the van stopped working. I need to get another 125,000 miles out of it. It has soooo many boo- boos as Atticus calls them. But we cannot afford another car payment. I just have to believe there is a way around high cost. Maybe it can be fixed cheap? I babysat for a friend of my sons who had a tumor removed from the center of her brain in Jan. She had two strokes, but was doing so well. We learned the tumor is back, growing again. She has eye surgery in Dec, and now this. She is just adorable, at barely 4 years old. She has had to endure so much, learned how to do things without the use of her left arm, wear braces, can't see like she used to, etc. That keeps it all in perspective. I can't complain, when I look at her, and her parents. What they have been thru, and what is headed their way. You have alot going on. Shouldering it all is hard. Let the Lord take that off you. We only think we control things. We don't control a thing. We have to just keep going, have our faith, and do the best we can. I know you can do it, just keep pushing for it. You certainly deserve it! I can't think of a better woman! Report Inappropriate Comment |


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MARIADALE
11/21/2010 9:57AM
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I feel for you, I too have spiraled out of control for a year but I am stating to get it all back...you will too.
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YAGERMONSTER
11/21/2010 9:07AM
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I clicked here cause that was my mood too today. It also may be from not being able to party like I used to. lol
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BIGDAD1211
11/21/2010 12:26AM
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Our strength is in the Lord and when you remember that and let Jesus put it all together for you, then you can't go wrong! Don't worry about the 10 pounds going up and down. I have those same 10 and I don't know what I would do if they ever really left me! LOL. Seriously, you have so much going for you if you just look beyond what you think is a problem and when you see that and lean on Christ, you will be OK! I will keep your daughter in my payers my friend. Please keep me posted. In Jesus Name Greg Report Inappropriate Comment |

