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Thank You

Thursday, March 13, 2014

This is to all that has sent me goodies & birthday wishes. I just want to say thank you so much. It means a lot to me.

  
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KAYLSLYNN 3/14/2014 6:59PM

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WORKOUTWITHPAM 3/13/2014 4:20PM

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AUDREY!

I hope your day is very SPECIAL and filled with much happiness, good health, and many blessings.

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Pam
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Why Does Family Not Care

Friday, February 28, 2014

I might sound like a big kid so if I do then don't waste your time reading this. My birthday is coming up in 13 days & I don't think I'm going to celebrate it. I love birthday parties & I still do, but if no one cares about you, then no one's going to come to your party. I haven't seen my Mom since Christmas & it broke my heart knowing that my husband & I work so much that we don't get the chance to visit. Anyway, I was talking to my Mom about a party, & she said not to worry about buying anything but the cake, that she would take care of everything else. I talked to her last night & she said that if I want a party that I need to buy everything myself. First of all, one time I did that & no one came to my party so I wasted $32.00 for nothing. Last year I made a tye dyed cake. People was afraid to eat it cause it was different colors. Plus last year, the family wouldn't even talk to me at my own party. My birthday always seems like a disaster. One year I actually threw a party. I bought lunch cakes as prizes. Whoever won (when they was leaving) took the lunch cakes & threw them in my yard. Plus everyone was bored & no one was having fun. I think they all came for free food. This year, no one will be there cause my oldest sister will be expecting me to give her & her husband & kids a ride & I wouldn't want to take a chance in tearing up the van cause her road is bad. My next to the oldest sister had a 6 year old daughter that would have school the next day so she would have to do her homework, eat, take a bath then get ready for bed. My youngest sister (the one that went to the doctor with me) would be too busy getting hi with her husband. And last but not least my Dad would be working. None of them people even call me & I don't think that I should be the one doing all of the calling. I just don't understand. I have no friends (to hang out with or to be able to talk to), & my family doesn't seem to care about me. The only reason I seem to go on is for my husband & my cat (Muffin). My husband said that he will do something special for me for my birthday. Also I created a new team called The New Huntington, WV Team & only one person has joined. So pretty much, that team will be dead in no time. I invited people but no one wants to join. Well going to go now that I've got all of that off my chest.

  
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DJ4HEALTH 3/1/2014 10:53PM

    Are we sisters? It seems that I have the same family as you and with my husband's passing last year in Feb it was like I did not exist. At least my children were here for my but my family that is up north don't even call me or even see if I am alive. Even his family don't call me. I am the one that calls and am luck if they call me back. If I am right your birthday is on my late husband's and mine anniversary that was the 13th and then my birthday is the next day the 14th.

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NANCYPAT1 3/1/2014 9:17AM

    Happy birthday - you know what they say, you can't CHOOSE your family but you do get to CHOOSE YOUR FRIENDS.

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WORKOUTWITHPAM 2/28/2014 10:35PM

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I know it is a little early, but I wanted to be the FIRST ONE to wish you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I agree with all that the others have posted. Oh, do CELEBRATE your birthday! You can so some place with your husband that you've been wanting to go, or, like it was also suggested you might just want to stay home and celebrate. Whatever you do, do know that you are very 'SPECIAL' and you can have a GREAT time with or without your family members involved. Since your birthday falls on a week day when your family members are tied up with work, children, and school, have you thought about waiting until the weekend to have your party? They might be able to attend on the weekend. However, if that isn't an option, then go out with your husband on your birthday, and have a WONDERFUL time.

HUGS
Pam

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MILLISMA 2/28/2014 8:10PM

    Hi Audrey,

The sad thing about family is you didn't get to choose them. I think you have a wonderful husband who really cares about you and it would be wonderful if the two of you went out and celebrated or even stayed home. That way Muffin could join in. I think Kris had some good ideas also.

As for your new team....that is very specific and maybe there are no other sparkers from your town but there would be in WV. Maybe go on some of the WV teams and invite folks to join. I'm on one team where there are just 12 of us and it took time to even get that many.

Hope that you have a nice weekend. There are many people here that care. Sad that we're all far apart.

hugs...Mary Anne

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SLIMMERKIWI 2/28/2014 7:09PM

    Your new team is only one or two days old - you NEED to give it time. I created a team and no-one joined for 2-3 months. Put a link to your team at the bottom of your signature, and then whenever you post on the message boards, others WILL click on it to see what it is about. I got a few members joining that way.

At the end of this month I will be turning 60. I am expecting that I will be 'celebrating' this milestone on my own, too. Unfortunately, my husband died, so he obviously can't be with me. My son is living in Vancouver, working. That is MANY hours in a plane, and work commitments so obviously he can't come over. I don't know what my daughter is doing.

You know what I would be inclined to do? Have some extra food at home - stuff that won't go off or is freezable - just in case others decide to turn up. Don't worry/stress/sweat the days before, or on your birthday. Allow the day to happen and know that your husband and Muffin are there by your side. Maybe even just the two of you could celebrate - it CAN be more enjoyable ;-)

BIG hugs,
Kris

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BARBIE042 2/28/2014 1:28PM

    I have to agree with TRYINGHARD54 to just do something special with your hubby .
Forget the ones that do that to you , you do not need that drama .

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TRYINGHARD54 2/28/2014 12:45PM

    I think the best birthday you should have is
just celebrate with hubby , and forget about
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WIFE49 2/28/2014 12:45PM

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Realizing Things

Thursday, February 20, 2014

I went to the doctor (which isn't my doctor cause he's out of town) & he said that there was nothing wrong with me to go home. So I wanted to go home & my sister ended up taking me to a mental institution. They was unable to see me & I have to have my payment up front. It ranges from $150 & up. I don't have that kind of money. They (my sister & brother in law) made the appointment for me to go back. Well not too long after I got hone I had a good cry then I called my Mom & started feeling better. I started realizing that my cat & my husband needs me & it doesn't matter what others say or think. So now when I go to work I will begin to think that I'm working so I can care for my cat & pay what bills I'm responsible for. I canceled that appointment cause I didn't want to go in the first place. I am going to try to do things to take my mind off work. I told my husband what happened today & he was upset cause I was keeping things from him. He wanted to take me on a date. So we went to the movies then we picked up some dinner & came home. I had fun just doing that. Well it's getting late but I wanted to let you know how things are going. I'm going to try to take things one day at a time & go from there.

  
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KIMB3RL33 2/21/2014 7:47PM

    emoticon I often have to remember the love of my pets during bad days or weeks. I think about it at work too to keep my mind off the things that are troubling me. I am glad you've found a way to cope & I wish you the best of luck as you continue your journey!

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MILLISMA 2/21/2014 9:05AM

    Audrey,

So glad to hear that you are feeling better and that you talked to your family. Now you know how much they do care about you. Keep this open conversation going with your husband. He is there for you. How wonderful that you went on a date. Yes, Muffin does need you and is such a pretty kitty. You are important to lots of people. My PolyDactyl is sitting on my lap sending you purrs while I am trying to type.

Wishing you a great day.

hugs....Mary Anne

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SLIMMERKIWI 2/21/2014 12:24AM

    Hi Audrey - I am glad that you realize your family are THERE for you and love you - obviously to pieces.

As work appears to be the bulk of your stress, is it possible that you can start to look for another job? Sometimes the people we work with can be very toxic through no fault of our own.

BIG hugs,
Kris xxx

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WORKOUTWITHPAM 2/20/2014 10:55PM

    See there! You do matter to others. You have your sister and her husband, your Mom, your husband and your cat. They care about you, and it sounds like you are pretty 'special' to all of them. I am glad you are feeling better, and that was so sweet of your husband to take you on a 'date.' Yes, do try to 'take things one day at a time.' Please keep us updated on how you are doing, and also please copy those numbers that SLIMMERKIWI listed in her response, and keep them with you at all time, just in case.

Take care, and Many HUGS!

Pam

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Quick Update

Thursday, February 20, 2014

Ok this needs to be short & sweet. Last Tuesday I was looking up ways to end my life cause I felt like I don't matter to anyone anymore. So instead of ending it all I went to my doctor. He sends me to a hospital for evaluation. They say that there's nothing wrong with me & sends me home. I talked to my assistant store manager & she said that I was one of the most important people at work. I got wrote up the Monday before I looked up ways to end things. My husband keeps telling me just go to work you'll be fine. Well work is what is stressing me out. I have been in the same position for almost 7 1/2 years. Never got a promotion & seems like I'm invisible unless they want something from me. My family hardly ever calls & I have no friends to call to lean on. My husband doesn't seem to understand. Anyway if anyone was wondering how things have been, that's it. Well need to go get my husband up for a meeting he has to go to.

  
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DJ4HEALTH 2/27/2014 1:54AM

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SLIMMERKIWI 2/20/2014 5:47PM

    Hi Audrey - You are in my thoughts!

The hospital may have sent you home, but I would still be inclined to push for help. Continue talking with your Dr - continue going to an Emergency Dept. if you are having suicidal thoughts .... or ANY thoughts of self harm.

Below are a list of Hotlines you can phone. They can be VERY helpful.

National Suicide Hotlines USA
Toll Free, 24/7

1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)

1-800-273-T
ALK (1-800-273-8255)

For individual USA State hotlines:
http://suicidehotlines
.com/ and select the dropdown for your State

Call 411 and ask for: Suicide Hotline
Dial 0 and ask for: Suicide Hotline
Check the FRONT of the phone book for:
suicide prevention
crisis intervention
hotlines - crisis or suicide
community crisis center
county mental health center
hospital mental health clinic
Or. call 911 and ask for help. Tell them you are in suicidal danger.

At the very least, I would be making an urgent appointment with your Dr and asking for a referral to a Therapist who can help you.

I am sending you BIG hugs,
Kris xxx

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WORKOUTWITHPAM 2/20/2014 3:17PM

    Hello ODDIEPORTER,

I am sorry you are feeling so 'down.' You really do matter. From looking at your photos, I can tell that you matter to your husband, and I am 100% certain that you matter to Muffin. Also, you matter to us here at Spark People. We are here for you, and we will help you in any way that we can. Please keep us updated on how you are doing.

HUGS
Pam



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MILLISMA 2/20/2014 10:35AM

    Audrey,

You are a very important person. Please reach out for some counseling. Your doctor was very wrong to just send you to the hospital. Many times, there are help lines through your work. If so, please start there but reach out to talk to someone. Blog if that will help you. Know that there are people that do care and are concerned for you. Please let me know how you are doing.

hugs...Mary Anne

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SPARK_COACH_JEN 2/20/2014 10:34AM

    Hi ODDIEPORTER

If you are really having these thoughts, you should call a suicide and/or crisis hotline right away. There are 1-800 numbers for this type of thing, so you don't need to have somewhere local to go or long distance on your phone. If you need me to find one, let me know and I would be happy to do that for you.

SparkPeople is a great place for support, but we are not equipped to deal with these kinds of issues. You need to talk to a professional who specializes in these kinds of things. There are other ways to get help if your doctor didn't provide any. Things can get better if you reach out and talk to someone about how you're feeling.

Let me know if we can do anything to help.

Coach Jen


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Unfortunately Back From Vacation

Monday, September 23, 2013

Well my husband, Muffin & I went on vacation on 9/8/13. We left at almost 6 in the morning. We got there at about 4 in the afternoon. I knew as soon as we pulled up that this was real & that we was going to have a lot of fun. We went to the beach everyday while Muffin sat in front of the sliding glass door. She liked looking outside instead of going outside. I took her out on the balcony everyday. Sunday night (our 1st night) we had to switch rooms. There was a huge bug (looked like a roach) was in our room plus our refrigerator was leaking water everywhere. We called the front desk & they said it was a water bug. We also told them that our food in our refrigerator wasn't getting cold. So we switched rooms & the refrigerator in that room didn't seem too cold either. Also there was no oven or kitchen sink in the room. If you dirtied dishes you had to take them to the bathroom sink to wash them. Well Monday (our vow renewal day) was a great day. We was at the beach most of the day then we went to our room & started getting ready. I was nervous but then the reverend & his wife walked us through everything. They took 167 pictures of us. I already posted a few. To sum up vacation, the weather was perfect the whole week & it was my dream vacation. We like it so much there that we didn't want to come back. We bought a lot of souvenirs & took a lot of pictures. I ended up coming back with sun poisoning & was proud cause I didn't gain much weight while I was there cause I wasn't on my diet there I was there having fun. Now we're back in WV & all of us is depressed.

  
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LINOVER 9/24/2013 9:37PM

    Glad you had a good time but sorry you got sun poisoning!

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MILLISMA 9/24/2013 9:08PM

    What a wonderful time! Glad just about everything went so well. Will have to go look at some of you pictures.

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