Tuesday, August 07, 2012
this was my favorite poem when I was a kid:
A Dream Deferred (by Langston Hughes)
What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore--And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over--like a syrupy sweet?
Maybe it just sags like a heavy load.
Or does it explode?
when TCM shows "A Raisin in the Sun" I always remember the Langston Hughes poem. I think it's the only one I know by heart.
in middle school and high school, I was more interested in Edgar Allen Poe. Every year when the bluebirds start builidng their nests, I think about "The Raven". We have bluebirds gently tapping on all the windows at the office for weeks. So I have to read "The Raven" again.
amazing how stuff you loved as a kid comes back to you so easily!
Friday, July 27, 2012
I love Friday nights at the Y. I can pretty much use any piece of equipment with little or no waiting.
I've been pretty slack on my running, and I plan to run 10k on Labor Day, so I really need to get back to running 3 or 4 times a week.
one of my goals for 2012 is to run a sub 30 5k. I thought I'd give it a try on the treadmill tonight. Usually once I see that I can meet my goal on the treadmill, I have more confidence that I can do the same thing on the road.
So...5 minute warm up walk. Then I reset the treadmill. First minute, running at a 12 min mile pace. Second minute, 11 min mile. Then I was at a 10 min mile or faster and reached the 2 mile point in less than 20 minutes. But I just wasn't feeling it. So I walked for a bit. Then a good sprint, more walking, sprint, elevate to 2, walk, sprint, etc. I ended up doing a total of 6.2 miles in 70 minutes!!! Average pace, 11.5 min mile (and I did a LOT of walking).
I'm pretty darn happy with that (and pretty darn TIRED). I think I have a blister on the bottom of my foot now. But it's small. And I can rest up with some Neosporin for a couple of days.
bring on the 10k!
oh...and my workout clothes were soaked. I had to hang them on the hamper to dry!
Tuesday, July 03, 2012
this is from Andy's blog; it's a conversation he had with Aimee the first day they were allowed to take her outside:
“So Aimee, how do you really feel about everything that has happened the past 49 days?” I asked.
“It’s okay,” she responded after a bit of thought.
“Okay how?” I dug deeper.
Aimee pondered the question for a moment. She’s always been very thoughtful and she doesn’t speak on the fly without knowing where she’s going. Aimee seems to always be two steps ahead. I bet she’d make a very good chess player.
“I don’t have any regrets about what has happened. I don’t focus on what I’ve lost, I would rather focus on what I’ve gained. I feel like I’ve been blessed.”
I was stunned by her response. I hadn’t anticipated this from her. It wasn’t that I was surprised about her lack of regrets, but her comment on being blessed caught me off guard. Keep in mind that I have said this to the media, that we’ve been blessed by God that Aimee is alive, so I thought this is what she meant by that statement.
“Yes Aimee,” I replied, “I feel blessed that you are alive.”
Aimee shook her head. “No, I didn’t mean it like that.”
“Then what do you mean?”
“I mean that I am blessed to have the opportunity to experience something that not many other people have the chance to experience. I am blessed to be able to have a challenge that not many others get to have. I am blessed to have the capacity to share my experience with others and have a chance to improve the quality of someone else’s life. I’m blessed to be different.”
Aimee has the most amazing outlook. She has had some dark moments (very few IMHO), but always comes back to her positive attitude. I know that there are great things in store for her.
Monday, July 02, 2012
she's headed to rehab for several weeks. It's not the same as going home, but it's a move in the right direction.
she's still trying NOT to take pain meds, but sometimes her meditation efforts are not enough. I cannot imagine what she's gone thru. I'm so glad she has a wonderful family and that they all have such a positive outlook.
thanks so much to everybody for kind thoughts & prayers
Friday, June 08, 2012
from the link:
This past week Aimee had struggled mightily. Although her condition had improved significantly, her pain has been considerable. Phantom pain now plagues her “hands”. Although she has no hands, her brain is apparently still telling her body that the hands are there. If you recall, I told you that her fingers had necrotized and that her hands were puffy and purple. That is what she now feels. I asked her if she could describe the pain and she told me, “it feels like I have been carrying bags of rocks.” Wow. Imagine carrying bags of rocks for days on end and never being able to release them. You know how your fingers freeze up and you want to extend them? She can’t do that. She said her “fingers” feel contorted and twisted. Nothing really helps her pain much. Some of the pain medication makes her sick to her stomach and she winds up vomiting.
This past week the proverbial poopy hit the fan for Aimee. She was lashing out at her care givers, she was in pain, she was sick to her stomach, she was unable to tend to her own basic needs and she was very unhappy. She had every right to be unhappy. By Thursday afternoon, Aimee’s misery had come full circle. She knew that many things were beyond her control and that fighting those who cared for her was not the solution. She prayed and meditated on this and she told me she was overcome by peace. She realized that she had to give in to something much bigger than herself. I asked her what she meant and she said that she surrendered her will and submitted to the will of God. She knew that anger was not the answer. She knows that God is in control.
As for Aimee’s general medical condition, please allow me to relate the following update:
- Her lungs are now healthy. The ventilator has been out of her room for nearly two weeks now.
- She once had a plethora of tubes running into her body, perhaps as many as 16 IVs. She now has 2.
- She is making 100cc of urine an hour on her own. The normal rate is 30cc. She is off dialysis for now.
- The doctors removed her trache on 5/27 and replaced it with a trache cap so she could talk. Yesterday they removed the trache cap and bandaged her neck. The tracheotomy should close within 5 days.
- Her wounds continue to require debridement before skin grafts can adhere successfully. There may be 2-3 more of these procedures before grafts may commence.
Considering that Aimee was once the “sickest person in ICU”, according to one doctor, she has come a long way. Her survival is a blessing and her continued pace of recovery is a testament to the power of prayer. That those same prayers have healed the wounded bodies and souls of many Americans is no coincidence. That is how God works.
God bless you all!
those are the words of Aimee's dad, Andy.
I know that she does indeed still have a long, tough road ahead. I'm glad that Aimee found her way back to her center; the faith that keeps her grounded and gives the Copeland family such strength.
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