Sunday, April 19, 2009
boy, i fell off the wagon... HARD! i am so disappointed with myself. i really thought that i might have conquered the self-saboteur... nope! not yet. over these past few days, i have gone WAY over board, not even tracking myself. today, i went NUTS...
i do plan on getting back on, but it... no i mean, I.... suck! i gotta move on, get back on... one day off is okay every now and then, but it wasn't even that, it was like THREE days! including all my comfort foods of PIZZA and COLDSTONE ice cream!
i can do this...
Friday, April 17, 2009
ugh. i am TWO punds heavier than last week! i am SO dissappointed in myself! i know that i did eat a little more, but i worked out like a wild woman! what would have happened if i didn't work out??? gregg seems to think that it is because of all the stress that i have been under this past week. and i DID learn on biggest loser, that stress can and DOES effect weight... to the point of, you can work out A LOT and still gain weight... well, that is certainly true... i was under i huge amount of stress, but still! i am so upset... truly. it is very discouraging....
it was very evident in yoga last night. gosh, talk about "mind chatter"! i couldn't even concentrate on what hollywood was having us do, and i definitely was not in the zone to do the poses!
guess i need to work on relaxation, and i need to exercise more and eat less calories.... um-m-m-m-m... can we say, DUH!" ???? each one of those things i KNOW, come on, snap out of it, no excuses... remember, "winners accept no excuses!" "winners train, losers complain!" AND ... "winners simply have adopted the habits losers don't like to do"
get back up on the horse! get back up on the motorcycle! i can lose the two pounds i gained and at least another pound by next week...
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
okay... i am confused... i have different perceptions of myself... NEITHER are accurate... first is that i look like i am 200 pounds... i feel like i do, and in my mind i look like i am... i am not 200 pounds...
then, sometimes i feel like i am looking pretty good... also, NOT reality! EEKS! yesterday, i watched, "How to bring it" it is the first DVD in the p90x series. it tells you to take pictures of yourself... so, you have a before and after picture. let's just say, after seeing the pictures gregg took for me... I AM HORRIFIED!!! i don't even feel worthy to wear the jeans that i am wearing now (my favorite size 10 jeans)...
so, for the record, i weigh 160.5 pounds today, yes, i know that i have 159.5 pounds written for my tracker, but give or take a pound, i am roughly that... pictures of myself are on the desktop, entitled, "reality". it has two others that were taken a couple of months ago, but they really do not show my body... boy, i do NOT look happy in ANY of these pictures...
so, we will say weight is 160 pounds
chest: 38 inches
waist: 33 1/2 inches
stomach: 38 inches
hips: 41 1/2 inches
thigh (L): 24 inches
thigh (R) 24 inches
calf (L): 15 inches
calf (R): 15 inches
arm (L): 13 inches
arm (R): 13 inches
the positive (if there is one) is that i am balanced. for a long time, one side of my body was bigger than the other. i think it was because of my injured knee. so, i am happy that i am balanced.
NOW, to get to work! i have decided that karate will NOT count as my work out! so, i need to work out 6 of the 7 days, to get in the habit of working out. it has to be scheduled like work. i HAVE to go to work, so i HAVE to work out. i just have to think about what routines to do...
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
i did biggest loser cardio work out, level 1 & 2. and i also did the biggest loser sculpt. i was sweating like a mad woman. it felt good, and i did 1 and a half minutes of plank, and i did a whole bunch of push-ups...
it is almost 8 pm, and i don't feel great... i feel okay, and i only went over my calories by 10... i felt better earlier, so much so that i put on some size 10 pants, and a form fitting top... but i am not feeling it now...
what is wrong with me? i am working out, and i am eating better... it is beginning to show... i am seeing the results, my husband is also... why am i feeling like this???
Sunday, April 12, 2009
um-m-m-m-m... i am confused! i just added in my Easter dinner that i was so worried about... maybe i should back up first.
FIRST, i WORKED OUT!... no one wanted to work out with me, i was tired, my back was bothering me, but i DID work out! i knew that i would feel a little bit better by working out. i am so happy that i did!
Second, i drank a lot of water, including a glass of water with benefiber, before i had dinner... to have a feeling of fullness.
third, i used one of our salad plates to eat from. i did put reduced salt on parts of my dinner. but, i didn't get seconds, no extra butter, no crestant rolls... AND, i made my dessert earlier... strawberries and angelfood cake. the other option that the rest of the family ate was apple pie (which i LOVE).
SO, i put in my food that i ate... guess what? it (everything but the dessert) only added up to just over 500 calories! and the carbs, fat were also in range! i can't believe it! honestly, i thought that it would be SO OVER! i almost didn't enjoy my dinner. i did enjoy it, but i was nervous...
okay, so i weighed myself this morning. i did this also, so that i could remember to have control over my eating! and remember my new tops! guess what??? i weighed less than when i did krav! i weigh 159.5! i am so happy! i can't remember the last time i weighed that!
thank you, LORD!
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