Friday, January 04, 2013
Just look around for a moment, or open your ears and you will find out how insignificant your whining is...
I was concerned about my race time not being what I want it to be... and today I did a WIC recertification for a young woman who is 2 months postpartum who had a stroke when she had her child in October. She is walking with a cane and her one arm is completely flaccid... and she is just learning to speak again.
I will run, but I will be grateful that I can run at all...
Friday, January 04, 2013
If I screw up on my eating or exercise one day, I just wake up the next day and look at it as a new start. Yesterday, I kept my calories in range (despite going out to eat), and did do a little bit of exercise in front of the TV... sit ups, squats, some weight work, push ups... and I jogged by the copier at work... so I can say that I did exercise... not a bunch, didn't reach 10K steps, but I did move some.
So yesterday was a good day, maybe not perfect, but a good day.
I have had days where I have gone much farther off track than I would like to admit... but it happens not matter where you are on the weight loss journey. But if you get off the path, it's always waiting there for you, like a road on into your future. However, whether you choose to stay lost in the woods is your choice.
So if you get off track, forgive yourself and put your feet back on your own yellow brick road. It's your journey and you can fill it with all kinds of things... but again it's ultimately your choice.
Every time recently that I have sat down with that box of cheez-its or whatever, I have known exactly what I was doing... and deciding NOT to care. But then I see those numbers creeping up on the scale and I vow to start again the next day. Then the evening comes and there I am again, knowing what I am doing and deciding not to care... and it becomes a bad pattern.
So I am working now to change the pattern, as I have done in the past... so I know I can do it again. I just have to choose to change that pattern. It's just harder to care when I am tired... so I have to remember the consequences of the choice that I am making to at least pull myself up short.
I am going to start subbing in knitting needles and water for when I am feeling the urge to walk to the kitchen for a munchie. One thing I learned long ago in psych nursing in school was that you can't take away one addiction/behavior/etc. without replacing it with something else. So I am forcing myself to choose a replacement for that serving of chips/cheese/chocolate... knitting needles and a glass of water, or even a diet soda (though not the best for you) are better than a bag of doritos/box of cheez its/etc.
Besides, if you mete out carefully a whole box of that goodie you love, it will last longer and you will get more true enjoyment out of it. Make it a treat, not a habit.
I don't know if this bloviating has helped anyone but me, but it helps remind ME that I have a CHOICE... every freaking day!
Thursday, January 03, 2013
Last night I let the cheez its take control... they are my favorite cracker of snacky goodness and I way over indulged last night. That and the salted caramel turtles... oh it was so good, and sooo bad.
Today I worked hard to stay in calorie range. I DID NOT eat the chocolate cake that someone brought to work. I did have one small bar of dark chocolate and two turtles after work, but otherwise ate fruits, vegetables, cheese, and plenty of good stuff. We went out to eat and I had catfish, carrots & broccoli. and a small treat of some onion rings.
I have been working out hard for the last few days, so I am taking the night off, to start afresh in the next few days.
The saga of the new treadmill continues... they ordered one part and had a guy come out, but it wasn't correct... so they sent out another part, but the incline still won't work. So yet another 2 parts are on order... meh. At least I can still run flat.
Getting my evening snacking in hand has been a real bugbear for me for the last while. I don't know why. I am eating no matter whether I am hungry or not. I think this has been the biggest culprit in my weight creep. I know that I have to get myself in hand. I am just trying to figure out the best way to do this. I think my main thing will be to keep a nice glass of water near my chair and just keep knitting.
Wednesday, January 02, 2013
Well I am disappointed with my performance as compared to others on the 5K... so I need to work on that. I came in 143rd of 205 runners (69th %ile by my calculation) and 9th of 12 among women 45-49.
I can do better than this. If I'd been just a minute faster, I would have been 10 higher overall and 7th by age and gender.
I will just keep pounding that pavement and see what I can do.
My hips are still sore and kind of stiff. There are some pretty good hills on the course and that combined with the cold made the course more challenging than the distance.
My plan is to get myself to where I can run 10K (6.2 miles) without stopping... I can do 5K on the treadmill with no incline... so I will just slowly increase my distance 1K at a time. It's a challenge, so by year's end, I should be ready and able to do that 10K!
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
Last night while running the last perhaps half mile of my race, the song that came up on my mp3 player was "Mr. Blue Sky" by ELO. I had loaded lots of favorite, high energy music on my player and skipped over a few, but I repeated that one. Perfect pace and lyric for a New Year's Eve run with snow coming down...
Sun is shinin' in the sky
There ain't a cloud in sight
It's stopped rainin' ev'rybody's in a play
And don't you know
It's a beautiful new day hey,hey
Runnin' down the avenue
See how the sun shines brightly in the city
On the streets where once was pity
Mister blue sky is living here today hey, hey
What a great way to set a Spark for a new year! So I get up this morning and the sun is bright and the sky is blue... though very cold.
I feel very optimistic about 2013. Plenty of new opportunities and challenges. And I intend to embrace them.
I have one resolution: To run a 10K by year's end!
Best to the SParkverse!
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