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hanging in there...

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

I made some great and obtainable goals just over a month ago & I have made good starts nearly every week, I have fizzled out due to being too tired to care or having my routine upset. So here I am again, with a great start to my week... I mean almost stellar. I am 3/3 for steps/eating/calories so far. I am very excited. In some ways I have kind of gone back to the basics... tracking every bite and body movement. It's great.

My running is coming back strong, my speed is increasing as is my duration. It feels amazing. I am actually in training for a 5k & my APFT IN May.

But now I really need to get my beauty sleep.

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STLMARY 2/17/2011 1:21PM

    I TOTALLY get the money thing. It's $30 for the 5K.

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COOP9002 2/17/2011 11:53AM

    Congrats on your running progress. Stay the course.

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OAKBORN 2/16/2011 2:13PM

    I would love to... but I can't find the cost of the 5K and I don't have a lot of money.

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STLMARY 2/16/2011 9:24AM

    You can do it Jenn! You are my inspiration. :) I'm into week 2 of the couch to 10K plan I did a few years ago.... of course I run so slow it's really a couch to 5k for me. LOL

Wanna come up on April 9'th and run the Go! St. Louis with me? I'm not sure I'll be ready to run the whole 5K yet, but I'm going to try! Jonny will also be there doing his very first 1 mile run (to finish his Read Write and Run Marathon).

Mary emoticon

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ANNIEONLI 2/16/2011 6:50AM

    Funny that we are back to the bascis with obtainable goals at the same time!

Keep it going strong!!!! by the end of this week you will be 5/5 and then 7/7 on all obstainable goals!!!! Cto5K is going to be a breeze because you know how to get the job DONE!!! Muscle memory and experience has got this in the bag!!!!

Go Jenni Go!!!! AR-MY STRONG!!!!! emoticon

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A little inspiration...

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

My best bud here just keeps me thinking... I kind of did a "3 years since I started this crazy ride" blog a couple of weeks ago. I am usually pretty thoughtful, but lately I have been very wrapped up in the minutiae of life... what I need to do to get "X" done on time... and yadda yadda yadda.

I have found it easier to sink into not thinking... or thinking about other stuff... like the tragedy in Tucson.... I guess I got all "thunk out" from my own personal stuff in 2009 and 2010. I have tried to mine my brain for deep thoughts, insightful thoughts, but they seem hard to come by... glimmers of revelation just out of reach like fish in the water... I can't string them together into anything of late.

Despite it all, I am getting myself back together and back on track in a lot of ways. It's kind of a tough slog... however, having iron in my system again is definitely helping. It's also making me kind of stir crazy to get outside, but that energy is keeping my exercise going and helping to prevent the winter blahs.

I am also setting new goals for myself... to help bolster the areas I was weak in over the holidays & in ...
1) 10K steps per day at least 6 days this week
2) Stay in calorie range at least 6 days this week
3) Meet calorie burn goal for the week.

I am doing better at avoiding the sweet treats that always seem to be in our kitchen here where I work... doughnuts sitting there... avoided... cake... avoided... I ate cheese/fruit/veggies/hummus instead. But then there are the chocolate bar days... I am working on those or making sure they fit in better once in awhile... snickers minis are wonderful, I just wish they made them in the dark chocolate version.

I have found, though, that late evening snacking is my real nemesis... those chips in the kitchen are a huge weakness for me, but I figure it's up to me to learn to avoid them, or not buy the ones I like.

I still am an avid fan of Jillian Michaels and the Biggest Loser, watching each season, cheering the contestants on to their wonderful transformations. I know that most of us can't do what they do, but I like the show because I believe it shows what is possible and how much it changes your life. I also like how the show portrays the fact that it's more than just weight loss. Usually people who have put on a lot of weight have a lot of other baggage to go with it.

And you know, that work doesn't end as you reach goal... the fat girl is always in there nagging, bugging cajoling, etc. Even though I have managed to maintain my weight loss in the 145-150 range, where I want to be... and even though my legs have amazing muscle definistion... and even though I can't pinch more than a little on my hips... and even though I wear jeans in the size 6-10 range (depends on maker)... and even though I have nice tight obliques... and even though I exercise faithfully... and eat well 80% of the time or more... I still look down at my thighs and think they are fat.

But I will stay part of the 10% for both my health and because I have to for the Army. Two good reasons, one internal and one external. Also I love to run and exercise and feel vital. I also know that the reason I hardly get sick is due to my good habits. Exercise is so ingrained in my existence that if I skip a day, I WILL be up the next day because my body will be complaining at me to do so. I also can only indulge a day or two because my body just won't feel right when I get too much junk on board. So more than just being a habit, healthy living is a compulsion... I'm just not right, I'm just not ME without it. It drives my family nuts, but they really don't understand. And I can't explain it to them... sort of like trying to communication the exhilaration I felt when I got my iron levels back up and was able to run.

And on the running, I am so happy, despite the winter weather outside, I am running on treadmill and I am able to run 4 minutes straight at 5.5 mph now. It's easy, it feels good. I should be able to bump up to 5 minutes stretches next week, which will put me in a good position for the Army PFT in May.

This year looks to be interesting. I will be going to Washington DC for an Army training class next month. In March we are taking vacation to go to Chicago and visit friends. In April, I will have weapons qualification for the Army and we should be going to a convention in Louisville, KY. June I hope to run a 5K, if it's not drill weekend, I will also have 2 weeks Annual Training for the reserves. July will be another convention in Indianapolis. With any luck, I can go back to Indy for another convention in August... then shot season will start for school and flu in the civilian job... October brings a convention in St. Louis... and then the holidays will roll around before we know it... a lot happening, some new adventures. I hope to get to New York this year too.

Wow, that got long winded. Not sure how philosophical or deep it was... but it felt good to just write.

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COOP9002 1/14/2011 10:42AM

    Thanks for shating what's going on in your life. Thanks for keeping us safe and serving our country.

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ANNIEONLI 1/12/2011 8:52PM

    See...writing is still there! Sometimes it's just to clarify the nonsense in our heads.

LoL - I was just thinking that I have to write something profound or something...and my brain has decided to 'not think' right now! LOL

Oh...Keep on going on that path that works for you...regardless of who gets it and who doesn't. Part of living in Maintenanceville is figuring out what works to stay there. Sor far, so good!!

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Wanting to write... about something...

Friday, January 07, 2011

A wonderful friend sent me a gift this week that means more than most gifts I have ever received. It is two small silver dogtags on a necklace... one says "army strong" and the other says "member of the 10%" club. She knows me so well and knew exactly what would speak to me.

A's friendship here on SP is one of many boons that have come my way from being here. emoticon

With the help of friends and SP and my husband, I have managed pretty well in Maintenanceville.

One thing I have fought for so many years is my inability to ask for help... and I am working on that... Basic training was very good for that. I really felt like everyone there had my back.

I have to remember to ask for help and give it as well.

And my 15 year old son loves to hug his mom and cuddle with the cats.

Life is great!

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SUCHAHOOT 1/25/2011 7:53PM

    It is awesome to hear your happiness just shining through!

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UUCEEJAY 1/9/2011 8:52AM

    I have trouble asking for help too. I have been so blessed to have found SP and made good Spark Friends. It is such a help to be able to blog and get support from others. emoticon

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ANNIEONLI 1/8/2011 1:07PM


Asking for help is hard on this end too...and something to work on.

Half of that battle is speaking up and saying things out loud....the other half is being heard...and the other half is understanding when to help and when to let the person learn for themselves.

Yeah, I understand that part all too well...but that is what buds are for! To lean on when the times get tough and to cheer when a victory has been achieved, no matter how small or large it may be!
PS - ARMY STRONG!!!!!! emoticon

Comment edited on: 1/8/2011 1:08:40 PM

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ASHLEEWEBART 1/8/2011 5:46AM

    I enjoyed your blog today. It makes me feel good that you have been doing so well. Wishing you continued success with maintenance.


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Reflections: 3 years since I decided to get healthy...

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

It's been an interesting road in so many ways since I woke up on 30 December 2007 and decided that I was going to lose the excess weight I'd been carrying around for years. It took me 8 months to lose 60+ lbs, hitting goal on 2 September 2008.

I have been through a lot of emotional rollercoaster rides for various reasons. But life has finally calmed down now... and I'm settling into a new normal... with the Army Reserve added in.

I have met a lot of people who wonder "how I did it" and of course I tell them counting calories and exercise and SparkPeople. This website, the tools and the amazing people have kept me going, even when it's been tough. I always come back.

I think what amazes me is the number of people who tell me that losing weight the way I did it is just "too hard" for them. And while I believe that different things work for different people, I think too many people sell themselves way short. I also think that too many people believe that there is a magic bullet out there that will work for them... not wanting to commit themselves to long term change due to either laziness or fear of that change. I remember what it was like to be in that space... but I know I could never go back to it.

I also have found a place of peace after 2 years in maintenance... I am still a dedicated calorie counter and exercise tracker... but I know that if I go over once in a while I won't gain all the weight back. But I also know that I have to be careful. It is nice to have found a calm space and comfort that I do know how to stay in the successful 10%.

What are my tools to success? Really the basics...
1) Keep moving
2) Tracking exercise & food intake
3) Support
4) Give yourself credit for what you do
5) Find exercise you love
6) If you are feeling bad, something is wrong, find out why!
7) Embrace your veggies!
8) Enjoy yourself and don't deprive yourself!
9) Don't beat yourself up
10) Embrace the adventure...

I hope this ramble makes some sense somewhere, somehow.

I wish you all the best on your journeys into the New Year!

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COOP9002 12/29/2010 4:00PM

    Sounds like you've made some amazing progress. Best of luck on your continued success.

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UUCEEJAY 12/29/2010 9:01AM

    Those 10 points are surely the key. Nice post! emoticon

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LIBRARIANJEN 12/28/2010 11:38PM

    After I had Nick, I was back to pretty close to my normal weight within two years, mostly because of exercising and limiting treats. It was amazing how many people thought that was too hard!

Of course, then I got a variety of health problems that put 60 pounds on me, but those are finally getting sorted and I've taken off about 40 of the extra 60.

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Better and better! And Happy Holidays!

Monday, December 13, 2010

I am so pumped! I did intervals of 1 minute walking (3.5 mph) and 2 minutes running (5.5 mph) on the treadmill tonight. I did 10 intervals plus walking before and after. It felt amazing to be able to run and love it and NOT feel miserable. I'm gonna keep adding more 3 total minute intervals until I am doing an hour and then I'm going to start lengthening the run intervals... I will be so ready for my PT test in May, I'll blow my previous best time away! I really want to up my PT score. I doubt that I could get a 300, but hey, it's something to shoot for! I'd love to earn a PT badge!

So much to do, so little time... that is how I feel right now. I have to go up for Captain and that means getting a ton of annoying paperwork and other deets taken care of by the end of the month. Sigh. I don't feel ready for it, but I HAVE to do it or it shows "lack of due diligence" on my part. For example, today I had to drive 4 hours round trip to get my official Dept of the Army photo taken.

But I still don't regret my decision to join the Army... despite the annoyances, I love the military life. I missed it greatly these past 20 years... and it feels so right to be back in it.

And getting my physical health in order has a lot to do with my being able to re-enter.

I hope to get the house cleaned, tree up and some cookies baked this week. I hope everyone is having a lovely holiday season.

If you get stressed, remember to breathe and go work out!

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COOP9002 12/14/2010 11:16AM

    Hope your holiday season is amazing.

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EACHDAYAGIFT 12/14/2010 9:51AM

    We've come a long way, baby! I love to read about you getting "Army Strong" and then baking cookies. In the early phase of the women's movement, we were discouraged from the "domestic pursuits" by some. Now, though we still have a ways to go on the equal pay scale , we have come far enough that a soldier can be a mother and a baker as well, a construction worker can wear makeup and still be taken seriously, etc. And a man can be a nurse, an elementary school teacher, or a stay at home Dad. It makes me happy for all the generations to come.

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KAYOTIC 12/14/2010 9:49AM

    It must have been interval day yesterday, that's what I did too, but on the elliptical! It's one way to increase speed, so go for it! Sounds like you have a great plan in place to hit those goals!

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