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Gratitude for Random Acts of Kindness... Paying it Forward...

Monday, September 14, 2009

Sometimes I feel like I cash in my karma coupons all at one time. This has been one of those years... really...

Since last Wednesday, when we brought Miss M home, things have been lighter, brighter and more hopeful. She was diagnosed with chronic mild depression and they have her on a small dose of anti-depressant medication which has worked near miracles. She has been happier and communicative... we can discuss things without someone getting their feelings hurt or crying or yelling or storming off... this is huge. We didn't ask for perfect, we just wanted manageable... it's like the weight of the world has been lifted. But that doesn't mean I'm not watching the skies for more shoes to drop!

The relationship with the girlfriend has also ended, as we predicted... but that is okay by all of us apparently.

I am so grateful to all of my friends who have supported me & my family through this crisis. I wish I could knit socks for you all... but my solemn promise is to pay it forward to others in need... whether they need an ear, a bite of food, a door held open... I will pay it forward in any little way I can in hopes of bringing some of the support into their lives that you have given to me.

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COOP9002 9/14/2009 11:56AM

    Sounds like things are on the right track. Glad to hear it. You will continue to be in my prayers.

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ROSIE777 9/14/2009 11:43AM

    Glad to hear that things are better. . .will keep you in my prayers. emoticon

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ANNIEONLI 9/14/2009 11:42AM

    THAT IS GREAT NEWS!!! So glad to hear that!
Some prayers do come true emoticon
Like you said...pay it forward! emoticon
Be proud of yourself too - for handling it the way you did emoticon

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Just when you thought it was safe...

Sunday, September 06, 2009

I've been under a lot of stress lately, I think that has been clear.

Thursday night/Friday morning, everything got ratcheted to overload. My daughter was threatening to commit suicide and we had to have her committed.

It's a long story. I am coping okay right now. I am blessed to have lots of friends who are providing me with unprecedented support.

Prayers are welcome and appreciated. I need a beach, cabana boy, frozen alcoholic drinks.

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WIFEALF 9/11/2009 9:09AM

    Sorry to hear you are stressed!I hope things gets less hectic for you!Your family is in my prayers....

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GETTO140 9/7/2009 9:40AM

    I will pray for you and your daughter!!

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MSFDAA 9/7/2009 12:53AM

  Hope things are beginning to look up for you and your family.
My prayers go out to you that everything will settle down and your daughter gets the help she needs.

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ANNIEONLI 9/6/2009 8:22PM

    OMG! Goodness, I was praying your daughter OK and doing better. I'll continue to pray for her and you. You are always in my thoughts Oak...Always. Take care of yourself so you can take care of your family in the best way possible.
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KAYOTIC 9/6/2009 3:04PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon and all the good thoughts and prayers you need.

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Still waiting... but working on getting Army Strong...

Monday, August 31, 2009

I've gotten myself to a solid 10 minute mile. My shortest so far was 9 minutes. I also can do 15 push ups. I haven't counted sit ups for awhile... but I will this weeks.

I walked about 12 miles yesterday just walking and talking with friends. It was wonderful and though I was a little sore last night, I felt energized and amazing today.

I am fearing less and less about basic training as time goes on. I'm actually looking forward to it.

The Drama Llamas appear to have been tranquillized somewhat and I hope they stay that way for awhile. Life has just been too frakking insane this year. I need some time away/off.

Now I'm looking forward to the Army telling me where to go!

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WIFEALF 9/11/2009 9:10AM

    wow good for you!

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ANNIEONLI 9/1/2009 6:29PM

    Glad to see things cooling down...you seem calm in this blog! emoticon

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LIMASTAR 8/31/2009 9:32PM

  Being fit before bootcamp is the smartest move you can make. Our son was not very well prepared for bootcamp when he went, but after 2 years is more fit than when he started.

Good Luck on your Army service.

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Waiting is...

Saturday, August 29, 2009

...still no orders from the Army and the 45 days is Monday. I'm sure my recruiter is as antsy as I am. So we continue to wait.

The drama as settled out some... it's mostly a hum in the background of my existence. I can at least live with that. I used to have a bad habit of shoving down emotions all the time and then I'd explode when they got to be too much. Mostly I don't do that anymore, but there have been so many emotional upheavals this year that I fell back in to the (bad) old habit without even knowing it... and so the cracks have been forming... and I've had two emotional boilovers this week. It will pass once it all gets cleaned out, but it makes the present moment... interesting...

The 17 year old is still a mess. It's not good, but there is little we can do. I fear she is in line for some really tough times, mostly due to her own choices.

I'm running and stuff, working up to somewhere above minimum Army standards... that way I won't have to worry about getting up to snuff, I can just start there. I can do 15 full push ups now and I ran 2 miles last night in 20:20. Need to count sit ups to see how I'm doing there as well.

Meanwhile, life goes on...


Drama Llamas have me all twisted in knots...

Thursday, August 20, 2009

It's a crazy thing. This year has been like someone sitting in Imelda Marcos' closet merrily pelting me with shoes (as in... waiting for another shoe to drop). I thought the drama llamas had chilled out, but that belief turn out to be unfounded... some more walked into my life.

The story is far too complex to go into... but suffice it to say, I am under some great emotional stress right now.

So track track track the food and wear out another pair of tennis shoes...

...and wait for my orders from the Army, literally any day now...

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COOP9002 8/20/2009 10:34PM

    Hang in there! I am sure you've faced and overcome some challenges before.

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ANNIEONLI 8/20/2009 4:59PM

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ROSIE777 8/20/2009 3:45PM

    My friend I am glad you are voiding out the drama llamas from your life. . .Here is hoping you have a better day. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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THINNAT1 8/20/2009 2:05PM

    Sounds as if you're under some stress; here's hoping your life relaxes!! I stopped by your page and I saw the picture entitled, "What a difference a year makes." I had to pick my jaw up off the floor and reinsert in into my skull. I am in awe! You look fantastic!! At least 30 years younger!!! Again, in total awe!!

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