Thursday, August 20, 2009
It's a crazy thing. This year has been like someone sitting in Imelda Marcos' closet merrily pelting me with shoes (as in... waiting for another shoe to drop). I thought the drama llamas had chilled out, but that belief turn out to be unfounded... some more walked into my life.
The story is far too complex to go into... but suffice it to say, I am under some great emotional stress right now.
So track track track the food and wear out another pair of tennis shoes...
...and wait for my orders from the Army, literally any day now...
Monday, August 10, 2009
Friday was Mr A's birthday... it was very nice. He wanted grilled salmon and steak, so we just bought some good stuff from the meat case and had a feast. He wanted software for his birthday, so he downloaded that and was happy.
Saturday, we had drama, too much drama. I will leave it at that.
Sunday was great. We went to Illinois and had lunch with some good friends. Then we had dinner with some other friends and my boyfriend from my senior year of high school who I'd not seen since he dumped me 25 years ago. But it was actually great to see him. Once we got talking, it was fine. Some jitters beforehand, but that quickly resolved. Luckily we had been chatting quite a bit online and got a lot of stuff out.
Today is aggregating my feces and banning drama llamas from my life.
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
I actually meant to blog the milestone on Sunday... but was busy getting lessons sent in ridiculous packaging... good ones, but my brain was kinda 'splodey.
I ran a 10 minute mile on Sunday, so that is going well. I also did 30 day shred level one... I want to do it 10 times straight, every other day then move up to level 2 and then level 3... to make it more of the 60 day shred. I also walked an additional 2 1/4 miles with hubby in the evening. My 10K steps was easy. I also have myself up to 14 full-out push ups and I did that twice on Sunday.
For the Army PFT (Physical Fitness Test) I have to be able to do a minimum of 12 push ups & 32 sit ups in 2 minutes and run 2 miles in under 24 minutes. I am getting to the minimums already, so I am very confident in my ability to achieve much higher.
So 11 months in maintenance has found my weight creeping up a little bit... but it's easy enough to fix... back to the program. I haven't gotten out of my range, but I'm getting near the top. So I've dropped my calories by several hundred and am upping my exercise. I'm also concentrating on the fruits and veggies more intensely than I was.
I mentioned lessons wrapped in ridiculous packaging. Well, I have been chatting with my high school boyfriend, the one I was going to marry, who abruptly dumped me about a month after graduation in 1984. I dealt with it back then by shoving all the emotions down and then living recklessly for most of the next year, never connecting my behavior in that time with the pain. I have gotten a lot of insight into things from these conversations and remembering. It's actually been quite cathartic and healthy.
Somehow I don't think I would have been able to do all the emotional work this year without the strength I have gained from losing the weight last year. It all goes hand in hand.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Well, I am working my way back to the vigorous exercise routine I had a few months ago, I slacked off for a few months, and while it's easier to restart from where I am now, it's still hard to reestablish those good habits. However I have no choice!
I've been a 1st Lt in the Army Reserve for 2 weeks now, but nothing has really changed since I haven't gotten orders yet. It won't start sinking in until my first drill weekend and won't totally hit me until I'm in school in January in San Antonio. It's all good, the benefits of this career move are numerous... I'm not sure I could list them all.
Today's lunch was tasty salad: tuna, mandarin oranges, iceberg lettuce, tomatoes, cucumber, arugula, tiny bit of ranch dressing... only 372 calories! I am STUFFED.
We are going out to eat tonight, so I'm trying to save some space for that. My afternoon snack will be cottage cheese with tomato... which was always my mom's favorite.
I have my mile run back to 11 mins. I need to bring that down some more, but considering my lethargy of the past few weeks, it's not that bad. I'll just keep working it. I have Army fitness standards to maintain now in addition to my 60+ lb weight loss.
The way I walk run/with hubby has had several animals run over on the route in the past few months. Though kind of gruesome, it was interesting watching the natural decay process of a dead raccoon. First it bloated up and then sort of deflated until now... where it's just a few bones scattered at the roadside with Taco Bell sauce packets. Yes, I pay attention to stuff like that. I consider myself to be an observer of the small and obscure.
Today after I ate, I managed to get in almost 1.5 miles in 22 minutes. Felt good, it's a beautiful day out there and I hate to waste these nice days we have had here in Missouri, which is way unusual for this part of the country this time of year. Usually we are pretty much swapped with what the Pacific NW has been having the last week. So I won't complain too loudly.
Mark and I now regularly take evening walks about 3x per week. I'm faster on my own, but it is such a great time to get out together, be active and just talk. It has been very good for our marriage too... not that there was much wrong in the first place, but communication is always a good thing.
This is the strange poem I wrote yesterday:
strange sense of scattered today
strange sense of calm center today
the animal bones lay in the gutter
with the fast food condiment packs
scattered from their source
laying content where they have landed
my feet dash by at 6 mph
observing their slow migration over time
part of one whole they started
now debris they have become
much as I started one whole
now I am change
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