Wednesday, June 03, 2009
I have been on an emotional roller coaster for sorts for the past few weeks... great one day, bad the next, great the next... it is very hard to explain.
I have had the chance to really reconnect with one of my oldest, dearest friends recently. We were estranged years ago for stupid reasons and then kind of were on different trajectories for quite a few years and then just recently realized... Hey, I missed having you around.... She has also been a huge support to Miss M since her crisis with the failed drug test a few months ago... and the whole family as well... and that is why she came back into our lives in the first place.
The we had a blow from Hurricane Miss M... that sucked rocks. I love my daughter but I HATE the emotional storms we seem to have to face periodically.
But we weathered that one and got back to (mostly) even keel to find same old friend dealing with some personally devastating news... so I spent a good portion of today between WIC nutrition clients at work, talking her down. But we had a family dinner scheduled already with her and she realized how much we esteem & love her and that did more than any words to help bring her to a better place.
It was a no-count, no exercise night since family needed me... but that's okay. I'll do that Jillian Michaels today sometime. It's all good.
The day ended quite cheerfully considering where it started.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
During my jog this morning, I had a comment by my good friend Jessica pop into my head... we had been talking the other week and she was being concerned with being overweight and I said that I had my own body image issues (saggies, stretch marks, scars, etc), and she said, "But you're skinny."
It really put into perspective how no matter what you weigh, we are prone to body image issues... even if others don't see it. We are very internal creatures and have such subjective views of ourselves and a lot of the time others don't care or just don't see it.
I know what when I was heavy, nobody believed that I weighed as much as I did. I also preferred to listen to others and NOT look into mirrors or have my picture taken. However, now I am glad that I do have a few pictures so I can remember what I looked like and compare it to new images.
Today is going to be a great day! I have my dear friend Daryl visiting from Florida... as well as Jessica (friend from forever also) and Renee (best friend since 3rd grade)... all getting together with Mark and I today. I am very very very happy about this.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
The H1N1 Novel Flu Virus has died down for now... so we are not at high alert right now, but surveillance efforts are still increased mainly due to the fear about the mutations this flu virus will inevitably undergo... which could be good or bad. (Note: The 1918 Flu Pandemic was preceded by a smaller bump pandemic... when that virus mutated, it came back with a vengeance and 40-50 million died worldwide. I'm not saying this to incite fear, but inject reality.)
In the meantime, life has been busy with regular stuff. I've managed to keep on keeping on. Went to southern Missouri with a friend last Friday and nearly got blown away in a land hurricane :D. All of our plans were quashed but we laughed our way through it, enjoyed the road trip and ended up at her house watching movies.
I had a real emotional catharsis day on Monday... just so much going on, it came to a head like a pimple and exploded. I really didn't see it coming... so it wasn't much of a good day... and yet it was. I have been feeling much better each day since. I have found that now when I'm stressed, I stop eating and exercise like a maniac. The latter half is healthy, but the not eating isn't... and so I force myself to eat... I hate eating when everything tastes like cardboard.
Tuesday night was really fun, we went over to our friends' house and watched the Biggest Loser finale! They made barbecued beef and we brought salad and pumpkin pie. She is gluten intolerent, so I found a great recipe online for an EASY brown rice pie crust that we all REALLY liked. It's light yet firm. MMMMMMMMM.
Still in MaintenanceVille... hip is all better and I'm back to vigorous running/walking and generally feeling good. Daughter is doing well. Son is good. Both are looking forward to the end of school, to be sure. I love my husband. I get to see an old friend this weekend... Daryl will be in from Florida. I have been getting reacquainted we another old friend, Jess... LIFE IS GREAT! LET'S CELEBRATE!
Had a dream last night of going through Army Basic Training and all it was was paperwork. The board is due to meet on the 19th of May. I don't know how long it will be after that when I find out. I would like it to happen, but if it doesn't, it just isn't meant to be. I really am that copacetic about it.
Life goes on and on, life in transition, life goes on and on.
Saturday, May 02, 2009
Despite the tough week, this is a great thing to realize!
I actually managed to do Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred level one today and that felt GREAT... I am having to ice my hip a little bit. I'll walk later to hopefully get in my 10K steps for the first time in days.
It's all good.
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