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"There is no finish line..."

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

That line came up on one of my Podfitness workouts and got me to thinking about how a new lifestyle has its only finish line the day I die, but is my new state of living and going forward.

Then I was running on the treadmill the other day to random songs and The Red Shoes by Kate Bush cycled up... it really sort of described how I was feeling... The song is based on the fairy tale about the girl who puts on the dancing shoes and then has no control over her feet.

Oh it's gonna be the way you always thought it would be
But it's gonna be no illusion
Oh it's gonna be the way you always dreamt about it
But it's gonna be really happening to ya
Really happening to ya
Really happening to ya'

I think the lyric really puts the weight loss into perspective... you have to be prepared for the reality of what you are wishing for!

  


Reflecting back: 3 months in MaintenanceVille

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Yesterday was the big 3 month mark in maintenance. It kind of got me to thinking... more just random thoughts, which I can hopefully forge into a coherent blog post.

I'm at work today, it's been pretty busy, but there is little I can get done in the last 15 minutes before lunch, so...

First off, your journey to becoming the person you want to be doesn't end when the scale has the right numbers on it and your soul (and perhaps mouth screams) "GGGGGGGOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAALLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!" You have to remember that you have made a lot of changes that take time to absorb, no matter how successful your trip to MaintenanceVille has been.

Admittedly, my trip was really pretty easy as far as trajectory is concerned... 2 plateaus of about a week each is really nothing compared to folks who do EVERYTHING right and still end up plateaued for months at a time.

But still, in my mind, though I'm wearing S-M shirts and 6-8 pants/jeans, I still expect to see the "fat girl" in the mirror. I still clumsy and lumbering like she was, not the limber healthy & active woman I am now. My mind STILL has trouble with the reality. I actually take the time to look in the mirror, rather than avoiding it... still trying to wrap my mind around the fact that the person in the mirror with the reflection that I LIKE really IS ME.

However, when I am shopping for clothes, I can look at a pair of large jeans (like size 18) and see they are way too big for me. I also have a hard time wrapping my brain around the fact that those once would have fit me.

I also find now that I LOVE wearing form-fitting clothes. Maybe at 43 it's not supposed to be appropriate (I'm not talking teeny-bopper clothes), but I like things that allow me to flaunt what I've WORKED for!

No matter what though, I am a happier person and I am now understanding that this is an ongoing journey and not a destination in and of itself. When I first got started, I knew I was signing up for the rest of my life... and that this would become my life. And you know, I'm at peace with that now. I like where I am and how my life is going. I'm happy that I want to exercise... so I do it. It's really a matter of changing your habits and change is hard.

Another thought regards the meaning of maintenance and how that looks in my life... how that works into my life. I have loosened up a little on compulsive tracking of everything and 100 day exercise streaks.

  
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ASMPD2 12/8/2008 11:26PM

    Thanks for all your thoughts and inspirations. I'm sticking with it right now so to speak, but I feel like I'm very far from your happiness and peace with "signing up for the rest of my life". The amount of time I'm dedicating to this just doesn't feel sustainable yet. Any tips?

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MISSJCISRUNNING 12/4/2008 3:51PM

    Thanks for sharing your experience!!! Even now after maintaining for over a year I still have to do a double take when I see pictures of myself or see my reflection as I walk by a mirror or store window!!! It is truly freeing to feel comfortable in your own skin!!! Congratulation on your SUCCESS!!! Jackie!!!

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ANNIEONLI 12/3/2008 6:04PM

    I think when you reach that place like you did...you become part of that 5% who keep it off. Congratulations on maintaining so well! It is an accomplishment in and of itself!!!!! Always remember that.

Wait a few more months......you'll be getting, "have you lost more weight?" and you'll just grin and smile and say, "why no!, I'm maintaining, that's all." People don't expect you to keep it off...I like the fact that when you do, their jaw hits the floor.

Your the best!
Smiles
Anne

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Didn't exercise today... but I did count calories and did fine...

Saturday, November 29, 2008

It feels very important to me to start being able to take the training wheels off. I had honestly planned to exercise, but got busy today and just didn't get it done. Oh well, so there it is. I did track calories and did fine.

It was a great day.

I am also working on how to drop the fat and calories in some of my favorite Thanksgiving dishes... or at least change the type of fat in the foods I love.

So what I did this year with the pumpkin pie ala easy from Pampered Chef, I too the crust and subbed in brown rice flour for all purpose flour and olive oil for the butter. Next time I make it, I will also just use egg whites rather than whole eggs.

I also lowered the fat in my mom's stuffing recipe by sauteeing the celery & onions in fat free chicken broth instead of the butter! Next year I will do egg whites in the other part and that should cut out almost all the fat. Yay!

  


A great leap back onto my personal horse!

Friday, November 28, 2008

I have fully jumped back into tracking and working out fully force today. It feels great... and I even went out to eat with friends for 2 meals!

I'm so excited for the holidays to be here!!

I did a 30 Day Shred session plus 37 minutes on treadmill today. It felt so great after a couple of days of halfway exercise. I had been hoping to get a nice run in outside, but it never warmed up enough for my preference to do so AND I was running around with my bud most of the afternoon... but I did manage a good workout.

I DID NOT, repeat DID NOT do the Black Friday thing... the crowds are must more than I can handle. We used to when the kids were small since we could get them great presents cheap that way. But so many people go now and their tastes are quite pricey, it's better to find other sources such as online.

Tomorrow looks to be another busy day. I'm going out with my best friend and then we are going to an ornament making party at another friend's. Sunday is church and some hang out time with the family... then back to work on Monday.

  
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JILLWILSON2102 11/29/2008 11:11PM

   

The only bad thing you mentioned is the back to work part...me too! Since I work retail for my 2nd job I had to do the Black Friday thing, but it wasn't bad. The nasty shoppers haven't come out yet, but they are just around the corner! Your ornament party sounds like fun!! You will have to post a picture if you can!

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Today just had to be a no-count, no-track day...

Thursday, November 27, 2008

I tracked in the morning, but a potluck with friends just doesn't lend itself well to tracking. But since I have inadvertently lost a few extra pounds, down to the 142, a no-count day isn't going to hurt me.

I actually had 2 plates of food, but mostly just little portions of many things and I wanted to try everything... so I did go back. Then I had a small sliver of each of 4 pies. I felt full but not bursting, satisfied but not uncomfortable.

I think it's okay. I am sort of talking myself into that still. But I'm just going to give myself a day off of tracking.

I did get in a brisk 2.18 mile walk before going to my friend's house. I may do Jillian Michaels tonight or I might not.

It was a wonderful meal and chance to visit with lots of old friends, one of whom is visiting from Minneapolis for the long weekend!

Happy Thanksgiving to all and to all a good night!

  


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