Monday, August 18, 2008
I feel really blessed since I have barely plateaued in the entire course of my weight loss. It's almost like my body has been waiting for me to get a clue and just DO IT. Come to think of it, my mother was NEVER overweight... she was 5-2 and told me her highest weight was 136... sometime before I can remember, prolly before I was born. I just remember her as being small and thin. She was beautiful too. I miss her so.
I just wonder if I may have the same metabolism she does... and wasn't eating to fit it. I know she'd be proud of me. She always worried about my weight creeping up.
So today I weighed in at 151.8! My BMI is now 23.77 and I have lost 52.8 lbs, which is 25.8% of my starting weight. I'm only 1.8 lbs from my goal of 150 and I am sooooo excited.
I am starting to get it into my head that maintenance is going to be a fun new challenge... for the rest of my life.
Some of the things that have helped me achieve this goal:
1. destination, determination, and deliberation... yes, these are the 3 D's of apparition from Harry Potter, but they really do apply if you think about it!
2. salads & focusing on the fruits and veggies first.
3. those small, manageable & measurable goals
4. a strange wellspring of inner discipline that came from somewhere honestly unknown to me before
5. I WANTED to change.
6. Support of my husband, even though at times he's thought I'm semi-out of my mind
7. SparkPeople and my friends here.
That's all I can think of right now.
Other coolness: my boss is a great bargain hunter of the garage sale variety and so I asked her if she could find some jeans for me cheap in her travels. So this morning she presented me with 2 nice pair of jeans and 1 pair of tres cute capris and 1 pair of clamdiggers... and I only owe her $2. They all fit perfectly! I am soooo jazzed!
I have found that I wear a size 10 if they are older and a size 8 if they are newer. Vanity sizing is ALL that is! So very silly. So for someone who started out in an 18, getting down to a 10 is fabulous. I will take it and say "thank you"! My original goal was to get down to a size 12 (the smallest size I remember wearing in high school), which is prolly a size 10 from a few years ago and an 8 today. Every smaller number that I was able to fit into made me happy... and now that I'm down to where I plan to stay, that is fine.
People are calling me "skinny" now and that's fine with me. I know I'm not too thin. I feel comfortable in my own skin again. I just wish there was something I could do about the stretch marks, but my mother had them and so do I... c'est la vie. So I just won't wear any bikinis. I'll just be fabulous in a one-piece!
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Actually got myself up and got my car in for the long-scheduled maintenance... and I walked to the Farmer's Market from the dealership... it's only a few blocks... but on a morning like we have today, it could have been a couple of miles and I'd have been happy to walk it!
Bought some tomatoes, green peppers, cucumbers, salad mix lettuce and apples... yummmmm! I'll have fabulous salads this week. I also treated myself to a mini-breakfast burrito since I didn't know how long it would be until the car was done (they were busy and short-handed) and I get hungry between 9:30 and 10:30... (more yummmm!)
I (of course) ran into folks I know and like to talk to... so that took up some time while I was eating my burrito. After visiting for awhile, I headed back to the car dealer and as I was walking up, they called my name on the loudspeaker... perfect timing!
I happily drove home with a healthy car and an even healthier bag of fresh fruits and veggies. Now that I'm here, I have a batch of yogurt in the works and am planning what I'm taking to a church potluck this evening. I'm thinking of redoing the Carrot Cake recipe with yogurt and vanilla to see how it works.
It may sound like pure vanity, and probably is, but I am enjoying going out in public and having people look at me. It seemed like a guy driving a pickup truck the other day sort of started driving towards me and then corrected. I don't want too much attention (that can be annoying), but a little at the age of almost 43 is nice.
I guess it just goes to show that I have wasted a ton of time being fat. I never let myself dwell on it, but it bothered me a lot more than I was willing to admit to myself or anyone else. I was avoiding mirrors and cameras... because it allowed me to think that I wasn't as fat as I thought I was. Now I can look back and see the veils I'd pulled over my eyes.
I am not avoiding mirrors and cameras the way I was, but I haven't gone the other way either. However I like the way I look so much more than I did. I'm much happier. I feel more confident and in-control of my life. I handle stress so much more easily than I ever have. I feel less clumsy than I did before too... although my purses are still very good at knocking stuff off shelves...
I am just a few pounds from goal now and I'm amazed that I'm nearly "done" as far as losing weight goes. But soon the work of staying done will start. I am starting to embrace the idea... and it will be an interesting transition.
Friday, August 15, 2008
Wow. This has been one LONG week! And it wasn't just me... just about everyone at work was tired, wanting Friday and felt it was a long week. I don't know why, but it just was...
It was also a hard week for me to get motivated, especially towards the end for exercise. I did manage something every day, though. Yesterday was walking while school supply shopping with the kids and then turning the SP strength exercises into my own circuit, doing 20 jumping jacks between each set. It helped me feel better too.
Today in my SP e-mail, I got the daily recipe for Apple Sauce Carrot Cake. I tried it with a few small tweaks but found it a little bland... thinking about it, it really needs vanilla! Why no vanilla? Weird. Next time I make it, I am going to add some vanilla and fat free yogurt for moisture. Also the baking time on the original was WACKY! It said 1 hour 10 mins... it would be a nice brick of charcoal... I baked it for 40 mins and it was fine.
Tonight I got off my butt and did a Podfitness workout that kicked my butt! Wowsers Uncle Gadget... but I got worked out for sure!
I am finding that I LOVE feeling the definition in my arms. It is fun being able to trace the muscles and know what they are. Most of the flab is gone from the tricep area too!
I've been trying to watch the Olympics as much as I can, but with having to get up for work in the morning, it's tough. The swimming, gymnastics and beach volleyball have been great to watch.
We are also having a very fortunate August weatherwise, we have really only had about 1 bad week for heat so far this whole summer and plenty of rain. The only drawback is that my tomatoes are refusing to ripen.
Oh well, no brain for big thoughts. Just a little brain telling me to go to sleep!
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
I am currently on lunch at work... and we have been so busy today... two clerks have not come in today and we have WIC check pick-up today and back to school shots ALL DAY with no open appointments. I also had my monitoring with the State, so they were effectively down by another pair of hands, plus a other nurse being out on vacation. So four people short when there are million things to do.
The afternoon should be better since I'm not tied up.
The real moral of this story is the importance of snacks... I didn't get a chance to eat my usual snacks and lunch arrived and I ate everything in sight! Luckily a lot of it was veggies and fruit in addition to my wrap sandwich. So I'm only at 1100 calories. Thank Gods I eat healthy!
Sunday, August 10, 2008
I had a great day again today... got out and mowed the lawn and then went grocery shopping with hubby. We bought some inexpensive but decent little pedometers at Wally World... I'm fed up with the hypersensitive, non customizable ones from the dollar store.
In the afternoon we hung out with the kids and watched a movie, Meet the Robinsons, which was so amazingly cute and touching. GREAT family movie. Aravine (hubby) made us corned beef hash for dinner, which is amazingly low in fat and calories...
This evening he and I went for a brisk 3.5 mile walk and completed that in just about an hour. It was nice. I move faster by myself, but I wanted to spend time with him and it seems like we get lots of good talking done while walking like that.
We are both so happy to not be fat anymore. He was at about 175 for a long time... and started slowly losing weight over the last few years. He's down to 159 I think and he's the same height I am.
I was talking to him about the mixed emotions I have when I see people who weigh a lot just not making the choices that we have to get active and eat better. I just have a hard time seeing people make the whole weight loss thing so much harder than it needs to be... they always ask my secret... and there really is no secret... consume less than you expend and you will drop weight. I also point them here to Spark People.
I am also since I was the ultimate couch potato... I knew WHAT to do and had done it before... but I was too lazy. I admit it! I was too lazy... as late as last November I was clear on that point and even stood up in a crowd and admitted it, that I would rather knit than exercise. I don't know if that was a turning point... or just one of the pebbles that made me rethink my priorities over time to flip that switch in my head.
It takes a decision, it takes commitment, it takes consistency, it takes focus and it takes WORK. For the switch to flip in someone's head, it takes a perfect storm like happened to me.
The bottom line is that I can best show others by living my change and hope that it will help them along the path to their own healthy changes. That is what spreading the Spark is all about really. You can't preach to people, you need to just be an example of what they can do themselves.
I want to show them all the light... but really all I can do is be a candle, spread the Spark and let them find their own ultimate Spark... or not.
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