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This whole thing isn't going so well...

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Life is tough sometimes. And when you are trying to lose weight, it can be even harder. This has been such a long journey and I am getting discouraged that it's not happening a little faster. I am gaining weight and I honestly have NO idea why. I got under 200 pounds once. It was glorious. I loved it and was so happy and proud. I vowed I would NEVER go back. But I did. At first I thought it was muscle. I do all the "extreme" workout programs. P90X, Insanity, Tapout XT... I love them all. I have seen the most progress with Tapout XT. My body changed in ways I never thought possible. I have beautiful muscle definition now... really awesome. Yet, I gained and was dangerously close to 200 again. (Lowest I got was 193). Then, seemingly overnight, I was over 200 again and for months now I have bounced up and down between 201 to 208.

I am also exhausted. I mean, really really really tired. I am usually full of energy. I am always on the go. I have been doing double workouts since school started back (I'm a substitute teacher who gets called- A LOT!) So on the days I work (lately 5 days a week) I spend an hour in the school gym and then come home and do my Tapout XT. (I am on round 2- my second 90-day rotation) I'm wondering if I am just doing too much? I also have a two year old who is proving that "terrible twos" do exist. Maybe just the combination is enough to wear me out?

I just don't know. I have had my thyroid tested and it's fine. I'm starting to get concerned over the whole fatigue thing though. I know fatigue can either mean I am just tired or that something else is wrong.

My plan is to *try* to take a break this week. Yesterday all I did was walk on the treadmill at 3mpg at 12% incline for 45 minutes. That's like a stroll compared to what I usually do. I have no idea what I will do today. That's why I like the 90-day programs because it gives me structure and a goal to work towards. When I just go blindly into working out I feel lost... I have almost 100 workout DVDs so I can certainly find something to do, but I feel like I need direction.

Overall, I am struggling with the concept of "focusing on where I have come from and not where I have to go." I have lost over 120 pounds. But that means nothing to me because I feel like a failure because I can't get under 200. I feel like a failure because I am STILL wearing a size 14/16 when I want to be a 10/12 (I know, not important!). I feel like a failure because my two year old has a total meltdown at least once a day. I feel like a failure because I cannot look in the mirror and be proud of what I see...

There has GOT to be a way to get past these things...

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NORASPAT 5/30/2013 8:05AM

    Do you know if you snore. Sleep apnea is one of the most draining feelings. Perhaps you should have a sleep study.
MY DH had asleep study, He did not snore but he stopped breathing so his oxygen was low, After 20 years he has had this situation if he goes away a few days and forgets RARELY does he forget now, he will be yawning and tired. Just a thought in case it helps to check it out.

It does sound like you are over doing it too. Instead of focusing on exercise try focusing on Portion control. I decided to read. The spark solution. I had a TWO YEAR PLATEAU till I got the book. I have not bothered with recipes I wanted in formation. It was suggesting when you do lose some weight your body can plateau so now adjust the numbers to reflect how we need less calories and carbs as we weigh less.
It has worked for me for sure Pat in Maine.

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LEANJEAN6 5/30/2013 7:55AM

    ----just be consistent with yer calories--be happy------It will come off--and if yu weren't Sparking--it would just go go up--(the weight)---You have a beautiful child----nice to chat with yu this morning-Lynda--in the bush-(Northern Ontario) emoticon

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SUGARBABY60 11/14/2012 3:51AM

    Don't forget vitamins ! And lots of them.the B vitamin s are helpful for fatigue,calcium1500 -1800 mg. in divided doses, vitamin D, multipal vitamin Twice a day, acid large dose of C,
.t takes a while after losing lg amts of weight to SEE the new you in the mirror.i would look and only see The Fat Girl. Shopping for clothes I still gravitated to the Plus sized ....and couldn't find a thing to wear!what finally helped me was Photos of myself , going out all dressed up. Suddenly I could see the real new me,who went from a 46 H bra to 34 dd. I had Bones on my chest( aka Ribs) never saw them in my life( and Im 63!) every one gave you some very good advice.
Congrats on your 120 pound weight loss, great job. It was hard work for sure

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    Get your iron tested, iron deficiency can be totally debilitating to the point where you can't even get out of the chair. While you are at it check your Vitamin D. Deficiencies can play hell with how you feel.

I'm feeling your frustration with the weight not coming off now when it did before. I'm trying hard to get this menopausal weight off and it's stuck like glue!!!

Maybe your hormones, like mine, are all over the place. Doesn't make life any easier though I know. Just keep plugging on and hopefully, if you are eating healthily it should eventually drop off.
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REBECCAMA 11/13/2012 2:43PM

  Could it be muscle gain? Just a thought. We all struggle though, that's why we're here. Hang in there. You can do it!

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AMARILYNH 11/13/2012 12:53PM

    True fatigue is nothing to fool around with - it can lead to other forms of illness. Are you getting enough sleep? That's where I'd start - by sleeping 8 hours a night. I can hear you now - I don't have TIME! MAKE time. Sleep is critical to health. Are you taking regular rest days? DO IT!!

I know where of I speak here - 14 years ago I had a virus that led to chronic fatigue syndrome. You DO NOT want to go there!! Exercise is good good good but so is rest rest rest!! Concentrate on making sure every bite of food that enters your body is HEALTHY food - you can stay in calorie range and still eat too much processed, unhealthy food.

If you have less energy now than you used to SOMETHING IS WRONG!! Do not ignore it!! You are too important (if you doubt it, ask your daughter!!)

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MUSICMOMOF2 11/13/2012 12:47PM

    I agree that maybe you need to take a break from the extreme workouts. Hang in there. It is a tough road, but you have been doing a great job. You are not a failure! Look at how far you have come. Keep pushing!

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MARTY728 11/13/2012 11:49AM

    We all struggle! I know this sounds simple, however the way is to keep with the plan. I am right there with you! I had a lost weekend (ate way too much and binged). Monday I was back on the path. emoticon emoticon

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SEXBOBOMB 11/13/2012 10:53AM

    If what you've been doing isn't working, you need to try something else.
(I know, easier said than done!)

IMO, you need to give yourself a break -- both timewise and mentally -- but there's a way you can do that without giving your body a break.

So you've been doing these extreme workouts for a while now -- and I'm guessing with those you work out at least 6 days a week (of those you listed, I only know P90X and I know that one's 6 days a week), correct?

What if you stopped and tried another form of exercise -- like running or swimming or biking -- but only did them three times a week? I'm not saying push yourself any less than you are right now, I'm just saying to do it in a different way, and concentrate that intense effort into three workouts a week instead of six.

Changing up your routine might confuse your body enough to kickstart the weight loss again AND it would give you a break from having to workout every day!

Whatever you choose to do, DO NOT let this plateau get you down! You're a RockStar at this weight loss thing and you've accomplished so much. This slow-down is likely nothing but your body getting bored -- time to wake it up with something NEW!

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Mixed emotions: Going on Nutrisystem

Sunday, May 20, 2012

My mom is on Nutrisystem and she and I have both agreed that I have a very healthy idea of how to eat. I eat mostly clean and vegetarian. But my mom has several things on Nutrisystem that she doesn't care for and she has given them to me... it's not too bad! I was pleasantly surprised.

I was even more surprised this morning when my husband wanted to do Nutrisystem. But he wants to do it with me. And honestly, I feel this is a good way to support him. My husband weighs over 400 pounds and really needs to do something about his weight. He watched me lose over 120 pounds and I really think he gained almost all that I lost. It was heartbreaking to watch and I desperately want to him to do something to lose weight. So if a jumpstart of Nutrisystem is what it takes, then fine! And if he wants me to do it with him for support then that's fine too.

However, the major drawback for me is all the processed foods! I had done so well about getting away from so much processed junk! I am only doing a month... that's it. First we can't afford for both of us to stay on it. Also, it's a last-ditch effort as well as a test: If I still cannot lose weight on total calorie control like Nutrisystem then we will probably be able to safely assume that my IUD has caused this year-long plateau I have been on. At that point, I will go and get an analysis of fat vs. skin to make sure I am not lugging around too much extra skin (which I know I am, but how much is the question). But I may also have to get my IUD removed as well. That bums me out, but I have a goal and I want to get there. If I have to remove the IUD, thus removing the low-dose hormones, in order to get there, then I will. I don't want that, but I will do it.

So that's the plan. I expect the Nutrisystem to ship tomorrow and maybe be here by Wednesday, so hopefully by Thursday we will be on it. I'm just hoping this will help me to help my husband get on the path to wellness!!!!

Wish us luck! :)

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TRI_BABE 5/23/2012 6:56AM

    I agree with you on the processed foods. I wouldn't be able to do it for that reason.

Just be careful with the Nutrisystem. The old saying, "A diet is a lifestyle change," is one I agree with. Some people gain after Nutrisystem because a person can't keep eating Nutrisystem for life! But, if it helps you determine the Mirena is the problem, then it would be a good tool for that.

Again though too be careful about supporting a person through doing the same diet as them... anything showing support associated with food can be dangerous. Not saying what you are doing is wrong at all, but you can be supportive without taking on the exact same food plans, too.

But, many people have lost using Nutrisystem too so keep posting and let us know how it goes for you!

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MUSICMOMOF2 5/21/2012 10:39AM

    Good luck! I think that it's a great way to support your hubby! Have a great week!

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JLPEASE 5/20/2012 5:52PM

    I have a friend who started using Medifast a few weeks ago to "jump start" her weight loss. She and I have both tried a number of different things, but she gets discouraged because we have such a long way to go. If it helps to get you started then I think it's worth a try -- especially if you are helping your husband in the process.
Good luck to you and your husband!!!

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VICKI-B--56 5/20/2012 5:01PM

  If I could afford Nutrasystem, I'd be on it too. I'd like to get into a plan hubby would do willingly since he needs to lose even more weight than I need to lose.
Support your hubby at least for the month. That'll give him time to see if the plan works for him. After that, if he wants to continue with it, be supportive but do your own plan if you feel it was working well for you.
Wishing you both the best.

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Confused but determined!

Wednesday, May 09, 2012

I'm sort of confused. But at the same time, I think I know the answer. Sounds confusing? I told you I was confused! LOL

I have literally been on a plateau for 7 months. Last December I blogged about this very thing. Five stinkin' months ago and I am on the same topic. And guess what? I am at the same weight that I was five stinkin' months ago.

Now, my teenager, wise beyond her years, told me it was a good thing that I was still the same weight. She said that meant I was still working on it and not gaining. She said that it meant I was still committed to a healthy lifestyle and to working out. Man, she's a smart one! :) However, that doesn't make this any less frustrating.

Here's where I'm NOT confused. My eating has not been stellar as of late. I have had an incidence at least once every other day or so where I will eat something I know I should not- even when I am not hungry. I always find myself telling myself that this is a life long journey and I can always get back on track. Trouble is, I do this too often. I haven't gained weight, but I certainly haven't lost either. If I was actually *IN* maintenance then it would be fine. But I'm not, and it's not!

Now, I still workout every day. (Rest days on Sundays!) I completed the Insanity program with no weight loss. I am in month 2 of P90X- with no weight loss. Some days I do two workouts... I will do a P90X and then walk 4 miles or spend an hour on the elliptical. And no weight loss. You would think that would be enough... my diet choices are seriously not that bad. I'm not eating cake every day or muffins or cookies. (I did have a rather serious stint with Nutella but I wound up throwing it away because I found myself thinking about it all day! Really! It was that bad!!!)

I still drink 8-10 glasses of water a day. I eat mostly clean and vegetarian. (I'm pretty good with the 80/20 rule!) I get plenty of sleep. I am not overly stressed- actually I have very little stress in my life. I have a great job as a substitute teacher and have fun with my kids and husband when I'm home. I volunteer and give back to my community. I have a dog who is like a daughter to me.

Great life, right? It is! It really is! So why am I holding onto this dang weight? My husband says that maybe this is where my body is supposed to be. Maybe this is my ideal weight. I say NO FREAKING WAY am I going to accept that 212 pounds is my "ideal weight"! I told him just the other day that I am at that point where most people think, "I gotta lose weight! I weigh over 200 pounds!" You know those success stories you read in Health or Fitness magazines where the women are like, "I was a size 14/16 and weighed 200 pounds. I was FAT! I had to change my life..." Yeah, that's me NOW after losing 120+ pounds already! :( I still want to lose 50 more but just can't seem to nudge my body into the right direction.

Even when my eating is perfect, I stay the same. So I have come to the conclusion that it can only be one thing holding me back. My IUD. I can't think of what else it could be! I have the Mirena (sorry if this is TMI!) and it has slow release hormones. The only way to figure out if that's what it is is to have it removed! If that's not the problem and I want it back in, that's almost $1000 out of pocket as I now have no insurance like I did when I had it put in place! Yikes! That seems like an awful expensive experiment!

Anyone else have experience with this problem? Any other less drastic solutions I can try?

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TRI_BABE 5/23/2012 6:49AM

    When I was on the pill years ago, I actually lost weight when I was on it, and gained when I was not. I know hormones can be huge with weight loss. But not a lot it was around 6 lbs. But then I went off for good after being on them for 8 years and gained. A Lot. I lost the weight but your problem COULD be a hormonal thing.

Did your weight loss stall around the same time you started the Mirena? I would say if you were losing weight with it and then stopped, it would not be the problem. But if your weight loss stalled around the same time (or a month or 2 after you had it) then it could be the problem.

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WONDERBUG381 5/9/2012 11:08PM

    Before i say anything i want to congratulate you on your loss of 120+ pounds. You are amazing!! That is some hard work and determination to get that far.

Also, I can fully understand your frustration with your plateau.
Since about Christmas i have gained back about 6 lbs and it's totally my fault. Over the holidays i skipped workouts and ate to much. i figured after the holidays i would get back on track no problem right. WRONG! I am just finally getting back on track, but still not losing yet. It is totally frustrating, but i know i will get through this as will you.
I don't know about the IUD, but i do know my pill caused me to gain weight and when i switched i started losing so it could be the IUD.
Good luck i wish you continued success.

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CMPEARL 5/9/2012 6:10PM

    Hey you!!! Please try not to get too discouraged! I read somewhere that when we plateau like this that our body has reached a 'set point'and maybe a week of playing with calorie intake or your workouts can shake you out of it. After a major holiday weight gain, I'm finally back at my 'set point after a ten day cleanse abstaining from wheat, dairy and anything processed. I also can't speak about the IUD because I've never used it, but I can tell you that after 2+ 1/2 months of p 90x I was UP about 5 pounds and down only a few inches. It is a rough workout and while I don't think my eating was terribly off I missed doing true cardio work. Hope this helps a little!

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MUSICMOMOF2 5/9/2012 4:41PM

    What is your calorie intake? It could almost be that maybe you aren't eating enough (I know, it's crazy) to support your workouts. I do think that the fact that you haven't gained is a pretty awesome thing though. It does show that you are doing something right! Hang in there. Plateaus suck, but you will get through it!

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NYS_EMT 5/9/2012 4:37PM

    I forgot to mention that I did have my thyroid checked and all is well! So it's not that!

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AZURE-SKY 5/9/2012 2:02PM

  Before you have the IUD removed, get a full physical with blood work to see if you're hypothyroid. I am, and I've been at the same weight, within 2-3 pounds for over a year - regardless of level of exercise or eating plan.

If you are hypothyroid, you'll be put on medication, but it can take a while to get to the right levels. The docs start you out a a very low dose, then increase it over time because they don't want to make you hypERthyroid. There are generic thyroid meds - my Levothyroxin (generic for Synthroid) is only $10/month at Walmart pharmacy.

If you are hypothyroid, you'll have to work harder than "normal" people to lose weight, because your metabolism is slower.

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I don't have to swear off bread anymore!

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

So I found some new bread. It's called Health Full bread and it's 80 calories per slice. What I like that the bread is full of whole grains and seeds. The sunflower seeds are especially tasty! :)

I got to try the bread for free because I am a Buzz Agent. I get to do these cool campaigns and try different products. All I have to do in return is write a review... easy enough, right? But I am happy to share this product here because I know we are all trying to live a healthier life and I really feel this bread can fit in with that theme! Have you seen this bread at your store? If so, pick it up and read the nutrition information and the ingredients... I think you will be pleasantly surprised!

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CMPEARL 3/12/2012 2:18PM

    Oh, is that Arnold's bread? Sounds yummy...love their sandwich thins but I got away from buying them for a while as I was the only one eating them. Will definitely check it out!

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CCASKEY37 3/1/2012 7:46AM

    I'll give it a try.

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DAWNFIRE72 2/28/2012 11:10PM

    Not sure I've ever seen that brand of bread here but will check it out. I usually bake my own but hey I love multi-grain breads and am usually too cheap to buy the bags of hulled sunflower seeds and can't always find the other seeds and grains at the grocery store.

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MILLISMA 2/28/2012 10:03PM

    This sounds great. I love bread but try to stay away from it but think I'll have to try this one.

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MUSICMOMOF2 2/28/2012 6:23PM

    Sounds yummy!

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LIMASTAR 2/28/2012 5:48PM

  Like the brand, but haven't seen the bread you mention. Will look for it and check out the ingredients.

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SHRINKINGLULU 2/28/2012 5:31PM

    I love orowheat!

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Insanity Week One Review

Friday, February 03, 2012

I have had the Insanity program for about a year now and would add in some of the workouts to my regular cardio routine. But just over a week ago, I decided to follow the program to the letter. I'm not quite sure why I decided to either, it just kind of popped into my head!

I started on a Thursday not a Monday so I have found myself getting a bit confused with the calendar that came with the program, so I transferred all the workouts onto my own calandar and solved that problem! But you start off with a plyo circuit- nothing like starting off with a BANG!

I have done plyo plenty... I love it for torching calories and getting my heart rate up, so plyo work was nothing new to me. But I wasn't prepared for the pain in my calves. I'm not sure what part of the plyp work caused the calf pain, but all I know is that immediately following my first workout, I could feel it in my calves. And the next day I felt it even more, and by day three I could hardly walk. I felt like I had big baseballs in my calves! OUCH!!! Climbing the stairs in my house was excruciating, but I kept on...

By day 6, my calves were much better and now they feel just fine. I am on day 8 now. Day 6 was supposed to be a rest day, but I did the Upper Body Stength Training workout instead. I am used to weight training and I feel like I still need to get that in. It was a great workout and I plan to incorporate it into the rotation 3-4 times a week.

Now earlier I stated that I was following the program to the letter, but that's not exactly true. I find that the workouts are a little short. I am used to working out 60+ minutes a day, so doing only 30-40 minutes just feels wrong. I know that it's HIIT training and that it burns more calories and all that, but still, I just can't only do 30 minutes. So often I will do the warmup which is about 11 minutes. Then I will back it up and do the warmup again so already I am 22 minutes in. Then I will do the stretching and then do the workout. Sometimes I even do the workout again too if it's a really short one. Like today's for example: Today's workout is the Pure Cardio. 11 minute warmup, 7-8 minutes of stretching and then 15 minutes of straight intervals- 15 different moves for 1 minute each straight through no rest. So what I do wiht this one is do the warmup twice for a total of 22 minutes and then do the workout twice for a total of 30 minutes. Then I track 50 minutes of high impact aerobics in my tracker here on Spark.

I am not weighing daily, or even weekly, so I can't tell you if I have lost weight in week one or not, but what I can tell you is that I am feeling great. My clothes are a tad looser- nothing dramatic. But I feel STRONGER already! Like yesterday, for example, one of the moves in the workout was moving push-up planks. I can't do a "real" push-up to save my life. I always have to go down on my knees. So usually I just modify this move and do a walking plank and eliminate the push-up. But halfway through the interval, I noticed I was adding a half push-up without even realizing it!!! That is HUGE for me! Needless to say, I was pretty happy about that!

So far I am pleased with my progress. I want to try to blog each week about the program and how it's going. I want to do this as much for me as for other Sparkers. I think it will be nice to re-read all these blogs at the end of the 9 weeks and see how I feel I progressed!

So until next week... Dig Deeper! :)

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ERIKO1908 2/4/2012 4:32PM

    your commitment is high!! I love it!! good luck staying the course and getting it done!!

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MOMTONOAH 2/3/2012 11:23AM

    emoticon emoticon Sounds like a great workout. Just curious...is this program for a specific length of time like p90x? How many days or months does it take to do the whole thing?

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MUSICMOMOF2 2/3/2012 9:15AM

    Sounds like you've found a good routine. Keep us posted and good luck!

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