Thursday, August 29, 2013
It's been a week since G-Man moved back to NL now, so I'm starting to get closer to a new normal, though that will all change when I start work a week from Monday (weee!).
I finally caved & picked up some new groceries yesterday; I've been trying to eat my way through my cupboards, etc. to try to save money and eat up things that are older. I still have a ways to go, but there were some basics (e.g. eggs, deli meat) that I needed to pick up to supplement. I definitely could feel that I needed more protein one day this week, but basically had nothing in the house that I could really use for it with the other ingredients that I had on hand. I should be fine for another week or two now. I had a NSW two days ago when even though I was starving, felt like there was nothing in the house and super missing G-Man, I refused to listen to the part of me that wanted something like a steak poutine & instead went through the cupboards item by item until I found an old can of lentil soup. Honestly, it wasn't at all appetizing to look at and the flavour was "meh", but it cleaned out the cupboard, filled me up AND was a billion times better for me than a steak poutine. :)
August has been an okay month, although filled with a lot of ups & downs emotionally, as well as in terms of eating. I definitely ate out much more than usual (except in the last week) and noticed myself eating more than I could comfortably eat and then feeling bad. I got really lazy and barely exercised, even when I planned to do it. And in terms of thesis, it's been awful because I ended up taking 2 weeks completely off. One big positive though is that I got different things cleaned & organized around the apartment, moved some thing to the basement for more space & did work on my bike.
Just because August was rough though, doesn't mean that September won't be awesome! I know it's going to be super stressful working on my thesis AND working full-time on in a high-pressure company, but it's going to be worth it.
Goals for September
1. Bike to work unless it's pouring.
2. Pack my own lunch & snacks for work; try to do it Sunday nights.
3. Submit my last 2 chapters (thesis).
4. Finish my crocheted strips for our art exhibit on September 21.
5. Help complete the Centretown active transportation audit report & organize the remaining 2 audits.
6. Engage in the creation of a fall strategic plan for our enviro group in the neighbourhood.
7. Go for a hike, walk or bike ride in a new area once/week.
8. Get at least 2 other people together for a team for a bike rally that's kind of like the Amazing Race & a minimum 20km. I've been staring at these events all summer wanting to do it but being worried about whether I can do it; I already started contacting people before I could let this one pass me by too.
9. Eat 5 f/v daily
10. Don't waste food! Find ways to preserve f/v in my CSA box if I can't eat them all right away.
These are HUGE goals and I know that some days I might not get all 5 f/v or let something else small slip, but it's important for me to try to be cognizant of them. I haven't put huge exercise goals on here because I know I'm going to need to settle into my work routine before I'll know what I have time & ability for. Plus, by biking to work, I'll get more exercise than I regularly would before adding in any ST etc.
What are your September goals?
Friday, August 23, 2013
The last three weeks have been pretty hectic and I let food/exercise slide for the most part, which definitely showed on the scale and my body.
Three weeks ago was a trip to visit G-man's sister & bf. There was a lot of drinking & partying, but I still actually made time to work on thesis analysis including while leaning against a bar drinking, 7h in a pub and multiple hours on multiple days sitting in a chair on their balcony by myself. We had a lovely day of canoe down the local river with a picnic lunch, although with the water so high, we barely had to paddle, so it wasn't much exercise. On our way home from the visit, we went camping at Sandbanks, a provincial park with huge sand dunes and gorgeous beaches. We arrived too late to do much beyond a campfire, roasting a couple hot dogs, smores & a beer before bed. I did discover that I prefer graham crackers+honey PB+roasted marshmallow to smores though (only had 2!). We got up early the next morning and went swimming & relaxed on the beach before having breakfast. We followed it up with a lovely tour of the area including a vineyard, a cheese factory & a Proctor Silex factory outlet store.
Then the major changes happened in about a week & a half, ending yesterday.
G-man was contacted by a university in another province to see if he was interested a position there for 8.5 months. We never expected it, nor expected it would happen in the end (we thought his supervisors would be adverse), but it did! He started today as a full-time professor for the year teaching mathematics at a well respected university multiple provinces away. I was visiting my family in NB when he had the interview & was hired (but had given my support to the idea just beforehand), so I came back & surprised him at his going away celebration. It gave us another 48h together, which was great since I won't see him until Thanksgiving now. It's strange to think that if things had been slightly different that I would've been moving to NL with him.
On my end, I'm going to be working/interning as a sustainability consultant for a well-respected company beginning in September here. I'm really excited for the opportunity, especially since they also asked me to apply for a subsidy with them which requires them to keep me on full-time permanent afterwards for awhile. It means that I definitely won't be able to join G-Man, but he'll need to come back here after this contract to defend his dissertation anyway. Who knows what will happen or where we will be after that!
I spent most've yesterday cleaning after I dropped G-Man at the airport & still have tons to do as he left this place a complete disaster. I'm going to try to move some of his stuff to the basement to clear away clutter, etc. and give me more room to breathe. Plus, if I bring this place to a good level of clean, with just me here, there won't be as much regular cleaning needed.
We also invited a friend of mine to move in with me (at the time us) rent-free for awhile. She's having an incredibly hard time, is depressed and is starting to have suicidal thoughts. She's in a place where she's lacking a supportive network (even though she's living at home with her parents), her brother has hit her if he doesn't like something she's said, she's having some medical issues and she's drowning in debt (yay student loans). Plus, she doesn't currently have a job. She's told 2 doctors in 2 provinces that she's depressed and thinks she needs therapy and/or meds, but has been put off each time. It's reached a point where as friends, a couple of us have been trying to figure out if/what we can do to help. Unfortunately, she doesn't appear willing to move here because she doesn't want to be a burden (financially & emotionally) and is worried that it would ruin our friendship because she cries & sleeps a lot. If anyone has any suggestions for ways to be more supportive/helpful, I'd love to hear them. I know there are no quick fixes with mental health and that I can't really directly *do* anything, but it sucks feeling so impotent.
On the happy side of things, while I was home, I got to celebrate my parents' 45th wedding anniversary (49 years together). Plus, two good friends that I introduced 8 years ago got married and mentioned me in their wedding speech! It was a lovely night of dancing with old friends. And I finally got to go tubing with a couple of beer again. Usually the weather is too low in August and that's the month I've visited home the last two summers. There's nothing more relaxing in the world than floating down a refreshing river in the warm sunshine while sipping a libation.
Finally, the active transportation audit that I've been organizing (for what feels like forever) happened & went really well! I expect there to be two more coming up. I was interviewed for 2 radio shows, tv news, print news & online news. It was wonderful to get so much coverage for the initiative and that plus all the people who showed up definitely made me feel like volunteering my time was worth it. :)
I hope everyone's having a lovely summer!
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
In case you haven't explored the Sparkpeople videos, I want to recommend this one: 20 Minutes Fat Blaster - http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/videos
I did it this morning as part of this week's fitness challenge to do 40min cardio/daily using Sparkpeople videos. It has an 8min warmup to get your blood pumping, so the full workout is 28.5min (in case you're in a time crunch). I hadn't realized the warmup was so long & eventually thought "Really? It hasn't been 20min yet?" but not in a bad way. I really enjoyed the workout (a mix of cardio & strength training) and it definitely pushed me. I can't do it all non-stop yet (I missed some of the strength stuff since it's been a long time & I have 5lb weights).
My one criticism is that it's one of those videos that is only partially available. It cuts out in the midst of some arm exercises which caught me off guard. This also means that there isn't a cool down or stretches included. I dealt with this by immediately doing this cardio kickboxing video - http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/videos
Try it out & let me know what you think!
Sunday, July 14, 2013
Well, we're half-way through the challenge now & it's time to take stock of where I'm at.
Let's revisit my challenge goals:
- Get the final draft of my thesis submitted to my committee
- Aim to be 190lbs by the end of the challenge
I'm trying to do this through:
A. Doing at least 1 thesis thing/day and a minimum of 5h/day on my thesis 5 days a week
B. Introducing more movement into my life (the weekly fitness challenges, walking 20min to/from campus, starting to bike)
C. Keeping my beer intake down except for special occasions
D. Being more serious about my food choices
On the thesis front, I have 4 chapters submitted & am working hard to work on the last 2. I'm currently working on the analysis for chapter 5, my second journal article, that's analyzing all of my interview questions by participant demographics (age, gender, degree, region, university size, university type, lobbying affiliation). It's unfortunately taking super long to do as I somehow didn't think of how it would be so much more work than my first analysis. I don't think the last chapter will take too long though as it's a conclusion chapter. I haven't always managed the 5h/5days/week aspect, but I have stuck pretty well to doing something thesis-related each day & I've gotten better with the 5h part as time goes on.
In regards to my weight, unfortunately I bounced back up for a bit instead of going down. Thankfully I'm now being more focused (and have fewer big celebrations upcoming) and my weight's started going back down, so I'm actual back to my exact starting weight. lol This means that I will not likely reach 190lbs in the next 5 weeks, but it doesn't mean that I'm going to quit or give up hope! I know that it *is* still possible, but I don't want to push things too hard in case I actually gain some muscle and it impacts my weight. I have introduced more fitness into my life, although I must admit that I've been more lazy than active still. I did go for my first (super short) bike ride in the city yesterday though!! I had some great weeks in regards to the 20min walks to & from campus, but this past week I stayed home 4/5 days and worked from home instead. I rationalized it as needing to get some things done here too, or staying out of the super hot sun. I can't get over how the UV index is usually high (8-10) up here. I have kept my beer intake down, even when G-Man's family visited (they all drink more than me), and my food has been pretty reasonable. I think this is why I'm losing even when I have been lazy.
While I had hoped to be further along in my weight-loss journey at this point, I'm still happy with how I'm doing. I want to start pushing myself more on the weekly fitness challenges more to help out the team though. I've really slacked on those (especially this week). It will get better!
Thursday, July 11, 2013
I feel like I'm mentally in a place where I want to change, but don't want it badly enough. I want to be fitter and lose weight, but I don't seem to be making the actual effort to do so, even when it's easy enough. Like, not doing the hard work to it (in working out hard) or not eating when I know I'm not hungry but have a craving for *something*.
Last night I was feeling snacky after getting home around 9:30pm from running errands etc & picking G-Man up. I knew I wasn't hungry, but really wanted something, so I got myself a frozen pudding (if you haven't thrown pudding cups or those yogurt tubes in the freezer to eat during the summer, you're missing out!) because it's only about 100 cal. Everything would've been fine, but G-Man & I sat down to game together a little bit and he was hungry, so he had heated up a can of refried black beans with onions & cheese, and brought in a bag of tortilla rounds. I held out for awhile, but it smelled so good & was right there that I had some...and then couldn't seem to stop myself even though I mentally checked in & realized I should stop.
I'm not saying I go overboard all the time or anything, but i'm basically maintaining instead of losing. I need to figure out what's holding me back & why I'm being so lazy.
Today's lovely though, so I think I'm going to go for a walk or bike ride!
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