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Thursday, October 28, 2010

Well, I am back on the wagon! I have sort of been running along behind it for the past few months. I was able to maintain for the most part, with a few pounds gained when I went away for Thanksgiving weekend. I have re-started the meal plan that I received from my naturopath this time last year that allowed me to lose my first 100 pounds. I hope that this year continues to be as good to me as the last!

Part of this meal plan is to eat clean with a small amount of whole grains. What I found works best for me is having meals pre-planned, and it also helps if I have meals prepared ahead of time so that I won't grab something that is fast because that usually ends up being high in fat and refined carbs.

So my good friend and I spent the day cooking healthy meals in bulk that we froze to have available to us when we need them. We made a giant batch of cabbage rolls and some spaghetti squash with turkey meatballs. I also made a batch of the south beach quiche that I have been eating for breakfast so I am well stocked!! We plan on getting together to do this every few weeks in order to have a variety of healthy foods stocked in our freezer.

I have been eating this way for the past two weeks and have already lost over 8 pounds, and have an increased bout of energy and motivation. I was hoping and waiting for this because I know I need to continue down this path in order to reach my goal.

  
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PENGUINROSS 11/1/2010 7:29PM

    Back on the wagon. Good for you!

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HAPPYSOUL91 10/29/2010 10:58AM

    Boy are you doing it, I would keep your naturopath on speed dial!

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MYRTROSE 10/28/2010 11:54PM

    Yum! Share some recipes!

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TRACEYMOMOF3 10/28/2010 11:21PM

    way to go! That's awesome ! Keep up the good work!

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IMREITE 10/28/2010 10:37PM

    i also do better when i preplane meals and snacks. not that it is late fall, i don't have fresh veggies from my garden (its too cold in wisconsin) so i need to go back to making slightly larger suppers so i will have leftovers for lunches at work.

congrats on all your cooking!

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Positive Habit change

Sunday, September 12, 2010

I have had an exhausting week! Today was the final day of four 12hr day shifts, and this shift in particular was a very stressful and difficult day. I had to stay later than expected and need to scramble to get a babysitter for my son.

As I was driving home I realized that I didn't have any money to pay the sitter and needed to stop and get some. I didn't want to go to my bank ATM because it only hands out $20 bills and I only need $10, so I stopped at the local convenience store so that I could take out money and buy something to make change.

As I was walking through the store trying to pick something small to buy, I walked past the display of potato chips and thought to myself, the old me wouldn't have thought twice about buying a large bag of chips and eating the whole bag as soon as I got home, wishing and hoping that it would help me forget about the stress I experienced that day.....well you know what?? I didn't even give them a second glance, I wasn't interested at all! I ended up purchasing a bottle of water! lol

It is a nice feeling when you come to the realization that you have made a positive habit change along your journey! Hopefully this is permanent and I have found alternative ways to deal with my stress!

  
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ITS_NOT_EASY 9/26/2010 3:14PM

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WENCHMAID 9/14/2010 7:02AM

    Nice choice. I had some awful, emotionally draining shifts last week. Here's to better choices and better days ahead!

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TRACEYMOMOF3 9/13/2010 3:16PM

    Way to Go! Awesome! emoticon

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PENGUINROSS 9/13/2010 5:04AM

    GOOD choice!

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HAPPYSOUL91 9/12/2010 10:23PM

    Way to go, you sure have changed for the good on food choices emoticon

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COBRACOMMANDER 9/12/2010 9:57PM

    I am PROUD of you!

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1FAVOREDLADY 9/12/2010 9:46PM

    Sounds good to me. Keep on doing it! Yes!

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I almost cried in the dressing room today!

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

I was not only shocked, but amazed when I went out shopping for a few new fall clothes today. You see I started my journy at a tight fitting size 28 pants and a 4-5XL shirt, and I had difficulty picking out anything to try on today because I wasn't sure what size I truly was.

I chose a few shirts and some pants and off to the dressing room I went and started to try some on.

I really like this one pair of pants that was high up on a rack and asked a sales lady to bring me down a size 24, well she came into the dressing room and told me that there wasn't any in that size, but she brought me a size 20 because these pants tend to fit a bit loose. My heart dropped because I thought there was no point in even trying on the 20 because I was currently wearing a 24 and it was only a bit loose. My sister had come along with me to help me choose some clothes and she encouraged me to at least try it.

So I took a deep breath and slowly started to pull them on....and low and behold, I could get them over my thighs....next I was able to pull them over my still ample behind, and next thing you know....I was able to do the button up!!! My eyes started tearing up because I can't tell you the last time I fit into anything that was size 20!! In fact I don't think I was even a size 20 in highschool!

I came out of the dressing room to show my sister, and she was shocked as well. She told me that they looked really good!

Well then I started to put on a few tops and they were all to big, and after asking the sales lady to bring me a few things in smaller sizes, she asked me why I had picked out so many things that were far to big for me? I didn't really know what to say, and my sister piped in and said "that is because she has lost over 100 pounds and is having a hard time believing it!" lol

I ended up finding a few nice tops and two pairs of size 20 pants!! I plan on taking some pictures and posting them soon!

After ringing my purchases through, the sales lady told me next time to stay away from the 3X's and size 22's! I never plan on wearing that size EVER again!!

It is amazing how great something like this can make you feel, and it has motivated me even further because I can't wait to buy a pair of size 18 pants!!

  
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FIRESPRITE 12/1/2010 1:16AM

    Great Job!! emoticon

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ANEPANALIPTI 9/12/2010 7:38AM

    BEAUTIFUL! I am so happy for you! :) :) :)

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HICKOK-HALEY 9/12/2010 3:46AM

    emoticon emoticon I'm so glad you had a great day. Keep up the good work!

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ACTIVE_AT_60 9/11/2010 5:06PM

    I got to your through someone else. - This is awesome. Congratulations. Keep up the good work.

I saw the word thrift stores mentioned. I shop in TJMaxx, Marshalls, Nordstrom rack etc - great deals. I don't recall when I last bought something at full price - other than my running shoes.

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LJCANNON 9/11/2010 4:51PM

    Don't forget to check out the Local Thrift and Second Hand clothes stores in your area.
emoticonI bought a shirt last week that still had it's original tag in it ($110) and I paid $18 for it. That felt almost as good as going down several sizes in clothes.
CONGRATULATIONS!!!

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AMBUDMAN 9/11/2010 4:39PM

    emoticonI have tears of happiness for you. I am such a sentimental person.

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DREMARGRL 9/11/2010 4:33PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonI don't even know you and I'm so freakin' proud of you. I can imagine your surprise looking at yourself in those new clothes looking so nice! That RAWWWWKS!!!!!!!! Keep that beautiful spark of yours blazin' hawwwwt! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonKick those lbs to the curb! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MSWEEZER 9/11/2010 3:03PM

    Congrats indeed and what a lovely way to award yourself for your hard work. ENJOY!!!

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PENGUINROSS 9/11/2010 1:11AM

    Onward march to size 18!! Congrats on size 20!

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TRACEYMOMOF3 9/9/2010 10:27PM

    Wow! I'm sooo proud of you! You are doing awesome! Keep up the good work! emoticon

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THEBOOKBINDER 9/8/2010 5:01PM

    WOW you are such an inspiration !!!!!!

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    wow, thats great! emoticon

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HAPPYSOUL91 9/8/2010 8:59AM

    Wow, it doesn't get much better. What a feeling you had and I bet you look great

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AMYISSUCCEEDING 9/8/2010 1:20AM

    Congratulations! I am so very happy for you. What a great feeling.
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SHOOTIN4STARS 9/7/2010 11:25PM

    That is sooooo awesome and I am soooooo happy for YOU!

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CHASINGAFTERME 9/7/2010 10:06PM

    I just experienced this on Sunday! I went shopping because my roommate was commenting on my "baggy pants" telling me that I was probably an 18...but I had just been shopping like a month earlier and tried on 20s and 18s and none of them fit! (even though i could squeeze into 1 pair of 20s at the start of my journey, but mostly 22-24s...) you could see my frustration, as I had lost nearly 50lbs and not even officially dropped 1 pants size....
well, i went shopping again even though i did not think i would find anything...and i walked into the dressing room with 4 pairs of pants in both 18s and 20s...but my mom handed me the 18s first without my knowledge. i pulled them up, past my thighs, over my lack of a butt...lol....and then buttoned them up and zipped them, only then looking at the tag and nearly screaming with delight when i saw that they were 18s! i wore one of my new pairs at school today and got so many compliments! (its amazing what people notice when your pants don't look like they are melting because they are so big!)
I am so proud of you and I am right here with you, checking off the sizes one by one and getting excited about the next one! Here's to those 18s for you!

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ANGIEMOE7 9/7/2010 9:36PM

    I know how good that feels! I'm so happy for you! Now we just need to keep on thinking that way the next time we try clothes on, right? I am so terrible at looking at my flaws & challenges instead of celebrating the small yet crucial victories! emoticon

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DAYSDELIGHT 9/7/2010 9:31PM

  Way to go! Thanks for sharing your joy. In your own way, you've made my day.

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OOBROOKEOO 9/7/2010 9:30PM

    You should be VERY proud of yourself! It is great how when we start to see progress it really propels us forward. Keep it up!

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NVPAPERGIRL 9/7/2010 9:29PM

    awesome job. You did, believe it, own it! emoticon

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123HEALTHYNEWME 9/7/2010 9:24PM

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Eating and stress are totally related for me!!

Monday, July 19, 2010

Something awful happened to me this weekend, I woke up at 6am to get ready to go to work and found my sliding glass door wide open and my wallet and keys stolen, and I immediately looked outside and saw that my Jeep had been stolen right out of my driveway!! Now I live in a small town and people leave their car and house doors unlocked a lot of the time because stuff like this usually doesn't happen!! I always lock mine because I don't feel safe otherwise, but apparently that doesn't matter because they can pry it open if they want to come in!!

I feel totally violated!!! I can' t believe that someone has raised their child to let them think that it is ok to enter someone's home and take things that they have worked so hard for???

I am definitely suffering from Post traumatic Stress disorder! I was kind of numb and shocked during the day yesterday and knew that once night hit, it would be hard, but I didn't know just how hard it was going to be!! I was at my parents house for dinner and left at dusk because I didn't want to go into my house when it was dark, but once I got home, I sat in my driveway (in my rental car), and couldn't go inside, it was an awful feeling to be afraid of my own home!!

My neighbour happened to come home too and saw me sitting in my rental car and dragged me out to come over to her house for a girl's night. We went and rented a few movies, and she ordered a pizza....and I don't know what came over me, if it was the stress or the fact that I was numb.....but in no time flat I had eaten four huge pieces and a few slices of garlic bread with cheese, not to mention the potato chips that I had eaten prior to the pizza even coming....I felt and still feel soooooo very sick this morning....it has been such a long time since I have binged like this! I am so worried that this trauma is going to cause me some difficulty with my eating....I know full well that I have always turned to food in stressful situations, and this by far is one of the worst!!

  
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WENCHMAID 7/22/2010 3:03AM

    So sorry! That's so scary! Don't worry about the food-I probably would have added a pint of ben and jerry's on top of everything else-and a couple rum and cokes. Just move on in a positive way from this point. Plus good eating will prevent fueling panic or anxiety over this horrible incident. Don't fuel your negative feelings with sugar. Poor dear, I'm so sorry!

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PENGUINROSS 7/21/2010 4:39PM

    Kelly, So sorry to read of your ordeal. Our house was burglarized many yrs ago. I remember that feeling of being violated!! And we were not even home when it happened. Take it slowly, be gentle to yourself as you go thru this.

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HOWDOIHEARTTHEE 7/19/2010 9:25PM

    That is absolutely awful! It seems like a lot of sparkers have been the victim of thieves lately! I have read a few instances where peoples houses have been broken into..this is just awful!

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MSWEEZER 7/19/2010 2:43PM

    So sorry. I can't imagine and hopefully you'll not have further repercussions from this mishap. Sad when you think you have nothing to worry about and something like this happens. Makes you lose faith in mankind.

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HAPPYSOUL91 7/19/2010 12:55PM

    I was so sorry to read about the trauma you went through this weekend. Of course you didn't want to go into your home. I would certainly consider a bugler alarm without a doubt (we have one), it makes a huge difference. Something else you can do is put a lock on your bedroom door and of course have your cell in there with you.

The positive side is that you are safe. Also I would encourage you to talk to a professional because this is a pretty major incidence.

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TRACEYMOMOF3 7/19/2010 10:52AM

    I understand, We too live in a small town, where people leave their doors open, and I had someone break in and still all my jewelry and stuff! (but not while we were home) It's terrible feeling. You just keep going, and know that this kind of stuff doesn't happen ordinarily. And allow yourself that time. Start today, because it is a new day, and learn from what you did and move on from there. It doesn't have to mess up all the good habits that you've acquired! I'm just glad you weren't hurt. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SURCH1 7/19/2010 9:33AM

    Hang in there Kelly! I can't even imagine what you are going through! I had someone get into my car while it was in the garage and across the street and felt like crap for a long time. Not feeling safe in your own home is terrible. That's where we are supposed to feel the most safe, right? Don't let that one night of eating bad bring you down! You have done so well this far! I know you can get over this hill too! You can at least admit that you ate too much and know that it isn't the way you want to continue. Food is a major comfort of mine as well,... You just need to stop and think before you take a bite :) And if you take a bite, it isn't the end of the world. You are a strong woman! I keep thinking of the saying - "That that doesn't kill you makes you stronger!". Stay positive, I'm sure that will help you and your son get through this! I'm here if you ever need to vent or chat!!

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What is happening???

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Well.....don't know where to begin.....I have lost most, if not all of my motivation these past few weeks.....I have been at a standstill, and I can't seem to get out of this funk. I have managed to get in at least 1o-2omin of exercise a day mainly because I don't want to break my streak, but it is minimal and I barely break a sweat....and I have to force myself to do it. How can I go from looking forward to and enjoying exercising 45min to an hour a day to having to drag my butt to do 20 min and hating every minute of it???

I am very lucky that I have been able to just maintain the weight I have lost. I fluctuate a pound or two either way, but I have not lost anymore. My eating habits have not been the greatest either, work is the hardest because there is always so much crap there. And I have been eating out a lot more than usual, and that doesn't help. I was so good these past six months, noting much tempted me and I seemed to make great choices most of the time. Now I will eat something knowing that it is not a good choice, but I don't seem to care at the time, and after I just say to myself....why???

I was talking to my friend yesterday and I describe the battle that goes on my my head is like a commercial I remember seeing on TV once, It seems like I have these two little men sitting on my shoulders, one (an angel) is trying to motivate me by telling me that I have to smarten up and do this, or I will begin to slide the other way and the other man (a devil) is telling me, oh don't worry about it, your tired, take a break, go ahead eat it, you can always start again tomorrow. Well unfortunately the devil man has been winning, and I keep telling myself that tomorrow I will get back on track, but tomorrow comes and I don't, I still remain exhausted and unmotivated.....

This morning, I tried flicking that little man off of my shoulder and dragged my butt through 45min of my circuit training from my trainer which I used to love how it makes me feel, but today, I could not wait for it to be over.....and I don't like that I feel this way.

This has happened to me before on previous journeys and it has signaled the beginning of the end.....I usually can't re-motivate myself and stop exercising altogether and I go back to eating unhealthy and end up regaining all the weight I had lost and more.....and I refuse to let this happen....but I can't figure out how to re-motivate myself back to where I was a month ago???

  
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HAPPYSOUL91 7/19/2010 12:53PM

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GIRRRLYCHILD 7/17/2010 9:38AM

    i've been struggling with motivation but being part of this community and talking with people i know about my weight loss goals has helped me keep them in mind. i might not be making a whole lot of progress, but that has kept me from just giving up.

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PELESJEWEL 7/5/2010 12:37PM

    Oh wow, here too....I had to face that ' gain things back point' recently . But this time, thank god, I recognized it, and with the help of SPARKING I slayed it. It wasn't easy!! My weight did not move for weeks, but I kept moving & kept sparking, looking for inspiration from fellow sparkers. The support that rises up and ushers in, can literally spark you over your hurdle..keep going this time, because you know you have it in you to do it. It's mental, spark out the not so positive thoughts to make room for positive affirmations starting now, this moment! Have an active & happy month of July! emoticon emoticon

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HAPPYSOUL91 6/27/2010 9:34AM

    As others have said "we have all been there". I have lost over 100 lbs about 7 years ago and when we are at our goal or close...the momentum goes. I firmly believe that is why we need to have a new goal in place because all of the sudden the orginal drive is missing.

I remember that commercial very well and don't just flick him off, kick him out to the curb.

Journal, journal, journal either with paper and pen or on the computer. But..this is the way to figure out what is going on, is it success or that you don't think you can keep the weight off, so what the hell?

What are you giving up if you gain back the weight that you can do now, recheck the list and get the priority back...by the way...the priority is you and your health.

I am cheering for you and in your corner, we CAN get through these times

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MYRTROSE 6/26/2010 4:11PM

    Hey, I've been going through this for a couple months now.
Just don't give up. Log in. Stay accountable. Keep trudging forward.
This journey can't be all leaps and bounds. Our struggles are life long ones, long after the weight has been shed. Losing the weight is just the first leg of this journey, and from my own personal experience, the easiest part. I've lost this weight before. Many times over I'm sure. It's keeping it off, maintaining, that's the real challenge. While we're losing we have an "enemy" to fight against, and we have the encouragement of the scale to keep us moving.
One thing that has helped me make some forward progress is I joined an 8 week challenge team last week. The support is awesome and I lost 3 pounds my first week. This week may not be so great, I have a lot going on and haven't been exercising or eating right. However, I still feel really motivated and I'm already looking forward to next week's weigh in!


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SLIMMERJESSE 6/26/2010 3:55PM

    You'll get your motivation back. I go through amazing slumps when I really, really, really don't care. But even if you make baby steps during that rebellious time, it'll keep the fire burning and you'll be back on track in no-time. Make a little list of reasons you want the weight off and carry them around to read several times a day. Have a wonderful weekend.

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KJE_3001 6/26/2010 2:42PM

    Maybe you need to change up your workouts in order to bring the spark back into them. Try some new classes or DVDs or search for exercise suggestions on SP.

Also, I agree with MONTANA_ED about having a buddy. If you are accountable to meeting up with someone, you might enjoy your workout a little more and/or it might get you through this rough patch.

When it comes to eating the junk at work, are there particular times when you are inundated with them? Like do they come in meetings, are they placed in the kitchen or is it a jar left on someone's desk for others to take? If it is in meetings, maybe bring your own healthy snack so that you would feel weird partaking in the unhealthy option. If it is in the kitchen, try to avoid the kitchen altogether - bring your food in an insulated bag so you don't have to store your food in the kitchen. If it is a person's desk with candy or other treats, try not to walk past that person's desk, or maybe talk to that person and let them know that you would appreciate their help in staying away from the treat. You just might find an ally at work who will help you keep on track! The point is, no matter what the situation is at work, try to find a way around it.

You are at least on the right track, you are writing about your struggles and getting help from others. We are all here to support you and offer motivation and suggestions. Perhaps that will be the difference between your past endings to weight loss and your current success!

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JERRIGREER 6/26/2010 2:31PM

    emoticon If you are really ready- then do this! We all struggle with this. Check out some of the success stories. I have been struggling and it really helped me to see before/after pics, etc. Hang in there! emoticon emoticon

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MONTANA_ED 6/26/2010 2:07PM

    Oh wow - I've been feeling the same way. It's like I am just struggling every day now. One thing that has helped me is that I was able to meet up with a Sparkbuddy - and we go walking from time to time. The trips to the gym are torture though. I just keep on keeping on. I figure it's just like everything else in my life. It runs in cycles. You mentioned that it happened to you before and signaled the end. Hmm - maybe since you saw that, this time you can change it up. I wish I had some great words of wisdom - but all I can say is to hang in there and don't give it up all the way. Maybe messing with your body by changing the intensity will help. Dunno - but I'm here cheering you on no matter what!

Onwards...

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