Saturday, June 18, 2011
So, here I am again! With a new name, a new page, new decisions, new commitments. I won't start saying that this time it's different and I feel more determined and all those things that I've said again and again and I've proven myself wrong. It's all about what the title says: I've fallen many times. I'll get up once more.
The past months - or is it years? - I've felt defeated many times. There were moments that I felt like a complete failure. A person with no personal success. A woman who would count the failures and just give up on everything else in her life. I had planned things differently in my mind. At 35, I had imagined myself as another person.
A friend of mine says that when we, people, make plans, God laughs. I don't know if that's true - I want to believe that our God is kind-hearted and loving to all his children - but I'm sure the meaning remains true: plans are never sure to become reality.
I thought that at this time of my life I would have a great family - which I do - I would have a job that I liked - which I don't - I would still be in touch with my old friends - but I'm not - I would have acquired new skills and learnt new things - which I always start and leave unfinished - and I would be able to look in the mirror and smile - you know I don't!
I live in Greece and I'm sure many of you know what that means. Things are really difficult for us and they may get even more difficult. I owe it to myself and to my family to be strong. And that's why I'll try to be the person I imagined I would have been at 35. This is not just a weight loss attempt. It's a journey towards a better person, one with more self-respect, more optimistic and more decisive.
I'm here to make a better me!
Dear Sparkfriends, I rely on your support.
And I just believe I can do it!