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Major set backs

Wednesday, April 02, 2014

I have been on a binge for the last four months. Its not good. I have set my self back health wise very far. I haven't gained weight. But my eating habits are terrible. I feel gross and my doctor is very concerened. Im on more medicine for my diabetes, when my goal was to get off them all together. Im feeling very discouraged and sad right now. I wish I had a walking, or helping buddy.

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ALAURAC 4/17/2014 2:44PM

  I am in a similar situation and was searching for some uplifting words of advice when I found your post. I believe weight loss is a journey and it does not follow a straight path. It curves and it winds and sometimes it back tracks and thats okay. It is discouraging when you get lost along the way but you can find your way back. Quit beating yourself up. Make a small change to get back on track like no snacking after 7pm and then make another. You can't do it all at once, maybe, but you can take small steps to a more healthy place. Strangely by encouraging you, I have found the inspiration I was originally looking for. Thank you for posting.

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Ten years ago...

Thursday, November 14, 2013

My high school reunion is in nine months. I have always fantasized about how I would be so sexy and thinner and beautiful by this time and that I could come back and show the bullies how wrong they were. I have always wanted to come back thinner and show all the guys who teased me about wait or wouldn't go out with me because of my size... and show them "look at me now".

I feel like this is a really strong motivator for me. I need to feel succesfull and in a weird way how I look and how I am perceived from these people I was never really friends with is the gauge I use to determine if I succeeded. I realize this may be unhealthy on so many levels. But I need to show people I have changed.

I realize people read these, but I treat this as my journal. I put my thoughts here and I don't censor them. Please be respectful of any comments thanks all!!!! :)

This is where I will wear my little black dress debut!!!

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TRKSR4GRLS2 11/14/2013 9:05AM

    It will be my Thirty year, I went to my tenth and had a bit of that feeling but was unable to attend the others since then. Now I am back on the same track because since then I've had health issues, and unfortunately gained the weight back :( let's do this together! emoticon

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SUNSHINE99999 11/14/2013 8:17AM

  good luck to you. Even though it has been 40 years for me I still remember how cruel classmates were to some of the kids. emoticon Stick it to them and may their eyeballs fall out of their heads. emoticon

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Little black (and white polka dot) dress

Thursday, November 07, 2013

My oldest daughter will be seven in February. I gained seventy pounds with that pregnancy. After I had her I bought this beautiful classic black and white polka dotted dress with red piping. Its strapless and feminine and I am in love. It was purchased in the size i was before I was pregnant. To motivate weight loss. The thing is the motivation was there but it wasn't enough. I have never in seven years been able to wear this dress.

Each time I clean out my closet, I never get rid of this dress I have never worn! I am still hopeful that I will wear it some day.

As I continue this journey... I am closer and closer to fitting!!!! I cant wait because as it stands I will be sporting a beautiful black (and white polka dotted) dress for Christmas!!!!! I cant wait!

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JULESJET 11/8/2013 10:51AM

    That's a great goal to work towards!

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RAINBOWSTAR13 11/7/2013 6:35AM

    That is simply Awesome :D

Keep up the good work!


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ROX525 11/7/2013 5:31AM

    You are doing great!

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A stair well at a time

Sunday, November 03, 2013

My job has me sit, all night and do nothing. I work at computers or I answer phones. I could walk around but I don't usually. I stay close to the desk.

Three nights ago I decided to break away for a moment and had a friend watch the front desk (I work at a hotel). I walked up the four fights of stairs, across the top floor and then I walked down four flights of stairs. It hurt. my legs hurt and quite frankly I almost threw up! Then the next night I walked about two miles with my kids to trick or treat. It hurt. My legs felt from yesterday and the stairs. All the while I kept thinking though about how I had read two articles on sparkpeople. One talked about waiting just only one day between work outs (I realize this isn't a work out but when You don't ever move,,, it kind of is) the second article talked about even if you eat horrible (okay maybe someone on here wrote this to me as encouragement) but they said even if I do everything wrong this day towards weight loss just try to do at least one. to take baby steps literally and figuratively. and so here I am taking baby steps literally. I don't think I could walk a ton or do a 30minute work out.. I mean really four flights of stairs up, across the top and down almost makes me barf and that's only 8minutes.

So after my stairs today I was super thirsty. I wanted a pop, but then I thought I just walked why waste what I just did with a soda. My legs feel like jelly and I almost barfed but I feel good. I did something today that was a step (pun intended) in the right direction.

Cant say I will keep this up, because I don't know for certain although I am determined and hopeful right now, but today it was a baby step.

I haven't weighed in a month or so.. and I did today just after my stairs... I am down six pounds from my last weigh in.. and I want to think its that I started to walk four days ago... well I did four flights of stairs twice and a two mile walk in the last five days.

Thanks all so much for the encouragement. I have a ways to go... but I am now 17 pounds away from my first goal and large milestone! Wish me luck!

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ADARKARA 11/8/2013 1:25PM

    Hey, every movement counts! I sit a lot at work too, and then I go home and spend time goofing off on the computer, so I made my home desk into a standing desk. I can side step while I'm reading blogs and stuff, so I get some extra steps in! emoticon

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JULESJET 11/8/2013 10:50AM

    Good job! Those baby steps will help your body slowly adjust and build your stamina at the same time. Keep it up!

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SBNORMAL 11/3/2013 10:24AM

  I need more walking too.

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SBNORMAL 11/3/2013 9:08AM

  I need more walking too.

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FIRECOM 11/3/2013 9:03AM

    I admire your honesty. This is a great blog. I would love to be able to exercise more, but my health makes me a serious fall risk. I have to be very careful not to fall because if I do, I cannot get back up and need to call for help. I am not complaining. At age 78, I am happy for a good life and will do what ever I can to try to get stronger.

Thanks for your well written and honest story.

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housework out... and adios Soda.

Sunday, October 13, 2013

My house is super clean now that I clean a lot more. I have been using cleaning as an opportunity to move more. Standing when I fold laundry, Washing dishes by hand and even vacuuming and dusting more than most people i would think!

also I have given up soda. I miss her already but soda is my weakness. Its just a seven day goal for now. I want to show myself I can give up soda for seven days.


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