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No more pity parties!

Monday, August 19, 2013

Hello dear SP friends! It's been awhile since I have been on here, I know. I guess things just really got to me and I was having a big pity party :( but, I am back and ready to get back to business.

I am so angry at myself for gaining back almost all of the 30 lbs that I had lost. What was I thinking?! Oh yeah, my plantar fasciitis got so bad that I decided to quit working out for awhile to let it heal. The problem was that it's been about 6 months and it is worse then ever!!! Just walking is a chore! So now, I am so totally out of shape it is ridiculous. I feel horrible and I have no energy.

Well, I am done with that! I am ready to get back in shape and get healthy. I know that my feet won't heal until I loose quite a bit of this weight so I will have to focus on eating clean and find some kind of activity that doesn't require me being on my feet..... swimming would be great if I can get over my phobia of being in a swimsuit in front of other people :) If any of you have any ideas.....I would totally love to hear them. Anyway, thank you all for not giving up on me. This time I am going to reach all my goals and I will be there to help and support all of you in your journey to reaching yours. Promise!!

Have a great day everyone ;)

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AWOOD1973 8/23/2013 1:55AM

    Well, I am NEVER going to give up on you! I also have PF, and I completely understand where you are coming from. Last year, when I did PT for my Sciatica, I'm not sure what the heck happened, but I don't have any issues with it anymore. YEAH! You should try using an exercise ball (for crunches and pushups), bands, weights, anything that you can, that doesn't require being on your feet! I know this will get better and I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS!!!! I love ya, girl! Don't give up on yourself, but also don't be hard on yourself! We all go through our inactive spurts!!!

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POOKASLUAGH 8/19/2013 10:26PM

    Glad to see you blogging again. :) Couple of things: First, I'm not sure where you live, but look up Airrosti therapy and see if they have any therapists near you. They manipulate plantar fascia, and can heal plantar fasciitis in 3-4 visits. Hurts like the devil, but so worth it. They only operate in a few states, though, so I'm not sure if you have the option. If you do, I highly recommend it. I dealt with an ankle injury from August 2011 until September 2012, eventually giving myself a shin stress-fracture last summer because of it, and my therapist healed the ankle problem that a ton of docs had tried to help unsuccessfully in TWO visits. It's amazing. Second, does biking irritate the plantar fasciitis? I haven't experienced that particular injury myself so I don't know, but I know biking (and getting on an elliptical) can be much softer on a lot of parts of your body even than walking, so maybe that can help? Third, re: swim suit - unfortunately, the only way to get over that phobia is to repeatedly make yourself get out there in a suit. A few years back, I had a phobia of going outside in shorts, and that's difficult when you live in an area that is 100+ degrees for nearly six months of the year! In April 2011, I went out to run, but I didn't want to wear shorts or even capris, so I wore sweatpants. I nearly had a heat stroke. I decided then that it was time to get over my fear. I forced myself to wear shorts every day for the next four months, and to go outside in public at least every other day, and to exercise in public in shorts several times a week. By the end of the summer, I didn't even notice anymore, and I realized that no one else did, either. It was very freeing.

you can do this! :)

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COO_KIE 8/19/2013 10:01PM

    I have had plantar fasciitis, and it is certainly not fun, nor is it a quick recovery. That said, it DOES get better! Meanwhile, floor exercises, sitting exercises, and some dumbbell exercises are a good start. Depending on where you swim, maybe a cover up, or shorts will give you a bit of confidence.

Don't beat yourself up over the regain. You know you can do this, you have done it before. But, you will have to tweak it a bit to allow for the feet. Stretching the arch helped me. Cross your foot over the other knee, and pull your toes toward the knee of the foot you are working with. Of course your doctor should give you direction, or at least permission.

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What a downer!

Thursday, April 12, 2012

WARNING: This blog is a going to be a downer so if you are not in the mood for it you might want to exit out!
Here it is, April 2012. I started seriously with Sparkpeople 1 year ago. I was doing so good!. I lost about 25 lbs and I was feeling great!! I'm not really sure what happened but things started going downhill and now I'm sitting here a year later feeling angry, tried and distraught. Not only have I gained back the 25 lbs but I have gained an additional 6 lbs! The biggest problem is that I can't seem to get any motivation back! Everyday I tell myself that this is the day I start again.....but inevitably, I fail. Do you know what it feels like to fail at something EVERY DAY?! I'm sure some of you do. I know we all have our struggles and I know that there are probably some of you that have been where I am at now.

I just don't know what to do now. I'm kind of at the end of my rope with nowhere to go. I have lost all faith in myself and my ability to accomplish anything. So now I'm wondering if I should just come to terms with the fact that I'm fat and forget about trying to lose weight and be healthy. But, I know that I will never be happy with myself like this. Everytime I look in the mirror I see what a failure I am.

I know that it's important to just keep starting over....but honestly, I don't have the energy. I finally got back to the gym today after being away for 3 weeks (being out of town and working created havoc with my workouts!) and I had a hard time just doing 30 minutes on the elliptical...without any incline! Instead of feeling energized by finally getting some kind of workout in, I just came home and cried and felt miserable.

Anyway.....sorry you have to listen to me whine. I just was hoping maybe someone has been where I am and had some wonderful advice for me. Maybe I just need someone to come over and kick my behind in gear! :)

I appreciate all of you dear sparkfriends! Don't know what I would do without you. emoticon Thanks so much for listening.

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LIVINGFREE19 8/13/2012 7:13AM

    That is definitely a defeating feeling I know, but remember, you are not alone. A lot of us have done the same thing.
When you get so discouraged, going through some of the motivational articles might get you going. I really have to say, that it has helped me, to go through those articles when I am feeling totally unsuccessful.
I wish I had more advice for you, but I don't. Just don't be so hard on yourself! Think of the positives. You are a great person for sure and you know you can do this again. Keep telling yourself that and you will be back on the road again, losing weight!!
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NATURALLYJEN 4/13/2012 8:49AM

    I've been watching The Biggest Loser on Netflix the last few weeks. You can stream all the seasons. I'd never watched the show before this. It is SO inspiring!!! So inspiring.

In Season 7 one gal was having a HARD time with her workout, she was doubled over feelin' the pain, Jillian was yelling at her to get up and keep going. Suddenly she just stands straight up and says "I'm changing my life!" and started right back in on the treadmill.

I think that has become my new mantra. When I don't want to do any workout, I go for a walk - "I'm changing my life", when I reach for junk food because I'm bored or feeling blue, I'll chew gum instead - "I'm changing my life", when I want to drink pop I'll have wather - "I'm changing my life", when it just seems too hard or too scary I'm gonna do it - "I'M CHANGING MY LIFE!!!".

Make one good choice today. Take some of the great advice people have posted here: drink water, go for a walk, eat an apple instead of chips or whatever. Do that thing and then remember that no matter what else you do or don't do no one can take away that one good thing. Not even you. You'll find that your one good thing will soon inspire you to do 2 good things. Next thing you know you'll be making more good choices than bad. It'll build from there. It will.

You DESERVE all good things. I believe you can do it.

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AWOOD1973 4/13/2012 2:12AM

    Listen, don't be so hard on yourself! We all have slip ups, but we dust ourselves off and try again. I wish I had some almighty words of over-the-top encouragement for you. All I can do, is tell you that I am totally here for you! I can send a motivational text to you everyday, if I know it will help you!

I know you can do this! You are strong, and can overcome anything! Now that your trips are out of the way, you need to sit down and re-evaluate what you can do to get back to it.

Set smaller goals for yourself. Reward yourself when you comeplete them! For example... Set a goal that you want to lose 5lbs in a 3 to 4 week period. When you meet it, treat yourself to a new pair of workout shoes, or a manicure, or something that makes you happy! I know when I jumped back on here to start over (for the umpteenth time), I told myself that if I went to the gym 6 days a week, that I would treat myself to a new pair of Skechers. Boy, was I diligent, because I got that pair of shoes! :)

I have been going through motivational issues, too. It's been kinda overcast and rainy here, which plays on my mood pretty badly. When it's gorgeous out, I get out. I am feeling like I am getting too old for 3rd shift, but here lately, I have been coming home from work and going to bed. What a difference it's starting to make. I actually am starting to feel like a human.

Andrea, we all have what we call "failures", but I know that deep down inside you KNOW you can do this. I hope it felt a little better getting your feelings out in your blog. That always gives me some relief. I wish we lived closer... We would be thin, happy and healthy, because I truly believe that we do better, when we have someone to join our journey with us. Take things slow and steady... Jump back on your wagon, because YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!!


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POOKASLUAGH 4/12/2012 10:08PM

    I've been where you are now and it sucks. The only thing you can do is not give up on yourself, but look back and see where you went off track, and take measures to make sure those same things don't happen again. Start with small goals, little things, things you can do every day even if you're not motivated. Remember it doesn't take motivation, only a decision to act, no matter what. Good luck - I"m in a place right now where I'm not at all motivated, so I completely understand what that feels like. You can do it though! It's hard, but you're strong, and you can do it. Draw strength from the things and people around you.

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    First re-define failure...Failure is giving up completely. Your gym time says you haven't thrown in the towel yet. I gained weight pretty fast with baby #2 and stayed fat and miserable for way too many years. I can't imagine that staying heavy is really an option if you think about it?

Secondly instead of failing daily, set some small acheivable goals. Start with drinking 8 glasses of water EVERYDAY. If at 9p you are still short 3 glasses go ahead and chug some, yes you will be up in the night but you will have succeeded!


Sometimes it's more important to have a run at success, don't worry about WHAT you are succeeding in, just WIN already. Then committ to 4 workouts a week of 30 minutes. You have one in the bag, one tomorrow and one both Saturday and Sunday-ANOTHER WIN! Starting Monday repeat-drink water, 4 workouts. At the end of week two add one more thing, again attainable. WRITE YOUR FOOD DOWN, all of it, every miserbale chip, cookie and whatnot. Simply be accountable. Get a handle on how much you are eating. Did you gain back the weight eating 2500 calories a day or 4000 calories a day? Track your food. don't change what you eat, simply track it for now. You will have three weeks of winning under your belt and now using your food logs strike 500 calories from your diet a day. That's it. In a week you should be down a pound. It sounds like you need a good dusting off so how about it? Start small and build. Cheering you on! emoticon

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Anyone tried Complete Nutrition?

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

I haven't blogged for a really long time because I haven't had much to say. It's been pretty much one failure after another and who wants to talk about that?! SO, I have been trying really hard the past few weeks to get back on track and I have figured out something interesting. I think my husband is the cause of my emotional eating! Now don't get me wrong, my husband is a great guy. But, I am a people pleaser and I never really feel like I do anything right at home and therefore I am constantly stressed. He isn't trying to make me feel bad....he is just a tad obsessive compulsive about things. Anyway....My husband went out of town for 4 days and guess what?! I did SO GOOD on my eating! I was so happy and was feeling like I was finally getting back on track! Then he comes home and I start eating junk again! HOW DO I DEAL WITH THIS?

Now I have to deal with the fact that my husband just won 2 trips through work. In March we are going to Puerto Villartia and in April to Cabo San Lucas (hope those are spelled right). I am so excited to go spend some time on a beach in the sun but I can't go looking like I do now!! Gross!! EVen if I were to do everything right with diet and exercise, I still wouldn't be able to lose enough to notice by then. It's so discouraging.

I have been wondering if anyone has heard of Complete Nutrition and/or tried it? I know there is no magic pill but I just wondered if it might help me lose a little more a little faster. I don't want to do anything that isn't healthy for me (been there, done that), I just was hoping it might help me get going again.

What do you think?

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AWOOD1973 7/17/2012 4:29AM

    So, I just wanted to tell you.... We have a Complete Nutrition store here that has everything a GNC has. :) I went in there on Friday afternoon, and the guy working there gave me an 8 day sample of the CTS360. It's an appetite suppresant and metabolism booster. I LOVE THIS STUFF!! I wanted something that didn't make me jittery and this stuff rocks! It's really hard working 3rd sometimes, with the whole eating thing. I don't take a "meal" at night, because who is supposed to be eating in the middle of the night anyway??! lol So, I bring things like a banana, hard boiled egg, yogurt, string cheese (anything with protein.)(I'm sure you are getting the idea). :) It is definitely a little spendy, but it might be worth a try, if you are having issues with eating to much, or grazing. It keeps my hunger at bay, but I still eat when I need to. :)

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SALGUOD2 3/30/2012 8:30PM

    I had to find new outlets for my stress. So running and crocheting become new outlets.Both keep my mind occupied so that I'm not thinking of comfort foods.
Can't help on the complete nutrition , never heard of it.

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BETTA13 1/31/2012 1:38AM

    I haven't heard of Complete Nutrition....where did you hear about it? Sure wish I was going to those places! But I too would be wanting to lose some serious poundage before flaunting these thighs around!
Taking care of my man means great food...but its not so great for me. It is easiest to lose weight when my pantry is not filled w pastries, and fluffy bread! I love bread.
We can do this. Yes we can.

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LIVINGFREE19 1/25/2012 4:16PM

    Mine does too!
My husband has A.D.D. and that makes it tough because he is so hyper!
I get stressed with him too. I am lucky because we are not around each other a lot due to his work schedule (which sounds mean) but he won't take his medication to slow down which is Adderall.
Maybe once he changes jobs and feel he can slow down, he will be more relaxed and easier to deal with.

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SWAZY33 1/25/2012 6:16AM

    I just finally got my hubby back on the healthy track with me. He had lost 40 pounds last year in about 2 months! I know...i! BUT......he gained it all back. I know watching me go through all my stuff last year was stressful and this was a big part of his weight gain. I finally told him...I need him to be on the same mindset as me...cause I especially now need to eat healthy to avoid recurrence and flat out told him what I need from him and he started this week and meal planning and having no junk in the house has helped :)
I never heard about complete nutrition. Is it a supplement or meal plan? I completely understand your frustration with all this. Why is it so hard to take weight off and seems so easy to put it on? Just doesn't seem logical or fair! I'll be here cheering yo along the way! The beach trips are great motivation! I dream of being some place tropical right now!
You CAN do CAN do this...You CAN do this!!!

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SPADIVAMOM 1/24/2012 6:35PM

    OMG I think we are married to the same guy! My hubby is OCD also so I totally hear where you are coming from! I used two cans of green beans instead of one on Sunday because we were having company and I got in such trouble. I mean seriously, a can of green beans. He was mad because he bought them and he thought I was using all of them up (he buys cans of food in flats, seriously!). I was like really, that is not a big deal, here is your $.67 and that will make up for it I guess. He so stresses me out. I am not working right now due to being laid off right before Christmas and if the house is not perfect when he gets home from work I get the look literally. Even down to mowing the lawn in the summer time. It has to be done in a pattern.. lol

Have you talked to your hubby about how he stresses you out? That might be the place to start. SOunds like you have some fun trips coming up. I am envious! Go and have fun, relax and enjoy the vacation. Don't worry about it. I remember last year when we went to Hawaii. there were people of all sorts of shapes and sizes on the beach without a care. kind of refreshing.

Just know that we are here for support. I have been offline for a while too. I am back to working out and attempting to track what I eat. I joined a gym a few weeks ago and love it. Since I am not working I stop at the gym after I drop the kids off at school. no excuse that way.

I haven't heard of complete nutrition either. Will look more into it.

Have a great rest of your week!!!

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POOKASLUAGH 1/24/2012 1:34PM

    Have you talked to him at all about this? It sounds like it might be a good thing to talk about if you've pinpointed him as the source of the stress...

I've never heard of Complete Nutrition. Sorry I can't help there!

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I'm back!

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Hello everyone,
First of all, I wanted to apologize to you all for being gone for these last few months. I'm sorry I haven't been there to cheer you on and give you my support :( I feel awful for that. I have been dealing with some issues that became too much for me and I kind of shut down from everyone and everything. The good news is that I have pulled myself together and I am ready to start again and get control of my life. Thank you to all of you who stuck with me during this difficult time. You don't know how much that helped me! I probably wouldn't be back if it wasn't for you and your support!

So, now I have to get my act together and get back to losing this weight. Unfortunately, the last few months really took a toll on me and I have gained back about half of the weight I had lost :( I definitely have my work cut out for me. But, I did it once and I can do it again. My question for you I reset my weight tracker to what I weigh now or do I just leave it where it is and just work towards getting back there? I really hate to see it go up but I know that I need to be honest with myself too. Any suggestions?

Again, thanks to all of you. I promise I will be here for you from now on and I will try to get caught up with how you all are doing!

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NOMORESTALLING 11/28/2011 10:03PM

    Very glad you have been able to return to us NOTHING2IT and that you regained control in working out your issues!
Reset your tracker hon and then i want you to check out the first three stick topics in Focusing on Incredible Health and Weight loss Forum and jump start your weight loss journey with a BAZINGA!


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AWOOD1973 11/28/2011 4:00AM

    Girlfriend! No worries! We weren't going to give up on you! So happy you are back! It was so awesome being able to IM you through FB the other night! You are such a good friend! I too, have gained a bit of weight back! I am going to reset mine, because I want it to be accurate, but like the others said, if it helps you to see it at the number you were, then leave it. No sense in depressing yourself seeing the higher number!

You CAN do this! WE CAN do this! Hang in there, lady! You are GOING to get back down (and then some) to where you were! Glad you are racing back to the starting line, again!

Hugs and keep me posted as to how you are doing! Have a SUPER Monday!!!!

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LIVINGFREE19 11/27/2011 11:06PM

    I also feel you should do whatever you feel with your weight tracker that will help you. I am so sorry you are having other issues going that are causing you stress because that sure never helps anything.
Take care of yourself, my sweet friend!
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OUTDOORGIRL70 11/27/2011 8:57PM

    That has to be your choice. I know every anniversary I change mine to that weight that I am on that date. It helps me to get a little more motivated.

Good luck and welcome back. I will be praying for you on your journey.


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POOKASLUAGH 11/27/2011 8:10PM

    I'm glad you're back! I've missed you. I hope the issues that overwhelmed you have backed off a little. :)

Re: weight tracker - I suppose it depends on what motivates you and what pressures you. If seeing the low number as a goal helps, then keep it where it is. If it pressures you and causes you anxiety, put it to where you are now. Also remember that if you put it up to your current weight, you'll be able to celebrate every pound you lose when you are working back down to that level. That also might be a motivation. Just do things the way they work best for you. :)

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Heartfelt blog

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Dear friends,
I just wanted you all to know how much I appreciate you! I have really been struggling with a lot of things over the past couple of months and things are just getting worse instead of better. I am to the point where I have cut myself off from my family and friends. About the only contact I have is the little bit I still manage to do here on sparkpeople. I am failing miserably in every aspect of my life and I think I have truly hit rock bottom.

But, as I have sat here and read your struggles and successes, it has once again seemed to lift my spirits just a bit. It sure helps to know that everyone has their ups and downs and that none of us are perfect. I have read quite a few blogs from you guys about starting over and I have realized that is one thing that I do have control over....I need to put the past behind me (especially those 6 lbs I have gained back) and start over! I need to re-read The Spark and get back to setting goals for myself. I need to make myself go to the doctor and get my health issues under control....even though that thought is completely overwhelming to me. I'm certainly not doing anyone (especially my children) any good by just trying to suffer through it.

I feel so unloved and so unworthy of love and friendship....except when I am on sparkpeople. Here I feel like you truly care and want me to succeed. So for that, I want to say THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. You have all made a huge difference in my life and at times I have even felt like you have saved my life. You are all a great inspiration for me and I am so grateful for each and every one of you. Please know that sharing your stories....good or bad...really do help others!

Thanks again! Love to you all!


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LIVINGFREE19 11/2/2011 8:52PM

    You are such a sweet person! It is so sad to hear you are having sooo many stresses. I hope you stay on sparkpeople so we can help you out!
I miss seeing you on here and talking. I do hope the health issues you are talking about do get resolved!
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AWOOD1973 10/26/2011 2:19PM

    You know what??? You have inspired me to do the same! Dust yourself off and try again (isn't that a song?)! I am proud of you for getting on here everyday, when you can and just keeping up with everyone. You will find peace, I know it! And you will lose that 6lbs and then some! You are a very strong woman! Realize it, set your goals, and go girl! YOU CAN DO THIS!! YOU ARE SUPERWOMAN!!! :) Love to you! :)

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SPADIVAMOM 10/20/2011 12:50PM

    Just wanted to stop by and say that we are all here with you. the highs, the lows, the successes and the setbacks!! I am sorry to hear that you are struggling so much and feel so lost. You are worthy, you are loved, you are amazing!!

I am starting over also. Summer I thought would be easier to eat better and it was actually harder.. too busy, too many camping trips and long work days.

So here is to picking up, starting over and putting ourselves first as moms!! You can do it!!! We can do it together!!!! emoticon

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SWAZY33 10/20/2011 6:40AM

    I agree that *spark* is such a special place...there is so much positivity on here that it can be contagious :) and that is a good thing! I believe in YOU! Life IS filled with so many obstacles that can seem overwhelming. I'm here for you my sweet friend!

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WORDLILY 10/17/2011 9:41AM

    Starting over is hard, but you can do it!!!

I'm sorry you feel so alone. :(


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POOKASLUAGH 10/16/2011 11:26PM

    I'm sorry you've been feeling so unloved in the other parts of your life. :(

It's a struggle to start over again especially after falling down. I know you're strong and that you can do it. emoticon

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