Tuesday, August 03, 2010
I am transitioning my identity from always being the "fat girl" to being a person who is on getting in the best shape of my life. I am now considered moderately active and am feeling better physically. Lately I have been eating "clean" and have not been having processed carbohydrates. Frankly I feel so much better.
However, it isn't just about the food and exercise that has changed--it is my mind as well. Of late I have felt that I have just let go of anger. I used to be angry at the world and everyone in it. I felt that they had something/someone that I didn't and that wasn't fair. I have worked a lot on this mind set and just this past week I realized that I have not been angry. I am not expecting things to be fair. I am learning it will all work out in the end at some point. I am not stressing out and have developed the attitude "what ever". What is out of my control I am not worrying about. It has really been very freeing. It was not something that I was thinking about, it was something that just happened this past week. I wasn't consciously thinking about it-it just happened and I noticed it today. I feel like a mental weight has been lifted. The best part and very unexpected is that with this letting go I have also had a tremendous weight loss. I am shedding the mental stuff weighing me down and the weight is coming off (as a SP Friend told me it would). I am not naive enough to think I don't have more stuff/issues to work on, but I will continue to work on things from the inside out.
Now I am in the best shape of my life since 4 years ago. I still have a ways to go, but soon I will be in the best shape of my life since....EVER!
Thanks to all my SP Friends for helping me get to this place.