Saturday, May 05, 2007
He's here. He snuck in late yesterday.
I could tell he was in town, trying to make me sluggish and hungry. I'm tired of his little game.
TOM, you are NOT going to make me binge. I will not overeat; my lean, healthy menu plan is already posted, and I'm sticking to it like glue.
TOM, you will NOT make me slouch around on the sofa, staring outside at the rain. I woke up at 6:20 this morning and power walked for 65 minutes, before the rain started. Then, I ate a healthy, flavorful, low-fat breakfast and thought about my goals. After that, I climbed on my elliptical and worked out for another 30 minutes, this time, grinning as I watched the rain falling outside.
Face it TOM, there's NOTHING you can do to destroy my mood or my motivation this weekend. You know what? You don't scare me. My future looks even sunnier today than it did last week.
Thursday, May 03, 2007
I am SO excited and proud of myself today.
First, I had a GREAT nutritional day. I kept my calories low and my protein and fiber high. I planned and tweaked and put thought and effort into getting my numbers right.
Next, I did EVERY SINGLE exercise on my spark-generated plan. I don't recall EVER doing all of them, and my pedometer has almost 21,000 steps on it. My highest number this year! What a GREAT DAY!
It gets better: when I came home from work, the replacement parts for the elliptical were here. My sweetie fixed it right away. Tomorrow I will be working out on it again, while I watch the morning news.
I'm so happy right now. It's so motivating to see yourself accomplishing so many of your goals! I can't wait to see how far I'll go this month!
Saturday, April 28, 2007
That's how I'd sum up this week.
About seven days ago, I had to acknowledge that my elliptical was, once again, falling apart. That's TWICE in the 90-day warranty period. The company remembered us from last time we needed this part, they admitted they "are aware of the problem" with this part, and they are "working on a solution". Fine. How about upgrading my elliptical? Since you KNOW that it will break down every 6 weeks and all. Sometimes I wish my husband was not so laid back.
As if that wasn't enough of a challenge, I have been feeling ill all week, and fighting it. It's been a very busy week. Who has time to be sick?
Today, I made time to visit the walk-in clinic and discovered that I do indeed have a fever and an infection (not so smart a move, to avoid treatment and allow my infection to progress) and walked out with two different antibiotics and a lecture about self-medicating. Obviously, I'll be eating a lot of yogurt in the coming week.
Thank goodness this week is over. No more bad news, please! I'm hopeful that next week both me and my elliptical will be fixed.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
I got a fare alert, via email, today; with an offer I couldn't refuse: coast-to-coast, roundtrip, for both of us, under $375. Can you blame me??
Seattle was one of my preferred destinations for the past two summers, so of course I'm very excited. He will be too, it was his top domestic choice for this summer. Not Mexico, but he'll be quite pleased with the fare I found.
I'm already contemplating day excursions between Seattle and Portland via rail, and the San Juan Islands via Ferry.
Now that the decision has been made, comes the fun part of planning!
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Yesterdays weigh-in was a big milestone for me: the first 50 lbs are gone.
It's so difficult to fathom that my mind and body could change so dramatically since December 27th. If you'd asked me THEN what I saw looking four months into the future, I would have imagined something much different for myself, and had a pretty negative outlook about what was possible.
And, if you ask me today how it could happen, that someone who was really not expecting dramatic change and noticeable weight loss back then, has indeed achieved these things, I'd have to admit that it was not my positive attitude or belief in myself. I developed that along the way.
It was, in fact, the desperate feeling of being cornered and at the end of my rope, that pushed me to fight back in spite of the long odds. It was the realization that I had no choice, and nowhere else to go. I *HAD* to take charge of my health. There wasn't an option. I was in deep trouble; controlling my compulsive overeating and binges was an absolute imperative.
Going cold turkey was not as tough as it sounds. In fact, as a compulsive overeater, I find it much easier to abstain completely than to try to portion out known trigger foods. In other words, "100 Calorie Packs" are NOT my friends. I don't have the self-control people think I do... for me, it's much safer to avoid restaurants, avoid buying certain grocery items, and avoid cooking my favorite recipes altogether. I don't trust myself that much, and have decades of experience to substantiate WHY drastic limits are necessary.
Today, my cupboards are devoid of quick and easy foods. If I want a snack, I always have grapefruit, carrots and tomatoes on hand. There's no chocolate milk or soda in my fridge, no bread and no cold cuts. I've even given away half my cookware (if I don't make cheesecake, I don't need springform pans), and I'm amazed at how uncluttered my kitchen has become.
The living room is dominated by fitness equipment. Watching TV means working out.
That is what we call "lifestyle change".
Looking back at that desperate person, who decided that enough was enough, and made a New Years Resolution to CHANGE HER LIFE, seventeen weeks ago, is surreal. I even have dreams about fitness now... last night, I dreamed I was a runner; I was running and hanging out with my runner friends and even getting hit on by hot runner guys... definitely gave me something to think about. There is no doubt in my mind, that a healthy life as a fit person is more enjoyable than an unhealthy life as an obese person. I used to think that money was what counted most for quality of life... now, what I want is FITNESS.
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