Friday, November 20, 2009
The past seven days have been pretty miserable, with the proverbial "flu-like symptoms". If I'm honest about when the symptoms started, however, it was before then. It was actually while I was on the west coast on business, when I had a couple of bizarre and unexplained dizzy spells, basically while standing still and doing nothing. Also during that trip came the frog in my throat that wouldn't leave, no matter how many times I cleared my throat. By the time my first flight landed in Chicago, the frog had grown painfully and my sinuses were shedding bloody mucus (forgive the graphic). When I was finally greeted by my husband on the east coast, it was just after midnight and I was wiped.
The next day, I began sneezing and felt lethargic. Although I didn't intend to miss school, it occurred to me that I might have H1N1,and I decided to skip it. I knew I could study effectively at home.
The next two days I languished in bed, with no mental focus or clarity, and no studying came to pass. My condition worsened. I was coughing fitfully and painfully, sometimes producing awful stuff. I lost my voice. I needed to be diagnosed, so I headed to Patient First.
I did not have a positive experience at the office. My throat swab tested negative for strep. I had no fever. I didn't receive a chest xray. I came away with a prescription for antibiotics, and when I asked the doctor how I should deal with my painful bronchitis, my uncontrollable coughing, and my breathing difficulties, he deadpanned that all of those symptoms could be remedied with OTC meds!
The next day I phoned my PCP and begged for an appointment. I was able to get one the following day.
When I went to see her, I was still not feverish, and still not able to talk (making the appointment by phone was quite a challenge), but I did receive some additional meds to help with my other symptoms. Once again, there was no talk of a chest xray.
Now here I am, one full week later (longer if you count the symptoms I had in Portland) and I still feel like do-do. I figured there was no point in missing more school, so yesterday, I pulled myself together long enough to shower, dress, and make it to class twice. It wasn't wonderful, but endurable. I have another class today.
Maybe I'm way off base here, but if I had a bacterial infection, wouldn't I have a fever? And if I had a bacterial infection, wouldn't I be feeling much better by now, after six days of antibiotics? I am certainly feeling the full-blown and rather unpleasant side effects of antibiotic therapy: it has completely ruined my vaginal and intestinal health. I'm sucking down enough yogurt to consider buying stock in Dannon.
I'm really not an alarmist, but I'm genuinely worried for my own health sometimes.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
First, let me warn you. This is and adult blog about adult subject matter, and it might be shocking and controversial. There will likely be some adult language, so if that sort of thing offends you, stop reading now and find another blog to read and collect your sparkpoints on.
This blog is about the age-old female underwear question.
Guys just don't get it- it's a girl thing. But most women reading this know EXACTLY what I'm talking about: underwear that rides up.
For many years I wondered why my underwear did this. And WHY men didn't deal with this bothersome issue. Mens underwear seems to stay put all day- I know this not only from asking men, but from observing my husband undressing at night, and marveling that his skivvies were right where he left them that morning, covering his buttocks; while mine had morphed into thongs and needed to be retrieved from crevices regardless of what they looked like when I put them on in the morning.
Is it because I am curvier than other women, with a pear-shaped bottom? Nope, it happens to apple shaped women too, it happens to women with flat bottoms and narrow hips. Maybe I was wearing the wrong size, other women suggested. No, it happens when they're tight and it happens when they're baggy and it happens when the fit feels perfect. Maybe it was something about how womens undies are made- the high cut leg openings, for example; like the high-waist "French Cut" panties that were all the rage in the late 80's. For over a decade, I blamed the leg openings for the bothersome phenomenon. Then came the advent of the low-rise boyshort, and we were back to the cut I remember seeing in the late 60's when I was a small child. While the low-rise boycut DID improve the ride-up, they still did NOT cover my bottom. I assumed that was just because I have a big bottom, and that was just one of the many ways that the clothing industry demonstrates it's distain for fat, curvy women. My underwear would NEVER fit, hell, MOST of my pants didn't fit, and that was just the way it was going to be.
One day, I don't really recall WHY, I tried on a pair of mens underwear... maybe it was that scene in the movie "Bound", showing one of the lead female characters lying on the bed, in mens tighty-whiteys... and I had an epiphany. Mens underwear FITS, and men don't have ride-up because their underwear is made BETTER.
This is yet another piece of information in an endless stream of tidbits pertaining directly to gender disparity that pizz me off. Don't get me started on the fact that my husband gets a 3-pack of underwear for the same price I have to pay for ONE pair.
I'm always so amazed when I go clothes shopping with my husband, or when I bring him home a new garment (like, say, UNDERWEAR) and he tries it on and REJECTS, it based on the fact that it isn't comfortable. Since when is underwear comfortable, I'd think to myself.
Well, the secret was out; men get comfortable underwear that fits well, covers their azzes, and stays put all day. Just writing that ticks me off with envy.
In examining side by side examples of mens and womens skivvies, some differences are obvious: first is the cut of the outside leg opening. Men get a better placement. Second is the overall shape advantage men enjoy. Men get underwear that is CONTOURED to their less curvy butts, it dips lower in front and is very ample in the seat. The third difference- and it is an important one- is the crotch. The crotch on mens undies is twice as wide. Now, you may think this goes without saying, because of the extra anatomical features men sport; but that is not the case. Most of these features are slightly to the front, and are accomodated by another tailoring difference, the contour pouch. Of course, women have no need for a pouch, but TRUST ME when I say that if your underwear rides up your asscrack, you DO NEED the extra width in the crotch. Some of my panties measure less than 2" there, which barely covers it, even in granny panties (which I have tried in desperation). And I do not have any more junk than the next girl.
Lets Rate Them
I'm about to make two specific recommendations for women who aren't afraid of cross dressing.
Here is an example of a popular style of womens skivvies, made to look like mens:
This is just to illustrate that what I'm suggesting is hardly far fetched, and no one who sees you in your underwear can really tell if it's mens or womens anyway. The replacement would be these: www.freshpair.com/Go-Softwear-Cotton
-Lycra-Low-Rise-Brief-2011.html Yeah, I know they're expensive; but they have all the features you want as a women, and are noticeable lacking in the key feature men require. There is absolutely NO pouch. There is not any seam or gusset to accomodate man junk. I honestly don't know where a man would put his stuff if he wore these, which makes them PERFECT for women. Plus, they come in awesome colors, and they're downright pretty on. HOWEVER, they run small. The XL is probably appropriate for a woman who wears a size 8, or maybe 9, in underwear (sorry for typing the word "underwear" so many times, but I hate the word "panties").
Ok, so what do you do if you're larger than that? Well, I have another pair to show you. www.freshpair.com/Report-Collection-
Pima-Cotton-Low-Rise-Brief-RCB-1032.html The XL in this is more typical of a man's XL. They're not nearly as pretty and fem-looking as the first ones, but they're ample enough to cover everything if you wear a size 9 or 10 in womens, and once again, the pouch area is TOTALLY flat and (IMO) totally feminine. Seriously, no room for nads here. I don't know what the model did to get rid of them... maybe ice. Anyway, there you have it. Now everyone knows I'm a crossdresser and sometimes wear mens underwear. But that's okay, I wear mens shoes too- they're also wider and more comfortable.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Psychology says that human behavior can be viewed as a continuum. On one side is "seeking pleasure". On the other side is "avoiding pain".
This would explain a spur of the moment decision, such as we make when faced with tempting foods. Many times, we go for the immediate reward of the yummy food, because the pain of gaining weight is much further away in time.
Now, you can also view this continuum in the longitudinal version: on one side is "reward" and on the other is "consequence". It is simply human nature to go directly to the reward and completely overlook the consequence, because we're still thinking in the short-term paradigm. We tend to live in the moment, and have an extremely difficult time envisioning ourselves LIVING OUT OUR DREAMS.
Most people can't see themselves being fit, trim, and athletic unless they already ARE. They can't see themselves earning a fantastic salary in a career they love unless they already DO. They can't imagine the opposite sex clamoring to capture their attention unless it's already happening. All they see is how much hard work, struggle and sacrifice it would take. They see themselves as static; and don't see many changes ahead except getting older.
If you try to change this view, and learn to envision yourself as that fit, healthy and attractive person you dream about becoming, then you'll be thinking in the long term. And you'll see a future full of positive change and possibility.
Focus on the REWARDS of achieving your fitness goal. They are all in your future. The CONSEQUENCES of not believing in your ability to master your own destiny are here right now, but starting today, you can choose something better. Choose not to live in the past anymore!
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Today is day 30 of my new "Back To Basics" program since falling off the health wagon, suffering through some serious medical issues, regaining some weight, finally seeing my doctor, and starting a new prescription. I'm down 15 lbs.
After the awful health blows of 2009, would you believe, I'm actually a little disappointed in myself for not losing 26 lbs? Isn't that dumb? LOL- I keep fixating on that ONE WEEK in 2008 when I got down to 188 lbs. Oh well... it'll get here soon enough: I'm totally on track again. It will happen. I'll get it back, and then some.
Today, I leave for another conference. At least this one is only 4 hrs away by car, so I'll save airfare money for the cross country trips, which happen in November and December. I've got one more drivable conference after this, and that should be it for the year (with the exception of holiday travel with the family). While I'm gone, I'm resolved to keeping my goals on schedule, controlling my calories and availing myself of the hotel gym. It shouldn't be too hard, I will probably only bump into one or two people I know (no socializing in the bar), and I'm bringing STACKS of work to do. My hope is that I'll stay confined to my room, working, most of the time.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Day 27 after my last doctor visit and prescription adjustment. I have been VERY STRICT with myself- religiously cranking out an hour of cardio daily, and keeping my calories quite low.
The first two weeks, my weight dropped dramatically. The next two weeks, it stalled. Today, I saw a glimmer of hope.
Thank you, calorie cycling. I pigged out yesterday, and I might add very late in the day; but it was all healthy food. I flooded my body with sugarey fruits and whole grains and protein. I'm sure the large, sudden influx of fructose was somewhat of a metabolic shocker. Today, I will be lifting weight in an effort to break the plateau.
The bad news is, I'm sneezing all over the place.
The runny nose began yesterday.
Wish me luck.
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