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Ten Days to St. Louis

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

It's less than two weeks now until convention. I have no idea what to expect, but it's exciting as hell knowing that I'll be in an entirely new city, attending lectures by brilliant people from all over the world... and since I just sold my car, I'll have money.
Last night, I slept.
That's SUCH a good feeling!
Since I entered by second puberty, ten days ago, I have been seriously lacking in food and sleep. I was literally starting to feel like a strung-out junkie from the stress of ultra-low calorie days (where I struggled to break a thousand calories) and severe sleep disruption (even after turning to chemical means to knock myself out... it failed).
Last night, I made my usual dinner early: chicken breast and broccoli (no salt) and felt an improvement after eating. However, I had to throw away a lot of food I simply wasn't able to eat in the past week, so some grocery shopping was in order.
I made a point to buy a few things that are tempting to me (under ordinary circumstances), such as bagels and brie, and hummus. By the time we got home, I was starting to feel hungry, for the first time in over a week.
I knew exactly what I needed: carbs. The shakey feeling I always get from consecutive days of less-than-150-grams was not pleasant; and I wanted desperately to sleep soundly that night.
Half of a big, thick, soft bagel, covered with creamy brie, and a big glass of Virginia wine later, I felt like a sleepy, new woman; and sleep I did, for nine glorious hours. Admittedly, I did ingest two Benadryl to facilitate the process.
Yeah, the rut is still on, but this elk has her strength back.

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SECRETFUN 7/16/2008 8:33PM

  Glad you had a lovely evening.

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PHEBESS 7/15/2008 7:21PM

    Is this what your SPmail was about? I had different sleep disturbances - I'd wake at 2 AM and not be able to fall back to sleep til about 4 AM. And yeah, it's raging hormones.

I find consistent exercise and balanced nutrition balances the hormone levels a bit. Not perfectly, but it helps.

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A MAJOR milestone

Saturday, July 12, 2008

As of this morning, I have lost 125 lbs.
Yay me!
My last official stats update was way back in December. Maybe it's time for an update on how far I've come.

BUST: -12" (unchanged since December)
WAIST: -15" (down 3" since December)
HIPS: -15" (down 3" since December)

Upper Arm: -5" (down .75 since December)
Thigh: -10.5" (down .5" since December)
Calf: -5" (down 1" since Dember)

Down 7 sizes (one more since December).

It just goes to show, that even when you THINK you're not making any progress, or you're stalled dead in the water, when you stay the course you ARE making progress.
I can't believe my body has changed this much since December.

Only 25 pounds left to goal.
I have NO IDEA how long it will take me to get there now, it's been slow for many months. But by focusing on lifestyle changes, and making healthy choices along the way, you WILL achieve your goal.
Keep at it.

Best Wishes, NB

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DEB0413 7/13/2008 8:58PM

    emoticon Really great stats!! It sure pays to keep track of those inches!

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TANYA4EVA12 7/13/2008 12:05PM

  WOW!!!!! You're AWESOME! emoticon

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PHEBESS 7/12/2008 4:50PM

    Yup, you're shrinking even when you aren't losing weight!!!!

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FAT2LONG 7/12/2008 4:38PM

    Congratuations! What a fantastic milestone to celebrate!

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SECRETFUN 7/12/2008 3:43PM

  WOOHOO! Keep the good habits up.

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ROSET491 7/12/2008 1:11PM

    That is incredible! What a wonderful accomplishment and how proud you must feel!! That is like a whole person! I love reading these kind of blogs, this is what keeps me going when the scale is slow too notice!! Keep up the great work!!

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Is this some kind of natural diet cycle I'm in?

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

I'll be quite frank: I've not made good progress since about August last year. I've lost only ten pounds in ALL THIS TIME.

I've spent a lot of time agonizing over my apparent complacency and lack of focused effort. I suffered injuries in December and March that sidelined some of my activity. The combination of reduced exercise and reduced focus stalled me, and caused frustrating fluctuations in my weight. Every time I felt like I had my game back on, I'd drift again off that path. It happened so many times, I stopped believing in myself when I'd feel like I had my groove back... because I came to realize my groove would likely be gone again in a couple of days.

Well this past week, something happened. Things started to... change. I have no deep explanation for it, but I really, really want to say there is something hormonal about it.
This past week, I feel YOUNGER. I feel beyond energetic. I feel soooooo over my injuries. I feel... umm... frisky. In a very pronounced way.
I am lifting weights again, and feeling like a beast. Like King Kong on steroids.
My focus is back in the extreme. My appetite is GONE, and I'm once again struggling to hit my calorie goals. After many months of Hagen Dazs interruptions, THAT part is really amazing. Right now, the idea of ice cream has a decidedly negative appeal.
What's going on with my endocrinology? Why the sudden change? A month ago, there was only frustration and struggle; now I find myself in rutting season, transformed into an angry ungulate, gnashing my antlers to and fro, and laying waste to a forest full of helpless trees.
Oh, woe to my husband. I've got to go lift weights again and work out some of this aggression.

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LUCUBRATRIX 7/12/2008 8:50PM

    OMG, same thing happened to me. I was in maintenance since last fall, and only a few months ago did the "on" switch somehow get triggered again so that I lost the final 5-8 lbs to goal. It's not a race - it's all about the right timing! :)

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SMURFI 7/11/2008 4:54PM

    That's fantastic, enjoy it to the fullest!

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DEB0413 7/9/2008 10:46PM

    Be careful with that friskiness - - but glad you're feeling young and energetic!! Take care! And, anyway, 10 pounds is nothing to be upset about - - it could have gone the other way!!! (At my age, I've learned to take it slow and enjoy it. . . but then I'm probably MUCH older than you! lol! And it'll take me forever to get to my goal! ha!)

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SECRETFUN 7/9/2008 7:59PM

  I have kind of wondered the same thing about myself the last few months, but as I was able to maintain I decided I would wait it out.I am glad to hear you are kicking into high gear and going with it (and I do agree with the other two posters!)

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EMSCHICK9 7/9/2008 7:22PM

    Just don't let it cause you to run out in traffic!

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TRECECOOKS 7/9/2008 1:54PM

    Who knows why it's happening? In a sense, who cares?? Run with it, and enjoy!!!

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First Lady Makeovers

Monday, June 23, 2008

I have no idea why, but tonight I was overcome with a desire to give Michelle Obama a makeover. Specifically, I wanted to get rid of that poufy hairdo and give her something sleek and modern... like Rhianna's hair today on The View.
Then I started thinking to myself, well, let's have a look at Cindy McCain. However dated Michelle's hair looks, Cindy's got her beat. I immediately envisioned her in soft layers, a la Leslie Stahl. Or even... dare I say it... Ellen Degeneres.
I dunno... they are just both looking a little 'Knots Landing' to me.
Maybe I just need to get some sleep. I really don't know what's come over me.

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TRECECOOKS 6/28/2008 3:24PM

    Too funny!!

Hey - how's Chippy doing? I hope she's still enjoying her log.

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PHEBESS 6/24/2008 10:23AM

    Oh yeah, I know what you mean! Totally 80s!

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LADY_DONKEY 6/24/2008 7:20AM

    I think Cindy McCain looks like she's had too much botox. She kind of has poofy hair too, but LOL on giving Michelle Obama a makeover. :-)

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Chippy's furlough

Friday, June 20, 2008

I think I figured out where the bleeding was coming from- Chippy was up on the top shelf in her cage, and I was able to see her from underneath. I saw a little wound on the bottom of her chin, and another on her left elbow. I hope that's all; I couldn't see her tail/groin/thigh area well but there may be something there too.
Anyway, these injuries didn't seem severe enough for me to worry about, and the fact that Chippy refuses to eat anything but nuts and seeds (she didn't touch the peanut butter smeared dog biscuit) and she's looking a little thin to me, AND she's getting around much better, lead me to decide it was time to take her outside.
We loaded her cage into the back of the car and drove to the park. We took the cage out and set it on the ground, on a grassy spot a few feet away from a row of cedar trees. Now, by this time Chip is really getting excited and hopping all around. I open the door.
In a flash, Chippy darts out the cage and runs for a tree... except she's not really running, it's more like a very fast stagger. She climbs about a foot and a half up the tree, and falls to the ground. I rush to her, she panics, and repeats this scenario another half dozen times, before I plead with my husband to throw the towel over her. He did, and I scooped her up and returned her to her cage with a heavy heart.

I thought she was doing so much better.
Really, she IS doing so much better, but obviously not well enough.
She wants to be free so badly, but there is just no way she'd live a day. She'd be killed by a cat, or a dog, or a hawk, or maybe even another squirrel, within hours. It just breaks my heart.

After we'd gotten her safely back home, we went to PetSmart and bought her more rodent stuff: another log house, to replace the one she's chewed to a nub; a woven nesting ball, a half-log hut (a domed section of hollowed natural wood log). And more seed treats, since she loves them and I want her to be fatter.
I guess we'll try again in a couple more weeks, but I wonder how much improving she'll do, cooped up the way she is.

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TRECECOOKS 6/20/2008 1:29PM

    My heart hurts with yours. I pray that Chippy will soon be better. Any chance you can get some more info from a vet?

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