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Thursday, January 10, 2008

It's GONE forever.

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BODYNSOIL 1/11/2008 8:31AM

    OH NO, I totally love bags myself and feel your pain... I haven't picked up a new one lately because I want to do my closets over to make a nice home for them with drawers and stuff. The cost of one bag can be as much as the closet redo....LOL I have to wait until I have a nice place to admire them in.. I am feeling warm all over thinkin bout it.. JJ

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I just spent $550 online. Guess what I bought?

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

If you were about to answer "Why OF COURSE you bought the ultra-fabulous Anya Hindmarch handbag you want more than anything, and have been EYEBALLING since it went on sale" -you're wrong!

I registered for the Mid-Atlantic Horticulture short course, joined the ISA (International Society of Arboriculture), joined the Mid-Atlantic Chapter of the ISA, and bought the Certification Study Manual of the ISA (the last three things are to help me achieve my goal of becoming a certified arborist this year).
Sadly, I still have more continuing education to buy. Probably another $300. worth or so. Then of course, there is the travel involved. So far, I've avoided hotels, because I really want to go on vacation later this year... and I still have to register for a marathon.
The beautiful Malini Murjani clutch- on clearance- that has kept me salivating for three weeks, and praying that money might fall from the sky, finally sold out today... there goes yet another fine piece of arm candy I'll never carry. This sad story has been replaying over my internet connection since late fall.

I know I'll enjoy my classes. I know I'll be proud of achieving certification. But I swear, sometimes I crave a fabulous handbag like other women crave children.
There's an emptyness in my checking account.

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TRECECOOKS 1/10/2008 9:15AM

    Yes, it would have been nice to have the bag, but that's all you'd have. Once you have your certification, you'll make more money, so you can buy MORE bags!!

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SMURFETTE0725 1/10/2008 2:28AM

    You have such an incredible year ahead ..... !!!!!!

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KJSCORTEZ 1/9/2008 11:00PM

    Funny stuff... You'll get that handbag one day!
Keep up the good work!

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BODYNSOIL 1/9/2008 9:29PM

    WHAT NO BAG!!!!! I want arm candy, must have arm candy **slap** okay I am back to reality.. I think in the end you will enjoy the certification more and marathon too! Way to go with everything you have done... JJ

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Results Not Typical

Monday, January 07, 2008

Everyone has seen examples of people losing huge amounts of weight in short amounts of time. There are pictures of them in every ad for every diet product ever made, and a tiny caption at the bottom advising us that their dramatic results are not typical. They are the "RESULTS NOT TYPICAL" people. We know that the results are POSSIBLE, just not TYPICAL.
Well, why arenít those results typical?
The answer is usually that most people who resolve to lose weight behave in completely typical, highly predictable ways. They do not follow through on all the necessary components of their goal.
We all know the correlation between eating and exercise. We know exactly what to do to be one of those "results not typical" folks, but typically, we don't do it.
We do what's typical.
Despite all the talk, all the best intentions, and all the New Years Resolutions, we donít plan, we donít measure, we donít take action, and we donít believe. We don't let go of our old, familiar, typical ways. We're complacent. Consequently, most people hate exercise, hate weigh-ins, and would never even consider weighing in on a DAILY basis.
I have been fat (I prefer the term "fat" or "obese" to "overweight") most of my life. When I started SparkPeople, I was overwhelmed by a very intense dissonance... I just didn't want to be obese anymore. I was absolutely determined to rid myself of every self destructive behavior that was causing my obesity. I decided, right then and there, that I was no longer obese. I was no longer an emotional eater, a compulsive overeater, or a sedentary person. Those labels simply didn't apply to my journey. I became, mentally, a FIT person, and I immediately began living the life I imagined a fit person leads.
I definitely did not espouse the "baby steps" methodology that I always hear about. I believe that when you make huge, dramatic, and dynamic changes in your behavior, you achieve huge, dramatic, and dynamic results in your life.
I completely abandoned my typical lifestyle. I made an atypical effort.
I changed EVERYTHING... and everything changed. I became a "results not typical" person.

My opinion has always been that motivation is internal, and that nobody can "give" it to you or take it from you. If you have weight to lose, and want to lose it, and grasp that it would be in your interest to do so, you are, by definition, motivated. What you need is ACTIONÖ and a plan.
Make yourself a timetable. Imagine your success, and pencil in the dates when youíll achieve each milestone along the way. Dwell on what it will feel like if you stick to your plan, and donít eat in your typical, unhealthy way, and live your typical, sedentary life. Write it on your calendar: by Valentineís Day I will be one size smaller, by March I can weigh this much, in April I will be ľ of the way to my goal, by Motherís Day my BMI will no longer be ďobeseĒ, etc. etc.
I became a ďresults not typicalĒ person almost accidentally. I didnít believe, but I was strict with myself and never ďcheatedĒ on my eating and exercise plan. Thatís all! Nobody was more surprised than me. But I didnít do the typical thing. I stuck to my plan, and Iím telling you, that if you do that, you will get those atypical results you see in the back of magazines.
Best wishes on your journey.

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LISALU910 1/14/2008 10:13AM

  You hit the nail on the head with one of my main motivational factors. This seems so OBVIOUS, but then a lot of things in life are so obvious, yet so obtuse.


Yeah, yeah we all know that, but one day I really KNEW that. It is a self journey, no one else can do anything but cheer you on.

As obvious as it seems, it took really knowing that to make a difference for me. Nobody can keep my feet moving when I am running up that hill but ME (unless I have Burgess Meredith behind me yelling all the way!) No one can decide to not put the french fries in my mouth but ME.

Good post, I'll be checking back to see how you're doing!

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KATRINIA17 1/9/2008 8:00PM

    And this is why I love reading your blog! Every word you said is so true. I remember when I lost my first 30lbs I didn't start off strong but when I said "I'm doing this" I did it and the weight melted off. Now though the weight is going no where even though I've come back and said "I'm doing this" I'm not doing it, I'm not going to the gym like I use to, I'm not eating like I use too, and I'm not in the right mind frame as before. So, thanks for this blog, it has reminded me that I need to make that choice in order to get to my goals.

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SHANTODD420 1/9/2008 4:59PM

    Wow what a positive way to look at things. I think I will try and do that after our daughter is born. I am going to need a lot of help and support to get back to where I was. Still eating right and exercising but gaining due to baby right now.


Any advice would be greatful.

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NEVA2LATE 1/9/2008 12:32AM

    Hey!! ... Good to see you! ... And I see you're still doing Fantastic! ... You are looking beautiful, by the way :) ... You are dead on about the 'motivation' in your blog ... it's internal ... no one can give it to you ... If you're here, you've got motive ... what needs to happen next is action!! ... I love reading your blogs and following your progress!! ... You're doing great!

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BODYNSOIL 1/8/2008 8:35PM

    Wow Janine great blog and great point about thinking like a fit person.. What a transformation and I believe in you too!!! JJ

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CHERRY7UP 1/8/2008 10:54AM

    What an awesome blog!

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TRECECOOKS 1/7/2008 9:54PM

    As usual, you are AMAZINGLY motivating - especially since you call a spade a spade, and not a trowel. Your story is worth following because you don't sugar-coat - for anyone, least of all yourself. God bless you, lady - you are an icon!!

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MUDYPOZ 1/7/2008 9:50PM

    I SO agree with you!! I wish they would show us some "typical" results, but I suspect they're not much to write home about, LOL!

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Gifts you donít want and canít use

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

It's that time of year: the annual pilgrimage to the Salvation Army Donation Center, to unload all the Christmas presents.

Let me ask you something: how many pair of jeans do you have?
I have TWO pair, and one of them is a bit large. I have one pair of khaki-type pants that are very large on me, and one pair of jeans that are too tight (for April).
DH has at least 15 pair of jeans, and about 9 pair of shorts (I have ZERO shorts).

Every year, he gets another pair of Levis. He wonít wear them out anytime soon, he is a fairly sedentary man. I however, need jeans for work. People in my industry (landscaping) wear jeans.

I lost a lot of weight. Over a hundred pounds.
Why didn't I get clothes? Or at least gift cards?
If you knew someone on your gift list had lost/gained 100 lbs, wouldn't it occur to you that they might need clothes? He also got two shirts, neither of which he will ever wear.
The only useable article of clothing I got was the gorgeous cashmere sweater that my husband was thoughtful enough to buy off my wish list. Letís not go into the fuzzy blue penguin pajama bottoms I received (no top, just bottomsÖ canít wait for next year).
How do I stop the tide of gifts we don't want and canít use?
Okay, sorry for venting. Iíve been doing laundry all day. I take it out of the dryer, fold it up, and put it away: he has three whole drawers full of jeans, and I have another big box of stuff for Goodwill. Including all the Christmas presents I got, that were nowhere close to the ones on my wish list, and nowhere close to intuitive.
Iím sure the folks down at the Salvation Army donation center will be pleased. They have gotten to know me quite well this past year. Not only do they take all the clothes that no longer fit, but they take all the other gifts that just leave me scratching my head. This year, Iím keeping ONE thing: the cashmere sweater.

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BODYNSOIL 1/4/2008 8:42AM

    Oh so true, gift cards are the best and who can buy clothes for another person. It took me years to get my DH to stop buying for me as his taste are slightly off. It is great that you donate to the salvation army. I am surprised that this site doesn't have a cloths swap as so many people are losing weight and changing clothes sizes..

For me it isn't clothes, MIL every year walmart soap/shampoo/cond/lotion giftpack cost 5 bucks I feel bad but that stuff burns my skin and irritates my sinuses.... Gift cards rock... and gift exchanging sux.. Oh the girl I work with gave me a mug that says "miss priss" on it, would you give your boss that? No, me either as I was offended, apparently she doesn't realize it is insulting... JJ OBTW congrates on the 100lbs lose that is so great

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RIVERLESS 1/3/2008 4:10PM

    By the way, congrats on all of that weight loss! You deserve two new wardrobes! I have only lost about 20 lbs, and I had to get a completely new wardrobe for work because it just doesn't look good on TV/pictures if your pants are all bunched up at the top and your shirts are really baggy. Not professional at all!

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RIVERLESS 1/3/2008 3:59PM

    I COMPLETELY understand where you are coming from. I am constantly disappointed on Christmas because I get tons of gifts that I will never use. Lets see.... this year, from my parents, I got about 5 or 6 t-shirts, a hooded sweatshirt, and a set of make-up brushes. This would be all well and fine, except for the fact that I told them NOT to buy me t-shirts or hoodies because I work in a professional setting and I just don't wear clothes like that very often. And I don't wear make-up, so the brushes were pretty much useless. I ended up wtih two girftcards, but when I went to use one of them, it turned out to be for $50 instead of $100 like it was labeled. I was furious. You don't give someone a giftcard with $100 written on the sleeve when it's actually only for $50. It was so embarrassing. I hate to sound ungrateful, but I just feel like even my own parents don't care enough to listen to the words that come out fo my mouth. If you ask someone what they want for Christmas and they tell you what they don't want... isn't it the least that you could do to avoid those specific items. I just feel like they wasted their money, when I would have much rather not gotten crappy christmas gifts and instead gotten the photoigrapher that I wanted for my wedding. How is it that they can spend a bunch of money on crap for me for Christmas (Crap that I don't even want and specifically asked NOT to get), but they flake out and refuse to pay for any portion of my upcoming wedding. Tell me how that makes any sense!

Sorry for the rant. I needed to vent.

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SECRETFUN 1/2/2008 10:48PM

  I just spent money buying DH clothes, although luckily some of his family listened to me and bought him a few clothes. A t-shirt and a sweatshirt. I bought him new long underware, robe, two pairs of slacks, 4 sweaters of which I was hoping he would keep 1 or 2, one new button down, two belts and two pairs of jeans (he usually has 3-4 at a time btw. I have had anywhere from 2-6 but usually around 2). He still needs new shoes. Probably needs socks if I look. Not really a weight thing but they are worn out too. I should buy more clothes for myself but keep thinking I will wait a little longer. I have some that fit but tops are not going well.

Glad you love your cashmere:-) I adore mine my smart DH bought me, too!

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TRECECOOKS 1/2/2008 12:40PM

    I was howling with laughter!! You are so right!! What is wrong with people??

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PJFUNNYBUNNY61 1/1/2008 10:57PM

  What a thoughtful husband. And wow, I cannot believe you didn't get any clothes. It's almost like something that should be in a stand-up comedy routine - "I lost over 100 pounds and nobody bought me clothes." It's hard to believe. I'm scratching my head too. Hey, go out and buy yourself something nice. You deserve it!!

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LUCUBRATRIX 1/1/2008 10:10PM

    For Thanksgiving and over the summer, on vacation people complimented me on my ability to "pack light, wow, how could you ever get by with such a small suitcase." To which I said, truthfully, "Oh, that's all the clothing I have that fits me now, actually! Packing was really easy!"

Repeatedly, people were REALLY surprised, even though they'd all been remarking on my weight loss. I think that unless a person actually have lost some large fraction of their own body weight, people have NO IDEA how completely one needs to retrofit a wardrobe after 50 or 100 lbs. Not like, "oh, these t-shirts will still fit even if they're a bit loose" but, "this is no longer decent to appear in public in because it is hanging off me". I think people just have no concept what it's like.

But my Christmas presents were really, really awesome and with a combination of actual presents and gift cards pretty much replenished my wardrobe... a credit to my wife, who got asked "what should we get Jenny" and who dispensed really good advice, along with measurements and size advice. I think otherwise people might have been reluctant to buy clothing because it would be acknowledging the weight loss (which can be a touchy subject), and wouldn't have known what size to get, etc. And it is hard to ask someone what size they wear unless they know you really well. :)

Other thing I should say is that I'm pretty much at goal - or close enough to it that things that I buy now should be part of my permanent new wardrobe. And I let people know that, and I think that contributed to the willingness to buy clothing. Many people don't want to buy nice things for someone who is in the process of losing weight, especially as rapidly as you have been, because they know it'll just fit you for another month or two.

But I think most of it comes from ignorance - I bet all of your gift-givers had no idea how much you have to rebuild your wardrobe from square one.

I say - treat yourself to shopping some of the after-Christmas sales. Old Navy has inexpensive jeans and other clothing -- I am not the biggest fan, quality wise, since a lot of it (especially shirts) falls apart after a few months, but guess what, that's just about how long you need it to last, right?

Another great idea is hitting thrift and consignment shops, and yeah, even the Salvation Army, for cheap clothing for you to shrink out of. I have a hard time with this because I need extra-long and tall sizes, but it's worked really well for shorter people I know. And keeps you from having to do laundry every day.

Also, see if you can exchange some of the pants your husband got for clothing that you need!

If I honestly don't know what to get someone, I make a donation to a charity that supports a cause near to their hearts... because the holidays should not be about spreading around junk people don't want or need.

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I felt beautiful

Sunday, December 30, 2007

My company has a Christmas party every year. Last year, I attended weighing about 330 lbs, my all-time heaviest. This year, I am 110 lbs less.
Of course, I always try to look my best at this type of event, but this year, I FELT so very different. I took extra time with my makeup and ironed my hair. I wore heels (now that IS rare).
When I got there, I was received warmly by my coworkers, and I greeted everyone with great (and heartfelt) enthusiasm. People hugged me (that didnít happen last year). And, because I arrived so late, many of them were quiteÖ embellished by then.
More than one of them told me how good I looked. I heard it again and again as I was hugged and bussed, and a couple really went into depth about HOW good I looked (Iím sure alcohol was a factor, but I ate it up still the same).
What felt different was my belief in the flattery. It wasnít just lip service; it was overwhelming, unabashed sincerity. And it matched the way I felt that night: I felt beautiful.

Same as last year, my husband couldnít make it. So, I was forced to try to capture all the memories and emotions of the evening, and recreate it in a verbal synopsis for him, the following day. I gushed about what I wore, how wonderful I felt, how everyone swelled my head for me, and how I wished heíd been there. He smiled and replied simply that he was glad Iíd had a good time.
Okay, so heís a man of few words. I spoke about the party a few more times, as it crossed my mind over the course of that day. I was sitting beside him in the car, and we were coming home from the store, during one of these fond recollections.
He thought it over for a few moments, and said ďso are you going to leave me now?Ē
Wow! It was almost as if heíd driven head-on into a wall.
I glanced over to look at him, trying to gauge if he was being serious. ďOf course not! Why would you even think such a thing?Ē I stammered.
Thankfully, he grinned. I knew he was kidding, but stillÖ he was revealing a deeply hidden fear. We discussed it until I was SURE he knew he was for keeps.
I finally suggested to him that the best thing he could do was to take up a fitness program, so we could work out together and everyone would know this hottie was taken. Come to think of it, he HAS been working out with me more and more frequently. I think I may have just found out what his motivation has been.

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GRET30 1/2/2008 9:52AM

    What a gorgeous picture! I'm so glad you ended 2007 feeling beautiful! Can't wait to see what you do in 2008!!!

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ASTROS_FAN 12/31/2007 5:21PM

    I loved reading this is obvious how happy you are! You are gorgeous, sweetie - inside and out. Keep up the hard work!!!

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TRECECOOKS 12/31/2007 11:29AM

    You look wonderful - and so very happy!!

You are fortunate that your DH was able to verbalize his feelings, so you could reassure him.

You are a constant source of inspiration and encouragement to me. Happy New Year! And may 2008 be your best year yet!!

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PHEBESS 12/31/2007 10:55AM

    You ARE beautiful!!!!!! And congrats on your new looks!!!!! And yay for R for getting into shape with you!!!!!!

Best wishes for the coming year, sweetie - and hopefully we'll meet up again in 2008!!!!!!

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BODYNSOIL 12/31/2007 10:37AM

    OMG you must be so proud of yourself first and foremost you lost 1/3 of your bodyweight in one year and that is amazing!!! Plus look at your figure, the curves and definition I would bet you were shocking people who hadn't seen you for the last 12 months!! I can see where your DH might be a tad concerned as you are beautiful both inside and out and I am glad you got a chance to discuss everything with him. See how infectious your motivation can be as you have motivated your spouse into being more fit as well..... well that and a good case of jealousy for the attention his gorgeous wife is getting... wink wink.. JJ..

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KADYSUU 12/31/2007 8:39AM

  You are amazing and such an inspiration! And yes, you are VERY beautiful!!!


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PJFUNNYBUNNY61 12/31/2007 1:25AM

  You look awesome. Such nice skin! Way to go, Spark buddy. You're doing fabulous, darling.

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SMURFETTE0725 12/30/2007 9:29PM

    You ARE beautiful. Much love!

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