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99 lbs gone in 8 months

Monday, August 27, 2007

It has been exactly 8 months since I began my new life as a fit person. What an anniversary this is! Here is my progress report:

weight: -99lbs

chest: -9"
waist: -10"
hips: -11"
thigh: -7"
calf: -3"
arm: -3"

... and down 5 (or 6) sizes.

Happy Anniversary to me! I'm taking the day off from work.
I am going to celebrate with a whole day of healthy eating and physical exercise.
And if that doesn't sound like a reward to you, well, what can I say? Maybe you're on a different path!
Best wishes, NB

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SHORTY20 8/29/2007 9:23AM

    Go Janine! You have done such a fabulous job getting healthy, we are all so proud of you!

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GRET30 8/28/2007 10:28PM

    Wow! You have come such a long way in 8 months. Congrats on your amazing progress. I hope you had a wonderful, fun, healthy anniversary!

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HAPPYWALKER 8/27/2007 9:58PM

    Congratulations! Those stats are amazing and a testament to your consistency and dedication over the last 8 months. You must feel absolutely wonderful. Keep up the good work, you're an inspiration to us all! Mary

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DAVENPLK 8/27/2007 9:16PM

  You are absolutely fabulous!!!! Isn't life so much better when you are fit? I am proud of your accomplishment, and I am cheering for you as you make it to your goal weight.


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SECRETFUN 8/27/2007 7:30PM

  I expected nothing less :-) Hope you had a fabulously fit day!

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AMIEINTX 8/27/2007 5:58PM

    Wow Janine! Just Wow. You should be so proud, and I am so proud of you. You success is giving me the push I need to get back into the game. You will be at your goal in NO time flat! Keep up the great work sweetie!

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KERRIGIRL 8/27/2007 4:18PM

    NB that is amazing!! you rock woman!!

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68TOGO 8/27/2007 1:56PM


Whoo Hooo. This is FABULOUS. Take off and enjoy yourself.

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CMM339 8/27/2007 1:47PM

    Congratulations that's an amazing accomplishment. Keep up the great work.

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PHEBESS 8/27/2007 1:19PM

    Woohoo Janine!!!!!!! Happy Anniversary, babe, and you are amazing! I can't wait for your first triple-digit post!!!!!

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KATRINIA17 8/27/2007 1:16PM


Wow, I've got so much to say, so much to ask! Congrats, how did you do it, how close are you to your goal, are you as shocked as I am! LOL really though, it's amazing! People think that it can't be done but you are living proof! I have one suggestion though, can you put up pics? I think it would really motivate those who think it can't be done. Hugs to you, you are amazing!!!-Kat

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I am SO over obesity

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

As sure as there's a sun in the sky, I am DONE with being obese.
All day long, my mind wanders back to how and when I will fit in my exercise that day. When I go out to lunch or dinner with other people, I wonder out loud what would be the healthiest thing on the menu. When I want a snack away from home, I choose fresh fruit and raw nuts from the local market, instead of Doritos from 7-Eleven.
When my out of town meeting was over, I jogged to my car... uphill. I keep a heavy dumbell under my desk, at my feet, so I can do some reps whenever the mood strikes me.
I am so done with obesity it's hard for me to comprehend that I'm still obese, let alone that I weighed 330 lbs just 8 months ago. I have no idea who that person was who hijacked my body for all those years!
That life is OVER. I am a fit person now, in mind, in heart, and in deed; and soon my body will prove it. I look more like a fit person every day.

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GRET30 8/26/2007 2:19PM

    You are such a motivation! I love your blogs - always written with such honesty. Thanks for sharing your latest thoughts!

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CAPUSCINE 8/26/2007 1:46AM

  That is truly an amazing transformation. It speaks volumes more than any before and after photo. Congratulations!

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CCSDESTINY 8/25/2007 8:22PM

    You've came such a long way and you have such a great attitude! I do believe you are the most inspirational person on this site! I love watching your accomplishments, NB, you are awesome!!!

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AMBERROGUE 8/24/2007 2:58PM

    CONGRATS! Keep it up, girl!

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SECRETFUN 8/23/2007 9:22PM

  yes ma'am you will and do.

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SMURFETTE0725 8/23/2007 11:16AM

    As always, beautifully written! You inspire me every day. Much Love!!

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DAVENPLK 8/22/2007 8:46PM

  I am so proud of you!!!! You have really made a difference in your life and in the lives of those around you. That obese person is a thing of the past. Look back at those former pictures and celebrate your achievements. You are doing great!!!

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Things people say (a.k.a. foot-in-mouth disease)

Monday, August 13, 2007

Last week I was having a conversation with a customer... one of the few customers brave enough to venture into the nursery on a brutally hot, humid day. The heat index was over 100 degrees, and I was pruning and watering plants, avoiding direct sunlight where ever possible, and gulping liter upon liter of water.
I thought the conversation was going quite well, progressing from landscape plants, to climate zones, to where we lived, and where we grew up, to how else we spent our time when we weren't gardening. The chit-chat moved toward staying comfortable outdoors in high heat and humidity. Specifically, what to wear.
I was wearing gleaming new sneakers. She looked at them. The conversation took an unfortunate turn.

"Oh my GOD, I hope you're seeing a doctor about that water retention! That is REALLY bad! Oh, honey, that is SERIOUS!"
She had noticed my ankles.

Now, even if I was suffering from severe fluid retention, which I am not, I would have been taken aback. She was little more than a stranger to me, but I'd let my guard down and conversed with her; and now she was diagnosing my hidden medical conditions. Loudly.
She made no effort whatsoever to disguise or minimize her shock at my appearance. My ankles were ghastly. They were horribly swollen. She really drove the point home.
I was stunned.
I am well aware of what my legs look like. They’re fat. I store much more fat in my legs than the average person does. It is one of the genetic gifts my sister and I received from our ancestors. My sister isn’t even fat, but has this bizarre build as well.
Even when I’m wearing long pants, there is no hiding the girth of my thighs. Wearing anything above the knee is out of the question, as far as I’m concerned. It is the whole reason I suffer through summer in jeans, while everyone around me wears shorts. My legs look unusual, distorted, even freakish; I *know* this, and I know that anyone seeing them may be shocked, but they probably would not say anything about it. I keep them hidden to avoid personal trauma. However, having recently lost 87 pounds and many inches off my legs, I’d just purchased shorts. The first shorts in decades. Shorts that were long enough to cover my knees, because that is all I dare reveal. Well, somebody noticed all right.
I offered, quietly, that I was not retaining fluid, but had fat legs. She shook her head, and POINTED at my ankles, noting the way my ankle socks peeked above my shoes just high enough to cut into the fat, accentuating it; and she went on and on about it.
I persisted. She insisted.
She completely overlooked the fact that so much water was leaving my body, so fast, that I was literally dripping sweat. It was rolling off of my nose and chin and soaking the front of my shirt. I kid you not. I was still holding my water bottle.

Finally, after an eternity, she left; still dismayed that I refused to accept her diagnosis of edema… I don’t know, maybe she thought I had congestive heart failure and she was trying to save my life. I walked, in disbelief, into the office for more water. I sat in the air conditioning for about 30 minutes, feeling shell shocked and humiliated, until I was sure she’d left the nursery.


A few days ago, after mowing the lawn, cutting the hedges, and otherwise getting filthy, I showered, changed, and headed to work with my hair still damp. I grabbed my ponytail elastics and my hat on my way out the door.
When I walked into the office, one of my coworkers said “Wow, you look REALLY PRETTY with your hair down. You should wear it like that all the time.” I gave her a look, as if to say ‘you're nuts, it’s 99 degrees out there’, and she added, “I mean it… you look TOTALLY DIFFERENT”.
Can I go home now?

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AMBERROGUE 8/16/2007 5:43PM

    That's what I call (it's a little gross) diarrhea of the mouth. It's happened to all of us. Don't take it to heart, hon. People talk way too much and don't think before they speak. Brush them off. They don't know what they're talking about!

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SISTERCHICK1965 8/14/2007 11:01AM

    I know how you feel, I was at the laudrymat once and this woman asked when my baby was due. I wasn't pregnant. I felt two inches big and horrible. I'm sorry that you had a bad experience. People can be really thoughtless sometimes.

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SECRETFUN 8/13/2007 10:16PM

  I thought I had a bad case of it lately. Please don't let me get that bad.

your coworker sounds like my DH.

I admit, I have commented on people's ankles, but they were near 90. And I don't belabor it unless yelling at a doc/nurse to deal with it, and then they are all my family with the ankles.

Who knows what she would have said about mine. probably thought I had blood clot since they are 2 different sizes!

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TEXASCHEIBEL 8/13/2007 9:35PM

    That made me really sad. I am so sorry you experienced that.

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KERRIGIRL 8/13/2007 8:18PM

    NB I am sorry that you had to have that BAFFOON even waste her breathe of a comment like that. I swear some people need etiquette and a friggin clue!!! I have been gifted also from the lovely mediterranean heritage of having "child rearing hips" and bloated legs that you can see the marks from socks when I wear them. So I understand your situation. I swear people can simply "S*CK....
Hugs to you...

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NESSA79 8/13/2007 7:57PM

    Awe that is so terrible! I am sorry that not only one person but two people made you feel bad. I hope that you are feeling better than you were. I know how it feels to have others say not so nice things. When I was in High School there was this girl that came up to me and said straight in my face as she was shaking her head at me "people hate you because your so nice" I kid you not. It hurt me because then why did she feel that she had to tell me that. So right after she said it I turned around to her and said "then why are you talking to me you B****, you are probably the one that has the problem and is jealous not anyone else" then I walked away. I was actually proud of myself. Can you imagine? People hate me because I am nice. Gosh! I am who I am. It has stuck in my brain for more than 10 years. It happened when I was in senior in high school. Unbelievable!

I hope that you are feeling better all I can say is F*** them!

Vanessa :)

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This just in: I haven't changed a bit

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Last night after my workout, my husband and I made a late trip to Home Depot. We'd just had a kitchen brainstorming session (we'll need to set up a temporary kitchen somewhere else in the house while the remodeling progresses). While we were there, we split up to look at different areas of the store. Walking past the paint department, I caught glimpse of someone I knew, whom I hadn't spoken to in ten years.
Now, I have SEEN this guy around town, he has a sort of "public" job; but he hasn't seen me. Every time I saw him, he seemed as if he'd put on more weight. Not this time. He looked thinner... much thinner. I actually did a double take. While he still has lots of weight to lose, his loss, so far, was clearly very substantial.
I walked over and gave him a friendly hug. We started chatting about what we'd been doing the past ten years, but within moments he started talking about his weight loss with great pride. I kept silent while he talked about his low point, and how he finally took control of his health. Losing weight was quite obviously the biggest, most exciting thing that had happened in his life in the past ten years. I smiled as I listened, because I understand exactly how he feels. I patiently waited for my turn, to talk about my own weight loss.
He went on for a couple of minutes before he caught himself, then he paused, smiled, and put one hand on my shoulder. He momentarily oogled my spandex clad body and leered, "YOU haven't changed a BIT!" Suddenly, I had nothing to talk about. I just smiled and laughed... and let him go on about how great I looked, while my mind pieced together the fact that the last time he saw me, I was exactly the same size as I am today. I also realized that I was sucking in my gut as hard as I could.

I have officially past the anxiety point of running into people who knew me before I was 300 pounds. I no longer have to avoid them (a year ago I would have gone outside to hide in the car). He didn't know anything about my journey, and I never mentioned it. I was basking in the newfound glory of “not changing a bit”.
I was still basking this morning, while brushing the ageless hair on my swollen head, and getting ready for work. Some things never change!

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AMBERROGUE 7/31/2007 5:15PM

    How wonderful that must have felt for you! CONGRATS on your weight loss!

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DEB0413 7/27/2007 5:25PM

    You are awesome! I've been talking to you in 240ville, but hadn't looked at your sparkpage or blogs until today. Congratulations on your success! I enjoy your comments!

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AUTUMNJOY11 7/27/2007 11:39AM

    Your stories crack me up!! You know, he'll probably see you in another 6 months and think "Hey, my story must really have struck a cord with her!! I'm so glad I could help!" haha!

You Rock Janine!!

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AMIEINTX 7/27/2007 9:06AM

    I love reading your blogs! Great story, and congrats on your success!

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SECRETFUN 7/26/2007 9:24PM

  excellent story.

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SMURFETTE0725 7/26/2007 7:40PM

    Wow, Janine, what an amazing story!! Congratulations on reaching yet another incredible milestone! You continue to be such an inspiration! HUGS!

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Remodeling done right

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

My husband is away on business, so I decided to rip apart the house as much as possible and throw things away with impunity.
Unpacking dusty crates and boxes in the basement normally doesn't take all day, but the memories you uncover sidetrack you.
I just found an old pair of pants packed up in my basement. They were so miniature it was ridiculous. I can't believe I ever owned them, but between me and my husband, I know they're mine.
Size 16. I can scarcely remember wearing that size, it was over ten years ago. They were misses size, I didn't know I even *HAD* any misses size anything.
I was doing laundry, and only had on my underwear, so I thought I'd amuse myself. I put my leg into them. To my amazement, I was able to pull them all the way up!!!!!
I was floored. I put the other leg in, and UP they went! WOW!! Now, would they zip?
I'm not gonna lie, they are tight as an onion skin, but here I sit WEARING THEM. My miniature pants! OMG!

My husband will probably have a similar reaction when he sees that I have ripped out the kitchen counter and relocated two cabinets.

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ADD1975 7/21/2007 8:12PM

    I am so happy that you were in them I think I would wear them all the time even if I could not breath lol .You are doing great !!

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GRET30 7/21/2007 3:09PM

    What a great day for you! I bet you were so excited to pull those pants on and all the way up! I have a pair of pants I've kept for about 10 years now that I can judge my weight by. When I bought them, they fit OK, then after my first baby they were really tight, and after the second baby they could no longer be buttoned :( I'm proud to say that one year later, they are now too loose to wear!! But they still have a place in my closet...I feel like the scale sometimes doesn't tell the whole truth but that pair of pants has never lied to me! Congrats's only a matter of time before those pants will be loose enough on you to show them to the world!

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AUTUMNJOY11 7/19/2007 1:26PM

    That must be an amazing feeling!! Hope they show off all your curves, you might need to distract the hubby when he walks into the kitchen...

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SECRETFUN 7/18/2007 11:03PM

  grinnign ear to ear for you.

and yes, I know that cleaning and length of time feeling......

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LINNLAT 7/18/2007 3:21PM

    Oh Happy Day---to be able to fit into my "THEN" jeans. Congrats to you and thanks for providing a wondeful, motivating visual.

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